RELIGION IN EARNEST. 

A MEMORIAL OF MRS. MARY LYTH, OF YORK. 

BY HER SON JOHN LYTH. 

1861. 

DEDICATED TO THE MEMORY OF MY BELOVED SISTER ELIZA HILL, WHOSE RAREAND UNOSTENTATIOUS VIRTUES SHED FRAGRANCE ON EARTH, BUT ARE ONLYRECORDED IN HEAVEN. 

PREFACE. 

In compiling the following sheets, the Author has discharged what hefelt to be an act, not merely of filial affection, but of Christianduty. To his deceased and venerated Mother he owes more than wordscan express;--a Mother whose consistent example, earnest piety andfrequent effectual prayers, perhaps even more than her oft-repeatedcounsels, produced upon his mind, while yet a child, the settledconviction that religion is the one business of life. But be believesit also due to the cause of Christ, that an example of "Religion inEarnest, " so pre-eminent, should not pass unrecorded and unimproved. 

Those who think the charm of biography consists in startling incident;or who seek for material to gratify a literary taste, will discoverhere little to meet their respective views. We have only to offer thema simple record of one, whose history possessed no romantic interest, and who made no pretension to intellectual attainments. But such aslove to trace the development of Divine grace in the human heart, and to see its power uniformly exemplified in the several phases ofevery-day life;--who are willing to learn how much may be accomplishedby decision, simplicity of purpose, and undeviating consistency;--in aword, how every Christian even in private life, may become a centre ofhappiness, life and power, are in this volume presented with no commonillustration. 

The method of arrangement which the writer has adopted has beendetermined, partly by his materials, and partly by the desire torender his subject practical as well as interesting. How far he hassucceeded must be decided by the impression made upon the mind of thereader. He now commends his work to God, who alone can give success toevery good purpose, earnestly praying that Christ, who was magnifiedin the life of his now sainted mother, may be yet more abundantlymagnified in her death. 

J. L. 

Stetten, O. A. Cannstatt, Württemberg. 

December 27th, 1860. 

CONTENTS. 

 CHAP. 

 I. --ANTECEDENTS

 II. --EARLY DAWN

 III. --GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES

 IV. --THE HOLY ESTATE

 V. --SHOWER AND SUNSHINE

 VI. --GROWTH IN GRACE

 VII. --TEMPLE SERVICE

 VIII. --PASSING CLOUDS

 IX. --MID-DAY TOIL

 X. --WORKS OF MERCY

 XI. --A DYING SCENE

 XII. --COUNTRY LIFE

 XIII. --THE REDEMPTION OF THE PROMISE

 XIV. --POWER WITH GOD

 XV. --THE RETURN

 XVI. --THE SACRIFICE

 XVII. --THE MOTHER IN ISRAEL

 XVIII. --LIGHT IN DARKNESS

 XIX. --THE INWARD MONITOR

 XX. --THE STORM

 XXI. --THE WIDOW

 XXII. --THE LIGHTS AND SHADOWS OF EVENING

 XXIII. --SLEEP IN JESUS

 XXIV. --PLEASANT MEMORIES

I. 

ANTECEDENTS. 

 "A GOOD MAN LEAVETH AN INHERITANCE TO HIS CHILDREN'S CHILDREN. " Prov. Xiii. 22. 

Within the grounds attached to the mansion of the Earl of Harewood, in the West Riding of Yorkshire, is a substantial and well-built farmhouse, furnished with suitable outbuildings, and surrounded by a finecluster of fruit-trees. It stands on the side of a hill, which slopesgently down to the river Wharfe, and commands a prospect, which, though not extensive, is singularly picturesque. In front, a littleto the right, the ruined fortress of Harewood peeps out of a scatteredwood, which crowns the summit of the hill, and shelters one of theneatest and trimmest villages in England. On the left flows thebeautiful Wharfe but soon loses itself among the adjacent heights. Behind, towers the logan of Arlmes cliff, an interesting relic ofdruidical skill and superstition; while Riffa wood and Ottley Shevincomplete the beauty of the landscape. A row of trees, protected by alofty wall, effectually conceals the house we have mentioned, fromthe highroad, which for some distance runs at the foot of the hill andalmost parallel to the river. Formerly there was only a sandy lane, which passed immediately in front of the house, and winding up thehill, entered the village between the castle and the church. From thiscircumstance the adjoining farm was called Sandygate, but withthe changes that have taken place, the appellation is now almostforgotten, although the house still retains the name of its originaloccupant, and is known in the neighbourhood as 'Stables House. '

Just a hundred years ago, this house was built for the accommodationof Wm. Stables, a wealthy yeoman, who resided at Heatherwick (nowStanke), about a mile from Harewood; and who, successful in thecultivation of his paternal acres, sought to extend his interests byrenting the farm of Sandygate. His removal was however unpropitious tohis domestic happiness; for entering the new house before it was fullyfit for occupation, his wife, already in a delicate state of health, took cold and died; leaving him with four children, the eldest of whomwas six years old, and the youngest but an infant. Mr. S. Is said tohave been a shrewd and sensible man, of strict morals and unbendingintegrity; but withal stern and inflexible in disposition, pharisaic, and a bigoted churchman. His punctuality in the performance of outwardreligious duties, and the regular payment of his dues, with now andthen a fat sheep given to the poor, secured him among his neighboursthe reputation of being a good Christian. As might be supposed, his children were trained with great severity, and educated in thestraitest sect of their religion. Collect and catechism were dulycommitted to memory, prayers regularly read in the family, the Sabbathrigorously observed, a stiff and precise order reigned throughthe whole household; but it wanted the charm and life of spiritualfeeling. As the children grew up to maturity, this state of thingswas destined to be changed by the introduction of a new and unwelcomeelement, which seriously disturbed the never too profound tranquillityof the old man. Mary, the youngest child, whose mind had graduallyopened to the truth, although so defectively communicated, becamedeeply convinced of sin under the ministry of Mr. Jackson, the parishclergyman; and so painful and vivid were her views of her miserablecondition, that she cried aloud for mercy in the church. Her fatherwas deeply concerned for her, but, as he was ignorant of spiritualreligion, he was utterly at a loss to understand her feelings. As alast resource he sent for the minister, but with no better result, for he too, frankly confessed that he did not understand the sorrowof which he had been the unwitting occasion. A specimen of thisgentleman's ability to administer spiritual counsel and directionis recorded in the characteristic autobiography of Richard Burdsall. "Visiting Mr. Stables in his last illness Mr. Jackson asked him how hedid. Mr. S. Replied, 'Sir, I am a miserable sinner. ' 'Do not say youare a miserable sinner, ' replied the Reverend gentleman, 'for youare a good man. ' Mr. S. Answered, 'O, Mr. Jackson, I am a miserablesinner. ' To this the parson replied, 'if you will be a miserablesinner you are like to be a miserable sinner, ' and so came no more. "

Mary was thus left to seek relief and comfort where she could; andhaving heard of the Methodists, who held a meeting every Sabbath ina house about a mile distant from Harewood, she secretly resolved toattend, if possibly, she might find the hidden peace, which she hadhitherto sought in vain. Here she met with a few humble but sincerepersons, who could sympathise with her state of mind; and from whomshe received such instruction and encouragement, that, not long afterwhile pleading with God in the secrecy of her chamber, she obtained'redemption through the blood of Christ, even the forgiveness ofsins. ' Much to the chagrin of her father, she now became an avowedMethodist; and was subjected to the petty persecution, which usuallyawaits the first in a family that embraces vital godliness. On oneoccasion, her father locked her out of the house; and, on another, threatened to shoot her, but she remained firm to her profession;until at length, her consistent and steady deportment was rewarded bythe conversion of her two brothers, John and William, and also of twoof the servants. The increased displeasure of the old gentleman wassignally exhibited. Afraid lest Elizabeth his eldest daughter shouldalso become a Methodist, he resolved at once to free his house fromall possibility of infection. The two servants were dismissed withoutceremony; and the three delinquents banished to a farm, which he hadpurchased, at Kirkby Overblow, a few miles distant. These precautionswere useless. The removal of her sister and brothers, together withthe occasion of their banishment, so much affected Elizabeth, thatin fact it contributed to the result it was intended to prevent. Sofoolish and vain are the thoughts of men when they attempt to arrestthe operations of the Spirit of God. Isolated and freed from control, the young converts were now left to obey the dictates of consciencewithout further opposition. In their new home they were thrownmore directly in contact with the Methodists, and especially formedacquaintance with Richard Burdsall, with whose class they at onceconnected themselves. 

Richard Burdsall was one of those bold and distinctive characters, whose sterling piety and ardent zeal shining forth from under a rudeexterior, gave such peculiar lustre to the age of early Methodism; andindicated an agency, specially raised by God, to break up the fallowground and clear away the thorns, that the incorruptible seed oftruth might find a soil congenial to its germination and growth. Hisconversion, which occurred at the age of twenty, was accompanied byindubitable proofs of its reality; and instantly followed up by entireconsecration to God. The path of usefulness soon opened out beforehim; and in spite of 'fightings without and fears within, ' he pursuedit with undeviating integrity to the close of a protracted life. Hisshrewdness and originality of thought, quaint and pointed method ofexpression, combined with such an intimate acquaintance with the wordof God, that some said he had the scriptures at his fingers' ends, andothers nicknamed him 'old chapter and verse;' and above all, hisknown integrity and uncompromising zeal for the glory of God, amplycompensated for the want of cultivation, and rendered him as a laypreacher so exceedingly popular and useful, that he was repeatedlysolicited to enter a higher sphere, and devote himself to the workof the ministry. He was twice appointed by Mr. Wesley to the Yorkcircuit, in which he was resident; and in six different instances, invited to take charge of independent congregations; but, although heso far yielded to the request of the former as to make the experimentfor nine months, he voluntarily retired, under the conviction thathe was called to occupy an humbler but not less useful sphere. Hislabours, which were extended over a considerable part of Yorkshire andLincolnshire, were blessed by God to the salvation of thousands. Byday toiling at the vice or the anvil, and by night preaching the gladtidings of the Gospel, his life was spent, "'Twixt the mount and multitude Doing and receiving good"

until, within a fortnight of his death, at the advanced age ofeighty-eight, he delivered his last discourse, and died shouting"Victory, Victory, " through the blood of the Lamb. 

At the period of oar narrative Mr. B. Resided at Kearby, about a milefrom the Kirkby farm, where he soon became a frequent and welcomevisitor; and by his counsels and example, contributed much to confirmthe faith and piety of its inmates. The two brothers became usefullocal preachers, and remained faithful unto death; and with Marycommenced an intimacy, which, notwithstanding considerable differenceof age and circumstances, was ultimately consummated in marriage. Thestory of the courtship is amusing and characteristic. Mary was fairto look upon, and having moreover the prospect of a handsome fortune, commanded many admirers. One day when several of these aspirants forher hand were present, Mr. B. Stepped in, and, perceiving how matterswere going, quietly slipped behind her and whispered, 'I mean to havethee myself'. This abrupt avowal had the desired effect. The bloomingdamsel preferred the widower with four children, though twice her ownage, to younger but not more worthy suitors; a decision she never hadoccasion to regret. 

The engagement thus strangely brought to a crisis, was not enteredinto without much serious forethought and prayer. The path ofProvidence was distinctly indicated, and there remained but oneobstacle in the way of the proposed union, and that was to secure theconsent of Mr. Stables; which, to quote Mr. Burdsall's own words, "'to me appeared like asking him for his life'. I was howeverprovidentially helped out of this difficulty; for as I was returningfrom preaching one morning, I met him in a narrow lane at somedistance from his own house. When he saw me, he turned round as thoughhe would not meet me. The lane being strait, he took hold of my mareand said, 'What are you a riding preacher now'? I answered, 'To besure I am, for you see I am upon my mare'. He then said, 'Are my sonsright, think you, when they can go to a public house and drink withpeople and pay nothing'? I replied, 'You are not to give credit towhat the world says of us Methodists, or of your sons. I believe yoursons fear the Lord, and are wishful to do what is right'. He said, 'Well, he that endureth to the end the same shall be saved'. Ireplied, 'That is God's word, but it will not suit every one'. He thenwished to know whom it would not suit. I answered, 'It will not suitthe unregenerate, for were I to tell sinners, that if they enduredto the end in their sins they should be saved, I should lie; for theycannot be saved if they do: neither will it suit the self-righteous, for the word of God says, 'Except your righteousness exceed therighteousness of the scribes and pharisees, ye shall in no case enterinto the kingdom of heaven'. What I said, seemed to carry convictionto his mind. He said, 'They say you are a good preacher, I shall comeand hear you'. 'I should be glad to see you', replied I, 'but I fearyour master will not let you come'. We then proceeded towards hishouse in friendly conversation, and when we were just going to parthe said, 'They say you are going to marry my daughter. ' I answered, 'I doubt they grieve you with, it. ' He said, 'Nay, not at all, formy daughter shall marry whom she likes. ' 'You speak very honourably, 'said I, 'if you only stand to your word. ' To this he replied, 'I will, she shall marry whom she likes. ' I said to him, 'I will make youthis promise, that I will not marry your daughter for the sake of herfortune, for I do not believe you will give me any with her. If I canbe assured that it is of the Lord, I will marry her though you turnher into the street destitute; and, without this persuasion, I wouldnot marry her though you were to give her your whole estate to doso: therefore do not blame me. ' He said, 'I cannot, ' and we parted. "Notwithstanding this plain conversation, Mr. Stables was highlydispleased with the match, and offered to give his daughter anadditional portion on condition that she would not prosecute it;adding, "If you do, I'll give you sixpence a-week, and you may goabout singing Methodist songs. "

On their marriage, which took place shortly after, Mr. And Mrs. Burdsall removed to York. The offended father, true to his word, senthis daughter forth literally destitute; not even permitting her totake her personal apparel. It was not until twelve months had elapsed, that any further communication took place. The interview is thusrelated by Mr. Burdsall in his own quaint style. "I happened to bepassing near his house as he was going from it; on my calling to him, he asked what I wanted with him. I said, 'I want to know what placeyou mean me to have in heaven?' He smiled, and asked, 'Do you mean togo there?' 'I hope so, ' said I. He then asked me why I had married hisdaughter. I told him, because I loved her and thought she would makeme a good wife. I added, 'You know, sir, that I told you before Imarried her, that I would not marry her for the sake of her fortune;neither have I, I do not expect any, the Lord blesses us without any, and he will still continue to bless us. ' He acknowledged the truth ofwhat I said, and we parted. " The fire of wrath was still smoulderingin the heart of the old man, and awakened in the mind of Mrs. Burdsallfeelings of painful anxiety, especially, as it was apparent, that lifewas ebbing fast to its close. Mr. B. Therefore, a short time after, addressed a kind but faithful letter to him on the great subject ofsalvation, and concluded with these remarkable and expressive words, "I have no other reason for writing to you, that I know of, than this, that the sun is going down. " This produced no immediate effect, only, whenever they met, Mr. Stables would say, "You write parables tome. " The allusion however so appositely and wisely put, like anarrow directed to the mark, had fastened upon his conscience, and wassecretly undermining the strength of long and obstinately-cherishedresentment. The marksman was skilful, but still better, a man of"fervent effectual prayer. " "As a Prince he had power with God andwith men, and prevailed, " for "when a man's ways please the Lord Hemaketh even his enemies to be at peace with him. " So it turned out. Mr. Burdsall says, "One time, as I was returning home from preachingat a distant place in a very wet cold and hungry state, and as nightwas coming on, having to pass his residence, I thought I would calland see if he would receive me. I knocked at the door, and he himselfopened it. Seeing me he called his eldest daughter and said, 'Here isthy brother, come and take his horse. ' I alighted and went in. He thenaccosted me as he had done once before, asking, 'What are you a ridingpreacher now?' I answered, 'To be sure I am; for I have ridden fromYork to Seacroft, and from thence to your house. ' 'Well, ' said he, 'Iknow you live well. ' I replied, 'We do; but I have not lived so wellto day as I might have done; for I feel rather hungry. ' He smiled, and bid his daughter put on the tea kettle. We then entered intoconversation, in which he said, 'You write parables to me, for youtold me the sun was going down. ' I answered, 'I did so, and my reasonfor it was, I knew I had stirred up your wrath in marrying yourdaughter against your mind, and was fearful lest the sun should godown upon it. ' He burst into a flood of tears, and was so melted down, that for three hours, I was prompted both by his feelings and my ownto speak of the love of Christ to poor sinners. * * * This was a nightto be remembered as my reconciliation with Mr. Stables was at thistime effected. " The understanding thus happily brought about was neverafter interrupted; and Mr. Stables practically evinced the sincerityof his feelings by securing to his daughter an annuity for life. In hislast illness, which occurred a few years later, Mr. Burdsall, by hisown request, frequently visited him, and ministered to his spiritualwants. He died in peace on the 13th of June, 1787. 

The first fruits of the union of Richard Burdsall and Mary Stables, was Mary, the subject of the present memoir--the step-sister of theRev. John Burdsall, who still survives. She was born at York, withoutBootham bar, June 19th, 1782. The house which no longer exists, stoodjust under the shadow of the old gateway, nearly opposite the moderncrescent, known as St. Leonard's Place. 

The foregoing facts, which to some may appear superfluous, are hereintroduced not merely with the view of making the reader acquaintedwith the antecedents of my honoured mother; but the much higher objectof illustrating the sovereign mercy of God, and tracing the growth ofthe religious element in the family. Many a page deeply interestingand instructive might be written which would unfold the grace of Godin the history of particular families, flowing as a stream of lightfrom generation to generation, or diffusing itself in the collateralbranches; here swelling as "broad rivers and streams, " and therenarrowed down to a single channel. The causes of such alternationsmight be profitably investigated, and recorded. The inquiry into one'sancestry would thus answer a nobler purpose than the gratification ofhuman vanity, or the recovery of an alienated inheritance; it wouldexhibit the influence of the past upon the present, afford importantlessons of encouragement or admonition, and discover our claimperhaps, to something better than gold or silver "for the good man"even though he is poor, "leaveth an inheritance to his children'schildren. " How far the moral character as well as the physicalconstitution of a parent may affect the happiness and control thedestiny of his children, is a question, which may be incapable of anexact and satisfactory solution; but the general fact, notwithstandingsome strange exceptions, (which however may not be altogetherincapable of explanation, ) is sufficiently established, that examplesof singular excellence, or notorious profligacy may usually he tracedto seeds sown in a former generation. They are not therefore to bealtogether regarded in the light of isolated phenomena, but as theresult of causes, which may be more or less accurately determined. At all events, God reveals himself as "a jealous God, visiting theiniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourthgeneration of them that hate him, and SHEWING MERCY UNTO THOUSANDS OFTHEM THAT LOVE HIM AND KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS. "

II. 

EARLY DAWN. 

 "THOU HAST HID THESE THINGS FROM THE WISE AND PRUDENT AND HAST REVEALED THEM UNTO BABES. " Matt. Xi. 25. 

What solemn interest surrounds the dawn of immortal existence, --thatprecious portion of human life, the first four or five years, whichmay be termed the perceptive period, too often treated as a mereblank, in which nothing is to be attempted; when the soul is alleye, all ear, continually storing up in an almost faultless memory, impressions, which go far to mould the future character, and whichreason, so soon as it is able, will certainly use as part of thematerial out of which it must form its conclusions! How much of thefuture depends upon the kind of influence to which the infant mind issubjected! Happily for Mary Burdsall these early years were carefullywatched and guarded. The bold and uncompromising character ofher father, and the gentle piety of her mother, secured to her acombination of influences particularly favourable to the developmentof moral and religious feeling. Lessons of truth and love, as yetbeyond the comprehension of the child, were effectively taught bymeans of bright and living examples; and hence grace began to operatewith the first unfoldings of reason. 

Her earliest recollections were associated with the farm at Sandygate. When about four years old, her grandfather Stables, now reconciled tohis daughter, proposed to undertake the charge of Mary's training andeducation. This arrangement was overruled, providentially as it wouldseem; for Mr. S. , although strictly moral and religious in his way, was a stranger to experimental godliness, and only obtained theknowledge of the truth in his last moments. The occasion of her returnto her parents was probably his increasing age and infirmity, asthe only impression she retained of him in after life was that ofa somewhat crusty and ill-tempered old man, with a huge bobwig, who always laid in bed. His last words to her, which were vividlyimpressed upon her mind, were, that it was a pity she should go hometo be spoiled by Methodism. The few months she spent at Sandygatewere not however without some good and permanent result. Her auntElizabeth, who was scripturally enlightened, and in a great measurefree from other engagements, solicitously occupied herself inendeavouring to impress her tender heart with divine truth. Fromher lips she learned to lisp the Lord's prayer, the Apostles' creed, several of Watts' divine songs, and in particular the hymn commencing

 "How vain are all things here below. "

With reference to this period she says in her journal:--"The spiritof God strove with me when but a little child. One time, I remember, while repeating my prayers to my aunt, the grace of God shone sosweetly upon me, I was melted down into tenderness before the Lord;and it seemed as if the glory of the Lord shone round about me, whileI repeated the well-known hymn

 'Glory to Thee, my God, this night. '

At another time, the Spirit of prayer was so poured upon me my sleepfor a season fled. Thus the Lord brooded upon my infant mind. Glory beto his adorable name!"

Shortly after her return to York she heard the venerable founder ofMethodism preach in Peaseholm Green Chapel; and though at that earlyage incompetent to retain any recollection of the sermon, his saintlyappearance made on her imagination a vivid impression, which wasperpetuated through life, and often mentioned in the family circlewith the liveliest feelings of pleasure. On this occasion, the last onwhich he preached in York, Mr. Wesley appears to have been in one ofhis happiest moods, as he remarks in his journal, "The word was asfire, and all that heard it seemed to feel the power thereof;" acircumstance which no doubt greatly contributed to fix the memory ofhis features upon the mind of a child so young. And still more so, asthe venerable man, on descending from the pulpit, placed his hand uponher head, and gave her his blessing. The Rev. J. Burdsall, whowas also present, once communicated to the writer an amusing andinteresting incident, that happened in course of the service, whichillustrates Mr. Wesley's love of harmony, even when, he had lost thepower to create it. It is well known that he delighted to hear the menand women each take their proper part in congregational singing; butit seems in this instance, the men in the warmth of their feelings hadtransgressed the limits assigned them. Mr. W. , whose ear was offendedby the slightest discord, somewhat sharply rebuked them. As thisfailed to produce the desired amendment, he stopped again, and said, "Listen to brother Masterman, " who was at that time the leadingsinger. Still dissatisfied, he stopped a third time, and said, "Listento me, " at the same time taking up the strain, but as his voice wascracked, and broken with age, it afforded such a miserable example asto excite a general titter. 

As a child Mary was distinguished by unusual vivacity of disposition, and her fondness for fun and frolic often betrayed her into trouble. At times she was wilful and passionate, --a spirit wisely checked byher mother, whose discipline was equally strict and judicious. Suchebullitions were transient, and invariably followed by feelings ofregret and sorrow. Adverting to this subject in after life she saidwith deep gratitude, "I had a good mother and father to keep me in, and restraining grace. " On several occasions her life was placed inimminent peril, and, but for that merciful providence, which speciallywatches over the "little ones, " she must have fallen a victim to herthoughtlessness. One of these occurred when she was at school; where, by some means her dress caught fire; happily the smoke and smellof burning attracted the attention of her teacher who rushed to herrescue, and succeeded in extinguishing the flames, but not untilher outer garments were completely consumed. Her education wasvery slender, being confined to the simplest rudiments of humanknowledge, --a circumstance she often regretted, although in afterlife the disadvantage was in a great measure overcome by diligent andselect reading. 

When about eight years of age, the development of her early religiousfeelings received a partial check through the pernicious influenceof a servant girl, who perceiving her love for singing, taught her, without the knowledge of her parents, a number of foolish songs. Twoyears later she gave decided indications of serious thought. She beganto take pleasure in being alone, and acquired a remarkable love ofsolitude, which characterized her through life, --a feeling whichwas strengthened by reading an article in one of the early "ArminianMagazines. " Sometimes she would steal off to the cottage of a piousold churchwoman of the name of Halifax, who lived at a short distancefrom her father's house; and listened with delight, while the good oldlady read to her out of the Psalms, and talked about heavenly things. On one of these occasions she was so deeply affected by a sense of hersinfulness and accountability, that pointing to the cat which lay bythe fireside, she exclaimed, "I wish I was that cat;" and when askedwhy, replied, "Because it has not a soul to save. " The old ladygently rebuked the foolish thought, and, shewing her its wickedness, endeavoured to lead her to Him, who said, "Suffer the little childrento come unto me. " Not long after she began to meet in her father'sclass, and received her first ticket at the hands of the Rev. FrancisWrigley, at that time Superintendent of the York circuit. By weeklyintercourse with the people of God, her aspirations after divinesources of happiness gradually strengthened until she was twelve yearsold, when they assumed a more definite form; although, in consequenceof her tender age, her views of evangelical truth were necessarilycrude and defective; for she still "spake as a child, understood as achild, _reasoned_ as a child, " It was during a few days' visit to heraunt Elizabeth, who now resided in the suburbs of York, having marriedMr. J. Hawkins of that city shortly after her father's death, that shebecame so unhappy on account of her sinful and miserable condition, that she could not refrain from much weeping. The thought of enteringeternity without a change of heart filled her with alarm. Everylooming cloud had a voice which spoke of the judgment to come; everyunpropitious event awakened painful forebodings. Her fears, which werethe genuine fruits of divine influence, were further aggravated bythe popular excitement of the times. France was threatening warwith England, and the prevailing apprehensions of the multitudecommunicated themselves with double force to the heart of thesorrowing child. "What, " thought she, "if they should come now, and Ishould be killed in my sins. " Indeed her trouble increased to sucha degree that her aunt was grieved, imagining that her mother wouldthink she had been unkindly treated. She therefore resolved to takeher home. On the way a number of circumstances occurred whichto Mary's childish imagination were pregnant with evil, andprognosticated nothing less than the day of general doom. The city wasin a state of unusual commotion, a report had gained ground thatthe invader was at hand, some foolish person had caused the massiveportcullis of the city gate to be let down, several recruiting partieswere parading the streets, two of these she met, and the shrill blastsof a few mounted trumpeters, together with a dense and portentouscloud, which just at the moment spread itself upon the horizon, completed her dismay. She reached home in tears. Her mother, whosesolicitude was awakened, inquired the cause. She replied, "Mother, I can't tell you, but nothing in this world will make me happy. "Suspecting the real state of her feelings, her mother conversed kindlywith her, and administered suitable consolation, but in vain. Aftercommitting herself to God in earnest prayer, she retired to rest withthe conviction, that she was the greatest sinner in the world; but thenext morning, which was the holy Sabbath, broke upon her with healingin its wings. She awoke with the words in her mind, "What a blessing to know that my Jesus is mine. "

Her soul was immediately filled with a calm sweet joy, which she wasunable to describe. She arose from her bed, and went to the house ofGod, her heart still glowing with these newly awakened emotions; andwhile on her way thought within herself, "O that I had a voice thatwould reach to all the world, I would tell them how happy I am. "This occurred on the 12th of February, 1795. But the transport of herfeelings, after enduring for a season, at length subsided; yetnot without leaving a permanent though perhaps not easily definedimpression. It may be asked was this conversion? was it genuine? andin a child so young? We answer it would be very difficult to provethat it was not. One thing is certain, that from this time there was asettled purpose to serve the Lord, which spite of fluctuating feelingand periods of wintry coldness was steadily kept in view; ever andanon gathering strength until it ripened into maturity. The sapling, because it bends to the breeze is not therefore destitute of life;unless it be torn up by the roots, or scorched and withered by thenoon-day sun, or absolutely frozen by the winter's cold, it willgradually wax and grow until its massive trunk is able to bid defianceto the storm. Conversing on this subject with one of her children ata late period in life, when her judgment was matured, and her viewsof divine truth rendered more clear by her approximation to a betterworld, she said, "I lost my peace because I grieved the Lord by atrifling disposition, but the Lord did not leave me;" then, employingthe language of the lamented David Stoner, she added, "I have beenconverted a hundred times. " To another of her children, after usingsimilar language she said with peculiar, emphasis, "I have been aimingto please God all my life, _I can say that_. " Her conviction was thatthe work was real, but that at the time, she did not understand thenature of it; and hence from causes clearly ascertainable, it was asin many similar cases, soon overshadowed by circumstances of doubt. The truth is, children are just as capable of _experiencing_ thegrace of God as persons of riper years; but they are not capable of_defining_ their feelings, or of _understanding_ the great doctrinesof salvation, --and for this very reason, they are more liable to besubjected to fluctuations both of feeling and purpose. It would bewell if some older people, who do not take the pains to obtain a clearand intelligent view of the religion they profess, were not equallyunstable and from the same cause; if there was no occasion for theapostolic admonition, "Be not _children_ in _understanding_; howbeitin malice be ye children, but in understanding be men. " The feelingsof children, when employed about the great subjects of religion andeternity, are not lightly to be discouraged, even when mixed up withmuch that a maturer judgment must condemn; they should be fosteredwith solicitous care. The tender plant requires gentle culture; touchit not too rudely lest you check its development; watch it carefully;support its weak and fragile stem; tenderly remove what is injurious;and give it plenty of scope, that it may put forth its young freshleaves; and it will bloom by and by with all the richer fragrance andbeauty. "Forbid them not, " cries the Saviour. Let them come with theirfirst fruits, and lay the offering of their childhood unsullied byunholy communion with the world at the Master's feet. Let them comewith their cherry lips, and sparkling eyes, and loving hearts. Letthem come before age has curdled their blood, and the pleasures oflife have blunted the keenness of their susceptibilities. Letthem come, let them come. The Saviour welcomes their approach. Thefragrance of the sacrifice they bring is precious in his sight, andwhile he folds the little ones in his arms, he lifts his eyes toheaven, and "rejoicing in spirit, says, I thank thee O Father, Lordof heaven and earth, that thou hast hid these things from the wise andprudent, and hast revealed them unto babes, even so Father, for so itseemed good in thy sight. "

Providentially Mary Burdsall was under judicious direction, andretained her religious purpose although she lost the sweetness of herenjoyment. Her experience assumed that unsettled phase which oftencharacterises the earlier stages of youthful piety. Now miserablefrom a consciousness of having grieved the Spirit of God, and againhopeful, confident, and happy. Sometimes she was driven even todespair, and admitted the thought that the day of grace was past forever. One day while in this state of feeling she overheard her fatherconversing with a friend on the awful case of Francis Spira, [Footnote:"Francis Spira an advocate of Padua, Ann. 1545, that being desperate, by no counsell of learned men could be comforted; he felt, as he said, the pains of hell in his soule, in all other things he discoursedaright; but in this most mad. Frismelica, Bullovat, and some otherexcellent physicians, could neither make him eat, drink or sleep; nopersuasion could ease him. Never pleaded any man so well for himself, as this man did against himself; and so he desperately died. Springer, a lawyer, hath written his life. "--_Burton's Anatomy of Melancholie_. ]her mind was filled with great horror, and she was constrained toseek refuge in prayer. While she was pleading with God the words wereapplied, "Turn ye at my reproof, " and the snare was broken. Duringthis period of mental conflict she steadfastly maintained herconnexion with the church; and thus escaped that total loss ofspiritual feeling, into which many, in similar circumstances, plungethemselves by withdrawing from the circle of religious influence. Her exceeding volatility of temper, which was the cause of herinstability, often occasioned her bitter reflections; and as it was asource of trouble to herself, excited the anxiety of her mother, whofrequently said to her, "There's a wide world will tame thee. " Herown words in reference to this stage of her history were, "They neverturned me out of class, but from my thoughtlessness and giddiness, I am sure, I was not a proper Methodist. " Still the struggle betweengrace and nature was secretly going on; and every new proof of her ownweakness but contributed to strengthen and establish her resolves. 

About this time she became acquainted with Miss Barrett, afterwardsMrs. Zech. Taft, from whose counsels and example she derived muchadvantage. Her first introduction to this excellent woman occurredwhile on a visit to her uncle Mr. Wm. Stables, who had succeededto his father's farm at Sandygate. It seems her uncle and aunt wereinvited to meet Miss B. At a social party at Harewood, but beingotherwise engaged, it was agreed that Mary should go in their stead, accompanied by her aunt's sister. As she left the house her unclesaid, "I hope they'll convert thee. " On arriving at the place wherethe party was assembled she found a room full of strangers, andamong them Miss B. , to whom she was specially introduced as RichardBurdsall's daughter. 

This secured her a kind and hearty reception. After tea followed aPrayer-meeting in which petitions were particularly offered on herbehalf. Her pride was wounded and she thought within herself, "Ifthey would but pray for themselves it would be all very well;" butnotwithstanding this revulsion of feeling the impression made by thisinterview was not only salutary, but indelible. She felt and weptmuch, and from this time gave herself more diligently to the study ofthe word of God and prayer. Subsequently she had many opportunitiesof meeting with Miss B. In York, and the spiritual benefit which shederived from these interviews led to a permanent friendship. 

III. 

GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES. 

 "IN THE MORNING SOW THY SEED. " Eccles. Xi. 6. 

Have you ever witnessed a glorious sunrise? Have you ever seen the orbof day go forth as a bridegroom to run his race, arrayed in robes ofcrimson, and purple, and gold? Then nature has taught you the lessonthat early opportunities are the brightest and best. Golden are theearly hours of morning, when the mind is most vigorous, and the powersof nature, refreshed by sleep, are in full play. Golden too are thedays of early youth, before the heart is saddened by vanity, and thespirit pressed down by the accumulating cares and responsibilities oflife. Let them be diligently improved, and they cannot fail to bring arich and profitable return. Therefore "in the morning sow thy seed. "

Mary Burdsall was not indifferent to these opportunities. In thebeginning of life she formed the habit of early rising. She rose withthe lark and sang as merrily. She cultivated a taste for reading andreflection; and although the natural vivacity of her disposition wasa constant snare in her path, she never lost sight of the purposeshe had formed of living for God. In secret she communed with herown heart, and, the better to secure her growth in grace, commenceda diary, which, with two or three short intermissions, occasionedby sickness, was continued until within a week of her death. Unfortunately a considerable portion of these manuscripts, includinga period of several years just preceding and following her marriage, were destroyed by her own hands. What remains, is however no smallproof of her diligence and perseverance, as they extend to twentyquarto volumes containing about 5, 000 pages. They contain, besidesthe record of her inner and outer life, copious summaries of thediscourses she heard; numerous extracts from books, especially ofpassages calculated to impress the heart or direct the life; and anextraordinary amount of original verse; for from the first she appearsto have adopted the practice of putting her thoughts into rhyme, --apractice which when unaccompanied by true genius is generally aprofitless waste of time; but which in her case was made a valuablemeans of personal edification, as well as of administering counsel, consolation or admonition to others. Few events of public or privateinterest, in her own family or in the circle of her acquaintance, could pass without provoking her ready pen. Subjects poetical andunpoetical were alike constrained into measured lines; which, ifnot always remarkable for rhythm, were at least rich in evangelicalsentiment, and pervaded by deep spirituality of thought. Some of theseproductions are inserted in this volume, in the order in which theyoccur in her diary, not because they possess any literary merit, butas eminently characteristic of her habits of thought and feeling. Infact they are transcripts of her own heart, and she seems often tohave preferred this method of expressing her fervid emotions to theuse of cooler prose. 

A few examples of the entries made when she was fifteen will sufficeto show what were the aspirations of her early youth:--

"This is the last day of 1797. O may I this day put off the works ofdarkness, and put on the armour of light: and begin a new life witha new year, --Lord, help me this day to live to Thee. Let Thy love beshed abroad in my heart. Inspire the spirit of prayer. Let my few daysbe spent in praising Thee, the Giver of all good gifts. Loose my heartfrom every earthly object, and let my affections be set upon Theeand things above. Lord, pardon my coldness, and help me in futureto double my diligence to make my calling and election sure. --Duringservice my mind was very much troubled; but glory be to God, He gaveme, in a measure, a praying spirit; and I trust He will answer Hisown. Spirit's prayer. Lord, speak the answer to my heart _now_. --Wentwith Miss Barrett to the Poor-house. She exhorted from, 'I believe inthe communion of saints, and in the forgiveness of sins. ' After thatI went with her to the select band; she then came home, and slept withme. The Lord blessed my soul in her company. --My mind is troubled;but do Thou, who in every temptation makest a way for Thy people toescape, deliver my soul out of prison, that I may praise Thee. --Iwent with Miss B. To see some sick people. One man was mourning forredemption in the blood of the Lamb; but, before we came away, herejoiced in the God of his salvation. --Lord, keep me from the vanityof this alluring world. May I love Thee supremely. The Lord blessesmy soul greatly. Blessed be His name, He reproves me; may I take thereproof. --A gleam of love was let into my soul at the meeting; butafter, I felt very dull and stupid. --I think I am willing to be anything, or nothing, only give me to feel Thy love in my heart. Do, Jesus, increase my faith, but let it be now. Help me, I pray Thee, tolive as in Thy sight all the day long. --Called to see Ann F. We wentup-stairs and prayed together. --I have had more of the presence ofGod the last few days. The Lord be praised. I want to have my evidencemade very clear. O shine on my soul, and make the darkness lightbefore me; that I may greatly triumph in the God of my salvation. --Iheard Mr. Simeon at Belfrey Church; it was a gracious time ofrefreshing from the presence of the Lord. --Miss Barrett spoke atClifton. The power of the Lord was evidently felt. As it was a verywet night we went into a barn, but it filled so fast, we returned intothe open air. Miss B. Prayed that God would stop the bottles of heavenfor a few minutes; and, glory be to His name, He answered her request. The Prayer-meeting continued some time, and several souls were broughtinto liberty. --I gave way to a light spirit, which has done me muchhurt. --Lord, pardon me for giving way to lightness of spirit; help mein future to redeem the time, and to take due care to prepare myselffor the great day. --O, Jesus, rouse me from my sins, and give me towake up after Thy likeness. Do fill me with Thy love. Let it flow intomy poor disconsolate soul, that I may serve Thee with all my ransomedpowers. --O let not my heart be set on the creature more than Thee; butlet me give myself to Thee without reserve. I go to school; Lord, helpme to learn the lessons of Thy grace as well as arithmetic. Drive thisdulness, both of body and soul away; that I may learn with speedand delight. --Thou knowest, Lord, that I have not lived adorning myprofession; let the time past suffice, and let me begin to glorify Thyname. Lord, save me from flattery, for Christ's sake. Amen. --January, 1799. Began to meet in band with Sarah B. O Lord, give us one spiritwith Thyself. I want, O Lord, to love Thee supremely above all beside;give me, I pray Thee, the victory over myself. "

These extracts bear, no doubt, the impress of childish thought; yetthey indicate that she had already formed large views of the nature ofinward religion. In her estimation it was a blessed reality of whichshe might have a "clear evidence, " and which could only reachits perfection in the "likeness of God. " Its principle was love, controlling the most secret motions of the heart, and regulating theminutest details of daily practice. This religion she proposed toherself as the purpose of life. For this she earnestly prayed, and tohelp her resolutions, she sought and cultivated the society of such aswere excellent in the earth. The select character of the associationsshe formed was, perhaps, one main cause which contributed to her afterproficiency. She once mentioned to the writer, as a matter of profoundgratitude to God, that she had always mingled among religious people, and only remembered one week in her whole life which had been spentamong persons not professing godliness. She lived and breathed in thepure atmosphere of prayer and love, where the Holy Spirit loves todwell, until she became one spirit with Him. 

The chosen companions of her youth were such as already enjoyed, orlike herself were seeking, the experience of divine truth. Among otherearly acquaintance was Miss Nodes of Skelton Hall, afterwards the wifeof the Rev. Dr. Newton. This lady had recently become a Methodist, and burning with all the fervour of first love frequently came to Mr. Burdsall for counsel and encouragement: Her first interview withMr. Newton occurred at Mr. Burdsall's house in the following manner. During the sittings of the District-meeting, Mr. B. Had invited theRevds. Messrs. Needham and Newton, with some others, to dinner; andsent an invitation to Miss Nodes to come and join them: to this Mrs. Nodes objected; but promised to call the next day and apologize. Shedid so in company with her daughter, just as the party were about tokneel down to prayer, and they were consequently invited in. Afterprayer a hymn was proposed, which was sung by Mr. Newton and MissBurdsall, who had a clear and melodious voice of considerable compass. Miss Nodes then remarked, that at Skelton they had to live by begging, as they only had preaching occasionally; and if one of them wouldgo over and give them a sermon, it would be a great charity. Mr. N. Immediately promised to accompany Mr. Burdsall the following day;and from that time commenced an acquaintance which resulted in theirunion. 

In many cases, and very commonly in the case of young persons, whohave been religiously trained, the process by which the mind reachesthe assurance of faith is very slow. "The going forth" of the Spirit"is prepared as the morning. " The first streaks of dawn bring a degreeof comfort, for there is promise of day; but the clear and uncloudedlight of the Divine favour is yet distant. The doubtful twilight, however, continues to expand and brighten, until at length the sunpeeps above the distant hills, or bursts through the morning cloud, and all uncertainty is banished in a moment. It was thus with MaryBurdsall. Two years later we find her still seeking the indubitablewitness of the Spirit. The work of grace was slow and deep. Shewrites:--

"Father met our class; when he spoke to me I could not forbearweeping. O that I could weep my sins away. J. T. And B. M. Prayed andmentioned me by name. This touched my pride. Oh! for simplicity!--Inthe forenoon I went to Pavement church to hear dear Mr. Emmington. Histext was, 'Sirs, what must I do to be saved?'--A searching discourse. O Lord, revive Thy work in my soul; probe me to the bottom. --I feela very hard heart; but, Lord, a touch, a look from Thee, can breakmy heart of stone. O melt me into love. --Alas for me! I seem quitebarren, but is there not a cause? Yes. Lightness of spirit, love ofthe creature, pride, and dislike, are sins that so easily beset me. Iam overcome by them. But, O God, Thou hast all power, now resume Thyright. Let the powers of hell no more prevail. --In the class fatherasked me, if I ever went to pray; I answered in the affirmative; but, Lord, Thou knowest I am not so much in earnest as I was some weeksago. --Father called upon me to pray; I did not refuse, but have sincebeen tempted to believe I should be a greater hypocrite. Lord, make mea Christian indeed in whom there is no guile. --Lord give me to enjoythe reality of Christianity, I want to be thine. God help me to giveup my own will. Bless him whom I have given up with a very greatgrowth in grace. "

[This entry refers to an attachment which met with the disapproval ofher parents and was relinquished in the spirit of filial obedience. ]

"Just before tea, Mr. Spence asked me if my heart was right; I couldnot forbear weeping. 'God be merciful to me a sinner. ' What anenemy is a light and trifling spirit!--I was grieved because I haddisobliged my mother. O for a meek and quiet spirit. "

The particulars of the next two or three years are only to be gatheredfrom a few scanty notes attached to a small pocket Bible, in which shehad carefully noted the sermons she heard with the impressions made onher own mind. The greater part of these are written in short-hand, andconsequently useless. But such as are intelligible prove that she wasin the habit of weighing the words of the preacher and applying themto her own heart. Some expressions seem to indicate that the cloudswhich had so long overshadowed her spirit were beginning to disperseand give place to a serene and sunny sky. We quote a few examples. 

"Oh! how happy was I!--I did not hear to profit, I was troubled inmind. I felt it. --I long to find my all in God. --I felt the love ofJesus precious. --I am answered. --Blessed, heart searching doctrine!--Atelling sermon but I was unmoved; how hard am I. --He like some ofhis brethren harps at the gown and cassock. --I felt muchsoftened. --Memorable!--Alas! I profit little by all I hear; surely itis because my faith is small. Ah. Me! how long? how long?--A preciousdiscourse to me. He preached my experience. --The solution of the textwas a gratification, while I heard profitably. He made a very drollremark when describing those 'who make their belly their God;' he said'they make their kitchen their temple, their cook and butcher theirpriests, and their belly their God. '--I felt my soul blessed andencouraged while hearing of sin being destroyed, with an earnestlonging for its accomplishment. I felt the burden of indwelling sinvery heavy; O when shall the happy period commence that God shall beall in all. --I staid the communion for the first time; how solemn!I was humbled and melted down exceedingly. --O how infinitely short Ifall of walking with God! The love-feast was immediately after; themaster of the feast was there: I felt his presence and spoke. --Mr. Sutcliffe's farewell sermon; may the Lord bless and reward his laboursin this place. "

The most important memorandum is a collection of rules for theregulation of her own conduct, adopted about the year 1805; and these, we do not hesitate to add, were written not merely with pen and ink, but impressed by the Spirit of God upon her memory and heart, forthose who knew her will be able to recognize in them the key of herafter life. They are as follow:--

"1. Let me rise early. 

2. Never let me trifle with a book with which I have no presentconcern; in applying myself to any book, let me endeavour to recollectwhat I may learn by it, and then beg suitable assistance from God. 

3. Never let me lose one minute of time, nor incur any unnecessaryexpense, that I may have the more to spend for God. When I am abroadlet me be desirous of doing good; let me have in readiness somesubject of contemplation and endeavour to improve my time as I goalong. 

4. Let me endeavour to render myself agreeable and useful to allaround me; by a tender compassionate friendly behaviour; avoiding alltrifling and impertinent stories; remembering that imprudence is sin. 

5. Never let me delay anything, unless I can prove that another timewill be more fit than the present; or that some more important dutyrequires my immediate attention. 

6. O may I never enter into any long schemes about future events, butin general refer myself to God's care. 

 Direct me virtue's happy course to run, And let me be instructed by thy Son, In every station say "thy will be done. "

7. O that I may be delivered from the least inclination to judge myneighbours; and that henceforth I may find fault with none so much asmyself. "

To these are added several extracts from the general rules of theMethodist Societies; particularly those which refer to the use oftime, the government of the tongue, reading the Scriptures, privateprayer, and abstinence. 

The standard of Christian character at which she aimed was high;and perhaps this very circumstance contributed to delay the happyexperience she sought. She looked at herself instead of lookingdirectly to Christ. She contrasted her own deficiencies with the exactobedience required by a perfect law, instead of simply casting herselfupon the blood which justifieth not the righteous but the sinner, which believeth in Jesus. The simplicity of salvation by faith waslong overlooked, but at last the snare was broken; and about theclose of the year 1805 she obtained the deliverance she so earnestlydesired. We here quote her own words. 

"While alone at Mrs. T. 's, the Lord was graciously pleased to visitme with a manifestation of his love; increasing my faith, and applyingthese words with power to my mind; 'The word is nigh thee, even inthy mouth and in thy heart. ' I had such a view of the willingnessof Christ to save by faith as I never had before. Notwithstanding, Ithink, if I had been better acquainted with the way of salvation, I should e'er now have been able to claim the blessing through themerits of Christ. But it is so simple I overlooked it; and thoughtmyself wiser than I was. Now I begin to see with the Psalmist howignorant I am, even 'as a beast' before the Lord; but blessed be Hisglorious name, I feel my confidence is in His mercy: yet I feel myselfthe most unprofitable of all His hands have made, and wonder why to methis boundless love. "

IV. 

THE HOLY ESTATE. 

 "AND THEY TWAIN SHALL BE ONE FLESH. " Matt. Xix. 5. 

Wedded life, perhaps more than any other, is a test of character; butwhen entered upon "reverently, discreetly, soberly, advisedly, and inthe fear of God, " contributes in a higher degree not merely toearthly enjoyment, but to that which is the great end of life, humansalvation. The constant action of two wills, thus intimately broughtinto contact with each other, must either inflame or mould the spirit, just in the degree in which it is subjected or not to the influenceof divine grace; and where both parties are _governed_ by Christianprinciple, the effect is mutual happiness and advantage. Nature issubdued, and grace brought into full play. The sorrows, difficulties, and temptations of life are lightened by reciprocal help andaffection; the inheritance in heaven is pursued with greater zestbecause of united effort and encouragement; while the constantdischarge of the respective duties of husband and wife serves for thedevelopment of the mind that was in Christ. Hence the Apostle Paulspeaks of the marriage state as a great mystery, representing theunion of Christ and his church. But marriage has reference to anotherand not less important object, the training of a "holy seed. " Theunion of parents is intended to secure blessings upon, their children, and where the divine requirement is prayerfully attended to, there maybe expected to be a fulfilment of the gracious promise, --"I will pourmy Spirit upon thy seed, and my blessing upon thine offspring. "

In the prospect of assuming the responsible relation of wife, MissBurdsall thought and felt deeply. Her first anxiety was, that shemight find in her husband one who would help her in the way to heaven;and the next that she might be able to discharge the duties of her newstation with efficiency and fidelity. The predominating desire of herheart was to find her happiness in God, and to be conformed in allthings to his will. Two days before marriage she writes:--

"I feel this day my soul aspires heavenward, and my greatest bliss isderived from Emanuel's side. Glory be to God, I feel I love him, butlong for more conformity to his will. "

Mr. Lyth, who had solicited and won her affections, was the son of arespectable farmer residing in the neighbourhood of York. Originallydesigned for agricultural life, he had forsaken the plough toundertake a flourishing business, which had been commenced by an elderbrother lately deceased: and being early converted to God, under theministry of the venerable Sutcliffe, the proposed union was every waypropitious. 

The marriage was solemnized on the 18th of February, 1806, in theparish church of Holy Trinity, York; and so far as the principalparties were concerned with intensely religious feelings. Indeed Mr. Burdsall's loud and hearty responses to the prayers superseded thefunctions of the clerk, and somewhat astonished the officiatingminister. The wedding dinner was spiced with the presence of theRev. Samuel Bardsley, whose portly person, and beautiful simplicitycontributed not a little to the amusement of the younger guests: andthe same evening, the good old man preached an appropriate sermon, selecting for his subject, the marriage feast in Cana of Galilee. Mrs. Lyth's own feelings in relation, to this event, and during the firstfew years of wedded life, are best expressed by herself. 

"Memorable day! I gave my hand to John Lyth at Hymen's sacred altar. I endeavoured to do it _by faith_, as well as I could; but feltextremely stupified. We went to spend the day at Newton upon Derwent. With me it passed more pleasantly towards the close, indeed, while wewere conversing about God on our way home, I found it truly good;but when we came in sight of lay new habitation, the sensations thatseized my mind are better felt than I can describe. It is now sixweeks since I began to wear the matrimonial chain. I have clasped itwithout one thought of regret, and through grace I hope I ever shall;yet am conscious of my own incompetency to fill up the sphere I haveentered. Oh! my God, help me, help me. I bless God my mind is drawnto seek my heaven in Jesus, although my earthly comforts are readyto ensnare me: yet having been taught to know the uncertainty of alltransitory things, and that

 'The fairest things below the sky Give but a flattering light, '

I would, through grace strengthening me, give God my undivided heart. Lord, here I am, take me, and possess me wholly. --Glory be to God mysoul lives. I feel 'drawn by the lure of strong desire' to chooseGod for my portion. The last week has been one of trial, but I amconstrained to believe the Lord doeth all things well. --We arrived inScarbro' after being much favoured during a showery day; but praisebelongs to our heavenly Benefactor. --We took a walk to the churchand castle; where my dear John unfortunately lost his watch. Aftersearching for it in vain for nearly an hour, and thinking of returninghome, providence led him to the place where he had dropped it. Surelyit can be esteemed no other than the gift of heaven, since it had lainan hour exposed to the public crowds that resorted thither. --The daywas fine, and we spent it in sitting a little in the house, and inwalking upon the sands and among the rocks, seeking for shells, thebeauty of which, with the wide ocean, and surrounding prospect, mademe wish for the pen of a scribe and the imagination of a poet; but Ifound wishing to be a vain employment. 

"About a quarter past eight in the morning my Eliza was born. Blessedbe God he graciously supported me in the trial. O that mother andchild may be devoted to Thee, thou God of infinite compassion. Give memore grace that I may walk unblameable in thy sight, and beforethose over whom thy providence has place me. Teach me to order myconversation aright, and to keep myself unspotted from the world. O myGod, I have nothing to offer for all the blessings asked; but help meto be thy devoted servant from this moment. 

"1807. My dear husband has made a purchase, which is to me a sourceof anxiety; but Lord, Thou knowest, --Thou rulest over all, help anddirect. O let us in all our ways acknowledge Thee, that thou mayestdirect our steps. Keep, O keep us from being a discredit to Thy cause;and in this particular set us right. --I am left alone with my infant, who begins to steal my affections more than I ever thought of. OGod, take my poor heart, lost a creaturely attachment be too stronglyrooted within my breast. Lord, Thou knowest me altogether, and thesecret springs of my affection, cleanse me from all defilement; purifyme from all my sins, and let me this moment yield myself entirely toThee; and as Thou deignest to visit dust, visit me. --Time glides away;eternity approaches; and yet, alas! my mind fluctuates as the wind. Omy God, shall I never be firmly grounded upon Thyself. Come, 'Desireof nations, ' save me from anxiety respecting worldly things; let allour temporal affairs be under Thy management, and our happiness centrein doing thy will. 

 How vainly have I sought in things beneath To place a confidence, which faithless earth Can never recompence! O firmly fix My soul on joys above the smiling skies; Let Jesus' love inspire, and fill my heart. 

God bless my dear companion. Settle and fix his affections onThyself, --the supreme good. Let every faculty of his mind be at Thycommand. 

"1808. Twelve o'clock at night. Lord, my mind aspires heavenward. Letheaven, I beseech Thee, come into my soul. Let the radiance of Thylove fill me with light and life divine. Give me sensibly to feel andknow, that Thou art reconciled to me, without Thy grace, effectuallyundone. I feel something within my heart, is it the effect of Thylove? If it is, let it more powerfully affect my soul, that I may livein constant readiness to take my flight to yon bright realms above. But is that bliss prepared for me? O let me feel it. This afternoon mybrother Richard died. Alas! how uncertain are all sublunary things!He was just entering life, and lo! he is snatched away. Surely theall-wise 'I AM' saw evil gathering, and kindly removed him to ahappier clime, safe from impending danger. Well, my Richard is gone;while I, four years older, am yet alive. Mercy, that took him, sparesme with the same gracious design; 'not willing that any should perish, but that all might have everlasting life. ' May that blessed end beanswered in my poor soul, which without Thy enlivening presence feelsan 'aching void' which the whole world cannot fill. 

"This day has been a day of affliction, but it drives me to the Lord. My dear husband and children are entwined about my heart. Lord, helpme to give them freely up, and do Thou take, and possess me whole. "

The following lines were addressed to a valued friend:--

 Whitehead, awake! and sweep the lyre again With touch seraphic to a Saviour slain; A Saviour, worthy of sublimest verse, A Saviour's love too mighty to rehearse; The purest theme that ever fired the tongue, Gave life to genius, --harmony to song; Fill thy enraptured soul with thought divine, And pour its fulness on the glowing line. 

"1809. --Have had a tooth drawn. O that the dire root of sin were aseffectually taken away, never more to disturb my happiness; and thatpure perennial peace might succeed, --I have been visiting the sick:but oh! how inadequate to the responsible task! O my God awake mydrowsy powers, and fit me for every sphere I have to fill in life. --Ifeel more heartfelt joy in leaning upon Christ than anything else;yet it is hard work to keep the mind disentangled from worldly cares. Things needful to me, seem the most dangerous, and what I am mostliable to be ensnared by. In visiting some infirm people my soul wasdeeply affected, when I considered their age, and ignorance, and myown inability to instruct them. How great is the ignorance of mankind!O that God would apply some word spoken by his poor dust. "

During the time the Rev. A. E. Farrar was stationed in York, heraspirations after purity of heart reached a crisis, and she wasenabled by faith to claim the promise; "Faithful is he that callethyou, who also will do it. " For some time her convictions were so clearand distinct, that to use her own words she "durst not say she hadnot received the blessing. " But this happy experience--the Christian'shighest privilege on earth--was soon interrupted by doubtfulreasonings; still her conscience was

 "Quick, as the apple of an eye, The slightest touch of sin to feel. "

As an instance of her conscientiousness we mention a circumstancewhich took place somewhere about this time. A farmer, who owed myfather a considerable sum of money, had been repeatedly importuned forpayment, but without effect; and it was at length given up, as abad debt. One Sabbath morning, while she was sitting alone, heunexpectedly called to settle his account. She said, "We have nothingto do with receiving money on a Sunday; it is the Lord's day, and wedo not think it right. " "Well, " replied the man, holding the money inhis hand, "you might as well take it while you have the chance of it. "But neither argument, nor expostulation, could induce her to touch theforbidden notes. The man therefore pocketed the money, and went away;but not without an admonition on keeping holy the Sabbath day. No oneeventually loses anything by the maintenance of principle, and thedebt was honestly discharged the following week. 

The solitary record of the year 1810, is contained in the followinglines, which may be regarded as expressive of her own feelings. 

 Jesus, Thy glorious name shall still My musing thought and tongue employ; Whose presence doth creation fill. Be Thou my portion and my joy. 

 Jesus! blest source of all my hope, In whom my spirit finds its rest; Whose precious blood, inspiring thought! Hath purchased heaven to make me blest. 

 Where can a mortal language find, To tell such love when angels fail? "God did so love the world, " and died, That love by justice might prevail. 

 Drawn by this love, a witness I, That God to all the Saviour gave; Who willing are, may testify, He can unto the utmost save. 

"1811. --I thank God for the blessed privilege of hearing the ministersof righteousness, but lament their word makes so little impressionupon my heart. I seem a forgetful hearer, or as one that hears theword with joy, but little fruit appears to perfection. Yesterday, irritated by some frivolous cause, I was thrown off my guard, andgrieved the spirit of God. This occasioned a sense of condemnation, and though now the Lord blesses me, I cannot forgive myself. O thatI again enjoyed the sanctifying influences of His Holy Spirit! Untilthis is the case, I shall be whirled about by my enemies within. Lordmake me more in earnest, that I may never rest till again the sweetpower of sovereign love has possession of my heart. --I rose early toattend the prayer-meeting, and receiving grace from Him whose birthwe commemorated, I fancied my hill stood strong; and that I shouldbe able to rise above everything I might have to try me: but alas! Iagain proved my own weakness. My little charge were some of them sick, others cross, all wanted me; so that all my graces were put to thetest. O that I had more patience, that I might sit 'calm on tumult'swheel. ' Lord, Thou knowest me altogether, I would not be a hypocrite, neither wound Thy cause by impatience; Thou hast promised strength forthe day, and I am determined to cast my whole soul on Thee;--to haveThee for my Saviour. At the lovefeast much was said respecting familyprayer. I bless God. This duty is my delight. "

To a friend slighted in love, she writes--

 Alas my friend! what can I say to cheer? What sound is sweet to a distracted ear? Turn from the creature, disappointed, turn: Lament your folly, --deeply humbled mourn, Your disregard of Him, who died to gain Your worthless heart, and bid you love again. O! turn to him, who gave himself for you, Your love, your heart, your life, are all his due; No fickleness or change in him is known, _He_ loves and will for ever love his own; Here place your treasure, and here find your rest, Make God your all, and be for ever blest. 

"1812. --Through grace I am resolved on the side of virtue. I havepeace in God, and a growing desire to imitate him in my daily walk;but no marvel if all my best actions need purging from their dross. Iseem all pollution; yet my soul lays hold upon the Saviour, who aloneis able to purify my nature. On February 3rd, my sister Anna died, eleven years old. I was called to witness the pleasing, painful, awfulscene. While kneeling by her bed, after a paroxysm of extreme agony, as she had a moment's respite, my mother said; 'Ask her if she ishappy to lift up her hand. ' She did instantly and said, 'A kiss, ' andso turned recollectedly to each, with a smiling countenance, whileher dying lips were but just sensible of the impression; then afteranother short struggle she sweetly fell asleep in Jesus. So I alone amleft to tell it. "

1813. --After adverting to a number of painful circumstances, sheadds:--"Praise God, the seizure of my own body, though by far the mostpainful of these occurrences, has been the greatest blessing. On thefirst attack I was stupified--but the Lord liberated me and suppliedgrace in the hour of need. Thus have I experienced how suddenlythe Lord can take away the choicest of all blessings, health. Beingthrough mercy again restored, my soul derives its happiness from God. I see before me broad rivers and streams springing from thatfountain, whence all solid comfort flows; but great weakness, muchunfaithfulness, many omissions and errors in myself. Lord increase myfaith, that I may enter the holiest by the blood of Jesus. For sometime I have met in band with Mrs. W. We have had many precious seasonstogether. --A circumstance occurring which was misconstrued, put mesuddenly out of temper, and caused me much pain of mind, besidesdispleasing others together with my dear partner. O my God, but forThy blood, I should lose all hope of eternal happiness; yet blot not, I beseech Thee, my name out of the book of life; but if ever my heartwent with my words, I entreat Thee, --

 "Chase this self-will through all my heart, Through all its latent mazes there. "

"1814. --Reflecting on the past--my mercies and ingratitude, mywarnings and neglect, my privileges and non-improvements, myaffliction and restoration to health, Thy love, O God, in ten thousandinstances, and my small affection, I wonder why I am still the objectof Thy care, but I see the cause in Jesus' blood. There the reasonlies. O might I here my nature lose, and gain the Infinite. "

Musing on the loss of her children, three of whom had died in infancy, she writes:--

 Blest mother! thus to yield to God The gifts so lately given; Blest babes I for you have cross'd the flood, And safely 'scaped to heaven. 

I have been very much harassed with temptation of an awful kind, --toblaspheme the blessed Spirit. My God, preserve me. I shudder at thethought, and have necessarily been driven to God in prayer. --I haveto praise God for temptation; for seeking refuge in Jesus, my onlydefence against my enemy, I have a firmer confidence in Him as mySaviour. 

 Whither, O whither, should I go? To Thy blest wounds I flee; No refuge can I find below, My help is all in Thee. 

"The illumination! a crowded city! many devices! The face of thepeople seems to speak peace, but Thou, Lord, seest the heart. Set myheart right. --As the clock struck three I was awoke with the words;'Put on the helmet of salvation and the weapon of all prayer. ' For atime fear crept over me, lest my husband and child, both from home, should return ill; but as I meditated, the passage occurred; 'Allthings work together for good to them that love God. ' I was instantlydelivered; and all I could titter was, Glory be to God. As I laypraising and praying, these lines arose in my mind. 

 If time is so precious, and death on the wing, Oh! shelter me, Jesus, secure from his sting; Now open the fountain, and wash out my stain, That to live may be Christ, and to die may be gain. This, this is the honour to which I aspire, The grace to attain it is all I desire; Oh! fill me with heaven, through faith in Thy blood, Then crown me with glory, and lift me to God. 

I have had a precious morning--arose a little before five, and spentan hour alone. God was with me. Glory! Glory!"

"How time hurries on! Another year has almost stolen away. Where am I?What am I? Thus much of time is gone; how much fitter am I for heaven?I pause, --am alone, --but 'Thou God seest me. ' On my knees, I ask Thymercy, and implore Thee to be mine for ever. Precious Jesus! I feelThee willing to save me, and a sweet confidence Thou wilt save me. O! the sweetness of union with God!--My mind is troubled about thefuture. Sensible of my own weakness, my children's welfare awakens myconcern. O my God, take charge of my little ones. While attempting toinstruct them to-day, my two little girls seemed affected. O let thisbe the beginning of Thy fear in their hearts, that shall never, never, depart. "

Her anxiety on behalf of the salvation of her children was intense. Her efforts were commenced with the first dawn of intelligence, and continued with unremitting ardour until they were rewardedwith success. By timely instruction and caution, by counsel andexpostulation, by warning and reproof, by a godly discipline, byfrequent letters in which the "one thing" was never forgotten; byprayers and supplications mingled with tears, as they knelt alone ather side; by intercessions offered day and night in secret on theirbehalf; by enforcing the punctual observance of religious duties, suchas reading the word, family devotion, and public worship; and by herown pure example, she never ceased to train them in the way thatthey should go. But her chief strength lay in ceaseless and effectualprayer, which was urged in the spirit of him who said, "I will not letThee go, except Thou bless me. " Is it wonderful, if her children andgrandchildren are found walking in the truth? For many successiveyears, she was accustomed to address to each a few lines on theanniversary of their birth. These were always replete with godlycounsels, and wisely suited to the age and circumstances of theindividual. The periodical effusion was anxiously looked for, andhighly prized. To our young imaginations, the productions of her penglowed with all the fire of Milton, and flowed with all the softnessand melody of Spenser; and if a riper judgement has robbed us ofthe pleasing fancy, it has been at least replaced by the gratefulconviction that they were the overflowings of a mother's heart, and bythe blessing of God, contributed in a great measure to give an earlybias in favour of religious truth. A specimen written at this time ishere inserted. 

 TO MY RICHARD. 

 Unuttered feelings glow within my heart, Ah! in what language can I paint them best? That you, my darling boy, may know a part, Unconscious of what fills a mother's breast. 

 Childlike and innocent your actions are, No thought of guile as yet within your breast; Alas! the wily foe, not lurking far, May soon corrupt and desecrate your rest. 

 Might I unveil the snares, that scattered round, Beset your path from childhood to old age; But Love allwise, in mystery profound, Has hid in darkness all the varied page. 

 Be it sufficient, grace is ever nigh; If in the path of rectitude you tread, No ill shall harm you; you will soon descry The tempter's snare, however deeply laid. 

 Choose virtue, Richard, shun the path of vice, Let not ungodly youth your mind ensnare; Take this wise caution, "If they would entice, Consent thou not;" be sure that sin is there. 

 Walk with the wise, that you may wiser grow; Let age teach wisdom, hear it with respect; It can in time forwarn, and danger show, Where you no secret mischief may suspect. 

 In useful learning all your youth engage; From simple knowledge of your mother tongue, Proceed to figures; then, from stage to stage Pursue each science, though the way be long. 

 By knowledge learn your ignorance to know, Nor dream you have the height of wisdom gained; No greater proof of ignorance below, Than loud to boast of what we have attained. 

 Read useful books--the Bible most prefer, In it your Maker's will is clearly shown; Then bend your humble knee in secret prayer, That faith may make its precious truths your own. 

 If tales of fiction should themselves present, Too oft injurious to the mind of youth, Throw them aside; and sacredly intent On your improvement, follow after truth. 

 When you require relief, be history true Of your own land, and other lands perused; This will instruct, give entertainment too, While neither time nor talents are abused. 

 Thus, in your youth, redeem the fleeting hour, That you in future life may useful be; By word and deed as far as in your power, To stem the torrent of impiety. 

 Remember, as your present life is spent, Future reward or punishment is due; Oh! then improve the precious moments lent, And everlasting life shall wait on you. 

"Praise God, I have a partner desirous of joining heartily in theChristian warfare; often are we blest while we pour out our soulstogether before the Lord, O for a closer walk with God. "

V. 

SHOWER AND SUNSHINE. 

 "NOW MEN SEE NOT THE BRIGHT LIGHT WHICH IS IN THE CLOUDS; BUT THE WIND PASSETH, AND CLEANSETH THEM. " Job xxxvii. 21. 

That stage of life which immediately precedes a ripe age, when man isin the full vigour of his strength, is not unfrequently like an Aprilday mingled with sunshine and shower. The care of a rising family, and the accumulating interests of business and society, bring constantalternations of joy and sorrow; designed by God to soften andfructify the heart, which might otherwise become too callous under thescorching blaze of the world. Happy is it, when these kindly workingsof a sublimer providence, cause the graces of his spirit to shootforth like "the tender grass springing up out of the earth by clearshining after rain;" and when the experience acquired in seasons ofvicissitude, is treasured up in the heart for future use. Mrs. Lythhad her April weather preparatory to the summer of her usefulness, aswill appear by further extracts from her journal. 

"1815--My father Lyth left us to join the disembodied throng. The lastfortnight of his life was chiefly spent in prayer. I believe he diedpenitent. Thou best of Beings! prepare me for the approaching trial. In the fire may I lose nothing but sin. Fortify my mind, and letpatience have its perfect work, that by no pain I may fall from Thee. Here I call to mind, that Thou hast brought me through six troubles; Oleave me not in the seventh. Let me again prove Thy faithfulness. 

"I scarcely know how the last fortnight has escaped. O the rapidity oftime! well might one say, 'O time than gold more precious, more a loadthan lead to fools. ' I am thankful, all my solid happiness is derivedfrom God; and though I have many earthly comforts I can say, 'Allmy springs are in Thee. ' I long to drink more freely of those livingfountains, and to draw constant supplies from the inexhaustiblefulness of the ever-blessed and adorable Jesus. Oh! it is sweet tomeditate on this loved theme. Rising into God we lose ourselves, andseemed wrapped up in Deity. --Having met with a little disappointment, my mind is in some degree unhinged; I have been begging of God toundertake the matter, and overrule all for the best, which I hope hasbeen the case; yet I find it hard to give up my own will. Lord, helpme. I accompanied my father and mother to see cousin Hannah, who isapparently declining. Her prospects in life were exceedingly bright, but happiness is not in them, as there can be no enjoyment withouthealth. What a mercy, afflictions spring not out of the dust: I amagain called to experience it. Our apprentice, servant maid, andEliza, are all in the scarlet fever. Better than I could expectconsidering the pressure upon me, I am constrained to say, judgment ismixed with love. May we lose nothing but dross, and shine brighter forbeing in the furnace. --I am informed by letter that cousin Hannahis no more, --it says nothing how she left this world. I long toknow--will to-morrow inform me? I purpose to be at her funeral, ifGod give leave. O Thou, who wast to the Israelites both a pillar anda cloud, if Thou go not up with us, suffer us not to journey; for Thouknowest my heart, I wish to please Thee. --We went to Kirkby to theinterment of my late Cousin, who, I am informed, died happily. Nearlyher last intelligible words were, 'Blessed are the pure in heart, forthey shall see God. ' So she closed this mortal scene, and left herblooming prospects, fair estates, and all the bright anticipations ofyouth, for the lone silence of the tomb. --I feel more endeared thanever to the invisible world, being warned as I believe, by somedeparted friend, to give diligence. I am also reminded by the death ofmy cousin how vain are all things here below. Perhaps it was her kindspirit--who can tell?"

 A QUESTION ASKED. 

 Does marriage, like the features of a fair and lovely face, Lose all its sweet attractions, when age comes on apace? Do soothing acts of kindness and words of comfort go, When troubles are assailing, and pleasure's cup is low? No, surely heav'n design'd it more to ameliorate The _lonely_ state of humankind, when first He form'd a mate. 

"1816. --I went to the School-room; and never did my eyes behold ascene so pleasing:--boys and girls in different parts of the roomcrying for mercy; while others were rejoicing in God. 'Out of themouth of babes and sucklings Thou hast ordained praise. ' I longed forthe salvation of my three children who were all there, but I had nopower to take any active part; my mind seemed paralized. --In themidst of our afflictions God has not forgotten us. Our Waller [anapprentice] has obtained mercy, and Eliza's heart is touched. Othat God would save all our family. I have had some 'seasons ofrefreshing;' but not enjoying the sanctifying influences of God'sSpirit, I have felt a disposition to be discontented with thearrangements of Providence respecting the health of my children. Idaily mourn this inbred corruption but not sufficiently, or I shouldbe more in earnest to get rid of it. At present I feel a longing forthe blessed liberty which many express. O may I share in the baptismwhich is now so gloriously shed upon this city. --The fifth day I havespent in my new habitation; all is confusion, and must remain so forsome time to come. This would be a matter of little moment, if my mindwere not distressed by the affliction of my Eliza. So I find every joyhas its sorrow. Lord, as Thou knowest what is best for me and mine, give me patience, and let every dispensation of Thy providence besanctified. --We opened our new shop. The first customer demandedcredit, and the second took up her money with her goods, and wentaway with both. Providentially it was restored. We have now madea fortnight's trial, and have great cause of thankfulness for theprospect of success. The last few months have been full of toil andanxiety, but thank God, I can say:

 'While blest with a sense of His love A palace a toy would appear; And prisons would palaces prove, If Jesus but dwelt with me there. '

I have been aiming, though feebly, to give God my heart. It is goodto come to the Lord in private; it is there I find my greatestenjoyment. --For several nights I have suffered much pain; as muchI think, as my patience could endure. In one of the paroxysms, thepassage was continually in my mind, 'The wise shall inherit glory. 'Throughout yesterday found it very sweet. I am in part deprived of thepublic ordinances, but find solid happiness in breathing my wishes tothe Throne, and derive sweet solace from Him, whose smile creates myday. --Find in private with my God, I gain the most substantial peace;at least I have not learned the noble art of being ''midst busymultitudes alone. '--Our servant was taken dangerously ill. I think Idid not feel any disposition to murmur; but want firmer reliance onthe power of God, whose promise never fails. Have lately had someblessed meetings with my God, perhaps preparatory to this trial. "

"1817. To-morrow, two criminals are to suffer death for the crime ofmurder. How awful from an earthly judge to receive the last sentenceof the law! but how much more so to hear from Thee that finalsentence, 'Depart ye cursed!' O, my God, let the cry of the prisonerscome up before Thee. 

 In pity bow Thy gracious ear, Incline the sinner's heart to prayer, And draw him to Thy Son, Through whom, though vile he is, Thou wilt Remove the blackness of his guilt; Oh! let it now be done. 

 Thou Friend of sinners, if I may Approach, O give a heart to pray, And let Thy Spirit plead. But few the hours _he_ has to live, O give repentance and forgive, Forgive the bloody deed. 

At intervals have found it good, yea very good, while upon my knees;indeed I must say my happiest moments have been there. Why am I everremiss in this duty, which brings me more solid peace than anythingbeside? There, I converse with God; there, behold His glory; there, forget self; there, get love to cover faults; there, assimilate to theimage of God. This week has been marked by the affliction of my twoyoungest children. How painful to a mother to see them suffer! yetLord, Thou knowest, I would rather see them droop and even die, thanthat they should live to rebel against Thee, and shut themselves outof Thy kingdom. O my God, on my knees, I present them all to Thee. Bless them with grace and understanding, and save them for ever. --Ihave had to grapple with rheumatism. It is painful, but what induration, when compared with eternity? Nothing. May my soul, evermorefly upward. What need in health to prepare for sickness! There is thenplenty to do to hold fast whereunto we have attained. --Cousin JohnStables has exchanged life for immortality. His last words were, 'I amgoing to heaven, I know I am. ' Blest knowledge in the hour of death!but more exalted, they who daily live with the assurance 'I am Thine', centering in God their hope and wish, --My dear little Hannah died, aged twenty weeks. A sweet smile rested upon her countenance. ODeath! how art thou robbed of thy terrors, when infancy smiles in thypresence! Have not been at my class for a long time in consequence ofill-health: to-day I might have gone, but with shame confess, I forgotthe time. O Lord lay not this sin to my charge. My heart would notdisplease Thee; my soul delights in Thee, and derives its happinessand peace from God my Saviour: no merit in myself, but Christ is allin all. --I would this evening offer Thee my heart; give me sincerityO God, and let me know the sacrifice is accepted. I am under deepobligation to Thee for having so far removed the pain from which Isuffered May ease be gratefully acknowledged by me, and let my lifeshow forth Thy praise. I bless the Lord for all the good I possess, and am constrained to say, it is all divine. Have begun to read Lockeon the Understanding. Lord enlarge my capacity. --Enjoy better healththan for several months; for this may my soul be truly thankful. Itis good for me that I have been afflicted; I have learned to valuemy mercies as the gift of heaven. My anchor is in Jesus; from him mypeace perpetually springs. I now feel he is my God. Yet the secretmotions of my heart concur with the enemy of my soul to bring me intobondage, I long for victory. When will the happy moment arrive? Havelately thought the Lord has something for me to do; I would notbury my talents in the earth; but do Thou Lord, who knowest myinsufficiency, direct my way. Glory be to God, I am blest whilecalling to mind his innumerable mercies. It is like lifting up the lidof a casket to expose the jewels contained therein to thelight of the sun, whose radiance they reflect, and whose heatthey attract. --How sweet to be at the throne of grace! Have had greatfreedom with the Lord while interceding for a fallen friend, over whomI lament. O that God would reclaim the wanderer. My soul is sweetlydrawn out after more of the image of God, for to the present I havebut little imitated my Lord. God help me in my life to display everyfeature of his character. My dear cousin Ann is, I fear, sinking, sotrue is it, 'Man cometh up as a flower, ' and is cut down; but she ishappy in God. This is cause of thanksgiving. Many of the excellent ofthe earth are retreating behind the veil. May I work while it is day. What a poor slothful soul I have been, when heaven shines so brightabove me. Now I feel resolved to work. Jesus, Thou seest my heart, aidme that I loiter no more. A full salvation is what my soul aims at;but ah! how grovelling and low are my desires! language is too poorto express my poverty, when seen in the light of the Sun ofrighteousness. 

 O! when shall I from sin set free, Bask in the light of Deity?

Expand my heart and fill the wide expanse. --While Mr. Haswell waspreaching, a woman cried out, 'Bless the Lord; bless the Lord Omy soul. ' I trust she was under divine influence. Mr. H. Gave out;'Praise God from whom, ' &c. I began to suspect the power of God wasmore eminently present than I imagined: this led me to seek afterit in my own breast, and to long for a more powerful manifestation. Praise God, I could say, 'Lo! God is here, let us adore. '

On my return home, I met the judge with his retinue returning fromcourt, lighted by torches. How solemn! But what, when the Judge of allthe earth shall descend from heaven with a shout and with the trumpof God! At His bar must I appear, and conscience that staunch witness, give its unimpeachable evidence for or against me, O that Jesus, thesinner's friend, may then sustain my cause. Praised be His name; faithsprings up in my heart, and encourages me to believe that I shallreceive the crown of life. Blessed hope!--Mrs. ---- breakfasted withme. We had a truly blessed morning--our conversation was in heaven. During the day I have been troubled with evil reasoning. When shallthis body of death be destroyed, and Christ be all in all? VisitedMiss D. In the asylum. She seems in dark despair; I got her to herknees, and found it precious to my own soul. --Glory be to God I darebelieve. Keep me till I am fully saved. Am watching my William in themeasles; Richard has just recovered. What a mercy I am in health toattend them; yet am afraid my too anxious care for them has checkedmy zeal. Through mercy my soul lives to-day; I feel a divine appetite, and am looking for the appearance of my Lord to the destruction ofall the carnal mind. --At Stockton lovefeast, the Lord opened my mouth, both in the Chapel, and at a neighbouring house; I was constrained tospeak. May the imperfect hints thrown out be as bread cast upon thewaters, and what I said amiss the Lord forgive. The peace of God ruledmy heart. --The mournful tidings of Cousin Mary's death has reached us. The day before, she was up sewing. How sudden a transition from timeto eternity! Although at the funeral, I cannot learn how she died. Howmy heart is oppressed! She has left a fine smiling boy unconscious ofhis loss, and her father, whose displeasure she had incurred by hermarriage, unreconciled. How my feelings are ploughed up! The trainingof my children occasions me great solicitude. How shall I safelysteer, where so many make shipwreck? Without Thy direction andinfluence, I too shall miss my way. Come then, thou heavenly Wisdom, teach me to imbue their tender minds with truth, that the impressionmay remain in riper years. --Another parliamentary election. O my Godelect me 'through sanctification of Thy Spirit. '--My mind sufferskeenly in consequence of a conversation with ----. Thou, Lord, knowestexactly where the error lies; let it be discovered. If I am in thewrong make me willing to retract. I want to be a Christian in deedand truth. --It was impressed upon my mind to call upon Miss M. H. , andurge her to seek salvation, having long been a hearer of the Gospel. I scarcely knew how to break through, as I had no particularacquaintance with her. However, passing by the same day, providence soordered it, that she sat facing the door. I passed, but remembering myimpression, mustered courage and returned. After inquiring about herhealth I told her my errand. She was affected, and said she had a veryhard heart. I replied, 'It is not too hard for God to soften. 'With much fear I undertook the charge of Miss Bentley's class, inconsequence of her indisposition, but trust the Lord will soon restoreher to active usefulness. The more willingly I offer myself to theLord, the sweeter communion I find with Him. --Repeated my visit toMiss M. H. , I believe in obedience to the influence of the Spiritwhich constrained me--not intending to call at that time. I found hersincerely seeking salvation, and endeavoured to point her to the Lambof God. My own soul was blessed while thus engaged. How shall I praiseGod for His love to a worm?--Called again, when she told me shehad received a visit from the Lord. She durst not say her sins wereforgiven, but felt encouraged. --Having to pass through some things ofa trying nature, I felt fully resigned, and the throne of grace easyof access. Keep me at Thy feet, O God, that I may rise in Thy likenessand in all things do Thy will. --Mr. Moore remarked in his sermon, 'Happy is the man of one book;' my heart replied, So he is, for in allI read, I find no book so sweet as the Bible; yet there are some whichare precious, and which I value as a treasure. --Another distinguishedmercy. After another attack of cramp the Lord has been pleased torestore to me the use of my hands, which have been locked from threeo'clock in the morning until evening. May I never forget the Lord'smercy towards me, but studiously labour to be found of Him in peace, that when the awful crisis arrives, I may be ready. "

"1819. I am still in a weak state of body, unable to attend to myfamily. O Lord, support my mind. Feel resolved to cast my soul onJesus; and although I have to struggle to retain my hold, _will_ hangon the Crucified. "

This year was one of severe personal affliction, which continuedfor several months. At one time little hope was entertained of herrecovery, and none that she would ever again be restored to activelife. Medical aid seemed utterly unavailing; but the Lord had chosenher in the furnace of affliction, and by these means, inscrutable atthe time, was refining and fitting her for remarkable usefulness. Atlength when the process was complete, contrary to the predictions ofphysicians, and beyond the expectations of her friends, she wasgiven back again to her family, and the church. In reference to thisaffliction, she says, in a letter to one of her daughters:--

"Your brother Samuel is put out to nurse; he is a delicate little boy. I am at Mrs. F. 's out of Walmgate Bar, for the benefit of my health;if it please God to sanctify the means. In some respects, I am better, but yet very feeble; however, I am in the Lord's hands, and have beenfor a long time his prisoner. I wish to keep my cause in his hand. Poor Samuel! I every day expect to hear, that he has escaped to glory. My weakness reconciles me to his loss, for the righteous Judge ofall the earth cannot but do right. Dear Mary will discover from mywriting, there is an alteration in me. To tell you the truth, I canscarcely recollect how to spell; my memory is so much impaired by thisaffliction. But thank God, I have the full use of my reason, and mysoul longs to awake after the image of God. Friends are very kind invisiting me which makes the days pass more pleasantly. I ride out whenthe weather is fine, but am able to walk very little. "

On her recovery she writes:--

"I would raise my song of gratitude to my God, who, I am confident hasrestored me in answer to prayer, though I am still very weak. Duringmy affliction my mind has been variously exercised; sometimes I couldcast myself with all my concerns upon God; at other times was muchdepressed; once in the multitude of my thoughts within me, it wassuggested, as if a voice spoke to me, 'What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. '"

 I thank Thee for the comfort given, When agonized with pain; The love infused--the taste of heaven, That cheered my heart again; In answer to the faithful prayers Of many a fervent soul, Disease retired--for mercy spares, And makes the sinner whole. 

VI. 

GROWTH IN GRACE. 

 "AS THE TENDER GRASS, SPRINGING OUT OF THE EARTH, BY CLEAR SHINING AFTER RAIN. "--2 Sam. Xxiii. 4. 

God doeth nothing in vain. Cloud and sunshine, stormy winds, andsteeping rains, have each their appointed purpose; and in their seasoncontribute to bless, and refresh the earth; that it may bring forthits increase for the service of man and beast. You have often seen, how after a shower in the cheerful spring-time, the green meadowshave suddenly put on a fresher and livelier hue; and the tender grassseemed to grow before your eyes. Just so, in the higher economy ofgrace, seasons of trial and affliction have their definite design;only here the effect is not determined by an irresistible law; butsuspended upon the conduct of man. The heart must be open to receivethe genial influences, which are thus mysteriously communicated;the will must submissively bow under the dispensations of an allwiseProvidence; and, especially, seasons of affliction should be seasonsof earnest prayer. Then will they be followed by a marked increase ofspiritual life and power. Mrs. Lyth benefitted by her afflictions; andalthough she more frequently mourns over her own unprofitableness, hergrowth in grace is clearly apparent in her journal, which we resume. 

"1820. --Although I have the victory I cannot yet say the old man isdead; some seeds of peevishness yet remain to be destroyed. PraiseGod, I hate the garment spotted by the flesh. 'All peace, all love, 'is the desire of my heart, and the longing of my soul. --A day offasting and prayer; but separation from every thing that defileth iswhat is pleasing to the Lord. May this be my continual abstinence. Amen. --Not able to procure a substitute to meet my husband's class, Iventured myself, sensible of my own unfitness, and earnestly beggingGod to speak by me. One person went out, but whatever was the cause, thank God, I felt that my work was with the Lord. --Went to see poorold Sarah; found her confined to her bed but happy in the Lord: naturewas fast sinking. I wished her to have a nurse, but she thought shecould do alone, as she had a candle, and the Lord was with her: lefther, but found means to procure a nurse for the night. --A few days agoI was awoke with the words, 'What shall I do for thee?' My answer was, 'Lord, that I may live more fully to Thee, and for Thee. ' Unutterablesweetness filled my soul, and now, while I write, I feel it still. Glory be to God, His love is ever new. To walk with Him, transcendsall earthly enjoyment. --During the last week I have learned my ownweakness. Unaided by divine grace, I have no power to check triflingconversation among professors; especially such as are older thanmyself. Teach me how to act, when to speak, and when to be silent. To-day felt it my duty to visit a neighbour, and met with a morefavourable reception than I expected. He has long been ill, and is nowin trouble. I told him that I had come to bring him good news, that 'Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners;' and whileconversing with him on the necessity of an interest in the Redeemer'sblood, in order to forgiveness, he seemed to listen with attention. May the Lord make him a witness of the saving power of the Gospel, Some little matters, which require a patient and forgiving spirit, have occurred to fill up my character as a Christian. Lord, helpme and give me that spirit which in Thy sight is of greatprice. --Thirty-eight years old! How short the time appears! yet howvaried the scenes through which I have passed! and how different theviews I have had. Praise the Lord. With respect to the soul, I haveclearer views than ever. My feet are upon the rock. When I look overmy life, how blotted it appears! am lost in astonishment, that God, who made all things, and upholds all things by the word of his power, should stoop to such a wretch as I. O the depth of the riches of Hismercy to me!--I have received a letter from Cousin Ann, in which sheboldly confesses the cleansing blood. Hope it will prove a lastingblessing to me; feel ashamed that I have not more openly acknowledgedwhat the Lord has done for my soul. By this omission, have clipped thewings of my faith, and encouraged a diffidence, which I long to haveremoved; have hesitated upon the plea, that I would wait and seewhether the work was genuine or no. O my Saviour forgive, andcondescend to teach one of the dullest scholars in Thy school. --Havefound the five o'clock prayer-meetings very profitable, and cannotbe thankful enough that I have health to go. At the prayer-leaders'Lovefeast, said I could give up all for God, but have since askedmyself, Is this true? Lord, Thou knowest it is the desire of my heartto give myself to Thee without reserve: accept the offering. I feelThee now pouring in Thy ineffable peace. My soul has but one object, inward and outward holiness. O make me quite clear. --The intercourseis open between my soul and God, but yet I have had to struggle forit. O save me fully. This is what I want. Last Tuesday I felt I couldnot doubt. Stamp me, Saviour, with Thy seal, and keep me ever Thine. Iagain met Mrs. G. 's class. I feel myself more fit to sit at their feetand be taught; but O Thou, who usedst clay to open the eyes of theblind, use me for Thy glory. --Some keen things uttered by a relativehave wounded me to the quick. I feel innocent, yet, Lord, how littleI can hear! Give me the love that hopeth all things, endurethall things, which rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in thetruth. --Kirkby. I am reading Fletcher's Life. How it excites holydesire! My earnest aspiration is after perfect love. When shall itonce be? Come, Lord Jesus, come quickly. --We went to Ribstone tosee Mrs. R. But did not pray at the close of the visit; my mind waswounded on this account. The Lord pardon all my offences. --Cousin andI found it good to pour out our souls before God, alone. At first mymind felt hard; but by and by, the veil was drawn aside, and I enjoyeda sweet manifestation of the Lord;--a settled peace but no overflowingjoy. My earnest wish is to be quite clear, for I am more than everconvinced of the reality of the blessing. The cleansing power of Godputs us in a capacity to 'grow in grace, ' and live to the gloryof God. --We walked to Barrowby, and took tea with Miss H. She is afriendly girl, possessing the advantage of a polite education, butwants the main accomplishment--vital godliness: she wept while Italked with her. O that it may not pass away as the morning cloud! Onour return we had a blessed meeting with our God. I felt the powerto cast myself by faith upon the Lord; but still do not perceive thedirect witness of the cleansing blood: am resolved not to give up thepoint until I obtain my suit. --I left Kirkby, --a place so congenialto my inclinations, secluded from scenes of noise and excitement, --andhad a pleasant journey home, where I found all well. PraiseGod. --Returning from the Lord's house, a beautiful rainbow attractedmy attention, and preached a second sermon to me; putting me in mindof the covenant which the Lord had made with His people. --I am aimingto keep the prize in view. I see lengths and breadths before me;and my heart, thank God, is bent to pursue that which to me is mostdesirable, viz. , holiness. But I need stronger faith to enter in bythe blood of Jesus. Union with Him is sweet. This makes one thirstfor more. Many temptations assault me, but the reading of Fletcher'sPolemical Essay on Christian Perfection has been of advantage to me. Iam learning the method of bringing to God those evils and besetments, which seem to be the main hindrances to my progress. I have much causeof humiliation before the Lord, and wish to attain that sweet spiritof abasement, which not only confesses its unworthiness, but _feels_willing, that others should be preferred before me. I have need ofvigilance; my enemy is ready to seize upon the least advantage. ToThee, O God, my soul looks up. --A dream, I had this week, powerfullyimpressed me with the necessity of being faithful with our relatives, and of living near to God ourselves. Private prayer has beenprofitable, but do not know that I was ever so much beset withpeculiar temptation. Since I have become acquainted with the devicesof the enemy, have found another errand to the Lord. --Spent theforenoon with some of the friends of God, and the poor. On attendingone of the women's prayer-meetings, find my name, has been omitted, but believe it is for the best. 

 'Make me little and unknown, Prized and loved by God alone. '

Last night I was troubled in my sleep, but it was sweetly suggested;'God is our refuge--a very present help in trouble. ' Glory be to Godfor His promises; may I hang upon them more firmly than ever. To-daymy soul has been drawn after God; but when shall I be able to saywith Mr. Wesley, 'Now I have lived a day. '--Find patience a grace. I especially need, both with respect to myself, my children, mydomestics, and the world. Had not the sacred Scriptures declared 'yehave need of patience, ' I should be more ready to reason with theenemy than I am. But the word of God is a strong tower againstthe assaults of the devil; here the righteous find a refuge and ahiding-place. --What a poor unprofitable creature I am! Lord, I castmyself upon Thee. Save a helpless soul, that feels no merit but inJesu's atoning blood. "

"1821. Am ashamed to acknowledge I have felt a little impatience, because my hands through stiffness, occasioned by cramp, have refusedto perform their ordinary duty. Forgive me, O my God; nor ever let merepine at any of Thy dispensations to a worm, loaded with benefits asI am. I seem a poor piece of useless lumber, but Thou bearest with me. Let me ever live to Thee. --Although I usually sleep well, last nightI lay awake for some time, but my meditations were sweet; they turnedupon Peter's advice to those who had received like precious faith, viz. ; 'Add to your faith virtue, and to virtue knowledge, and toknowledge temperance, and to temperance PATIENCE, ' &c. I have felt itsinfluence to-day. Praise the Lord for so divine an admonition; my soulneeds it. --The debt of gratitude I owe to Thee, 'O Thou Preserver ofmen, ' I feel glad to acknowledge, though I am unable to pay. Glory beunto Thee for Thy renewed mercy to a worm. Help me to repeat my vowsto Thee, who hast graciously protracted my life, and through anotherseeming death delivered me. Let the babe, thy love has given me, beunreservedly dedicated to Thyself. But oh! how shall I tell of Thyunbounded love to a worthless creature! My soul longs to be whollyThine. Help my feebleness; let me turn neither to the right handnor the left, but teach me all Thy will. --I am blessed with health, surrounded by friends, and encompassed by mercies. How infinitely pooris my gratitude to the Lord, when all these are considered! How isit, Lord, that my affection for Thee is so cold, and my faith in Thyinfallibility so weak? Quicken me, animate my drooping powers, and letme every moment live in Thee. --I have the witness within me, but dailyfeel my own weakness. All my good comes from heaven, and requiresconstant renewal. I have faith in God, but thirst for more. I want tobe deluged with the love of God. --A trivial circumstance has been asource of mental exercise; but thank God, have had power to keep mytongue. Let the issues of my heart be kept by Thee. "

 ON THE DEATH OF NAPOLEON BUONAPARTE, MAY 5TH, 1821. 

 He falls! Napoleon Buonaparte is gone: Who conquered thousands, conquered now by one: His strength diminished, and his glory fled; His kingdom taken, and his honour dead. Though clad in warlike state, --without command; A captive buried in a foreign land: Oh! might we hope the captive now is free, Escaped from bondage into liberty. 

"In private I have been greatly blessed; but, oh! the sense ofignorance I feel makes me ashamed: yet I know not that I ever felt adeeper thirst for all that God can give. Come, Lord, and diffuse Thypresence through my soul. I have been reading Bramwell's Memoir; howdesirable his life! How enviable his death! Help me, Lord, to followafter, and to walk in close communion with Thee; that I may apprehendthat, for which I am apprehended in Christ Jesus. --At. St Michael'sChurch the Rev. John Graham improved the death of the Rev. WilliamRichardson, who for half a century has laboured in York, and been muchesteemed on account of his ministerial usefulness. He gave a conciseaccount of Mr. R. 's literary and spiritual attainments. His Christiancharacter was excellent. His chief joy was in Christ crucified; andhis constant prayer, that he might not live longer than he could beuseful. His labours continued up to his last illness, which lastedonly a week, and his last words were, 'My pleasures are to come. ' Thusdied this eminent minister of Jesus Christ, aged 76. To me it was aseason of especial profit; angels seemed hovering around. "

 REFLECTIONS. 

 Returning seasons bid reflection wake, And o'er the past a winding passage take: Ah! what a scene of change arrests the mind, Within the compass of five months behind! In many a home is hushed the voice of mirth, And sorrow, as a flood, o'erflows the earth. Here one, by sad misfortune followed fast, In hopeless indigence is plunged at last. Another, by disaster thrown aside, Has got a crippled limb to prop his side. There, death has made a breach, and left forlorn The widowed mother, and the babe unborn. Here, weeps the father o'er his orphan child, Who thinks it strange, for formerly he smiled: Oh! who can tell the sorrows of his breast? 'Tis sad experience must reveal the rest. 

 A few days since, a mournful crowd appeared, In sable garb, and to the church repaired; Ask you the reason of their measured pace, Why silent all, and tears on every face. Alas! the Pastor's dead, who, fifty years, The Gospel tidings sounded in their ears:-- A man of God, endued with purpose strong, Who lived the truth he taught, and hated wrong, Full thirty years, the schools enjoyed his care; The sick, the poor, the Missions claimed a share. But now, we hear his friendly voice no more; His course is finished, and the fight is o'er. Come, hear the accents of his flying lips, "My pleasures are to come;"--the curtain slips, And hides what follows from our curious eyes: Enough! he joins the chorus of the skies. 

 Another scene, and melancholy too; The bridegroom widowed, ere he pleasure knew; His hopes of bliss had soared unduly high, And little dreamt he there was danger nigh; But see! the throes of death his bride arrest, The barbed arrow strikes her beating breast: His hands have touched the cup, but ere he sips, The wine is hurried from his burning lips. 

 Such are the sorrows which around I find, Diverse, and manifold as human kind. Let these suffice my gratitude to fire, And with unfeigned praise my tongue inspire. That I, so undeserving, still possess Unnumber'd mercies, through redeeming grace. Let each vicissitude my soul prepare, By patience here, for endless glory there; Where sickness ceases, and where sorrows end, Where no misfortune can the bliss suspend; Where death is banished, for the curse is o'er, And love unrivall'd reigns for evermore. 

"I have greater pleasure in visiting the sick, and the poor, thanin visiting those who, as far as this world is concerned, are bettercircumstanced; in the former case, my object is simply to do or getgood, but in the latter, I find it is in danger of being mixedwith other motives. Christ is the end as well as the source of myhappiness. Oh! to be saved in every word and thought, this is what mysoul covets. I feel I am getting firmer hold of Christ. --I have beentempted to a spirit of fretfulness and ill-nature; praise the Lord forthe victory. I was enabled to come to him for help, and power; and byejaculatory prayer, found sweet access to the Throne. I can say it ismy chief study to live to please God, and to obtain a complete victoryover myself, which I find is no small conquest. --The prospect of mychildren's return from school has supplied me with another subject ofprayer. I have asked for patience, perseverance, and firmness to guidethem aright. By simply coming to the Lord, I obtain help; and am sure, that while I continue to act faith in His power, I _shall_ be helped. Then help Thy servant evermore to trust in Thee. --Had purposed goingto the Prayer-meeting, but was prevented; I believe Providence guidedme, and appointed me another work. In talking to my family at home, Ifelt great liberty; the Lord loosened my tongue. Oh! that the seed mayspring up, and bear fruit. I endeavour to pour out all my grievancesbefore the Lord. I know that He hears my prayer, and am resolvedto tell Him the worst of myself, as far as His grace enables me todiscover it. I am decidedly resolved to be the Lord's, for I canobtain solid happiness from no other source; but the name of Jesus isa cordial to my soul. More faith, and more love, is all I want. --Howfrail I am! Conversing with a friend as I returned from the house ofGod, I uttered an unnecessary word, and immediately felt that I hadgrieved the Spirit of God. As soon as an opportunity of retiringpresented itself, I poured out my soul before the Lord, ashamed thatI should so often offend Him, whom I desire to love and obey aboveall things. --In my class I professed the enjoyment of the sanctifyinginfluences of the Holy Spirit; and, blessed be God, though I hold theblessing feebly, I do hold it; but the cry of my soul is, fill me withall the life of God. "

[The following lines, written after reading a piece in favour of snuffand tobacco, will be edifying to smokers. ]

 While some prefer the quid, and some the smell; There are who think that smoke doth both excel, I smile to see these votaries so misled, And think their several tastes are idly bred. Perchance one, here and there, may virtue find, In 'bacco' fumes, when much perplexed with wind. But sure, the human frame, frail as it is, Is not so subject to the qualms as this; Three times a day to need the burning herb, To cure the evils which so much disturb. 'Tis since the fall, an idol demon tries, By sophisms deep, to close the wise man's eyes. While musing on the sacred word, they plead The blessing of the mind composing weed; Thus join their idol with Divinity, Whose mandate is, "No other God but Me. " But hear them plead their failing cause again; "It recreates the powers to work amain, Dispels the phlegm, which on the stomach lay, And fits us for the labours of the day. " But will not prayer, and reading recreate, Much more than smoking thus in idle state? And exercise effect more lasting good, If they complain of undigested food I O be resolved, ye smoking sinners, do Forsake your idol, and your God pursue: Deny yourselves, and nobly bear the cross, Esteeming all for Christ but dung and dross. 

"At the Prayer-meeting Mr. Spence gave a short address on the subjectof entire sanctification: my faith was so much encouraged, I couldscarcely refrain from speaking aloud; and while on my knees Iexclaimed, many times, before the Lord, 'I will believe' On my wayhome the words were applied, 'Now ye are clean through the word whichI have spoken unto you'--At the Acomb lovefeast, I confessed that Icould now give God all my heart. I did not feel any doubt in sodoing, although the enemy suggested, 'you are deceived' Lord, if I amdeceived, speak for Thyself; for I am determined to be Thine. Here, inThy presence, I humbly beseech Thee to set the seal upon Thy own work. I dare believe. Let the transaction be ratified in heaven. I am setapart for Thee. 

"Newton. Having a little time to wait for the coach, I sauntered intothe churchyard. The solemnity of the place suggested the followinglines, while I stood and pondered. "

 Still solitary place! Here silence reigns; Here griefs are hushed; none ever here complains. Here no ambition agitates mankind, Within the limits of a vault confined, Around the whisp'ring breeze, impressive, steals, And on my listening soul instruction seals. The solemn truth sinks deep within my breast; I, mortal now, immortal soon, shall rest. Ended my journey, with its hopes and fears, My deep solicitudes, and silent tears. Under some neighbouring sod, my bones will lie, And wait the summons from the flaming sky: When ocean, trembling in its briny bed, And earth, upheaving, shall restore her dead. Roused by the voice, that heaven and earth shall shake, At that momentous period, I _must_ wake, Among my fellow clay unknown before, -- Must wake with horror, or with joy adore. Oh, wondrous scene! most awful! most august! Th' event is certain, and the purpose just. The Judge's eye will pierce the inmost soul, Each hidden record of the past unroll; No word, no motive, no minuter thought Escape exposure, into judgment brought. Oh! that these solemn truths, with equal force, Might rule my soul, throughout its earthly course; That every scene, and every hour, may give True witness then, to God alone I live! So with the saints in glory shall I rise, To hear the welcome plaudit from the skies, "Well done. " Unbounded love! no tongue can tell What transports then my ravished heart shall swell. A worm! an atom! less than nothing I! By love redeemed from death, and raised on high. 

"Wrote a few lines to Miss B. Concerning her soul's welfare. She isvery obliging, but destitute of the 'one thing needful. '--Called uponMrs. Farrar--we prayed together. How much happier should we live ifthe time, so often wasted in chit-chat, were occupied in prayer. Helpme, O God, against this soul-robbing evil. I found it profitable. --TheLord is teaching me the happy lesson of telling all my heart to Him. With respect to domestic grievances, I do not feel them to be sogreat a burden as formerly. My conscience feels tender, and though notalways equally happy, I find prayer sweet, and the Bible my delightfulstudy. This is Thy doing, to Thee be all the praise. --Passing aperson, who was standing at his own door, I felt prompted to speak tohim about his soul. I turned back, and did so, inviting him to go tothe Chapel: but, alas! I seemed as one that told an idle tale. --I tooktea with Mr. T. While he was at prayer, my soul was so lifted up, Icould scarcely help expressing my feelings aloud. What a heaven, isthe enjoyment of God! Prayer is the life of my soul, and the delightof my heart; yet I have to mourn over my weakness in consenting toconversation, which some may think very proper; but which does nottend to edification. I want to do all for eternity. --We received aturkey and a basket of fruit from a friend. I note this, as it wouldappear, the Lord is resolved, we shall lose nothing by entertaininghis servants;--a preacher with his wife and three children, strangersto us, having come, as they had no other place of refuge, to stay withus till Monday. 'Be not forgetful to entertain strangers, for somehave entertained angels unawares. '--A very stormy day; but whereThy presence is how delightfully calm. The Lord does not leave menotwithstanding all my failings. I am nothing; I can do nothing; yet, thank God, He has turned the bent of my heart to his testimonies, and it is the delight of my soul to obey Him. --On my return from theLord's house, I dedicated myself afresh to God; fully surrenderingmy soul and body, my time and talents, to His service. Praised be Hisname, He ratifies the surrender 'on the mean altar of my heart. ' Ifeel the inward witness, 'Ye are clean through the word which I havespoken unto you. ' O God, I accept Thee as my Sanctifier, my Sovereign, to govern and direct. --I have many mercies to record, among whichhealth is not the least; but of higher value than that, are the favourand the peace of God. Lately I have experienced solid happiness inChrist, sweet access to the throne, and delight in the ways of God. In visiting the poor, and also in acting in the capacity ofprayer-leader, I have had some doubts whether I was in the path ofduty. I laid the matter before God, willing to work for Him, or tobe laid aside for Him. On opening my bible, just before I retired torest, my attention was arrested by these words, 'They shall not labourin vain, nor bring forth for trouble; for they are the seed of theblessed of the Lord, and their offspring with them. And it shall cometo pass, that before they call, I will answer; and whiles they areyet speaking, I will hear. ' Blessed promises! They appeared veryapplicable. --By the midnight mail, my husband was unexpectedly calledfrom home, on very precarious business. May he be preserved fromeverything injurious to his soul, however unfavourable to his health. A day of much excitement, scarcely time for reflection; but in privateit was sweet to pour out my soul before God. I am desirous to know howmy husband proceeds with the business he has in hand. To know thatthe Lord keeps him, and gives him health, would be a cause ofthanksgiving. He is in Thy hands, Thou Preserver of men, save himfully. For some weeks past, I have been reckoning myself 'dead indeedunto sin;' but the last few days my children have been very noisy;I have thus been under the necessity of speaking loud, and sometimesfelt a little hasty in reproving them. This has awakened doubts of thereality of my experience. Unfold to me, O Lord, Thy truth, for to thetest of Thy word, would I subject my life and practice. "

VII. 

TEMPLE SERVICE. 

 "HOLINESS BECOMETH THINE HOUSE, O LORD, FOR EVER. "--Ps, xciii. 5. 

"Be ye clean that bear the vessels of the Lord. " The command appliednot only to the priest, who served at the altar, but to the Levite, to whom the charge of the sacred vessels was especially committed. Theinference is, that the humblest officer in the Church of Christ oughtto possess, above every other, this essential qualification, holiness. Purity is the secret of the Church's power. Wealth, talent, learning, honour, are but instruments, which she can use; but this is her life, because it is the breath of the Spirit of God, giving vitality to hermembers, and energy to her action. God can use the "weak things, " and"the foolish, " and "things that are despised, yea, and things that arenot;" but he cannot use the things that are unclean, unless it befor purposes of shame and dishonour. When will the Church learn thislesson? And when will she adopt the divine standard of judgment, andestimate men according to their resemblance to Christ? So soon as sheshakes herself from the dust, she shall go forth in the majesty of herstrength, and become the admiration of the earth. Mrs. Lyth aimedat purity. She had passed the region of shadows, and entered theunclouded light of the Divine presence; but that very light, by itsintensity, only revealed more distinctly the sinfulness of her nature;and created an absorbing desire after perfect holiness: she was thusprepared by God for the service of His temple. 

"1822. --In our private band-meeting, Mrs. W. Mentioned a singularcircumstance. Being restless during the night, and troubled withwandering of thought, she entreated the Lord to impress upon her mindthat which might be profitable. She fell asleep, and in a little timeawoke with the words, 'The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away;blessed be the name of the Lord. ' Sleeping a second time, she awoke, with 'Precious in the sight of the Lord, is the death of his saints. 'A third time she slept, and the words, suggested on awaking, were'Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord from henceforth: yea, saith the Spirit, for they rest from their labours, and their worksdo follow them. ' A fourth time she awoke, and the passage presented toher mind was, 'The end of all things is at hand; be ye therefore soberand watch unto prayer. '--My soul is especially excited to prayer. Inmyself I see no good thing, but many imperfections, and much weakness;yet I hang upon the Lord Jesus, and thirst for a deeper baptism of theSpirit. A few lines from Cousin E. Inform me, that dear Ann, givenup by her medical attendants, is rejoicing in the prospect of eternalglory. Praise the Lord. Though separation is painful, we cannot butrejoice in the blessed anticipation of seeing each other again. Itonly remains for me to be faithful. --My patience has been exercisedby one of my children. I scarcely know how to act, so as neither to betoo indulgent, nor too severe. O Thou, who hast promised, that crookedthings shall be made straight, and the rough, places plain, give earto my supplication, and in this matter point out the path of duty, that at the last, I may present my whole family and say, 'None thatThou gavest me are lost. '--While engaged in prayer, my soul wasblessed in such a manner, that for some time I could say nothing butGlory, Glory. Surely this was a foretaste of the bliss, which shallnever end. --A letter informed me that cousin Ann wished to see me; soon the following morning, putting myself under the protection of God, who kindly took care of me, I left home. While travelling the spiritof prayer on behalf of those, whom I had left behind, was sweetlypoured upon me. I found my dear cousin suffering from great debility;but living by faith on the Son of God. A sweet smile played upon herface, like the soft radiance of the setting sun. Grace shone in everyfeature of her faded, but still lovely countenance. She tells me, itis twelve years next October, since the Lord spoke peace to her soul. We were kneeling in company with her sister, and the servant, by herbedside. I was engaged in prayer at the time, and for this reason shewished particularly to see me. Surely this is the mark wherebythe world knoweth us, 'because we love one another. '--As I wasdistributing tracts, my heart was pained within me to see _how_ manywere employed on the Sabbath morn; and on my return, I wept to thinkthat, in the face of day, they could break a well-known command ofGod. Lord, open their eyes that they may see. The spirit of my Annhas taken its flight to the paradise of God, leaving many sorrowingfriends. Our loss is her gain; but nature feels. --In company withMrs. R. I collected for the Missions. We were wearied; but whenI recollect, how much more wearisome the work of the Missionary, cheerfully will I undertake this labour of love; with a view toalleviate their toil, and facilitate their success. I proposed to Mrs. W. And Mrs. R. To meet me at the throne of grace, every morning thefollowing week, to pray for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit: we allagreed. The appointed hour has been blessed to me; I have dwelt underthe shadow of the Almighty, and felt such a resignation to the will ofGod, as I never felt before. --I was providentially led to see Miss B. In our younger days we were companions; but in the course of time wehave become estranged. She is now on the bed of affliction, and weptwhile mother and I prayed. She requested me to go again; if I can beuseful to her, O Lord, open the way, and speak by me. 

--I went to see a man walk upon the river, which occasioned thefollowing lines:--

 I saw the man, with wondrous skill. Walk on the yielding stream at will, Sustained by human art: Not so did Peter, when to Thee He stepped upon the rolling sea; Faith did the power impart. 

 So while on life's tempestuous wave, With timid steps I walk; O! save, Reach out Thy hand to me: My courage swells, while Thou art near, Nor foe nor accident I fear, Though wild the billows be. 

 But safely on through peril glide, Supported on the dangerous tide, By looking unto Thee: Impossibilities shall yield, And faith a solid pathway build. Across the stormy sea. 

I have had some family exercises;--scarce worth a thought, if I hadmore of the mind of Christ; yet I have been able to tell my care toGod, and at his footstool, I have got rid of my burden. I enjoy thesoul's calm sunshine. --When I consider how time slips away, and howlittle I effect for my own improvement, and that of others, I amashamed. My life appears so blotted, I can only say, 'God be mercifulto me a sinner;' but praise God, I can rely with greater confidencethan formerly upon his promises. I know I am his child, and myhappiness is in doing the will of my Father. --Mrs. Taft is with us. Othat the disappointment she has met with, (the refusal of the chapel, )may turn out rather to the furtherance of the Gospel, and moreespecially for the benefit of my family. --I understand she spoke inthe school-room with energy and power; and at the prayer-meeting whichfollowed, my Eliza was restored to the favour of God. Thus the Lordout of seeming evil has brought good to my child. --The one thing isdaily the object of my desires and efforts. I want more clearly toexhibit the fruits of righteousness in my ordinary conversation. Beingnaturally of a hasty temperament, I need constantly to be baptizedwith the meek, and lowly spirit of Jesus. Grant me, O Lord, my heart'sdesire. I do feel Thy sanctifying presence, but O how I long formore. --The Lord is working amongst the children. My Richard, at thenew School vestry, felt the drawings of the Spirit; and William, Iam told, cried out aloud. O that these early impressions may come tomaturity. My soul, praise the Lord for these beginnings. How shall Ibest foster these tender plants: Lord, teach me to cherish the good, and to correct the errors of youthful feeling. My father and motherhave entered the house we have built for them adjoining our own. Wehad a prayer-meeting on the occasion, which was a blessed season to mysoul. "

"1823. --For the last time, I visited Jane S. She was scarcelyrecollected; but after a little time she requested me to pray. Sheseemed very much in earnest. I endeavoured to point her to Jesus. Fora moment she revived; but in the night she died. So in one short week, two are gone out of my husband's class. --This morning I felt greatpower in prayer, and an ardent desire for full deliverance from everybesetment. In this spirit I entered into my family, resolving towatch with all diligence; but alas! imperfection is stamped upon allI do, --so many wanderings, useless words, and deviations from theperfect law of God, that, were it not for the blood of Jesus, all hopeof heaven would be excluded. Yet in private I had sweet communion withGod. I have derived profit from the perusal of Lady Maxwell's Journal. Some points of her experience correspond with my own: this encouragesme. Nothing seems so desirable, nothing so amiable, as momentaryliving to God. --Mr. McKitrick brought me Mrs. King's class-paper, requesting me to take charge of the class until she recovered. I durstnot refuse it, although I felt my inability very great. My mentalstruggles since have been many. It is suggested I am influenced bypride; that I imagine I can do better than another; only by castingmyself upon God, and resolving to leave myself in His hands, I findhelp. O that I were satisfied, I am called to this work! By any meansdiscover this to me, and fit me by Thy grace; then gladly will I bespent for Thee, who gavest Thyself an offering for me. --I went in muchfear to meet Mrs. K's little flock, among whom I felt liberty; butafterward, my uneasy state of mind returned. O God, since all thingsare possible to Thee, subdue my heart; let all within and all withoutsubmit to Thy sovereign sway. One of the members requested me to readthe last chapter of the first Epistle of Peter, which I have doneseveral times, and found it sweet. "

As Mrs. K. Never recovered, and indeed died shortly after, Mrs. Lyth'sappointment to the office of leader was confirmed; an arrangement, which, notwithstanding her deep sense of her own insufficiency, metwith the cordial approbation of the class. One of the oldest members, who was present on the occasion of her first meeting them, says, "Iwell recollect, with what profound humility, and with what fear andtrembling, she undertook the office of class-leader. While she wasconfessing to us, that she felt utterly unworthy, and unfit for sucha responsibility, my heart rejoiced, that we were privileged with theappointment of one, possessed of so many excellencies. She said, ifthe Lord had anything for her to do, she durst not refuse; that He hadoften employed very weak instruments to carry on His work; and added, "Oh! that He may use me for His glory! Friends, you must pray thatthe Lord may give me a double portion of His spirit, for I feel my ownhelplessness. " Then, on her knees, she poured out her soul to God withgreat earnestness, that He would fully qualify her for the work whichhad been imposed upon her. " Her own conviction of duty was however notso easily attained, and several entries occur like the following:--

"I again met Mrs. K's class, and found it very profitable to my ownsoul: yet I am not quite satisfied I am right. O make it fully known, and, if this is the path of duty, crown my feeble efforts. --None butthe true Christian knows the sweets of communion with the Father, and the Son, through the blessed Spirit. 'Them that honour me I willhonour, came sweetly to my mind yesterday; by which I was led to see, if I faithfully walk in His commandments, He will honour me with Hispresence, and clothe me with His free Spirit. While pouring out mysoul in secret, the nearness I felt to Jesus is better felt thanexpressed;--unusual power to give my all to Him without anyreserve, as far as I can judge of myself. Is this the work of entiresanctification? Set to Thy seal, O my God, let the enemy no more robme of this jewel; but bear directly to my heart, the witness ofThy love. --I have had many visits from above, but not withoutinterruptions. The use of more words than necessary has, onreflection, occasioned feelings of pain. Oh! when will all my powersbe brought into captivity to the obedience of Christ. --My wedding day!Seventeen years I have worn the silken-chain; during the last, I haveenjoyed more of the life and power of God, and now the sacred flameburns brightly on my heart. With respect to my marriage, I believeit was solemnized in the fear of God; and an increasing union existsbetween me and my dear companion. We have many a blessed interviewwith God, when shut in from all beside. Oh the goodness of God to me!His mercies have far exceeded my trials, and even out of my severalsorrows He has brought my greatest blessings. --At Mrs. K. 's class theLord graciously sustained me with His presence; my doubts respectingthis work seem now to disperse, and unless I am deceiving myself, Iam in the way of providence. I inquired of one of the friends, ifany time was fixed to pray for the revival of the work of God, and amtold, every Friday--fasting; hours of prayer; six, nine, and twelve inthe morning, and three and six in the afternoon. By the help of God, Iam resolved to join them. The Lord is blessedly with, me this evening. "

 TO MY HONOURED FATHER

 ENTERING ON HIS EIGHTY-EIGHTH YEAR. 

 Bending with the weight of years, See the hoary headed saint, Rise above tormenting fears; Suffer, but without complaint, Ready, as a shock of corn, For the Paradise above; Golden fruits his age adorn, -- Fruits of holiness, and love. 

 Though the outward man decay, Inward strength is daily given; Nothing can his soul dismay, Succoured by the God of heaven. 

 He, the wise man's laurel, wears; In the path of wisdom found, Lo! his hoary head appears With unearthly glory crowned. 

 Borne on time's untiring wing, Homeward fast his spirit flies; Now the city of the King, Flames upon his longing eyes. 

 Brighter, as the clouds recede, Blaze its walls of spotless white; Deeper, from the throne proceed, Dazzling floods of purer light. 

 Every birthday, nearer hies That unknown but welcome hour; When the saint in triumph cries, "I, through Christ, am conqueror. "

"I went, by request, to visit a person who has long been confinedto her bed. She knows something of God; but ah! how slight isthe knowledge of even, professing Christians! After reading, andconversing with her, I proposed prayer; but the master of the housesat still. When we arose from our knees, I spoke freely and plainly tohim of his sinful condition. O my God, if I was moved by Thee, fastenconviction upon his conscience. --I accompanied Mrs. K. To collect forthe Clothing Society, and while our benevolent friends bestowed uponus the mammon of unrighteousness, the Lord blessed me with the trueriches. --Having taken a little cold, I was dull of hearing, and afraidthat I should not be able to hear the members of my class in theevening. I betook myself to prayer, and the Lord graciously heard, and so far restored me, that I had no difficulty. My soul was like waxbefore the sun, while Jesus shone upon it. --My mind has been reprovedfor reproving. Lord, I thank Thee for Thy secret admonitions; forgive, and take all my powers under Thy control. I called to see Mr. Spence;his natural powers decline, but heaven beams on his countenance. Hesaid, while he was putting on his neckcloth, in the morning, he hadbeen struck with the meagre and ghastly appearance he presented in theglass; but the sweet serenity of his soul compelled him to exclaim, 'Welcome old man! welcome declining age! welcome death!'--I spokeat the Prayer Leaders' lovefeast, but the enemy troubled me muchafterward: however, this much I will affirm--to the grace of God I owemy all. I feel decided in my choice, hate sin, have the witness thatI am a child of God, and enjoy the comforts of the Holy Ghost; butthe clear evidence of entire sanctification I do not hold, though Ibelieve I have many times received it, and for a short time held it;but, for want of boldly confessing the faith, have lost the blessedpearl. O for the baptismal flame. "

In the summer of this year she visited the Rev. John Nelson, thenstationed in Sheffield, to whom she was much attached. As was herconstant practice, when released from the claims of domestic duty, sheavailed herself of every opportunity of doing, and getting good. Everyday was a sabbath of religious privilege. The church, and the chapel, the social party and the sick bed, were made subservient to purposesof spiritual improvement. With reference to a party of friends, whowere invited to meet her, she says, 'After tea the females being leftalone, each of us prayed; this is a blessed way to cut off religiouschit-chat. '

"Quarterly Fast. Mr. Haswell called upon me to pray, when the Lordwas pleased to humble me; for which I would be truly thankful. Make mewilling any way, only let my soul be brought into conformity with Thywill;--willing to be little, that Thou alone mayest be exalted. Mynature is not willing to be thought little. During the day I felt ahumble dependance upon Jesus. "

 ON OBSERVING A SIGN IN SHEFFIELD WORDED, "BRIDE CAKES AND FUNERAL BISCUITS. "

 Ah! is the bridal-day, When festive pleasures meet, The presage, but of swift decay, Within the winding sheet?

 What then is man at best? A blooming, --fading flower; Immortal, in a mortal vest, The creature of an hour. 

 Well then may death be joined Unto our festal days; Well may our pleasures limit find Within so short a space. 

 To seek eternal bliss Within time's narrow span, Is man's best int'rest;--only this Can form the future man. 

 Let dying mortals then Their foolish dreams forsake; Unto their rest return again, And Christ their refuge make. 

 Then, even timid youth May smile upon the tomb; And festive moments welcome truth, Though clad in robes of gloom. 

 By Jesus' death, is broke Death's dark and powerful spell; And, while to Him by faith we look, We know that all is well. 

"While meeting the little company my soul was blest. O for spiritualdiscernment and grace, that I may be truly helpful to them, and dealfaithfully. Visited a dying person who says, she dare not rest onJesus;--yet HE is a tower. "

 ON THE DEATH OF POPE PIUS XIII. 

 His Holiness, the Pope, Hath yielded up his breath; He, who could sins forgive, Hath no command o'er death; How wonderful! such power to have, And yet to sink into the grave!

 If sin, the sting of Death, His Holiness could draw; Why render up His breath Unto a conquered foe? Either, he fallible must be, Or sin hath gained the victory. 

"I am thankful for the decision of character I feel. My daily want ismore of the love 'that conquers all, and every mountain moves. '--Myprivate communings with God are my most precious seasons. There Ican tell all my wants, unbosom all my griefs, reveal all my secrets, expose all my temptations, and there the Lord graciously condescendsto visit me with fresh manifestations of His love and power. Thesevisits humble me, and give me to see, where my strength lies. Come, Lord, and dwell in me, that every moment I may have the witness thatall I do is right. --I called to see my dear afflicted friend W. , whoseeldest daughter is slowly sinking into the tomb. As it was the hourwe usually meet in band, we retired to pour out our souls before theLord. My friend seemed willing to give up her daughter, if only shecould be assured, that a divine change had taken place. The Lord gaveus the Spirit of prayer to plead on this account, and glory be to God, in that same hour, He imparted peace to the dying child. --The nightwas awfully tempestuous. I rose twice to pour out my soul to Him, whorules the storm, and found sweet calm within. --After tea, Mr. Spenceasked me, why I had invited my friends. I replied, it was my desire, that we should help each other to heaven. A conversation on holinessof heart ensued, which to me, and I trust to all present, wasprofitable. This conversation will leave no painful reflection. Iavowed that I held, though with a trembling hand, the power to loveGod with all my heart, and felt the sweet assurance at the time; butthe next morning when I awoke, it was suggested, I knew not what I hadavowed. The satisfactory evidence was for a moment withdrawn; yet byfaith I still resolved to hang upon the Saviour. I did not long remainin doubt, my peace of mind returned; and in the evening, whileengaged in prayer (Eliza being with me), the divine influence sweetlyoverwhelmed my soul, and not mine only, my Eliza felt its power. Glorybe to God. --I took tea with Mrs. E. , the person with whom I lodgedduring my affliction. A sense of gratitude for past mercies stirred myheart to praise; and the time, which might otherwise have been spentin conversation to no profit, was spent in prayer. --I daily need thesprinkled blood, and the clear assurance of the perfect love which'casteth out fear. ' I dare not doubt that I possess, in a measure, its blessed fruits; but I long to rise higher, that no scruple mayremain. "

VIII. 

PASSING CLOUDS. 

 "CAN ANY UNDERSTAND THE SPREADINGS OF THE CLOUDS. "--Job xxxvi. 29. 

Who can explain the involuntary emotions of human mind? How strange, that often, on the eve of some great misfortune, a sensible cloudshould spread over the spirit; but whence it comes, or why, wecannot tell! To say it is a coincidence is only an acknowledgment ofignorance. Ought we not rather to refer it to the secret agency ofthe spirit-world by which we are surrounded; but of which we know solittle? Perhaps God would thus timely warn us to seek refuge under theshadow of his wing, just as we seek shelter from the storm, which thecloud, that spreads itself upon the face of heaven, tells us is athand. At least, it cannot be without advantage, when such monitionsoccur, to betake ourselves to more earnest prayer; then, come whatmay, we shall find a safe asylum in Him, to whom belongeth everlastingstrength. --One of the first entries of the year 1824, is

 THE CLOUD WILL SOON BLOW OVER. 

 Though far, and wide above my head, The dull portentous cloud is spread; With many a dark and massive fold, Love decks it with a rim of gold. The sun is shining still behind, The promise of a purpose kind; And, soon unveiled again, will dart His cheering rays upon my heart. Far brighter will His face appear, Than if no cloud had gathered near. Then, till the cloud is overpast, My anchor, hope, on God I'll cast; Assured while He is throned above, The cloud is only sent in love. 

About a fortnight after penning these lines, her father, whosecontinued life she had, every spring, hailed with a new song ofgratitude, was suddenly seized with a fit of paralysis, which in a fewdays terminated his earthly career. A premonitory attack had occurredin the preceding autumn, which at the time affected his speech, buton recovering a little, he expressed his confidence in God in theseremarkable words: "It is rolled up; it is rolled up. I am satisfied; Iam quite satisfied. I am ready; when the Lord pleases, I am ready. TheLord hath given me eternal life. I know the Lord; I shall not perish. I shall not perish, for I am the Lord's. " During the winter he hadrallied again, and resumed his labours in his Master's cause. Hopesbegan to be entertained, that he might yet be spared a little longer;but these were suddenly cut off. About the beginning of February hewas seized again, and it was soon apparent that this attack wouldprove fatal. His last testimony to the truth was strong and clear, andcontinued to be borne until the power of language failed. To the Rev. W. McKitrick, who came to visit him shortly before his departure, he said, in almost the same words the amiable Addison used to LordWarwick, "You are come to see a Christian, die;" and then added, "Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost. I usedto sing that in the Church, when I knew not what it meant; but now Ido. " Not a shadow of a cloud rested upon the valley; it was full oflight: and on the 24th of the month he died, in the full triumph offaith, esteemed and lamented by persons of every shade of opinion. 

"This day in former years, I have hailed my dear father's stay amongus; but now, he has left our dark abode to join his friends above; andthis day, his death is to be improved by Mr. Hopkins New Street, and Mr. McKitrick, in Albion Street Chapel. For some weeks I havebeen under the chastening hand of God. My patience has been severelytested; but I am thankful, in the moments of severest trial, I havefelt confident that not a stroke would be laid upon me more thanwould conduce to my real good. Though the waves roll around me, Ican venture myself on Jesus. Here I find firm footing; here is myresting-place; and in the precious atonement of the Redeemer, my soulenjoys sweet repose. --I have been suffering from sickness, but havehad many precious moments while musing upon my bed. Through mercy, Iam again able to sit up, but am very deaf. This has occasioned a trainof reasoning. I have been led to inquire, whether the Lord in Hisprovidence intends to depose me from meeting His people. But inthis, and in every thing else, I would resignedly say, 'Thy will bedone. '--The mercy of the Lord is again repeated. The deafness, fromwhich I have suffered, is greatly removed. Bless the Lord, who can notonly make the deaf to hear, but the heart to praise. --My little Anna, after being lent to me for seventeen days, and finding nothing onearth to court her stay, has closed her eyes on time, and opened themupon heaven. So uncertain is earthly happiness. Perhaps my heavenlyFather, more securely to engage my heart, has kindly resumed thegift; and transplanted to a better soil the flower, whose charms wereinsensibly stealing my affections. I anticipated the delightful taskof rearing this tender plant to be a future comfort; but Thou, O Lord, art righteous in all Thy ways. My feelings have been peculiarly acute, but to Thee, O Lord, my heart is known. Teach me due submission toThy will; and as, by this bereavement, I shall, if restored to health, have more leisure, may I dedicate it to Thee. --While Miss O. Waspraying with me, I had such a blessed view of the inhabitants of theworld above, that for a moment I seemed to be there. At the Class Iwas led to see the privilege of living by faith every moment. Sincethen, I have been able to realize _present_ blessings. The perusalof one of Mr. Fletcher's letters has been of service to me; also therecollection of what my father used to say; 'I ask in faith, and bringthe blessing away with me. ' Surely this is our Christian birthright. Faith honours God, and 'without faith it is impossible to pleaseGod. ' Thanks be unto Thee, I can now live by faith; but I want tolose myself in Thee, Thou vast unfathomable sea of love! Covered withimperfections, I want to be plunged in the precious blood of Jesus. Precious Name! Precious blood! the sweetest cordial of the soul. I have had such a view of the way of faith as I cannot express; sosimple, yet so divine! Such a sweet deliverance from doubt! While Ifeel myself nothing, I have power to apprehend God as my sanctifyingSaviour. What has the world to compare with this?--I rose before sixto hold communion with my God. Art Thou _my_ God? Yes; by that exaltedname, I feel Thou art mine. My soul longs for Thee. When shall I wakeup after Thy likeness? I have this evening met the precious chargecommitted to my care. The responsibility seems greater than ever. Omay I watch as one having to give account. 

"Sinnington. Nature now resumes its beauty, but the removal of mybeloved Ann, and the absence of my dear Elizabeth, make a mightychasm. Well; soon these separations will cease, and my freed spiritsoar to mansions of unclouded bliss. I have been tempted by the enemy;but hold fast my confidence: may the faith, which purifies the heart, sanctify my lips, that I may tell of all Thy wondrous love. --I visitedMrs. B. A second time; she is encouraged to believe the Lord will saveher, for Christ's sake-without any merit of her own. Her husband wasmore cordial than I expected from the account I had heard of him;the tears started in his eyes while I conversed with him. I feel I amemployed as I ought to be, when in this way I render the least serviceto a fellow-creature; but O how poor and feeble are my efforts! SinceI came here my mind has been variously affected; sometimes clear, sometimes clouded; sometimes in prayer I have experienced unusualliberty, and again a degree of coldness; but always a sense of theapprobation of God, with a desire to be entirely conformed to Hiswill. --Part of the day was spent in bidding the friends farewell, andin visiting some of the poor; and now I have finished my visit to thisplace, I can say, I have been endeavouring to please God, and in somemeasure, benefit my fellow creatures; but my performances have beenso mixed, that I am ashamed before the Lord. Nothing but the blood ofsprinkling can wash away my defilement. --I went to the vestry afterthe evening service, and selected a place, where I thought I shouldnot be observed; but the thought of the curse of Meroz, constrained meto leave my retired position. I resolved, if any opportunity presenteditself, to engage in prayer; and truly God poured upon me the spiritof grace and supplication. --This week I have paid a social visit bothto Mrs. R. And Mrs. W. Praise the Lord, I came away uncondemned onaccount of anything I had said. This has not always been the case. Iam thankful for the inward teaching of the Spirit; for the desire thatevery power of my body, as well as every affection of my soul, may bewholly consecrated to God. This is now my prayer. --I have been muchaffected to hear that an old man, whom I had intended to visit, diedyesterday. O God, forgive the omission and help me to be faithful. Itook an opportunity of seeing Mr. And Mrs. G. , to converse with themon the necessity of salvation: let Thy spirit work. The Lord has beenshowing me what a poor empty creature I am; but gives me confidencein His promise. I can cast myself entirely upon Him, who is willing tosave me to the uttermost. Glory be to God, my soul dares lay hold onJesus, as my full, and all-sufficient Saviour. --This morning I gaveWm. B. An invitation to chapel; called on M. T. S. , who is in trouble, and advised him to read the 112th Psalm; saw Esther S. , who is fastdeclining, but seems to desire nothing so much as union with God; alsovisited J. C. , who is sick, but happy in God. --The means of graceare refreshing, but these are not the only occasions on which I getblessed. No; while my hands are engaged with my ordinary duties, Ican look up and call God Father. --My husband presented me with a newvisiting book, the old ones having been called in after the death ofMr. Spence; and the whole concern placed in the hands of a committee. Having formerly felt my insufficiency, I have sought help at thethrone of grace, and entreated the Lord, as the committee have thoughtproper to send me a book, that He would give me a word in season, andHis blessing with my efforts. --The souls committed to me have beenlaid very near my heart. Conscious of my own weakness, I asked theLord to put His word into my mouth, and bring it to my remembrance;and to His honour I here record it, that I have never experiencedgreater liberty. --In the prayer-meeting I was silent, and feltcondemned in consequence; and on Saturday night the conviction of dutywas still deeper, but still resisted, How much I need forgiveness! Asthe result, barrenness came over my soul, which continued part of thenext day. The recollection of having petitioned God to take my souland body's powers, and then to refuse to employ my tongue in Hisservice, although He had promised to put words into my mouth, fillsme with shame and humiliation. --For some days I have been hanging onChrist by naked faith, without much sensible comfort; yet have feltas fully resolved to live to the glory of God as when bathing in thebeams of His love. To-night the sacred fire burns brightly 'on themean altar of my heart. '--I have many mercies to be thankful for, though not recounted here. A moderate share of health is not theleast; my class increases, my family is well; I am surrounded withfriends; and above all, I enjoy peace of mind. 'What shall I render tothe Lord for all His benefits?'"

 The rapid moments fleet away; And on their tireless wings, Death rides, majestic in his sway, Subjecting Popes and Kings. 

"1825. --My daughter being out to tea, I called to take her to chapel;but the solicitations of her friends had induced her to relinquish herintention: so I left her. But my mind was much pained; the case of Eliforcibly impressed my mind. I think I too easily yielded to whatmy better judgment condemned. I need the forbearance of my heavenlyFather, and wisdom to direct my children aright. I see great dangerin mixing with the world, and the company of outward professors isequally perilous. --While Mr. Stoner was describing the character ofthose, who have received Christ, my soul responded to the truth: Ifelt the reality of the change in my own heart. The evidence of thesanctifying grace of God has of late been more distinct; yet neverhave I been more deeply convinced of my own nothingness, nor of theexceeding riches of the divine grace. --This eventful month (February)is this year ushered in by answers to prayer. Having a cold, and beingdull of hearing, I entreated the Lord, if he had called me to meethis people, to give me power to hear. He graciously condescended to myrequest and blessed me among them. Four new converts stepped in. O forwisdom to instruct them. --I had a very pleasant visit at Miss C. 's. Mr. Stoner, Sammy Hick, and two or three female friends were there. Wegot to know one another's hearts upon our knees, and the Lord lent anattentive ear. --My body is feeble, but my soul pants after God. Iwant totally to abandon self, that Christ may be all in all. He is thechief object of my affection, but I want to lay firmer hold upon Hisomnipotent strength. It is faith that brings the power to exhibit thegraces of the Spirit, and to act acceptably in the sight of God. "

 CHRISTIAN FRIENDSHIP. 

 Friendship hails the rising joy, And shares the falling tear; Breathes the sympathetic sigh, And swells the common prayer. How it soothes the troubled breast! This charity divine Breathes the balm of heavenly rest. --May such a friend be mine. 

"After my morning duties are discharged, I intend to devote theThursday of every week to the Lord, so long as health and opportunityare afforded me; especially in visiting the members of my class, ministering to the sick, and attending the school. I went out feelingthat I was the engaged servant of the Lard, and he has graciouslyblessed my endeavours. One whom I visited is earnestly seeking theLord; and another, who has long been indebted to my husband, gave me asovereign towards the amount-unsought, unasked, and unexpected!"

 Father of all, and God of grace, Whose ever watchful eye Surveys the depth and breadth of space; Yet sees the sparrow fly: Behold my heart--it pants for Thee; The temple for Thyself prepare; There let Thy throne established be, Thy name engraven there. 

"Much against my inclination, I paid a formal visit to ----;providentially I was seated near a friend, who was willing to converseon things conducing to holiness. --Among the Lord's poor my soul isoften blessed. This day, the day I have set apart for God, I wrote toMiss B. Respecting the Sunday class; and, after arranging my domesticaffairs, set forth to visit Mrs. D. , then Mary H. , who was sitting upreading her Bible. As soon as I entered, she began to tell me, thata great change had taken place in her views and feelings; and thatprayer and reading the word, were her greatest delight. I asked herhow long she had experienced this; she replied, 'About a month. Youhad been praying with me; many things you said fastened upon my mind:'then, laying her hand upon her heart, she added, 'I felt such a weighthere, I knelt down to pray; and after getting into bed again, itseemed as if a voice spoke to me, 'Mary, the door is open:' fromthat time I have felt such peace of mind, and pleasure in reading theBible, as I never did before. ' Lord, Thou art able to judge of thisstatement, and bringest men to Thyself, by ways and means unknown tohuman sense. This occurred on the first Thursday I devoted to God. Lord, make me faithful in the discharge of the trust reposed in me. --Iam this morning left alone; yet not alone. I feel a blessed senseof the divine presence, which enables me to anticipate my heavenlyinheritance; but not for any merit in me: oh no! on Jesus hangs myhope. To me belongeth shame and confusion of face; for my best doingsare polluted, and all my good is from Himself. Praised be His name forthe change effected in my mind. The saints of God are my delight, the word of God my treasure, and communion with God my greatestjoy. --Through mercy, although feeble in body, I am better than duringlast week. Yet even then I enjoyed peace, and when weakest, my faithhas been strongest; I could commit all into His hands; still I seemyself a poor empty creature. It is all of grace, through Jesus. Precious name!"

 Afflictions, from Thy gracious hand, Unmingled blessings prove; The rod, prepared at Thy command, Displays a Father's love. 

 Beneath its weight, submissive, Lord, Upward to Thee I look; "Expect according to Thy word, " A blessing in the stroke. 

 May every pain be sanctified; And every grace improve; Till freed from dross, like silver tried, My soul is only love. 

 No tear shall then bedew my eyes, No grief my bosom swell; The note of gratitude shall rise, Thou hast done all things well. 

"My dear mother has had a fall, and has been much indisposed inconsequence. I am thankful to have her so near me, as it is a pleasureto perform my duty as a child. In this, and every other relation, mayI be found faithful. --I rose very early, as I felt concerned aboutmy dear mother; and went to her room-door, between three and fouro'clock; but as Mary had fastened it within, I could not obtainadmittance. However, I betook myself to prayer, and commended her tothe Lord. This passage was strongly impressed upon my mind: 'The Lordwill strengthen him upon the bed of languishing; Thou wilt make allhis bed in his sickness. '--I spent the day at H. , in the company ofsome friends not decidedly devoted to God. The Lord kept me, and Iam thankful I came home without condemnation. I was favoured with anopportunity of speaking with each of them respecting their spiritualstate, and the things of eternity. --For some time I have beensurrounded by hurry and excitement, and longing for a littleretirement. At length, in a way I did not expect, I am in partsecluded from my family. In this I am constrained to acknowledge themercy of God to an undeserving worm. Brought apparently to the grave'sedge, I have been refreshed with His presence, and had power to castmyself upon His fatherly love. The enemy assaults me; but aware of myown weakness I venture, powerless as I am, upon the boundless meritsof Jesus. "

 How sweet is still retirement! How it calms The mind, and aids reflection! Here my soul, Unfetter'd, soars to converse with its God. I hear his Spirit whisp'ring round me now; And love, and gratitude subdue my heart. Yes, Solitude! I love thee, and enjoy In thy sequester'd depths, the bliss, in crowds I seek in vain. My God! my only joy! Yet, O blest Saviour, when Thy voice is heard, Amid the tumult springs a sudden calm, And heaven-born peace pervades my happy soul. 

"A situation has offered for Richard, which we have hesitated toaccept or refuse, wishful to do right, and afraid of doing wrong. Inthis dilemma, we cast ourselves at the footstool of mercy, my husbandand mother uniting with me, and were fully enabled to roll our careupon God, who wonderfully undertook for us. I believe we have doneright. "

IX. 

MID-DAY TOIL. 

 "SEEK THAT YE MAY EXCEL TO THE EDIFYING OF THE CHURCH. " 1 Cor. Xiv. 12. 

True religion is reproductive. A converted man will try to converthis neighbour; and the value of his own experience may in general betested by the manner in which he uses his opportunities of doing good. So true is this, that the Saviour said, "He, that is not with me, isagainst me; and he, that gathereth not with me, scattereth abroad. " Aninactive Christian is a contradiction in terms; for he is no copy ofhis divine Master, who, morning, noon, and night, "went about doinggood. " All the Scriptural symbols of the kingdom of God are expressiveof energetic action. The little cloud attracts to itself the moistparticles of the atmosphere, until it covers the whole heavens. Theseed germinates, and grows, till it brings forth thirty, sixty, ora hundred fold. The leaven, which is but a minute form of vegetablelife, developes itself in every direction by means of little cells;which again form others, and thus by continual reproduction, leavensthe whole mass. What Is the lesson? Every heart in which the kingdomof God is set up, becomes a centre of life and action, exerting ahealing influence upon the corrupting masses of society around. Andoh! if every Christian professor were thus endued with power from onhigh, what could hinder the progress of the truth? How would it spreadand prevail, until the whole world submitted to its sway!

Mrs. Lyth was imbued with the true spirit of Christian zeal. Byletter, as well as by direct appeal; by secret intercessions withGod, as well as by personal effort; she sought to win souls to Christ. Instant in season and out of season, few came in contact withher without feeling the force of her religious character; andher diligence in visiting the sick, the needy, and the careless, superadded to the faithful discharge of home duties, often affectedher own health. In the Autumn of 1825, she spent some weeks atHovingham, a small watering-place in the west of Yorkshire; but, though only delicate through recent sickness, she sought herrelaxation in doing good. On the Sabbath she went round the villageto invite the people to the Chapel, and on the week-day visited theafflicted and infirm. One case occurred here, which well illustratesher persevering charity, even under circumstances of discouragement. A young gentleman, educated for the legal profession, and the son ofone, who at an earlier period had met with her in the same class, hadcome to seek relief in an advanced stage of consumption. She soughthim out at a neighbouring village; but when announced, he refused tosee her, and sent the not over polite message, that if it had been aclergyman, it would have been another thing. However the hostess, whowas a Methodist, said, if she would come at such an hour, she would beable to obtain an interview, as he went out riding every day, andwas obliged to pass through her sitting-room. She went at the timespecified, and for the purpose of introduction took with her a book, which she offered to lend him. He just turned over a few of theleaves, and not finding it to his taste, returned it, saying, shemight take it back. Nothing disheartened, she talked with him abouthis mother, and her anxiety for his salvation; until at length sheprevailed upon him, though not without a degree of reluctance, toallow her to pray with him. In a few days he was taken so much worse, that he was obliged to return home; and with the view of obtaininganother interview, she wrote a letter, which she took to him, withthe request that he would kindly forward it, as soon as he arrived inYork. This he courteously engaged to do. On parting she said, "Well, sir, as you are going to return, I must say farewell; perhaps we shallnever see each other again. " "What, " he replied, "do you think I amgoing to die?" "No sir, " she returned, "but neither you nor I seemlikely to live very long. " The nail was fastened in a sure place. Immediately on her return to York he sent for her, saying to hismother, "You know whom I want; she must come every day. " The accountof the visit is given in her own words. "I called upon Mr. ----; andam thankful to find a blessed change in his spirit. I read to him theeighth chapter of Romans. He cried aloud, and requested me to praywith him, which I did; then his mother, then I, then a stranger. Truly it was a blessed time; such as they professed never to haveexperienced before. My soul felt the divine influence. " These visitswere continued, until, in a few weeks, he exchanged mortality forlife. The last notice of him is, "I saw Mr. ----, whom I found in ablessed state of mind. As his outward strength decays, his inward manis renewed day by day; his hope blooms with immortality. When I wascoming away, and bidding him farewell, in hope of meeting him againin heaven, he replied, 'I have not a doubt of it. ' I entertained thehope of seeing him again on earth, but on Saturday night he died: so Imust now urge my way to meet him at the right-hand of God. "

We continue our extracts:

"I find, that unnecessary conversation, even with religious persons, and on lawful subjects, has a tendency to destroy the fervour of myspirit. --Mrs. R, met the dear little company; the power of God wasgenerally felt. I proposed that we should meet every day at the throneof grace, to pray especially for the salvation of some amongst us, as well as for our own prosperity; and desired as many as approved tosignify it by lifting the hand, which was done by all. I have had someblessed seasons while interceding on this account. --I was pressed inspirit to visit the speechless man. After pointing him to the sinner'sonly refuge, I knelt down; when the Lord shed upon me such an unusualdegree of the spirit of grace and supplication, that I was fullyconvinced the man was blessed. On rising, I asked him, if he believedthe Lord would save him, to lift up his hand, which he did. I askedhim to repeat the sign, if he felt happy. This he also did. I am themore encouraged, as, on a former occasion, I had solicited the signin vain. My soul praised the Lord on his account, and I came homerejoicing. "

 Farewell departed day! farewell for ever! From earth alone, thy flight, my soul can sever. My hope is anchored on the 'Rock of ages;' The storm in vain with fury round me rages. Farewell ye passing cares! though pain and sorrow May be my lot to-day, joy beams to-morrow: Within the veil, my soaring faith has entered; And all my happiness in Christ is centered. 

"A precious day to me. The Lord enabled me to witness to the truthbefore the great congregation. --I paid Mr. Stoner and his bride avisit. He would have me pray a blessing on their union; but I did notfeel the same liberty I found in praying with the speechless man alittle after. He again lifted up his hand when asked if he believedthe Lord would save him. I went to see an afflicted person in thehospital; a friend was reading to her; but when I entered, she ceased, seeming wishful to hear what I had to say. As the Lord enabled me Iurged upon them the necessity of salvation. Before I came away thenumber of listeners was increased to seven. The Lord gave me libertyof utterance, and they earnestly pressed me to renew my visit. If thisis from Thee, O Lord, open my way. The afflicted person, whom I havevisited several times before, professes to have found peace more thana week ago. Another of them wept, because she found out she wantedsomething she did not possess. Upon the whole the Lord appears to havedirected my visit. May it be followed by a permanent blessing. "

"1826. This afternoon was employed in seeking out the necessities ofthe poor. On my return home I felt I had done my duty, but nothingmore. I can trust in nothing but Christ for salvation. --All I do andsay, seems poor and insignificant. I want greater power to live toGod; watching against the assaults of the enemy, guarding againstself, repelling vain thoughts, living a moment at a time, prayingalways. I know this is possible; for 'all things are possible to himthat believeth. ' Oh for living faith. --Visited a poor afflicted widow. After reading and praying, she began to pray of her own accord; andshortly broke out into praise, in a manner that astonished me; but itwas the Lord's doing. She expressed her confidence in such terms thatI could not doubt the truth of her confession. --Mr. Slack divided MissBentley's class. What will be the result? [In consequence of Miss B. 'sindisposition, the class had been met by Mrs. Lyth for some time; andhad so much increased that division became necessary. ] If I live tillnext Sunday I must take my share of it. But who is sufficientfor these things? Anoint me, O Lord, with fresh oil. Make freshdiscoveries of Thy love. Breathe the Holy Ghost. Inspire the livingfire. Furnish me out of Thy treasury with arguments to defeat thedevil, and plead the cause of truth. Armed with Thy power, I feelwilling to be the hand, or the foot, only souls are saved, and Thouart glorified. I was sent for by a member of Miss B. 's class, who wasvery ill. The Lord was pleased to bless her while I was with her; sothat clasping her hands she shouted, several times, 'Glory be to God. 'As I returned home it was sweetly brought to my mind, 'Inasmuch asye did it to the least of these my brethren, ye did it unto Me. ' Theinfinite fulness of God surpasses all my thought;--a breadth without alimit, a length without a termination, a height without a summit, and a depth without a bottom. How I grieve that anything else shouldoccupy my thought! for sure I am, He is the only bliss on earthdesigned for man to know. Two days I have been begging for the newChapel, and still I am requested to canvass the opposite side ofWalmgate. Lord, if this is the way Thou choosest to humble my pride, make me willing to be the hand, or the foot, to help on Thy cause. --Atthe close of the class, E. Came to me, and by her silent, yetexpressive, countenance said, 'pray for me. ' We continued a littletime longer, but she did not obtain her heart's desire. Lord, forgiveour little faith. --My mother and I started for Sinnington. Duringthe journey my soul rested in Jesus; and since our arrival I have hadpower to look up through nature to nature's God; a gift not affordedto every one because of blindness of heart. While cousin Elizabeth andI were united in prayer, the Lord poured upon me such a blessing, withthe words, 'Ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you, ' as Icannot express. I earnestly long for the salvation of the inhabitantsof this village. Took tea with Mr. B. Many dainties, yet I havegreater satisfaction in visiting the sick than in gratifying thepalate. How much need have we to watch in every thing! O keep me everon my guard, and watching unto prayer. --My birthday. Three years ago Iwas in Sheffield, and there resolved to devote myself to God; and eversince, I have been endeavouring to do it. Still I am but a dwarf ingrowth, yet will I not be unthankful for what I am. I feel the peaceof God in my soul, with an increase of those fruits that spring frominward religion. To God be all the glory. The more I possess of thisdivine power, the less I see in myself. O how great is the love ofGod! To-day I would renew my covenant with Him. Here is my heart, Otake and seal it; and let it be Thine for ever. 

"Scarbro'. I took up my cross, and spoke to some old women; but oh!the darkness of the human mind! My medical adviser gives me permissionto bathe. O Lord, give Thy blessing. I had a delightful view of thesea from the Spa. Nothing on earth is to my mind a more striking imageof Almighty power than this uncontrollable mass of waters, to which Heonly can say, ' Peace be still, ' and it obeys Him. --When I went to theChapel, I felt considerable drowsiness, and was afraid I should fallasleep; but I lifted up my heart, and entreated the Lord to removeit, which He graciously did, and I sat under His shadow with greatdelight. --After first giving myself into the hands of the Lord, andasking His blessing, I bathed in company with Miss B----t. Afterward, during prayer, while in the machine, the Lord graciously watered oursouls. To me it was a refreshing season. I was truly overwhelmed withthe precious love of Jesus; so that, when we parted, I went on myway rejoicing, and praising God for the rich baptism bestowed onHis worthless dust. --My Richard was articled to Wm. Matterson, Esq. , Surgeon. This has made me many errands to the Lord; and now, O God, Ileave him in Thy hands: still offering up my earnest prayer that Thouwilt be his director and guide. I feel more anxiety for his soul thanhis earthly interests. 'The ways of a good man are ordered of theLord. ' I dare rest upon Thy word; therefore my earnest prayer is, thathe may be a man of God. O blessed Saviour, let my fervent petitionbe heard. Save him, and fit him for Thy will. --This morning my wakingthought was:

 Rises the sun, his course to run, In robes of golden light; So may I put the Saviour on. And walk with Him in white. 

 As flowers adorn the brow of morn, And scent the fresh'ning air; New graces, in my spirit born, Diffuse their fragrance there. 

"With feelings of gratitude, I resume my pen, which has been laidaside for some weeks, in consequence of domestic and personalaffliction. God has once more restored us; and I would thereforeacknowledge his loving-kindness. The rod has been needful, and thedesire of my heart is, that it may be sanctified to me and mine. Mydear mother continues ill, and much harassed by the enemy. O! forfaith to take hold upon the Saviour: through Him we tread down ourfoes. I _can_ venture upon his atoning blood. How vast my obligations, and how unprofitable my services, language fails to tell. --Mr. Bourne, an old friend of my honoured father, came and conversed awhile with uson the things pertaining to the Kingdom; then gave out a verse or twoand prayed. On leaving, he said, 'Well, Mary, I shall remember you, and your family, and pray for you; and if I live to come to Yorkagain, I will come and see you. I felt more pleased than if he hadgiven me gold and silver. --A day like spring; so clear, and warm, andsunny. I entered upon it with strong desires after God, and a sweetsense of his favour. His presence cheers my path, and smooths my way. Visited a man apparently near death; awakened, but O how dangerous todelay repentance until the last hour! After meeting my class, I calledupon Mary D. , to whom the Lord has graciously revealed himself; werejoiced together while she spoke of the Lord's goodness. "

"1827. --While interceding on behalf of my dear mother, I wasencouraged by the application of several suitable promises, particularly, _'At evening time it shall be light. '_ The morningfollowing she told me of the comfort she had experienced during thenight. This must sustain my faith in future. --My husband has this weekdeclined business. Thou God of love, still guide our path. Let us not'miss our providential way;' but draw us nearer to Thyself. --Takingtea with a neighbour, whose salvation I have long desired, I feltit my duty to speak plainly with her on the subject; and was greatlyencouraged by the inward voice of the Spirit, as also abundantlyblessed while engaged in prayer. Whether I was of any use, I know not, but my work is with the Lord. --I went forth to visit the poor, notknowing whither to direct my steps. I begged guidance from above, andbelieve the Lord heard me; for, quite accidentally I was led to thebedside of a woman, who had wandered from God; but in her afflictionhad found out her error. She appeared much affected, and wished meto go again. --Called upon M. H. , upwards of eighty. She quoted manypromises, which were especially sweet to her. It is delightful tovisit such; another whom I saw, has been a persecutor, but is nowseeking salvation. --I called to see Mrs. Fettes, who has long beena mother in Israel. My spirit was refreshed, while she spoke of herexperience of the things of God. Afterwards I saw Mrs. R. ; with whomI had a blessed interview, especially at the throne of grace. Mysoul thirsts after God. I feel I am saved, but I want more. --Mr. Jos. Mortimer conducted a meeting at St. George's Chapel, in which sixteenor seventeen persons obtained the forgiveness of sins. One man, whohad been struggling about two hours, witnessed a good confessionbefore many witnesses. When asked how he felt, he said, 'I feel asif I were in heaven:' and indeed his countenance testified the happychange that had been effected. My two sons, Richard and William, were much upon my mind; but they remain in good desires. Lord, fastenconviction upon their hearts. --The power of God was eminently presentin the band-meeting. My two daughters, went to the penitent form, seeking a full salvation; and there, glory be to God, they found it. Othat they may hold fast their confidence. My heart bounded at theglad news, while tears gushed from my eyes. --In Fossgate school-room agreat number were made happy in God; I am told about fifty, and amongthem three members of my class. Mrs. R----e and Mrs. R----n joined me, at the 'eve of evening, ' to pray for them. Whether it is in answerto our prayers or no, thankful I am, prayer has been heard andanswered. --This evening twenty-three young persons, who have receivedspiritual benefit, came to my little class. I felt myself veryinadequate to instruct them;--complete poverty. Lord, help me. Mr. Mortimer accompanied me to visit a sick man, who, before we left, professed faith in Jesus. O the unbounded mercy of God! I want more ofit. It is estimated that, during the week, not less than three hundredhave been brought to God: and among them my Richard. Keep him, O Lord, near Thy side, and teach him all Thy will. --I feel cause of gratitudeto God for His mercy to my family. William has this night been broughtunder divine influence; glory be to God;--a child of many prayers andmany fears, but God has found him out. O keep him, blessed Jesus. Nowall my family are brought to know God excepting little John; for whomI pray, and believe God hears. --Mr. Slack divided my little company(about seventy); allotting thirty of them to Miss G. O Lord, send usboth prosperity. --I have lately felt the constant power to pray; and, though I have nothing in hand, I come to Jesus, and receive 'out ofHis fulness, and grace for grace. ' On Thursday I wrote to my dearuncle, endeavouring, though feebly, to urge him to the pursuit ofinward holiness. O Lord, bless him, for Christ's sake. I think I neverfelt a greater desire for the salvation of others. In this city theLord still continues to carry on His work. --I accompanied Mr. M. To Heslington; we had a blessed little meeting. Three obtained theforgiveness of sins. Surely these are the latter days, when times ofrefreshing are promised. Every day souls are saved, and set apart forGod. In our parlour last Tuesday, Mrs. F. Found liberty, as also herdaughter a few weeks ago. --Mr. Mortimer has been our guest the lastmonth, and will remain another week. He is a man of God. Next weekwe expect Mr. Is. Clayton. I esteem it an honour conferred upon us toentertain the ministers of the Lord; but a much greater honour, thatthe Lord condescends to dwell in my heart. O may I ever walk, anddwell in Him. --After a week of indisposition, mingled with muchexcitement, I feel solid rest in God. We had a blessed time in theband-meeting. I think I was never more fully delivered from thecreature. How sweet to live above the world! As I returned. Miss C. Joined me, and informed me what the Lord has done for her soul. Shebelieves He has taken full possession of her heart. I rejoiced whileshe imparted the blessed news. She expresses herself clearly. O mayshe ever hold it fast. I gave the following lines to Miss A. A. On herbirthday; may they be made a blessing to her. 

"How important the season! Big with eternal results!--born foreternity! Let it be a day of reflection, dedication, and prayer; andif the following lines prove any assistance to you, I shall be amplyrepaid. 

 Again the happy morn appears; And nature, clothed in beauty, wears Her wonted colours; and the rose In all its pride of lustre glows; Emblem of frail mortality! It buds and blossoms but to die: Too soon its glory fades away, The passing pageant of a day. In this fair flower, your image trace; While youth sits smiling on your face, Secure those virtues, which perfume The life, when beauty fails to bloom-- The rich adorning first designed, The vesture of a humble mind. Be yours, in rich abundance given, The treasure of an inward heaven. ' Hence virtue takes its deepest root, And scatters fragrance in the shoot; Blossoms when youth hath passed away, Maturing for eternal day. Reflect; the moment flies! 'tis gone! The year its rapid course hath run! What tidings have been winged to heaven, Since first the precious boon was given? Examine well; nor fear to know, What truth may in its mirror show. Is this, your twentieth birthday, blest With more of wisdom in your breast? Are your affections more divine? Do you in Jesus' image shine? More dead unto the world and sin, Than when you did the year begin? If fraught with truth our moments are, And swift to heaven the tidings bear; How should we weigh each act and word, And wisely think, for thoughts are heard! At this important period pause, And unto God commit your cause; With firm resolve and earnest prayer, To meet Him in the clouds, prepare. Him first, Him last, in all things own, Whose wisdom guides in paths unknown; Then, as the winged hours ascend, Shall blessings fall upon my friend; Till, full of years, matured you rise To claim your birthright in the skies. "

X. 

WORKS OF MERCY. 

 "I DESIRED MERCY, AND NOT SACRIFICE. "--Hosea vi. 6. 

Mercy is the brightness of the glory of God;--the rainbow round aboutthe throne; wherein the pure light of Deity, too effulgent for the eyeof sinful man, is refracted, and presented under an aspect, which notonly reveals his manifold wisdom, and perfections, but blends themin one bright manifestation of beauty, which even sinners may dareto contemplate, with wonder, admiration and love. Jesus Christ is theembodiment of the picture, being the brightness of the Father's glory, full of grace and truth. While He enters the lowly abodes of humanity, to contemplate its sorrows, and minister to its relief; the dazzlingeffulgence of divine majesty is veiled under a covering of flesh. Nevertheless, it is GOD who weeps with Martha, and Mary; who wipesaway the widow's tear, and speaks words of comfort to the outcast. Incomprehensible Mystery! It is GOD incarnate, who suffers and diesupon the cross to purchase life for His enemies. What a picture isthis! So far as it is capable of being reproduced, God loves to see itrevived in His children; and never does a man become more truly great, or more faithfully represent his Master, than when, "putting on bowelsof mercies, " he seeks by every means to alleviate the sorrows andsufferings of his fellows. "Blessed are the merciful, for they shallobtain mercy. " At this period, Mrs. Lyth's journal abounds withinstances of her benevolent exertions, but a few of which we cantransfer to these pages; yet they are ever recorded with an humbleconsciousness of her own unworthiness. She proceeds:--

"I want to improve all my moments for God, but, on reviewing the past, I find I need everywhere the blood of sprinkling. I am Thine, save me. I feel Christ is precious _now_. He has my whole heart, yet I want anincrease of every grace, especially of patience, and meekness. --I feelmy own poverty is great; be it so, let me only receive more largelyout of Thy fulness. Humble, O humble me to the dust, but let Thy imageshine in me. While I write I am awed by the presence of Deity. Oh letit continually surround me. Jonathan Saville met my dear little flock;I felt my own littleness, while he spoke to us. --I accompanied myhusband to Barnbow, to invite Mr. Dawson to come and preach Dr. McAllum's funeral sermon; which he consented to do. To me it was aday of rich enjoyment, for my soul was happy in God. I recognizedHis presence in the heavens above, and the earth beneath; indeedeverything spoke of Him. I took tea with Mrs. R----n, who desired meto pay a little attention to the moral and religious character of herson, resident for a time in York. O what a responsibility! I writeit here that I may remember. --Mrs. R----n has come to stay a few dayswith us. On Tuesday, we breakfasted with a few praying friends at Mrs. F. 's. While pleading with God a blessed influence rested upon all. I felt as if let into God. What will it be when prayer is turned topraise? To-day we had another baptism at Miss C. 's. The same friendswere present. Surely Christian friendship is one soul in many bodies;who can express the unity?--'Jesus is bringing lost sinners to God;'Glory be to God! I feel it my duty to pay more attention to my boys;praying for them is not enough. I must warn, and daily inculcate theirduty and privilege. Lord help me. --I visited Mrs. F. , and found itprofitable to converse with an aged saint; we were comforted together. She said the Lord had sent me. It is true I prayed for direction, and the promise is, if we acknowledge Him, He will direct our steps. Evermore guide me. --Mr. Mortimer and his brother breakfasted with us. While at family-prayer the latter, who had backslidden, began to cryaloud for mercy; the Lord speedily came to his deliverence, and prayerwas turned to praise. --I went to the Sabbath School tea-meeting; butdoubted whether I was in my proper place. However, I resolved to sendWilliam and John to the School, simply with the hope that their mindsmight be impressed with divine truth. --Thursday. A day devoted toworks of mercy, both to the bodies and souls of men; in which Iprayed to be saved from self, and directed aright; but how feeble andimperfect my efforts! I feel myself a poor nothing. --While visitingMr. S. , who is in a dying state, I was much encouraged. He haslong been a hearer, but neglected to embrace salvation. While I waspleading for him, he exclaimed, 'I believe, I believe. ' I saw himagain the next day, and on asking him if he felt Christ precious, hesaid, after a short pause, 'Precious, quite precious. '--I was muchaffected by a circumstance related by the Rev. Robert Wood, of aneminently pious man in ----; who has not been seen to smile for fouryears, and when asked the reason, uniformly replies, 'The word of Godis true; the wages of sin is death; my son died in his sins, and isnow in hell. How can I be cheerful?' May this make me more than everin earnest in pleading for my sons. --I am aiming to have a consciencevoid of offence in the sight of God and man; but, on examining mydoings, I am ashamed of them. I might have used greater diligence, evidenced more love, spoken with greater propriety, cultivated amore affable spirit. I might have been more pointed in address, more constant, more humble, and in many ways have acted with greaterChristian consistency; but Jesus is my refuge. Praised be His name, I love Him!--At the lovefeast Mr. W. Stated, that a man in L---- hadfive sons, for whose salvation he had importunately prayed, fromthe time of their birth until he died; but without success. They allfollowed his remains to the grave; and, as they were taking their lastlook at the coffin after the usual service, one of them clasped hishands and exclaimed:--'I once had a praying father; but there he lies;and now I must pray for myself. ' From that moment he commenced a newlife, and was soon brought to the knowledge of the truth. Within twoyears the rest were all truly converted to God: encouragement forparents. --I prayed that the Lord would direct my steps in visiting thepoor, and in this He answered me: for quite unexpectedly I wassent for to the bedside of a woman apparently dying, and who, being awakened to her lost condition, lamented the neglect of pastopportunities. While a friend was praying she began to pray forherself, faith instantly sprang up in her heart, and she cried out, 'Iwill believe, Lord help me, I never felt it so with me before. '--Glorybe to God, I am still a witness of His saving grace; though buffetedby the enemy within, and exposed to temptation from without. I see thepath lies straight before me, --'looking unto Jesus, ' who is yet alive. If I proceed, I feel confident of conquest over all my enemies. --Mr. Barnabas Shaw met my Sunday class and said, that once when preachingin Africa, he exclaimed:--'What is it makes the Gospel so sweet?' Oneof the natives instantly arose and said, 'Jesus. ' Truly it is so. Mysoul tangs on Jesus; here I find rest. The last few days I have beenendeavouring to live in the will of God, with some power to do it. ToGod be all the glory for the work He has wrought. Yesterday I tookthe sacrament with poor Mary F. , who is praising God for the gracemanifested to her on a death-bed. How quickly time flies! Well, let itgo--

 If Jesus my companion be, My words and actions shall agree, The index of my soul; Meekness, benevolence, and love, Shall every secret purpose move. And sanctify the whole. 

[The following letter was sent, with the articles specified, to someunknown person in Nottingham; and the subject of it remained a secretin her own bosom, until the copy was found among her papers. ]

 "Dear Sir, --Having a little matter to put into your hands in aid of the Methodist Missions, I take the liberty of addressing a few lines to you. 

 "The approach of your Annual Meeting at Nottingham reminds me of what I have seen and heard on such occasions; viz. , that small donations, and comparatively trivial incidents, in the hands of your ingenious and able speakers, have often been turned to good account, and produced a very happy impression. This consideration induces me to mention a few particulars relative to myself, which otherwise would be impertinent. 

 "When very young, a kind friend of mine, for whom I had a great affection, gave me a piece of silver newly coined, with which I was so well pleased, that I was resolved to keep it for the sake of the giver; or, as the common phrase is, to make a keepsake of it: and this resolution I held so sacred, that neither childish toy, or youthful pleasure, could wrest the treasure from me. 

 "When in my twentieth year, it pleased God to bring me to the knowledge of His salvation; which so rejoiced my heart, that the natural consequence was a readiness on all occasions to contribute my mite to promote the cause of the Redeemer, through whom I had experienced such unspeakable happiness. 

 "On one occasion it happened, that I had no money about me but this piece, which I had so long and sacredly kept in remembrance of my friend. As the collectors were handing the boxes round to the different pews, I began to argue in my mind the propriety of giving away my piece, as the best way of keeping it. The thought of laying it out upon myself I could not entertain for a moment; and was aware there would come a time when I could no longer retain it. At length, to test the propriety of giving it, I supposed I had done so; and afterwards met my much-loved friend in the world of spirits. I imagined she was well acquainted with what I had done; but, on consulting her countenance, I could not perceive the least mark of displeasure: on the contrary, I thought she gave me a smile of approbation. This determined me; accordingly, when the box was presented to me, I dropped my piece into it; and from that moment to the present, whenever the circumstance has occurred to me, I have always felt perfectly satisfied with my decision. 

 "At the present I have a few choice things, bequeathed to me by a dear friend, now, I trust, in heaven; and I wish, as in the former instance, to keep them for the sake of the giver; but I can think of no means so satisfactory as that to which I have adverted. I therefore send them as specified in the margin; [Footnote: The articles were--a silver coffee-pot and stand, a silver plated tea-pot, a silver cream-jug, do. Fish-knife, and half-a-dozen do. Dessert spoons. ] and request they may be appropriated to the furtherance of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

 "Perhaps some may be disposed to question the propriety of such a mode of preserving their treasure; but, I think, I cannot do better than put the precious things to those which are most precious. 

 "With most fervent prayer for the prosperity of Zion, "I remain, Dear Sir, "Yours most respectfully. 

"My mother continues very ill; how it will terminate I know not. Heraffliction bows her down to the dust; and though she casts herselfupon the Lord, she seems to have no joyous feeling. I have been withher night and day. Sometimes sorrow overcomes me; but the promise, which I received some months since, when I was praying for her, follows me daily: _'At evening time it shall be light, '_--At theWatch-night service Mr. Wood desired us, on our return home, to takepen and paper, and testify whom we would serve. To Thee, O Lord, Iplight my vows; in the strength of Thy grace, I WILL SERVE THEE. Thou, who seest me, ratify the decision in heaven. Help me to perform whatThou requirest of me. My talents, my time, my body, my soul; be whollyThine. Amen, and amen. 

MARY LYTH. 

 Here with the closing year, I would my vows renew; Humbly before Thy throne appear; In mercy do Thou deign to hear, Descend, and bless me now. "

"1828. --When I awoke, this blessed admonition was given me for amorning repast; 'Abide ye in My love;' and sweet it was to my taste. "

 A BIRTHDAY THOUGHT. 

 No cold wish do I express, -- Many birthday's happiness; But in heart sincerely pray, God may dwell in you each day; Every day, a birthday prove, Born anew in Jesus' love. 

"I was sent for to visit L. G. , but she did not come to see me. Oh!what a deplorable case! without God! without hope! and without desire!Her friends, who had come for me, seemed concerned on her account. Lord, lay to Thy mighty hand; the work is Thine. Praised be Thy name, for opening my eyes, once equally blind, though at a much earlierperiod. I am a much greater debtor to grace, because of its longcontinuance, great forbearance, and incessant efforts to win myworthless heart. "

 MY WEDDING DAY. LINES ADDRESSED TO MY HUSBAND. 

 Full thrice seven years I've shared your home and name, Nor yet extinguished is affection's flame: By reason tempered, now with steady heat, It brighter glows, fed by endearments sweet. Hail then the day, that made us one on earth, Yet not with pipe, and song, and foolish mirth; Bather to God let us our vows repay With hearts united;--at His footstool say "We will be Thine; call us Thy love, Thy bride, And let us shelter in Thy bleeding side. " So when dissolved the matrimonial chain, We die, to live; and live, to meet again. Transporting thought! through our Redeemer's love, We have the promise of a house above; Death disappears, with all his sable train, And light, and life, and love for ever reign. Come then, my love, let us together rise, Forget the things behind, and seek the prize; By fervency of spirit daily show We pilgrims are, and sojourners below: And should some storm of fierce affliction come, Portending shipwreck in the sight of home; In Jesus anchored, strength shall be supplied, Till we the fury of the storm outride; And reach the haven of serene repose, Where all our sorrows shall for ever close. Amen, so be it, let our hearts reply, -- In Christ made one, --in Him to live and die; In life, our happiness united be, In death, divided not, --eternally. 

"I have given my husband a copy of these lines this morning, proposingthat we devote one hour for the special purpose of dedicatingourselves to the Lord. May we do it with unfeigned hearts. Ifeel humbled on account of the past; resolved at the present; andencouraged for the future. --Having occasion to administer reproof, Ispoke with greater severity than the circumstances required. O whenshall I possess that self-government, which tempers every word andaction. Though suffering from indisposition, my mind is kept in peace. Unworthy as I am, Christ is precious. "

 ADDRESSED TO MY LITTLE JOHN, THIS DAY SEVEN YEARS OLD. 

 Linked with the memories of the day, Your name the first appears; "A little stranger, " did they say, "A transient visit comes to pay, " And still we hail your longer stay Though now 'tis full seven years. 

 My lovely boy, your sojourn here, Awakens anxious care; Your tender mind aright to rear; Your steps to guard from danger near; Oh! might the God of mercy hear, And bless a mother's prayer. 

 Know then, my child, God speaks to-day, "My son, give me thy heart. " Oh! will you not without delay, In secret go to God and pray, That he would take your sins away, And His pure love impart?

 I'm sure He loves to hear you pray; To-day then, do begin; He'll hearken unto what you say, And never turn His ear away, But answer you from day to day, If you will give up sin. 

 I love you, John, you know I do; God loves you more than I; As once on Samuel, now on you He calls, O may you answer too; "Speak, Lord, " Thy servant's heart renew, For at Thy feet I lie. 

 Good children ever are inclined Obediently to live; Humble, and teachable, and kind, They wish to know the Saviour's mind, And often seek that they may find, What God alone can give. 

"As I went to meet my class it was suggested, as it was also the lasttime, 'Who hath reaquired this at your hands?' Is it from an enemy?or am I in a wrong position? The people seem to prosper, and the Lordgives me liberty among them; but often has a cloud gathered over myspirit when I have been going to meet them. O Lord, remove my doubts, and guide me by Thy counsel. I wish to sink into Thy will; use me orlay me aside; only let Thy will be done. --The last week has been tomany a season of high enjoyment; but for myself, although I rejoice inthe success of missions, my soul has not yet learned to preserve itscentre in the midst of the excitement, which on such occasions oftenfalls to my lot. Mr. And Mrs. Isaac were with us from Monday tillWednesday; and on Friday afternoon, the Yorkshire bard, JamesMontgomery, Esq. , with several other friends, was with us at tea. My mind was kept in peace, and during singing and prayer I found itprofitable. Mr. Montgomery presided at the Missionary Meeting, whichby some is pronounced the best they ever attended. Surely it was thepresence of the Great Head of the Church, which made it so. --We hada blessed season at the class. Afterwards I went to Albion StreetSchool. A class of girls retired with me into the little room, forthe purpose of conversation and prayer: while they listened the tearsstarted in their eyes. I feel deeply concerned for their salvation. The work is Thine; these souls are Thine; help me, Lord, to do Thywork faithfully; that success may follow. This morning I was muchexercised. "

 Afflictions sanctified Are blessings kindly given; They, who the fiery test abide, Receive an inward heaven. 

 That Kingdom, Lord, be mine, Just as Thy goodness wills; A heart renewed, a will resigned, A soul, that Jesus fills. 

 Then, every grace shall grow; Its fruits in beauty shine; From love shall every action flow, And all the praise be Thine. 

"I have been to see after two of my members, over whom I fear I havecause to mourn. One was gone out, yet could not come to class! Theother was in bed! I fear there is a dearth of spiritual feeling. Lord, give me wisdom and faithfulness. --After collecting for the Missions, I visited a member of mine in the hospital, and prayed with severalof the afflicted in the ward. The person, whom I went to see some timeago, is recovering, and wishes to join with us. 

"Kirkby. I arrived here yesterday about ten o'clock, after adelightful journey; and am resolved, that change of scene shall makeno difference in my religious feelings; unless, by the opportunity ofretirement, I get closer to the Lord. My hearing is a little dull, but my prayer is, that this affliction may be sanctified; and removed, when the Lord pleases. Christ in me is the source of my happiness. Ihunger after righteousness; more faith--humility--meekness--love. O how beautiful are the fruits of grace! The rich clusters ofthe heavenly vine, invite my longing taste. --Spent two nights atFollifoot, with Miss B. I went with the resolution of conversing withher on the necessity of a change of heart; and on reflection have noground of condemnation; only, I might have used greater earnestness. My time has passed more pleasantly than I anticipated. We took a walkthrough the park to the late residence of a gentleman, who has beenobliged to leave the country, in consequence of his own extravagance, and imprudence. His beautiful mansion is sinking in ruins; andloathsome reptiles are its only occupants. Such is earthly grandeur;and such the man, that makes not God his refuge. The grounds aredelightful; but for want of proper cultivation, begin to show evidentmarks of the curse:--thorns and thistles springing up in abundance. Molly accompanied me back with the grey pony; and, as she walked by myside, I warned her to flee from the wrath to come. --Walked to Pannal;here I found need of watchfulness, and courage; all--in nature'snight; blessed with earthly good; but destitute of heavenly peace. Iprayed with the family each evening; and spoke to each member, withthe exception of Mr. ----, on the need of preparation for anotherworld; but my efforts were feeble. My happiest hours have beenspent in retirement, and solitary walks; one of which, was extremelydelightful. The picturesqueness of the scenery, combined with smilingheavens, conspired to raise my mind to Him, whose forming hand hasadorned all nature, and has raised my soul from death to life. Thescene vividly called to remembrance my beloved cousin Ann; with whomon this very spot, I had passed some of the happiest moments of mylife. I felt what I cannot put into words. On my return to York, Ifound Eliza, bathing her face after the application of leeches; andMary, putting John to bed, in the measles. Such is life! It is theLord, and to His will, I would patiently submit. "

XI. 

A DYING SCENE. 

 "PRECIOUS IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD IS THE DEATH OF HIS SAINTS. "--Psalm cxvi. 15. 

How solemn, and instructive, is the scene of death! What a satire uponthe pride, pomp, and vanity of the world! and yet, when relieved bythe cheering experience of divine truth, what a blessed confirmationof all that the Bible tells us! The utterances of the dying Saint, come home to our hearts with peculiar force. It is as if the spirit ofthe departing, having reached the boundary of time, and looking forthon the unclouded scene beyond, shouted back to its companions yetenveloped with the mists and gloom of earth: "It is all true, you haveonly to follow on a little further, and the glorious prospect willburst upon you. " Mrs. Lyth seems to have carefully treasured the lastwords of those, who, within the circle of her acquaintance, diedin the Lord; and in the case of particular friends, these noticessometimes extend to several pages: as if she delighted to linger onthe borders of another world, and to catch a momentary glimpse of itshappiness, and the distant sound of the harpers, harping with theirharps. An example occurs in the course of the following extracts. 

"At the two o'clock class, many were in tears; while others testifiedof the Lord's goodness. We were, as one of the little hills of Zion, refreshed by the dew from above. In the evening I remained at home, intending, if the way opened, to go and see my cousin Elizabeth, whois very ill. John is recovering; Eliza is still unwell, but I willleave them in the Lord's hands. --A little before six, I left my cousinElizabeth much better, and happy in God. She told me that in the nightshe could scarcely refrain from singing:--

 'Here we raise our voices higher, Shout in the refiner's fire, Clap our hands amid the flame, Glory give to Jesus' name. '

"On analysing the feelings of my heart, I find a disposition tobrood over trifling grievances; this robs my peace, and encourages anunfavourable opinion of those who occasion them. This is surely someof the filthiness of the spirit from which I must be cleansed: I feelashamed of it; Lord, deliver me. --Have been to see Fanny McD. She isvery ill in body, but when asked respecting her soul, she said, 'Ihave had a feast to-day while alone with Jesus, my Redeemer. ' She isone of the Lord's jewels, like Lazarus, enclosed in a casket ofrags. After hearing Mr. Vevers preach from 'we must all appear atthe judgment-seat of Christ, ' I dreamt I saw the heavens melting withfervent heat. I felt no condemnation, but began to pray earnestly. The impression, which this has made on my mind, has awakened increasedearnestness--A stranger came into the class, who was much affected;gladly would I have travelled in birth for her, until Christ wasformed in her heart; but our time was limited, and she went mourningaway. From thence I went to Albion Street School, to converse withsome of the children; several of them wept. In the evening I attendedSt. John's Church. I can enjoy a Gospel ministry in the church, aswell as the chapel: true religion destroys every wall of partition. --Ireceived a very affecting letter from cousin Penelope. Elizabeth isin a very afflicted, but happy state. During the night I have beenwakeful, and much drawn out in prayer; but felt reproved for havingpurchased something which I could have done without. I acknowledge myweakness. May the Lord give me a deeper sense of my responsibility, as the steward of His manifold gifts. --Retired from the bustle of thecity to Eastfield House. I took a walk to the village, and calledto see Miss H. On my way to the class-meeting. We joined in socialprayer, when my friend exclaimed, 'I will believe, I do believe. ' Itwas a blessed season;--a time of the breaking of bonds. --Cousin Samuelcame with a gig, to convey me to Sinnington. I found my dear cousinready to take her flight to a better world; or as she herself says:

 'Gladly would I flee away, Loosed from earth, no longer stay. '

She has given up all, and is now patiently waiting her dismissal. Itis a privilege to sit by the bedside of one thus fully prepared, and sanctified through the merits of Christ. 'Glory be to God, ' sheexclaimed, 'though it has cost me many tears for my unfaithfulness, the Lord has forgiven me: yet I believe it will lesson that eternalweight of glory I might have had. ' Being asked if she had no wish forearth, she replied, 'O no, not one: I have but one wish, and that is, to be fully ripe for glory:' and added, 'I should like to talk to youof the preciousness of Jesus, but I cannot. ' While we were alone, shestretched out her withered arms, and drew me to her side; then holdingme fast, she said, 'Let me request of you, my dear cousin, that youwill stay a little with my sisters when I am gone: it is my dyingrequest. ' I promised I would, if possible. Could I do less? She added, 'they have no one to comfort them, and, when they are low, they arevery low indeed: it will relieve my mind if you will. ' O Thou, whose Iam, and whom I serve, direct my way. I have said, place me whereThou wilt, only let Thy providence guide my steps. --I left myWilliam poorly, and am hoping soon to hear from home: meanwhile, I amencouraged while bringing them to the throne of grace. Thank God, forthe privilege of casting my care upon Him! I feel He cares for me. Prayer by the side of my afflicted cousin has been a blessing to mysoul. Surely I am privileged:--

 'The chamber, where the good man meets his fate, Is privileged beyond the common walk Of virtuous life, quite on the verge of heaven. '

This morning, when asked how she was, she replied, 'This has been aprecious night; the Lord has promised me, He will be with me tothe end. ' Her cough was very troublesome, but she said, 'I feel nodisposition to murmur, but I cannot help moaning. The Lord is veryprecious. ' Part of the day she lay greatly composed, with her handsclasped. On entering the room she accosted me with: 'I am hard toilingto make the blest shore. I have been much harassed by the enemy, who tells me I shall be cast away; but I rest on the blood andrighteousness of Christ: I have nothing else to trust in. ' Aftera severe fit of coughing she said, 'The toil of life will there beo'er:' and again, 'Thankful I take the cup from Thee, ' &c. In theafternoon I visited old Martha H. , whom I found in a happy, andthankful frame of mind; all her cry is, 'Bless the Lord! bless theLord!' So, at both ends of the village, God is fitting up His jewels. I walked on to the churchyard, and there found as many of my oldacquaintances, as are now living in the village. I felt the solemninfluence of association with the dead. --Hearing of a poor afflictedsinner, I went to see him; he appeared to welcome my visit, butinsensible to his condition. During the night I could not sleep, butgot upon my knees, and earnestly besought the Lord to give me a clearwitness of His sanctifying power. He blessed me with a humble, settledconfidence, and sweet peace. --Cousin had a restless night; the enemywas again permitted to try her sorely; but during the day, she wasenabled to tread him down under her feet. 'I'll trust Him withmy all, ' she said, 'I'll trust Him with my all. '--The poor manabove-mentioned, sent for me, apparently in an agony for the salvationof his soul; but whether it is the fear of death and its consequences, or sorrow for his sin, how difficult to determine! I endeavoured toshow him that he was a helpless, undone sinner; and that all his hopewas in the merits of Christ: staid with him nearly two hours, duringwhich he seemed earnestly seeking mercy. I saw him again in theafternoon, but he was not in such agony. He thinks the Lord will notcast him off. The thought of the dying thief, alone, gives me room tohope. 

 Oh! would'st Thou, Lord, the veil remove, And manifest Thy pardoning love. 

But how? Only through Christ, wilt Thou exalt the riches of Thy mercyby preparing this poor sinner's heart, and snatching him as a brandfrom the burning. --Visited the poor man again, and came home thankful, that I had the opportunity to do it. He now resolves on the side ofvirtue. Oh! that his decision may be sustained by the strength of theLord!--Cousin was oppressed with sickness during the night, but hercry was; 'Help me to suffer as a Christian. '--When I asked how shewas, she said, 'I have had a sweet night-so many precious promisesbrought to my mind. Praise the Lord; 'to them that believe, He isprecious. '--Much worse, able to say little. In the evening she desiredme to pray; it was truly a blessed season. When I rose, she exclaimed:

 'We'll shout by turns the bursting joy, And all eternity employ In songs around the throne!'

'Glory be to God, cousin, we shall; yes, we shall. '--This morning Iawoke a little before three, and got upon my knees. He, who slumbersnot, was present to bless me. At ten I accompanied my friends tochapel: a blessed sermon! I was so much affected while Mr. C. Wasspeaking of the Lord's ability to deliver us from our spiritualfoes, that I could do nothing but weep for joy. My enemies seemed allvanquished, by the revelation which my faith realized of the power ofGod. 

 'Faith, mighty faith, the promise' _saw_. 

O may I never doubt again. I feel all peace, and tranquility, but noparticular joy: I perceive myself nothing; but through the blood ofJesus, I claim salvation. Elizabeth is increasingly weak, but enjoysgreat peace. She was unable to turn herself; but after an ineffectualattempt, upheld by the power of God, she exclaimed, 'Praise the Lord!I _cannot_ praise Him enough: though He slay me, yet will I trustin Him. ' This evening I overheard, 'Precious God, ' 'Salvation, ' 'MyJesus. ' Then turning her head, she said, 'Since I have been afflicted, the enemy has tried many ways to take away my shield; but the Lordhas stood by me, and I believe I shall come off more thanconqueror. '--About two o'clock we thought she was dying; she stretchedout her hand to each of us, and drew us near, to kiss her; thenshouted as loud as she could, 'Glory be to God! I am going to glory;glory be to God!' About five she revived again. One said, 'Jesus isnear, ' she responded, 'Glory, He is, He is'--I was with her from twoin the morning; she was restless, and in much pain, until about nineo'clock; when she changed for death. Conscious that she was dying, shedesired to be placed in a chair, and shouted with all the strength shehad, indeed louder than we could have supposed her capable of, 'Glorybe to God!' 'Glory be to God!' many times, until her strength wasexhausted. She breathed till eleven, and then, without moving hand orfoot; without a sigh or a groan; her happy spirit took its flight tothe paradise of God. Thus died Elizabeth Stables, in the thirty-fifthyear of her age. It had been for some time my prayer, that the Lord, if it pleased Him, would grant her an easy passage, and permit her todepart in the day-time. In this He has mercifully heard me. Beforethe crisis arrived, I felt a degree of timidity; and therefore, when Irose from my bed, I bowed myself before the Lord, before enteringthe room. He graciously dispersed my fears, and filled my heart withpeace. To me the scene of dissolution was exceedingly solemn. May mylast end be like hers!--I followed the remains of dear Elizabeth tothe grave, to which we consigned them 'in sure and certain hope of ajoyful resurrection. ' Surely this hope has preserved me from yieldingto useless tears, as on former occasions;--for I loved her. Henceforthmay it be my constant study to be found ready, that, like her, Imay triumph in the prospect of dissolution. --Visited two or threeafflicted persons in the village, perhaps for the last time: may Ifind them all again in the day of eternity. Took tea with Mrs. B. Andher daughter, whom I would gladly have persuaded to accept the offersof mercy; but the grace of God alone can affect the heart. --After anabsence of six weeks I returned home: the day was fine. Truly mercyfollows me. Through courtesy to a friend, I wounded my own soul byyielding to converse on subjects, which no way tended to promotefervency of spirit. I felt humbled in consequence, and as if I couldnot lift my heart to God; but before the close of the service, whichI afterwards attended, the Lord graciously softened my hardnessdown--melting me into tears. --I close the year fully bent upon givingmyself to God. While I write, I enjoy peace. O Thou that seest me, Thyself unseen, direct my pen, and guide me to Thyself. Here on myknees I surrender myself to Thee; if Thou discoverest any guile inme, reveal it to me, and make me wholly thine. Surrounded with Thypresence, O fill me with Thy love! From henceforth, may I dwell inthe secret place of the most High, and abide under the shadow of theAlmighty. 

 If fleeting moments silently report Each action, motive, and unuttered thought; May this fair page no added witness bring Of time mis-used, as musing thought may spring. No, rather let my muse abstracted turn; Forget to muse, and of my Saviour learn That rare humility, so highly prized By Him, who sees the heart all undisguised. From Him my subject come, my thought proceed; To Him my motive tend, my action lead: In all, I henceforth think, or speak, or do, The glory of my God be kept in view. 

"1829. --I am permitted to enter another year, but who can tell theevent? Suffice it; I can now say, I am Thine, and am resolved to formmy life, whether long or short, by Thy precepts. This morning an alarmis spread through the city--'The Minster on fire. ' 'Shall there beevil in the city, and the Lord hath not done it?' O Thou, who canstalone educe good out of seeming evil send, forth Thy light andtruth. --Visited Mrs. F----s, we had a blessed interview: Heaven shedits rays around us. Here I proved that in Jesus difference of age islost: all ages and sects can in Him unite. --The greater part of thisday has been spent in reading, praying, visiting the sick, and thepublic means of grace: all of which have been sources of profit tomy soul. How great are my privileges! I think I am stripped of alldependance upon them; but fear I do not make that improvement of themwhich I ought. Thankful I am for the decision I feel; but stand indoubt of myself, should a storm of persecution arise, whether I shouldbe able to endure the fiery test. Clouds gather round about; the signsof the times portend a season of trial; my heart, while I write, says, 'I will be Thine:' but Thou knowest how unstable I am, --Threestrangers came to the class; two of them were much affected. I want tofeel more deeply for souls, and to do every thing with a single eye. Ihave several times been to visit an afflicted neighbour, who has oftenbeen warned to put away his sins; but is yet unsaved. Never did I seefriends more solicitous for the conversion of a relative; his poorafflicted wife prays, and entreats most earnestly, with tears: it hasto me been an affecting scene. O may her prayers be answered!--Anotherweek gone; a week of mercy, warning, blessing, inward exercise, and peace. On Tuesday night, I witnessed the deathbed scene of aneighbour: dying is hard work. At the funeral on Friday these lineswere much impressed upon my mind:--

 'So live, that, when thou tak'st thy last long sleep. Dying, may'st smile, when all around thee weep:'

I quoted them amongst the friends of the deceased, and added suchwords as were given me at the time. There was a deep silence: what wasthe impression I leave; I only discharged a duty, and could only reachthe ear, but do Thou, whose instrument I am, effectually touch eachheart, and save them all. Penelope informs me, that the poor man Ivisited when in Sinnington, has begun to attend the house of God. Mayhis good desires end in sound conversion. --I visited poor Fanny; withtears of joy starting in her eyes, she said, 'Glory be to God, I feelmy soul so happy, that I would fly if it were possible. ' Truly in thishome of poverty, the power of divine grace is exemplified. I have alsoseen neighbour G. For the fourth time; it is delightful to visit her:she appears fully sensible of her state, and has received a littlecomfort; but not the clear witness of her acceptance. --In consequenceof sickness, I laid a little longer than usual; but my meditationswere sweet. For a time my mind was borne as on eagles' wings, farabove the things of earth; I seemed to breathe the atmosphere ofheaven, and to commune with Jesus in heavenly places: thisbaptism delightfully sustained my mind through the trials of theday. --Probably this is the last Sabbath of my residence in York. Somethink we are missing the path of providence: I do not know; but this Ican say, I am willing to stay, or willing to go, and earnestly desire, that the will of God may be done in me and by me, whether in public orretirement. 

 In silence, lo! I sit To hear Thy gentle voice; And lowly at Thy feet, Share Mary's nappy choice: Speak as Thou wilt, but speak within, And make my nature wholly clean. This day of hallowed joy, The day the Lord arose, Thy glorious power employ, And vanquish all my foes; To me the power of faith impart, And reign triumphant in my heart. 

Another week has elapsed, and we are still in York. O Lord, direct ourpath, and guide us by Thy counsel. I would leave all in Thy hands: Ithink I do. 

XII. 

COUNTRY LIFE. 

 "COME, MY BELOVED, LET US GO OUT INTO THE FIELD; LET US LODGE IN THE VILLAGES. "--Cant. Vii. 11. 

In the spring of 1829, Mr. Lyth retired to a country residence, whichhe had built upon a small estate, between three and four miles fromthe city. The propriety of this step, as it seemed to involve thesacrifice of many religious advantages, was by some intimate friendsregarded with grave suspicion; and it may fairly be doubted, how fara Christian man, with the view of enjoying the fruits of his industry, has a right to withdraw himself and his family from a sphere ofusefulness, and privilege, to one of comparative retirement. Can he beequally useful? Will his family enjoy equal privileges? If not let himpause, for he is under a higher law than that of self-gratification, or worldly policy: besides, his very object may be frustrated; it mayturn out, that the change from an active to an idle life, maybring disquiet instead of repose. But in the present instance, thedisadvantage was overcome by the force of christian principle. Mrs. Lyth did not relinquish her exertions in the city, while a new sphereof usefulness opened itself in the village, near which they came toreside. Twice a week, as often as health permitted, she visited thecity to meet her classes; sometimes walking the whole distance thereand back. The day was generally spent in seeing her absent members, visiting the sick, or availing herself of public, or social meansof edification. The effect of these exertions upon her own delicateframe, was painful; and, combined with other causes, occasioned, during her four years' residence at Eastfield House, frequent andsevere attacks of sickness. But we resume her own notes. 

"I came to Eastfield House, which is now to be my home during mypilgrimage on earth. Thank God, I feel I am but a stranger and asojourner. A variety of circumstances have engaged my attention, and interrupted my quiet; but when shut in from the world, to holdconverse with God, I have tasted superior pleasure. --I went early toYork, and spent the day in seeing the sick, and other members of myclasses; visiting the school, attending my band, and meeting my class. Most of these engagements were profitable to me, and I hope to others. I went out with the conviction that I was the Lord's labourer. --Myniece, Hannah, is apparently near eternity. She tells me she is happy, and I cannot doubt it; for last evening while praying with her, my faith acquired such strength, and I was so filled with love andconfidence, that when I rose from my knees, I could not help saying, 'The Lord has blessed you. ' She answered, 'Yes:' but whether atthat moment, or earlier in the day, I cannot tell. The work is theLord's. --After an affliction, of some months, and a fortnight'sconfinement to bed, Hannah has left us. For two days she wasinsensible, but the last she was remarkably tranquil, with a verypleasing expression of countenance. --My greatest joy is in communionwith the Lord and His saints: this has been a high, day; I have beenunusually assisted in speaking to the Lord's people; and many appearedto feel the power of God. At the close of the meeting, Mrs. B. Calledupon me, and we went to Mrs. Vevers', where we united in prayer; andfrom thence to Miss H. 's, where we held our little band-meeting, Mrs. E. Was much affected, but not able to lay hold of the great blessing:O for more faith. --The quarterly fast was observed in Haxby for thefirst time: I found it good to unite with them. --During the last weekwe have been favoured with the company of Mr. Mortimer, returned fromthe Shetland Islands. He retains the same Christian simplicity, andI feel it a privilege to entertain such a man under our roof. I wasbenefitted among the dear people; but my body was much wearied when Ireturned home, and the folio wing day I was very unwell: yet my mindwas peaceful. At the entreaty of my husband, I remain at home to-day;being only very feeble. O shut me not out from Thy presence; but feedme with heavenly manna. --I hail the returning Sabbath, Glory, glorybe to God, the sacred fire is kindled in my heart. Well might thePsalmist say, 'I would rather be a door-keeper in the house of my God, than dwell in the tents of wickedness' The Lord does carry on His workin my soul. Love destroys fear. God is my portion, and in Him willI trust. The week has been mixed with trial and blessing. Monday:Penelope left us, after a visit of ten days. Tuesday: Felt it goodwhile Mr. Crowther admonished us to look to Jesus. Wednesday: Ourservant left us: I had power to pray for her after she was gone. Thursday: The Lord was with us at our little meeting. Friday: Ispoke unadvisedly with my tongue, which occasioned pain of mind; butapplying to Jesus, I found access. O the condescension of the Saviour!The prayer-meeting was a blessed season. Saturday: A day of toil, butthe Lord was with me: yet I want a constant mind, that I may everymoment hold converse with my God. 'Keep thyself pure' was theadmonition of the Spirit one morning this week. May I ever rememberit. "

[The following was the dying complaint of the "Miscellany, " a littlefamily periodical, which had a brief, but happy existence. ]

 Confident, on airy wing, My vanity soared high; Like the nightingale I'd sing, And with the eagle fly. Soon my sad mistake I found; I warbling notes had none, And scarcely rose above the ground, Before my plumes were gone. Flatt'ry whispered soft and low, Of wisdom, fame, and lore; Woe is me! neglected now, The pleasant dream is o'er. Pity, then, my humble state, And if you can bestow Tears upon my hapless fate; Pray let them freely flow. 

"I have around me some who exercise my patience, and therefore needthe wisdom of the serpent, and the meekness of the dove, that I maybe preserved from offending. Last Sabbath, I was tempted to mistrustProvidence, as I had not seen a rainbow since the rains commenced; butthe following evening--accompanying my husband to York in a very heavyshower--on our left, we saw the broadest and most beautiful bow I everbeheld. I could not help thinking it infinite condescension in thegreat I AM thus to remove my scruples. --I walked to York alone: butsurrounded by proofs of divine wisdom and power, my solitude wassweet; my thoughts meandered like the river, that swept at my side. Reverting to past scenes and circumstances, I wrote with my pencil:

 If, through scenes of tribulation, Lies the pathway to the skies; Let me yield with resignation, Sure, Thy ways are always wise. 

"A friend has made application for my Sunday-class. In this matter, Ido not see my way clear; however, as I was requested to seek anotherplace for it--the old one being required for another purpose--I beganto think it was an intimation that I ought to resign, and thereforementioned the subject to my members, and left it. But calling on afriend, as I returned home, she said, 'she was requested to tell me, that Mr. H. Would be glad if I would meet the class at his house' Sothis difficulty is removed, and there the matter rests. O Lord, direct me by Thy counsel. --Providence seems to thwart my purposes: yeteverything appears either to point, urge, allure, or draw me to theskies. I find the beneficial effect of these painful dispensations;but nature struggles still, and the cry of my heart is, make me whollyThine. Two persons, whom I have visited this week, are no more. One, I doubt not, is gone to Abraham's bosom; the other I must leave, and profit by the admonition to prepare to meet my God. I have beenaccused of doing as I would not be done by; but my conscience bearswe witness to the contrary. Help me, O God, ever to act as in Thysight. --After the toils of Saturday, I was privileged with being atthe band-meeting; but when I reached Miss B's, I fainted, throughweakness and fatigue. Praise the Lord, O my soul! Is not everystroke of Thy rod a proof of love, admonishing me that I am but atenant-at-will, and may be removed at a moment's notice? Lord, makeme fully ready. --I found it good in our little village prayer-meeting, and remained with my husband at the Sabbath-school committee. Heengaged to assist; and I was constrained to offer my services oncea month to converse with the female scholars, which were readilyaccepted. --In York, I had the opportunity of visiting severalafflicted persons: one poor man was much afflicted: it was a blessedday. I have been to Wigginton to visit the afflicted Miss B. , towhom I tried to show the necessity of a change of heart, and thesufficiency of the remedy, with the danger of delay. "

 Come, heavenly Spirit, fill my breast, With holy, ardent love inflame; Breathe in my soul the perfect rest Revealed in Jesus' lovely name. Blest centre! where I find repose; My succour, when in deep distress; The only refuge from my foes; Jesus, Thy feeblest follower bless. Thy constant presence, Thine alone Can satisfy my longing soul; Supply the good for which I groan; Thy presence, Lord, shall make me whole. 

"Just as the year closes, I take my pen. How solemn! unseen by all butGod! How shall I proceed? I am a sinner; but thou art a Saviour--_my_Saviour! O praise God! unworthy as I am, unprofitable as I have been, Thy peace fills my heart: I am surrounded with God. Glory! glory!glory! a worthless worm! dust and ashes! a potsherd of the earth! yetJesus died for me. O, live in me; fit me for Thy service, that I maybe willing to do or to suffer Thy will. Let me be a whole sacrifice. Jesus is near; He is precious; He has my heart: let the unionsubsist for ever. Never let me leave Thee more; but through all thevicissitudes of life, keep me; and if I am entering upon my last year, let it be the best of all. Let the odours of the celestial world waftupon me, and invigorate my soul. 

"1830. --Midnight. The past year has been one of mingled trial, affliction, and mercy; wisely blended to bring me nearer to God. Ithink the end has been answered: I feel looser from the world, and mywill is more fully subdued. This is the Lord's doing: blessed be Hisname! I rose early, and shut myself up in my closet, and there theLord gloriously revealed himself: it was a blessed day, especially, in walking to the city; and among the dear people. --Another pieceof encouragement: our servant, who has been brought under seriousimpressions since she came to us, was last Tuesday enabled to believeunto salvation. O may I walk as God's vicegerent here; that myhusband, mother, children, and servants, may all be led to givethemselves more fully to Thee. --Our servant man cried aloud for mercyin the chapel. How and where, shall I begin to praise Thee for Thygoodness to my family? I am constrained to acknowledge, that manythings, which appeared to be against me, are now working for good. Every bitter has its sweet, and every affliction its blessing;wisely compounded, to bring me more fully to God. Last night we hada prayer-meeting in our kitchen: the spirit of prayer was poured outupon us. One soul obtained peace: and another remained upon his kneesupwards of three hours, but did not break through; yet is determinednot to rest without the pardoning mercy of God: a third was seekingpurity of heart. --Visited S. H. , fast sinking in decline. When askedthe state of her mind, she said, 'Christ is mine, and I am His. 'Blessed assurance! I spoke freely with her mother, whom I foundunacquainted with true religion. Two persons came to seek the Lord atthe prayer-meeting held in our kitchen--one obtained salvation: trulythe Lord is among us: a larger number attended than usual. --We had anumerously attended prayer-meeting, in which three bore testimony tothe saving power of Christ; they praised God with a glad heart, anda loud voice: may they become pillars in God's temple. --Many sweetmoments have I enjoyed, while engaged in domestic affairs. Thismorning, I rose to the early prayer-meeting; all nature seemed tocongratulate me, and the feathered choristers were singing their matinsong of praise. My walk to York afterwards, seemed too short, whilemusing on the love of Jesus. --In the still hour of night I have hadsome blessed seasons; but my walk is not equal: I want to live amoment at a time, and all for God. Another of my members has passedinto eternity, to join the church above. Just before she expired, sheexclaimed, 'What do I see? Glory. '--I am not going to meet my classto-day, my mother is so unwell; yet I feel a struggle as to the pathof duty: but surely in this case duty and affection are one. Lord, Iaim to please Thee; O help me for Thy name's sake. "

 SITTING BY MY MOTHER. 

 O would'st Thou, Lord, descend, My mother's heart to cheer; This unbelief to rend, And dissipate her fear: Thou glorious Sun, unveil the skies; With healing in Thy wings arise. Thy promise, Lord, I hold, _'The evening shall be light, '_-- The cloud its pinions fold, And vanish out of sight: O Jesus, come, Thy face display. And eventide is turned to day. 

"Proclamation of William the 4th. In company with some friends, I climbed to the top of Clifford's Tower, in hope of seeing theprocession; but after waiting more than an hour, I went awaydisappointed, and grieved at the loss of my time. Let me learn fromthis, always to do what I believe to be most needful; for my mind wasdissipated, and I failed to recover in the class what I had enjoyedin the early hours of the day. O how needful to keep the path of duty, and retire from the multitude. --The Rev. Joseph Agar has dies happily, at Portsmouth: of brain fever. An unusual feeling oppressed my mindon the afternoon of his departure; why, I know not. --The Rev. E. Battytook tea with us, and suggested a method of usefulness, which has forsome time been the subject of my thoughts; but to choose, or refuseare Thine: 'Thy will be done. '--I walked to Acomb to visit a friend, and on the way asked myself, why I should go; and not being able toanswer for myself, put the case into the hands of God, beseeching himto make my way plain before me; to bless me, and make me a blessing. I met with a kind reception--slept well--and rose about six with adesire to give myself to the Lord. In the afternoon I accompanied Mrs. R. To her class: it was the second time of their meeting. Mrs. R. Readthe rules; and afterwards, I endeavoured to speak a little tothem. When addressing the third, she burst into tears through thedisquietude of her soul. We knelt down to pray; and while Mrs. R. Waspleading, the woman began to praise God for what He had done for hersoul, and said she had been unhappy for years--but that now the Lordhad given her peace. We continued on our knees, and in a little whileanother person, who through unwatchfulness had gone astray, professedthat the Lord had restored her soul. The third (for there werebut three) went away, resolved not to rest until she had found theLord. --We went to invite the people to the prayer-meeting in theevening, and then visited the churchyard. There, the solemn silence, dwelling among sepulchral stones and the falling leaves, moved my soulto the consideration of my own mortality. May I so live, that I mayhear the welcome words, 'Well done. ' I feel deeply on account of myown nothingness. The prayer-meeting to-night is proposed because Iam here. I am humbled at the thought. What am I? a poor worm. Oh!wouldest Thou use a thing of nought? prepare the people, prepare me, and pour out Thy holy spirit. I was surprised at the number of peoplegathered together on so short a notice. The presence of the Lordovershadowed us, and the woman, who was seeking mercy at the class, was filled with peace and joy through believing. I felt humbled underthe sense of my own unprofitableness. --I have found retirement veryblessed: the Lord poured into my soul a heavenly tranquility. I hopethat my visit here will be beneficial to me; and that I shall learnsome lessons from the kind family, under whose roof I stay: there issuch a sweet submission to each other's will, and such a dispositionto prefer others to themselves, as is amiable, and worthy ofimitation. --My inward aspiration is, make me all glorious within, thatfrom this pure well-spring, all my thoughts and actions may flow. Ienjoy the peace of God, and for some time past, (to the glory of GodI speak it, ) I have had constant intercourse with heaven. My will ismore fully subdued, and I have increasing power to take up my cross;but the duties of life press upon me, and I am in danger of beingoverwhelmed with care. I thank Thee, O my heavenly Father, for thisdiscovery; and humbly but confidently, ask Thy protection from myfoe. --A day of unusual nearness to God:--in the Lord's house; invisiting the poor; reading the rules of society; and social prayer:although dissatisfied with my performances, I feel I have done whatI ought. --My spiritual strength has been increased by more frequentlyengaging in secret prayer. By appointment, I have daily met twofriends at the throne of grace, to intercede on behalf of ourneighbours: this has been made a blessing to my own soul. --For thefirst time, my whole family was assembled at Eastfield; but who cantell the emotions of my mind, as I gazed on one and another? I thoughtunutterable things; but wisely is the future hidden from our view. O _my_ God, be Thou _their_ God. I feel the solemnity of the closingyear: its toils and cares are fled for ever; only its comforts will berepeated, if I hold fast the blessed hope of everlasting life. "

 NEAR MIDNIGHT. 

 The year ebbs apace, Its sorrows are gone! Like one in a race, Its course it hath, run: Its events, once important, now all disappear, And time wafts us on to another new year. 

 Then let us begin, To aim at the prize; Leave earth, self, and sin, For our home in the skies: Expecting the Bridegroom will shortly appear, Let as watch his arrival--the coming new year. 

XIII. 

THE REDEMPTION OF THE PROMISE. 

 "BE NOT AFRAID, ONLY BELIEVE. "--Mark v. 36. 

"All the promises of God are in Him, yea; and in Him, amen; untothe glory of God;" then, why doubt them? since God's own honour, andfaithfulness, which are dearer to Him than aught beside, are concernedin their fulfilment. The christian believer has nothing to do with thedifficulties, or seeming delay of the accomplishment; but only withthe unfailing word of God. If you find the promise, take it, hold itfast; and, according to thy faith, it shall be done unto thee. Mrs. Lyth believed the word of God; and when a promise was applied to hermind, she did not lose sight of it; but patiently waited until it wasredeemed. More than one instance occurs in her journal, in which sherefers back to some promise, which she had previously received; andthe fulfilment of which, she was expecting. This was particularlythe case with reference to her mother's experience, who, though notforsaken, passed her latter days in mourning, being pressed down byconstant affliction, and the weight of years. Mrs. Lyth felt acutelyon this account; but, the promise given in answer to prayer, _"Atevening time it shall be light, "_ was held fast, through a period offive years. The period of its redemption was at hand. 

"1831. --'Let Thy statutes be my delight in the house of mypilgrimage. ' As my journey shortens, may the assurance of a happyreception at the end, increase: I think it does. I have a blessedconviction that, through the merits of my Redeemer, I shall seeHim without a veil between. This hope makes my spirit rejoice, whennothing external excites me. Musing on my way to the city, upon the'charity' that 'never faileth, ' and its many excellent attributes; Ifound myself deficient in that, which 'thinketh no evil. ' Under somecircumstances, I am apt to draw hasty conclusions. O forgive, and helpThy dust to be more guarded. --A friend calling in, I took up my cross, (for it was one, ) to go to the prayer-meeting; the night being dark, the roads dirty, and the place distant: but I was well repaid. Agoodly number were present, and the Lord was there. --My husband was atYork with the gig. Mr. H. Called to inform us, that in consequence ofthe wind, and drifted snow, he thought it would be impossible for himto return home. Concerned for his safety, I sent a man and horse tomeet him, and betook myself to prayer; which the Lord condescended tohear, and answer: for after my husband had forced his way through manysnow-drifts, the harness broke, just as the man met him; and he couldnot have proceeded further without assistance: so in the time of needthere was help. I could not but regard it as providential, that Mr. H. Called; and also that the man arrived at the moment he was required. My obligations to the Lord increase daily. --The twenty-fifthanniversary of my wedding day. THEN, my husband tells me, the bloom ofthe rose sat on my cheek; NOW, I am shrinking into an old woman, hairgrey, teeth gone, bloom faded, and my eyes dim: but, through the mercyof God, though my outward tabernacle is thus sinking in decay, myspiritual strength is daily renewed; the vigour of my mind is notabated; my understanding is clearer, and my faith stronger than ever. And though, by the light that shines upon my soul, I discover more ofmy natural depravity; the Lord, by his Spirit, graciously draws me tohimself, the true remedy; and blesses me with a sense of his presence. Glory be to His name for an interest in the blood of sprinkling. Hereis the source of my happiness, and all I want is here. THEN--I had afather and mother who loved and cared for me: NOW--my father is goneto his reward, and my mother is sunk in decrepitude, daily waitingher release; and I, myself a mother, have resting upon me the care andanxiety of a family; but I have inherited the promise, which descendsfrom generation to generation. THEN--I looked forward to what might bemy future portion: NOW--I look back through five and twenty years, in which goodness and mercy have followed me until now; althoughmy passage through the wilderness has all along been marked withunfaithfulness. Here my heart fills with gratitude. What shall Irender to the Lord for all his goodness towards me? THEN--I hadmany friends, who are NOW passed away; but Jesus is my never-failingFriend, and through His grace, I hope soon to meet again those, who'through faith and patience have inherited the promises. ' THEN--I hadmuch to endure and suffer; but NOW--five and twenty years of trialand suffering are over, with only one regret, that I have not sufferedmore patiently, and expected more largely from Him, who orders allthings for the best. What still awaits me is only known to Thee; butprepare me for the event, and let Thy will be done. This is my heart'sdesire, uttered I believe, in the spirit of resignation; but it isThy doing, and to Thee be all the glory. And now, I present to Theemy dear husband, and my five children: let us all be Thine--Thine toguide, Thine to save, Thine to govern, and Thine to crown. "

"Seven years ago my dear father entered into rest. "

 This day, replete with memories dear, The well-known image brings to view Of him, whose name I still revere; Whose worth till lost, I never knew. My father, (still the name is sweet!) Now in a fairer region dwells: Him gladly will I go to meet, Though wild between us Jordan swells. 

"My dear mother continues very feeble, and much of my time, night andday, is devoted to her. She suffers from manifold temptations; yet Iam encouraged to believe she will be delivered. Make no long tarrying, O my God, --Yesterday and to-day I have been severely and painfullyexercised on account of my mother: still I hang upon the word of thepromise, _'In the eventide it shall be light. _ Yesterday she said, 'The will of the Lord be done. '--She tells me this morning she enjoys_peace_. Her memory is much impaired. My mind is much distressed, butfinds its rest in God. It seems, as if by diversity of trial, the Lordwills to purge my affections. O let Thy will be done. Help me, howevernature rebels, fully to give up my own will. Blessed be God, my soulenjoys peace. 'I trust in Him, who stands between the Father's wrathand me. ' My dear mother's weakness increases; but she says thismorning, she _dare not doubt_ of going to heaven. --I sat up with mydear mother. About half-past twelve she was convulsed, and feltsick; then, she dosed a little; then sick again, --called forRichard, --wandered, --evidently changed for death, and had a severestruggle, often saying, 'Do help me, do. ' Her sufferings were acute. Once she said, 'Lord, help me;' and again, 'Hope thou in God, for Ishall yet pr----;' but the words were interrupted by her sufferings, My anguish of mind is known to Thee. As I stood by the fire the wordswere suggested, '_Thy_ warfare's past, _thy_ mourning's o'er; Look up, for _thou_ shalt weep no more. '

I was comforted. My dear husband, cousin, and Mary, found greatconsolation in prayer just before her departure. Her last words were, 'Pray, pray;' 'Lord, Lord. ' Thus, about half-past one on the 23rd ofMarch, my dear mother 'fell asleep, ' aged seventy-two years and threeweeks. "

 And though in ruin now her body lies, A peaceful smile upon her face is spread: The struggle o'er--her spirit upward flies, To join the spirits of the blessed dead. 

"My dear departed mother was interred in St. Lawrence churchyard, by the side of my beloved father; leaving the impressiveadmonition--'prepare to follow. ' I feel it--my heart determines--mywill submits--I have set about it. Lord help me to persevere. "

 LOOK UPWARD. 

 Oh! how uncertain all below! Our comforts cause us pain; Smiling, they sting us as they go, Ne'er to return again. Then upward turn thy weeping eye; Nor, like yon drooping tree, Bend downward to the earth; on high See Jesus looks on thee. Jesus! what balm is in that sound! It bids our tears away; Spreads life and happiness around; Converts the night to day. To feel Thy dying love, be mine; To hear Thy charming voice; The ceaseless whisper, 'I am Thine, ' Shall bid my heart rejoice. Dearer than sons or daughters; Thou; Dearer than mother's love; Gladly for Thee I all forego, And seek my bliss above. 

"I went to Wigginton to visit a young woman, whom I found praisingGod for having afflicted her, and brought her to the knowledge ofthe truth. To some others, I was powerfully constrained to speakrespecting their souls. --Miss Bentley came for a few days. Wevisited many of the villagers, to put them in mind to prepare foreternity. --Mr. Hope announced from the pulpit, that it was his wish Ishould commence a class in Haxby on Monday evening, at seven o'clock. The words occurred to me, 'By whom shall Jacob arise, for he issmall?' O my God, to Thee my obligations are great, and my weaknessesare all known; but if this is from Thee, bring it to pass; letthere be some token for good, some rending of heart among thepeople. --According to appointment I went to Haxby, to meet any whowere desirous of fleeing from the wrath to come. Three persons came;two of them backsliders, and one who has never met before. --Visitedseveral of the villagers. At one place I felt much while bowed at thethrone of grace. A little boy, to whom I afterwards addressed a fewwords, burst into tears. O that the Lord would poor out His Spirit, and bow their hearts to His sway! O Lord, let not my unfaithfulnesshinder Thy work. --After meeting my class in the city, I went onto Heslington to see Mr. K. , who is apparently on his death-bed. Iendeavoured to speak faithfully; but unless the Spirit of God applythe truth, vain is the help of man. I feel much out of love withmyself. --Walked again to see Mr. K. , who appears as teachable as alittle child. I feel encouraged to hope that he will lay hold uponJesus. But O how dangerous to delay until death stares us in theface!--Went to Haxby, and found only one to meet me there: but theLord met _her_, which was better than numbers without Him. O God, keepthis precious soul--this _asked-for_ token of Thy love. While sittingunder the word, the Lord made it as a broad river to my soul. 'Blessedare the pure in heart, ' was the subject. Tears of love and gratituderolled down my cheeks, and love filled my heart; for I felt myself apartaker of this great salvation. "

 Thus may I ever live, And feel the power divine; Taught by Thy Spirit to believe This full salvation mine. 

"With a painful headache I walked to York; but the satisfaction ofmind I felt in keeping the path of duty, amply repaid me. I thinka general blessing was experienced. --While pleading with God, thesewords were applied, 'I am Thy salvation. ' I felt confidence, but notall I want. I seem only on the edge of living; I want to be 'plungedin the Godhead's deepest sea. '--Six months since my dear motherdeparted! She is daily the subject of my thoughts, and her memorybecomes increasingly dear to me. Well, it is but a short separation--athin partition; my earthly tabernacle feels the force of time--itcrumbles and decays; but by faith I look for a more durablehabitation, where I shall meet those who are gone before. "

 Time rolls away--yet fresh the scene appears When my dear mother left this vale of tears; Then, sorrow stamped its seal upon my heart; Nature recoiled--but grace relieved the smart. 

"Mr. R. , discoursing on the necessity of exercising a forgivingspirit, illustrated his subject by the following anecdote:--An officerin the army lying on his deathbed, sent for one of the preachers tovisit him. On his entering the room, the sick man asked him, if heremembered that he was once insulted by a company of officers while hewas preaching in Dublin. The preacher remembered it well. He then toldhim, that he had been one of the worst of them; and had sent to askhim to pray for him, and to teach him what he must do to be saved, --ashe believed he was a dying man, and was unprepared for another world. The minister pointed him to the Saviour; and after praying with himseveral times, was about to depart, when the officer offered hima handsome present for his services. This he refused, and took hisleave. On passing through the hall, one of the servants accosted him, "What a pity my master won't see his son, and has cut him off witha shilling, although he would gladly see his father. " The ministerimmediately returned to the sick man, and repeated to him the Lord'sprayer until he came to the words, 'as we forgive them that trespassagainst us;' he then stopped, and asked him if he forgave every one. The officer paused a moment and replied, 'There is one whom I do notforgive, and cannot. ' 'Then, ' said the minister, 'neither will yourheavenly Father forgive you your trespasses. ' After some deliberation, it was agreed that the son should be sent for. He came, fell on hisknees at the bedside, and with tears in his eyes, pressed his father'shand to his lips, and begged his forgiveness. The father's relentingswere kindled: upon which the minister sung--

 'The op'ning heavens around me shine, With beams of sacred bliss; When--

'When!' cried the officer, 'nay

 _Now_, Jesus shows His mercy mine. And whispers I am His. '

"Called upon Mr. And Miss K. They had company: I was preserved fromunprofitable conversation, and dared to speak for God. On my return, I passed through the churchyard, where the remains of my dear parentsare deposited. It was a beautiful moonlight night; and I stopped toshed a silent tear over the much-loved dust, in hope of joining themagain in the realms above. Lord, help me on my way. --I went to see abackslider, whom the Lord had made willing to return. After conversinga little, we knelt down to prayer. Her husband prayed; then she began, and while confessing her sins and pleading for mercy, the Lordlooked upon her in compassion, and healed her backslidings. The sameafternoon, she came and joined herself with the people of God. "

"Alone in the room where my venerated mother breathed her last. "

 Though no famed eulogy proclaims her worth, Nor with her fellow-pilgrims ranked on earth, A higher record doth her history trace; In heaven's high register she claims a place. Retiring, and unknown or but to few, Her latter days were hid from public view; But I have often witness'd, when alone-- The prayer uplifted, and the sigh unknown. When no eye saw her, but with God shut in, She pour'd her plaint to Him, who saw, unseen; Then from the sacred word she succour drew, 'To hoary hairs I bear, I carry you. ' This promise still her drooping spirit cheered, And shed its starlight when the night appeared. Bold, in her weakness, close the foe pursued, And oft the bitter conflict was renewed; Conqu'ror at last, she calmly soared away, And left a smile upon the passive clay. 

I heard Mr. Dawson, from 'Peter followed afar off'--a season, I hope, never to be forgotten; for then Richard made up his mind to acceptthe invitation, and 'come near, ' as Mr. D. Expressed it. This to meis matter of joy and thanksgiving; for since I knew that Mr. D. Wascoming, it has been my prayer, that his visit might be made ablessing to some, not particularly thinking of my son. Thus, beyond myexpectation, has the Lord condescended to my prayer. 

 AFTER A FIT OF SICKNESS. 

 While thousands in Thy courts are found, Waiting on bended knee; Behold, in solitude, a worm, That dares approach to Thee, To me the heavenly gift impart, Thy Holy Spirit send; To fill and sanctify my heart, And bid its wand'rings end. Then health or sickness let me share, As wills eternal love; For all is well, if Thou art near, Thy creature to approve. My grateful thanks for ease I bring, And every comfort given; Nor less for sorrows, sent to wing My grov'lling soul to heaven. Great God! to Thee my wishes flow, Who dost my life prolong; Thy witness let me live below, Thy statutes be my song. 

"Ere the day broke, the Lord broke in upon my soul with the words, 'Thy sun shall no more go down, nor Thy moon withdraw itself, forthe Lord shall be thy everlasting light, and the days of thy mourningshall be ended. ' Such light shone upon the whole chapter, as filledmy soul with gratitude for the rich promises given to the people ofGod. --Called to see a man and his wife, both sick, to whom the Lordhas blessed affliction. The man was rejoicing in the Lord, and thewoman is resolved not to rest short of salvation. While we united inprayer she received some encouragement. "

XIV. 

POWER WITH GOD. 

 "FOR WHEN I AM WEAK, THEN AM I STRONG. "--2 Cor. Xii. 10. 

Do you ever receive answers to your prayers? We do not speak to those, who look upon prayer simply as an act of homage done to a superiorbeing; _they_ do not expect any: but to those, who believe that prayerhas power with God. Why are so many prayers ineffectual, even of thosewho really expect an answer? Some lack _earnestness_; they are toodiffusive, like the letter of the young maiden, in which she asks ahundred questions, which are forgotten as soon as she has attached theseal. Others want warmth; they are too formal, like a petition to asovereign; which may, or may not, receive a gracious and condescendingreply. Others are importunate, and earnest enough, like the beggar'sappeal for relief, but without much hope of success. But how few, like the cry of a child, who runs to his father with his one, forthe moment, all-absorbing request, never dreaming of a refusal, andimportunately urged till he succeeds. Yet such is the spirit of filialaffection and confidence we are privileged to use before God. For"This is the confidence we have in Him; that if we ask any thingaccording to His will, He heareth us; and if we know that He hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions, that we desiredof Him. " Mrs. Lyth's distinguishing feature, was her love of prayer. It was, to use her own words, "the life of her soul, her delight, hergreatest joy;" and her practice bore out the truth and sincerity ofher words. Besides her own stated hours of private devotion, whichwere frequent, it was her practice for many years to conduct familyworship three times a-day. But beyond this, innumerable occasionspresented themselves, which stimulated her thirsting soul. The call ofa friend, or the arrival of a letter; the prospect of a journey, ora safe return: the recollection of a promise, or the reception ofa blessing; a wakeful night, or a sunny day; in a word, whateverstrongly impressed her spirit as a subject of thanksgiving, oran object of desire, was to her the signal for prayer. And notunfrequently, engagements were entered into with her intimate friends, to offer at given times, special intercessions for particular objects;engagements, which were faithfully fulfilled. This ceaseless spiritof prayer was the source of strength; for, though naturally of a timidand retiring disposition, "As a prince she had power with God andman, and prevailed. " These remarks, a careful reader will find fullysustained by her own journal. 

"1832. --Sent a letter to M. W. O may it be blest to her! M. W. Was at theclass, and seemed thankful for the admonition. --I went to the villageon the Lord's errand, _praying_ He would make my going prosperous; Hegraciously inclined one friend to accompany me to Mr. B. 's class--I amencouraged to hope there is a work of grace upon her heart: O that itmay prove lasting! In visiting one of my members, I found there wasno family-prayer. We prayed together, and on her knees she appeareddeeply to mourn her neglect, and promised the Lord to do better. In two or three other little visits, I found the Lord among Hispeople. --Had a precious interview with Mrs. Benjamin A. : our soulswere melted before the Lord. O how the world was eclipsed, while ourfull hearts were aspiring after God! I feel the effect still. --Howlike a dream is life! we view the scene, and ere we are aware, itis gone for ever; but to every moment is attached the importance ofeternity. After a sharp fit of sickness, how sweet is ease! yet theseseasons are blessed to me, inasmuch as they lead me to look moreclosely into scripture declarations, respecting the blessingsassociated with patient endurance. My soul seeks shelter in the secretplace of the Most High. --Heard a faithful sermon from Mr. R. : I alwaysprofit under heart-searching sermons, as they discover the secretlurkings of nature. I feel the importance of endeavouring to enlargethe powers of my mind, since I am accountable to God for theirimprovement. I regret, that I have spent so much time to such littlepurpose. Whither shall I go? To whom shall I flee? My heart says, 'Mould as thou wilt thy passive clay;' prepare my work, and by Thygrace helping me, I will put my neck under Thy yoke. Give me Thyabiding Spirit, that in my age I may bring forth fruit to Thy glory;enlarge and fertilize the powers of my mind; and teach me to cultivatethe talents Thou hast given me. To aid my recollection, I here writethem down: time, health, powers of mind--as memory, understanding, &c. ; powers of body--as tongue, hands, and feet; money. --I went to seea dying man, but was denied. However, I knelt down with his wife, andseveral others who were present, feeling deeply concerned for theirsouls. --My body is very feeble, yet I wish to be fully resigned to thewill of God, even should I be entirely laid aside; for, --thank God, --Ifeel no disposition to repine at the dealings of providence. I onlyregret that I have so little improved my health and opportunities, for my own benefit and the good of my fellow-creatures. --Increasingsymptoms of weakness; but the joy of the Lord is my strength: my soullongs after Him. --To-day I sent a note to the chapel, to announcethat our house would he open for prayer at two o'clock; earnestlyrequesting the praying friends to come, and bring with them any oftheir neighbours, who were desirous of fleeing from the wrath to come. At the appointed time nine persons came; and while we were united inprayer, I enjoyed the softening power. "

 The cheerful breeze, and sunny ray, Pour on the earth the sweets of day; The blushing rose, and lily vie With the carnation's deeper dye; The dappled cloud, and welkin blue, With lights and shadows ever new, In language loud to me declare, Lo! God is here! and God is there! Here--in His handy work, I see His wisdom, skill, and majesty; There--His sublimer glories shine-- God over all, in all, divine!

"Mr. And Mrs. Isaac came. The ravages of disease were painfullyevident in him; and on the following morning while breakfastingwith us, he had another attack of paralysis. So uncertain is allon earth. --On my return from Sinnington, as I was sauntering in thestreets of Malton, expecting to meet my husband, a person tapped me onthe shoulder, and asked me if I was not Richard Burdsall's daughter, and being answered in the affirmative, pressed me to dine with him. So'the memory of the just is blessed. ' I have enjoyed a sweet calm, andprayerful spirit. 

"Acomb. --Visited some of the dear people, among whom I was muchencouraged. At the prayer-meeting Mr. R. Requested me to speak to aperson, whom he believed to be seeking the Lord. With some reluctanceI did so. When I addressed him, he said, 'O I am miserable, there isno mercy for me. ' I bid him pray; immediately he began to cry aloud, and obtained some comfort, but not confidence. --Had a very profitableinterview with Mrs. C. , and from thence went to the chapel. Therethe glorious Lord was as 'broad rivers and streams' to us. I felt theoverwhelming power of saving grace. About _half-past ten_ I retired torest; and while engaged in prayer, was drawn out on behalf ofseveral friends, and especially for the young man, who was so deeplydistressed on Friday evening. Thus the Lord puts us in mind of ourfellow-pilgrims, and teaches us to care for each other. --This morningthe young man sent for Mr. R. , wishing to see him, and to inform himof the happy change wrought in his heart by the Spirit of God. Mr. R. Being out, an interview was fixed for the afternoon. He came, and therapture he was in exceeded anything I ever witnessed. He stated, thaton the preceding night he retired to his own room about _ten o'clock_;took his Bible, and on his knees at his bedside, was praying tillabout _eleven_. When he came to the last verse, 'He that believethon the Son of God hath life, ' &c. , he resolved within himself, I willbelieve: and immediately the power was given him. He rose from hisknees 'rejoicing with a joy unspeakable, and full of glory;' and wentdown stairs to tell his fellow-servants, that he had found the pearlof great price, and how easy it was to believe: wishing them to sharein the blessedness he felt. He added, 'O praise the Lord, O my soul!''My soul doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit rejoiceth In God mySaviour!'--After meeting my class in the city, I started home, notintending to visit the absent members: but being deeply pressed inspirit I returned, and calling upon one and another, found one in deepsorrow. I feel thankful I obeyed the inward impulse. --Saw old Fanny, laid on the bed of affliction, and surrounded with poverty; butpraising the Lord. She said, 'Praise the Lord, I feel Him precious!Glory be to God, my prospect is as clear as noonday! I can meditateupon His goodness, when I am by myself, in the night season: yet theenemy tempts me sometimes. '--During the last week family dutieshave been privileges. While hearing the word read, and addressing myheavenly Father in prayer, the streams flowing from the Rock Christ, have refreshed my spirit. --Prevented from meeting with the dearpeople, I betook myself to prayer. Here I felt humbled, and melteddown while pleading for them, myself, and mine. Thus to be shut inwith God is sweet; but what must it be to enjoy the unclouded gloriesof His presence?--being 'changed from glory to glory. '--O my God, give me a fuller discovery of Thyself; and though outwardly dull ofhearing, let me hear Thy inward voice continually whisper in my heart, 'I am Thy God, Thy shield, and Thy exceeding great reward. ' I havetwice to-day joined with His worshipping people, but in neither caseexperienced what I have felt to-night, while pouring out my soulbefore the Lord. Stripped of every plea, I hang upon Jesus. ThroughHim alone my succour comes. --Though weak in body, the morning damp, and the roads dirty, I got to chapel, where I was amply repaid by adiscovery of my obligations to the Lord, for having been taken to thehouse of God from the earliest period of my life; the privilege beingcontinued, with, a few intervals of necessary correction, until now. I felt myself more indebted to God, and more culpable than any presentfor the little improvement I have made of my privileges; but my heartwas melted down in gratitude and love. --On the verge of the old, andthe threshold of the new year. Solemn thought! perhaps I now stand onthe verge of eternity! How stands my case in the sight of God? On whatdo I build my hope, and what is my confidence? After close examinationI can say, I rest on nothing but the atoning merits of Jesus. I feelHis mercy now. "

 "1833. Again from sickness raised, to Thee Afresh my vows I plight; While God in everything I see, Sickness or health is right. 

 Thou canst not err; 'Thy will be done, ' Be full submission mine; Subjected to Thy will alone, My will be lost in Thine. 

 These kind corrections from Thy hand, Shall blessed ordeals prove; To bow me to Thy mild command, And melt me into love. 

 My soul shall bless Thee for the past, And rest upon Thee now; The future--on Thy promise cast, And wait Thy will to know. "

"I have been kept at home to-day through indisposition; but haveendeavoured to improve my time to the Lord by prayer, the exerciseof my memory, writing, --reading the Word, and also 'Bickersteth'sStudent's Guide:' but imperfection is stamped upon all I do. --The lastnight was very tempestuous, and awoke me from sleep. I got uponmy knees and found my security in Him, who holds the, winds in Hisfists. --I have received letters from my three sons. How pleasant aresuch communications! How my heart would embrace them all! and wouldnot God embrace _us_ all? Yea, how much more? O my slowness of heartto believe! A friend from the village called; and conversing on thelow state of spiritual feeling among us, we agreed to make the caseknown to God every forenoon at half-past ten. --At the appointed hour Ifelt the throne accessible, and my soul was revived and stirred up:as to the village, I know not what to say. --Praise God, my soul ishappy--happy still. My appointment was brought to my recollection verynear the moment: my own soul was refreshed, but I experienced littlefeeling for my neighbours. --Half-past ten: a blessed softening season;felt the village laid as a burden upon me, for which I had power toplead. [These memoranda are continued, and the voice of intercessionwas not in vain; for within a short time, thirty new members wereadded to the little village society]. "

 TO MY MARY. 

 Why does my Mary look so sad, And wear a pensive air? Where can the antidote be had To banish gloomy care?

 Say, why your spirits sink and droop; Will Jesus not return? Arise, He calleth you, look up; O'er you His bowels yearn. 

 No sorrow can the bosom feel, But Jesus' love can cure; The wounded spirit He can heal, The fainting heart assure. 

 The humble, contrite sinner shares His kind, observing eye; He sees your tears, He hears your prayers, And will regard your cry. 

 Arise, and shake you from the dust, Arise, 'He calleth _you_;' With filial boldness dare to trust, And find His promise true. 

 So gloom and sadness shall retreat, And peace and joy return; For while you sit at Jesus' feet, Your heart with love will burn. 

"Saw a letter from dear little John, informing his sister that he, with others of his school-fellows, has entered the Methodist Society. He is just about the same age I was, when I received my first ticket;and from connexion with this people my name has never been erased, though hundreds of times I have not deserved the privilege ofmembership; but the people have borne with me, and more than this, God has borne with me, even till now. Glory be to God for ever!--Somestruggle through life, and through successive years, are tossed onstormy seas; others more calmly pass their appointed time; but such asdie in infancy, fly as a bird to its rest, and are privileged with anearly entrance into glory. So happy was James R. , who careless of allbelow, smiled, and bid the world adieu. --Had an interview with Mrs. B. A. We found it good to be at the feet of Jesus. I told her that Ithought of resigning my Sabbath class, that I might turn my attentionmore fully to the village. We agreed to bring it before the Lord fora fortnight, to ask his direction. --I have written eight copies ofMr. Stoner's 'Rules for Prayer-Meetings. ' and given them to ourprayer-leaders. At the time of distribution, a circumstance occurred, which, though distinct from them, yet happening at the same time, will possibly be connected with them in my future recollections, andoccasion mingled feelings. --Delivered my Sabbath class-book to Mrs. A. , who, in connexion with Mrs. C. , has kindly relieved me, for thepresent, of a responsibility, which, under existing circumstances, Ifeel it right to decline. 

"Acomb. --Accompanied Mrs. E----n to see several of the friends, whowere sick. Called upon Mr. M. , whose housekeeper died suddenly thenight I came; he seemed pleased with, our visit, and promised to jointhe people of God. Lord, help him to perform his promise, by takingpossession of his heart. --I got to the morning prayer-meeting, and wasunusually drawn out in prayer as I went, that the Lord would he withus and bless us; and not in vain. It was a blessed season, and Ibelieve others felt it also. O that the Spirit from on high maybe poured out, that Satan's kingdom may have a mighty shake thisWhitsuntide!--I felt it my duty to call upon a neighbour or two, who, as I am informed, think themselves insulted by some, who wishedfaithfully to discharge their duty, in a matter of church discipline. I went in the character of a peacemaker, and after conversing withthem on the necessity of seeking a higher state of feeling, we prayedtogether, and felt liberty. O that in good earnest, they may beginto seek the Lord! I told them that, in my poor way, I should rememberthem. Lord, lay them upon my heart, that I may not forget. To-nightmy soul is truly happy in God. I feel much drawn out in prayer thatSatan's kingdom may fall, and the religion of Jesus prevail in thisvillage. --I felt it unusually sweet to bow before the Lord in secret, and bear up my neighbours at His throne, I felt

 'The speechless awe that dares not move, And all the silent heaven of love. '

"My best seasons have been in retirement. Called upon some of my sickneighbours, and aimed to please God in all my visits. O Lord, followwith Thy blessing my weak efforts! Quicken the lukewarm, andpardon the guilty. I was glad to see some new faces at the eveningpreaching. --Met with my friends in band, and proposed meeting everyday at two clock, to entreat the Lord to deepen His work in our souls;and especially, to hear us on behalf of our friends. --My soul wasblessed, while bowed before the Lord with my little John. Surely theSpirit of prayer was poured upon us. --Went to J. S. To tell him of hisfaults, which, I am sorry to find by his own confession, supply justground for censure, though exaggerated by report. Yet I did not feelthat sweet Christian pity, which I have felt to others in similarcircumstances. O for that yearning charity, that endeavours to drawout of Satan's snare the souls entangled by him!--Called to see mymuch esteemed friend, Miss C. , who is sinking through decay of nature. She says, 'I look for the accomplishment of the promise _now_;'and speaking of the Lord's Supper, she said, 'I do not think anyparticular preparation is necessary; because, if we do not always liveready to communicate, we are not living as we ought. ' When prayer wasproposed, she said, 'Pray that I may have increase of faith, patience, and resignation. '--I addressed a note to Richard on the subject ofsalvation, and placed it where he might find it accidentally. AskedMrs. R. To let me have a prayer-meeting in her house on Sabbathafternoon; she readily consented. O that God would meet usthere!--With a feeble body, I set forward to the prayer-meeting;inviting as I went some, who seldom attend. Met with one whom I hadnever seen before, who seems desirous of salvation, and was glad toaccompany me. There the Lord met with us. One soul was made trulyhappy, and another rejoiced in the Lord, having received good the weekbefore. It was indeed a blessed season; but my poor body was presseddown with pain, which rendered it necessary for me to lie in bed tillMonday evening. --The two who have lately found peace, came to ourhouse; we conversed, prayed with them, read the rules, and gave themeach a copy. O bless my feeble efforts!--In answer to prayer, I awokeat five o'clock and arose, and though my body is weak, my spirit isalive. --I am this day going to attempt the formation of a new class, having secured a place in the village to meet in. I leave the resultwith the Lord, who knows my heart, and the hearts of the people. Emptyme of self, and if Thou canst, use me for Thy glory, and give me aproof that I am not going a warfare at my own charge. Visiting someof the villagers, I felt that I was on the Lord's errand, and thinkI lost sight of self. O might it never more steal in! At half-pastthree, I went to friends R. , who have kindly offered a room to meetin, and have also given in their names to meet with us. The two youngwomen, who have lately witnessed a good confession, also joined withus, making four in all. O write each name in heaven!--This eveningthirty new members were admitted on trial. What a privilege to benumbered with God's people! But when I remember that the Lord isa wall of fire round about them, I wonder that I am not more inearnest. --I found the throne easy of access. I believe the influencein our little meeting was general. What enjoyment has the world toequal communion with God?--Increased communion with God. I was atthe prayer-meeting in the morning, and afterwards called upon severalpersons, to whom I endeavoured to speak faithfully; but who regardsit? Lord, I leave my feeble efforts with Thee. I write, and why?because the review of God's mercies proves a stimulus; and often, while committing to paper the Lord's dealings with me, His love flamesbrighter on my heart. "

 ALL SHALL BE WELL. 

 If Jesus be with me, when sorrows assail, And floods of affliction against me prevail; His countenance lifted, my passions shall still, And all shall be well, while I suffer His will. 

 If crosses perplex me, and perils surround, Repose in my Saviour, my foes shall confound; No weapon shall prosper, or cause me to fear, But all shall be well, while His presence is here. 

I repaired to Mrs. R. 's to meet the dear people; every part of my wayseemed doubtful, but the Lord was graciously with me. We were eightassembled, and a blessed influence rested on us. Some were earnestlyseeking pardon. --Had a deeply interesting interview with Mrs. B. , whois depressed on account of worldly circumstances, and wants confidencein Him, who has commanded us to cast 'all our care upon Him. ' I felt aspirit of sympathy, and the Lord poured upon us the spirit of prayer;our hearts melted, and our months were filled with arguments. --Prayerhas been very sweet to me; I have increased power to rest upon thepromises, and through Christ to claim them. Yet in myself, I discoversuch a depth of vileness, that, when I think of the amazing love ofGod to me, my soul is humbled and adores. Tears of gratitude overflowmy eyes, that God--the God of Gods, should condescend to such a wormas I. --By a letter from my Richard to his father, I am encouraged tobelieve the Lord is again working upon his mind. It caused tears ofjoy to run down my cheeks, and on our knees we united together tothank the Lord. May the good be permanent. --At my own bedside thespirit of prayer was so abundantly given, that I could scarcely ceasepleading for my children, _especially Richard_, --I welcome the returnof the Sabbath. Nature, even at this advanced season of the year, exhibits an unusual degree of verdure; and invites me to adore theRuler of times and seasons, who confers such rich and ceaselessblessings on rebellious man, --even upon me, the most undeserving;for by divine light I see that everything I do is defective; yet, bysimply venturing upon Christ in prayer and faith, I receive peace andpower. I have received a very pleasing communication from _Richard_, describing the anguish of mind through which he has passed on accountof sin; and informing me, that he has come to the cross and obtaineddeliverance through believing. He says, 'Whereas I was once blind, nowI see. ' On this account my soul rejoices. 'O for a heart to praise myGod. ' Our removal to York is now fixed to take place in three months(God willing). So uncertain is everything upon earth. Fix Thou thebounds of our habitation, and encamp round about our abode, and allshall be well. 

XV. 

THE RETURN. 

 "TO SEE THY POWER AND THY GLORY, SO AS I HAVE SEEN THEE IN THE SANCTUARY. "--Psalm lxiii. 2. 

Of all deprivations, none is so great, or as painfully felt by atruly devout soul, as the loss of religious ordinances. With whatdeep pathos does the Psalmist lament his long exile from the scene ofsolemn rites and holy sacrifice!

 'How amiable are Thy tabernacles, O Lord of Hosts! My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth For the courts of the Lord; My heart and my flesh crieth out For the living God. '

He envies the birds of the air, that free and unfettered, build theirnests hard by the temple of his God, while he, a banished man, mustseek a refuge in the wilderness. 

 'Yea the sparrow hath found an house, And the swallow a nest for herself, Where she may lay her young; Even thine altars, O Lord of Hosts, My King and my God. '

Mrs. Lyth loved the habitation of the Lord's house, and deprecatedthe prospect of separation from its privileges, which was renderedextremely probable by her increasing weakness. Eastfield House wasabout a mile from the village, and between three and four from York. In case of decided failure of health, she would not only have beencut off from active usefulness in which she delighted, but entirelyexcluded from christian ordinances. With the view of a little relief, she had already relinquished one of her classes in the city, andturned her attention more exclusively to the village; but now therewas every likelihood that she must soon give up the other. Thesecircumstances, with some others of less moment, determined thepropriety of a removal back to York. Shortly before this took place, in one of her walks thither, for the purpose of meeting her class, acircumstance transpired which is worth relating. She met on the roadan odd old man, whose extraordinary appearance made him, at that time, well known in York and its vicinity. At one time above the averagestature, he was now bent nearly double with age, and hobbled alongwith two sticks. A huge bunch of the old fashioned matches, attachedby a string to his neck, hung down before him, and was sufficient signof his occupation; while a long white beard, reaching well nigh tothe ground, completed the singularity of his appearance. This latterappendage was, however, conveniently made to take off and on atpleasure. He was fabulously reported to be a hundred and twentyyears old; and there was little doubt that he, and also his wifewho sometimes accompanied him, were on the eve of celebrating theircentenary, if they had not already done so. When Mrs. Lyth met him, she was strongly impelled to speak to him on the subject of religion;but being alone, and a little timid, she passed on. When she hadproceeded about a hundred yards, she felt so much pained withthe omission of her duty, that she hastened back, and faithfullydischarged her conscience. We need only add, that the old man and hiswife began to attend the chapel, and ultimately became members of Mr. Lyth's class. The old man got rid of his beard and his sins together, and, about two or three years later, both died in the hope of eternallife. 

"1834. --Able to go to the village. Called to see Mrs. B. , who seems tohave a desire to be saved, but has to contend with great affliction. Another proof of the importance of seeking the Lord in health. Poorold Mrs. L. Is much altered, and did not recollect me. So mutable andperishing is man. On reviewing the day, I think I have been aimingto please God; but my performances are so poor, that I have need tohumble myself before God. --I got to see Mrs. R. , most probably forthe last time. She is apparently near the close of life, and patientlywaiting the will of God. From thence I went to visit M. H. In thecounty hospital, but as dinner came in, I left her to see Mrs. W. , whois in a precarious state, and much encumbered with worldly care. Herethe Lord gave me power of utterance, and the spirit of prayer. --Aftersix days spent at Acomb, I returned home much out of love with myself. My visit on the whole has been pleasant. With and without my friends, I have visited many of the inhabitants. In some cases I have derivedprofit; but in others, I have had to take up my cross: yet I have hadbut one aim--to do, and get good. --I went to meet the dear people, but I was so overwhelmed by a dull pain in my head--accompanied withdrowsiness, that I thought, how shall I speak to them? but the Lordgraciously removed the indisposition, and blest my soul. --The Rev. Daniel Isaac departed this life, after a lingering illness. Hepreached his last sermon in Haxby, and paid his last visit to ourhouse; but the place that knew him shall know him no more for ever. Sowill it soon be said of me. --Jesus hath broke the bars of death, and opened paradise. In visiting, I was much refreshed. Tears ofcontrition rolled down the face of Mrs. L. And Mrs. E. One was addedto the little class. All were present, and I felt loath to take leaveof them; but so it must be. Thos. Y. Will now take charge of them. Thus ends my career in Haxby. And after the toil and trouble ofremoving, I am now comfortably seated at Grove Terrace. To Thee, theblessed Donor of all I enjoy, would I render thanks. I have writtenan address to my Haxby members. --The division of my little class seemsnow to be working well. O Lord behold and come, visit this vine; letits young and tender branches twine round about Thee; yea, let thewhole be baptized with the Holy Ghost!--The last moments of thisbeautiful month (May) will soon have past for ever; but the recordwill remain, when the angel shall stand, 'one foot on the sea and theother on the land, and swear that time shall be no longer. ' Solemnthought! I feel the importance of it, and the necessity of beingclothed upon, with the righteousness of Christ. Well, I have got intothe stripping-room. O for a full abandonment of self, a full givingup! Praise God, my heart yields, and distrusting itself, lays holdof Jesus by faith. I feel solicitous for the spiritual and temporalwelfare of my family, especially my two eldest sons. My resolve is tocast my care upon God. I feel power to leave them in His hands, andbelieve He will work on their behalf. --I opened my Bible, and my eyewas caught by the words, 'Can God furnish a table in the wilderness?Behold He smote the rock, that the waters gushed out, and the streamsoverflowed. Can He give bread? Can He provide flesh for His people?'It appeared a broad answer to a conversation we had the nightpreceding. I was encouraged to lay hold on it. --Only indisposed, butmade myself worse by going to the leaders' meeting, as it came onrain. In this, O Lord, forgive my rashness, for such it was, anotherhaving kindly offered to go for me. --Quite laid aside with sicknessand pain, yet saved from murmuring, and just patience enough. The Lordis wise, and long-suffering in all His dealings with me. I have to-dayreached my fifty-second year, and though in the school of affliction, am patiently watched over by the kindest of instructors. Oh! theunbounded love of my unwearied, though oft offended God!

"Sinnington. It is a week since my husband brought me from Scarbro'to this place, where my health is improving, and my opportunitiesof retirement are less interrupted. My mind has been more stayed andrecollected, and I enjoy greater peace. I am learning to come directto Jesus, who is ready to hear the cry of those, who need His help. Being secluded from the world, I want to secure some advantage, thatwill appear in after time. I am reading Mr. Watson's Life, some partsof which I find profitable. --In consequence of pain in my head, it hasbeen thought advisable to call in a physician; but I would not trustin man, nor make flesh my arm; nevertheless it is right to usethe means, and God can give His blessing. Since my return from thecountry, many cares and exercises have been my portion; but, knowingthey are the appointments of my heavenly Father, it is in my heart topray, 'Thy will be done. '--My two friends, B. And R. , who enjoy greatnearness to God, came to join with me in interceding for my dearfamily, three of whom are about to leave home, and go into the world. They were in a blessed frame of mind. --My Mary gave her hand to Mr. Jackson. The night previous, pressed with the solicitude of a mother, my sleep departed from me. I was deeply prayerful; my spiritualfeeling increased, and I was truly blessed, while I frequentlyrepeated with my heart the following lines:--

 Jesus, Saviour, condescend At this marriage to attend; For Thyself each heart prepare, Grant that all Thy love may share. Come, thou great expected guest, Come, and enter every breast; Lest the subtle foe steal in, Screen us with Thy guardian wing. 

(Early in the morning her daughter entered the room, and begged her topray for her. She readily consented, and embracing her, said, 'I havebeen praying for you from retiring until daybreak. ') The morning waspropitious; and while Mr. C. Read the twelfth of Romans and prayed, the presence of the Lord was among us. --William started for Sheffieldto seek a new situation, I trust under the care of God, having thenight before commended him, by united prayer, to the kind Providenceof our heavenly Father. For many days I have enjoyed the soul's calmsunshine; yet, I feel it is of mercy, not of works. Jesus' bloodis all my plea. Praise God, who, through the vicissitudes of thiseventful month, gives me tranquillity of mind. Now, I am anticipatingthe return of Richard to London, to secure his diploma; so thatthree out of four leave the paternal roof this month. With respect toRichard, my mind is impressed with far more cheering hopes, thanwhen he went last year. Then, fallen from his steadfastness, he waswandering upon the dark mountains; but now, returned to the Lord, heis sensible of his obligations, and wishes to make some return. Lordmake me grateful for this proof of Thy love, and make my Richard aburning and shining luminary, wise to win souls. --Went to the HaxbyMissionary Meeting; but to me all was disappointment. Some whoprofessed much friendship when I left them, looked very cool; some Iwished to see, I saw not; the chapel not full; no missionary-boxes, although I know of four in the place; the collection not half theamount of last year; the speeches did not profit me; perhaps I did notkeep the path of duty, for I left my class to be met by another, andneglected seeing one who expected me. I was grieved with myself; and, with a burdened mind, bowed my knees and poured out my complaintsbefore God, who listened to my cry and sent me help, melting medown before Him, and making me willing to be more obedient infuture. --Visited Mrs. C. Again; she said, 'I feel happy. LastThursday, after you were here, I pleaded with God, until the wordswere applied--

 'Believe, and all your sins forgiven, Only believe, and your's is heaven. '

I thought surely this is for me, and felt I could believe it was;'and then came the words, 'when thou passest through the valley of theshadow of death, I will be with thee;' and I believe it. ' My heartrejoiced with her. --Being indisposed, I commenced a letter to myfriends in Acomb, when, just as I completed one side, Mrs. R. Andlittle Charles came in, and glad I was to see them. She told me, thata friend of her youth who moves in high life, having been awakenedto a sense of her sinful condition, had sent to her repeatedly foradvice. Feeling interested for her, she requested me to unite with herin pleading at the throne of grace; to which I acceded, knowing thatit is not a vain thing to call upon God. The appointed times are everyTuesday, at half-past nine in the morning, and half-past nine in theevening. This is recorded to aid my memory. Aid us by Thy Spirit, orour efforts will be vain. --The engagement, though not at the exacttime, was remembered, and I entered a little into the business. MissC. Came to request me to meet a lady at their house, who is convincedof her lost condition. With some diffidence, from a sense of my ownunfitness, I accompanied her, and conversed with the lady on the dawnand progress of a work of grace in the heart; lent her 'Fletcher'sAddress, ' and after Mrs. C. And I had prayed, we parted. But knowingthe good that is done on the earth, the Lord doeth it, I have made itmatter of earnest prayer, for she is much laid upon my mind. This, I believe, is pleasing to God, and the rather, as this morning onopening the word of God, I saw how Ezekiel was humbled before the Lordfor the people of Israel and Judah. --Being in health, I went forth, praying for direction and the blessing of God. Some kind friendsgave me twenty-two shillings to help a poor member. This I took; shereceived it thankfully. Visited Mrs. C. , she is able to rest in God. Called on Mr. S. , and left 'Fletcher's Address;' also upon Mrs. D. , and left a copy of the same. O that the Spirit may do his office!Why do I speak thus? He waits to enter: may they be willing toyield. --Went to Pocklington to see Mrs. P. There I met with E. Brookes, Esq. His private walk bespeaks him a devoted man. I esteemedit a privilege to lodge under the same roof. My journey has been blestto both body and soul; having acknowledged God, my way was made plain, and His presence has comforted me. I returned home in Mr. B. 's gig. I had not arrived many minutes, before Miss H. Came to converse onspiritual things; I thought it providential that I came at thetime: but who is sufficient for these things? O bless the dear youngdisciple! Mrs. D. Has received good, indeed her countenance indicatedthe change. She told me she purposed commencing family-prayer in theevening: one mark of genuine conversion. --I had a very profitableinterview with a lady, who came to converse on divine things. How manyopportunities have I missed, which might have thus been employed toadvantage. 'My mouth as in the dust I hide. '

"1835. Able to meet my class: seventeen present. A fresh member turnedin, and appeared sensible of her lost condition. My soul felt thatpainful struggling with the powers of darkness, which I have oftenexperienced when knelt by the side of a seeking sinner. As the peoplewithdrew, a little girl was waiting for me to go and see her mother, who is much worse. I found her supported in bed by a neighbour, theperspiration streaming down her face. She held out her hand to me, andtold me Christ was precious. By-and-bye a whisper was heard, 'I'll praise my Maker while I've breath. '

Her voice failed. While I prayed, angels seemed hovering around. Isaid, you do not feel any doubt; she replied, 'No; I rest upon thepromise. ' She died the next day. --My mind was deeply impressed withthe thought of eternity, occasioned by the sound of the passing bell. 

 How leaden falls the deep-toned sound! The heart is with its weight oppress'd; A soul has cross'd life's narrow bound, A soul--for ever lost or blest. 

 For ever! what a word is this! Ye careless mortals, be it known; In everlasting woe or bliss, This word, for ever! is your own. 

 Momentous thought! I feel it now; This long eternity is mine: My soul shall this duration know, -- A quenchless spark of life divine!

When I retired, I besought the Lord to awake me, and give me healthto go to the six o'clock prayer-meeting. In this, He condescended toanswer me; but my body inclined to rest. For a moment, I listened;but my prayer and promise occurred to me, and durst I thus offendthe Lord? I rose, conferring no longer with flesh and blood, and wasabundantly repaid. The peace of God overflowed me as a river, andwhile I write the effect remains. My soul was much drawn out on behalfof some of my unconverted relatives. A little after we had risenfrom our knees, one of them came in, and I seized the opportunity ofpressing upon him the necessity of a change of heart. --The spirit ofprayer was given to me in an unusual degree, especially on behalf ofmy dear son, who believes himself called to the work of the ministry, and has this day engaged to supply the place of one who has gone tohis reward. How important! May the Lord go with him. --For some time Ihave thought of inviting Miss M. B. To class; but, not knowing whethershe had any concern for salvation, I demurred. Still the impressionfollowed me, and to-day I told her of it. The tears started in hereyes, and she confessed with great frankness, that she was convincedshe must have the peace of God to be happy; but she had nevermentioned the subject to any but her mother. Surely this impressionwas from the Lord, and in answer to prayer: for some time since, her mother and I agreed to plead for our children every Wednesdayafternoon. My affections, divided to every member of my family, meetin one point at the throne of grace; where many a time my expectationsare raised, and my soul blessed. To-day my husband takes a class; mayit be made an abundant blessing to his own soul. --The quarter-day:much excitement, lest a rent should be made among us; my dearchristian friends, A. And B. , came to my house to lay the matterbefore the Lord, while the meeting was being held. There, indeed, wedid pour out our cause; buffeted, but much encouraged by the promise, especially as it was given to two of us, 'I, the Lord, do keep it;lest any hurt it, I will keep it night and day. ' We believed the Lordwould interpose, and so it was. We were told the case was wonderfullyoverruled. O the condescension of our merciful High Priest!--Mrs. A. Brought me a sick visiting-book, which I did not refuse: for althoughI feel my disqualification, yet am willing to do what I can, only letme have heavenly aid. At twelve at noon, six of us opened a weeklymeeting for intercession: to me it was a blessed season. I have attimes great enlargement, but abasing views of my own depravity, withexpanded perceptions of the love and power of God--great in wisdom, great in love, great in holiness, and yet He deigns to visit me. 'Faith, lends its realising light, the clouds disperse, ' and let a rayof the Infinite into my soul. Thus, in the midst of many thingsthat are painful, I am comforted. --Have been out to tea against myinclination, and yet it was among my friends. Endeavoured to give areligious tone to the conversation, but some, who ought to have comeforward, were silent; and to others without the least intention Ifear I have given offence. From this cause my mind is troubled; buton reflection, think, I ought not to yield to such a feeling, beingconscious that my aim was to do right. To Thee, Oh Saviour, will Ilook to overrule 'my every weak, though good, design. ' While I writemy soul is happy. Glory be to God. --I am now enter the last hourof 1835, much abased on the review of my own unfaithfulness, yesearnestly desiring to commence anew, if permitted a little longer tosojourn on earth. 

 Oh! take possession of my heart, And let it hence Thy temple be; Willing, Thou seest me, now to part With all, that is unlike to Thee; O let the Spirit's seal be given The earnest of my future heaven!

 To Thee, O Lord, I would present My life, and health, and talent, now; Let nothing mar the pure intent And purpose of my solemn vow; But now the covenant blood apply, My feeble act to ratify. 

 Come, sway the sceptre in my soul, Its secret springs adjust and move; Model each word, each thought control, And fill me with the light of love; So shall I do Thy perfect will, As angels, who Thy word fulfil. 

Ten minutes past midnight. --To put me in remembrance, --my two friendsat a quarter before two every day. My one friend at three everyWednesday. "

"1836. Awoke with, 'Reckon yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, butalive unto God;' and 'Be ye not of a doubtful mind. ' I feel resolvedhenceforth, thus 'to reckon. ' I have been too long dying--not dead, and dishonouring God by 'a doubtful mind. ' I now enjoy peace, with afirm determination to keep His commandments, which are not grievous;but I feel my weakness such, that I cannot trust myself. O my God, help me to keep my covenant vows!"

 Look high, look low, look far and near, Changes in every scene appear; The blossom fades, the day is gone, And night succeeds the morning sun. The clear blue firmament is seen. But gath'ring clouds soon intervene; The sun, resplendent, hastes away, To give to other lands the day. The vig'rous youth to manhood grown, Becomes a hoary sire anon; The blooming maid becomes a bride, A loving consort by her side, The zenith point of earthly bliss, -- But ah! a changing scene is this: The fairest prospects earth can boast, Are poor, and transient at the most; And closest ties of friendship fail To stay the bliss, we smile to hail. 

"After a fortnight's suffering, my dear little grandson, Edward, leftour dark abode for everlasting day. Separation is painful, but theprospect of eternal happiness brings sweet consolation. A littlebefore death he said, 'kneel down. ' He was three years and ten monthsold--a child of much promise--but is now safely transplanted tonourish in a healthier clime. --Death strikes again--the infant, andonly surviving child of my Eliza, has escaped to glory. Several otherafflictive occurrences have been permitted, I am confident for mygood: yet I have better health than usual, and the consolations of myGod are not withheld. The Lord can make hard things easy, andmingle the bitter cup with sweetness. O that I could make betterreturns!--Thirty years ago, I gave myself to my husband with mingledfeelings of hope and fear. The words, 'thy Maker is thy husband, ' havebeen impressed upon my mind. "

 Endearing title! wilt Thou be A husband, O my God, to me? Then, let me never grieve Thy love, Nor ever disobedient prove; Watchful Thy pleasure to obey, Thy precepts study night and day; Thy will at all times gladly do: _I will_. Lord help me to be true. 

"Had all the preachers to breakfast with a friend or twobeside, --hoping the hour might be spiritually improved. Singing andprayer were sweet, but I was disappointed in the conversation, whichwas turned by two individuals upon a point that profited little; onething I learned, to expect profit in the creature is not right, --Triedto bring about, and by means of another, effected a reconciliationbetween two opposing parties. --'Who will this day consecrate hisservices to the Lord?' was a question put to me this morning beforeI awoke, and has been urged upon me since. Thank God, my heartresponds--_I will_. As I was walking, musing, and praying, it waswhispered to my soul, 'My God shall supply all your need. ' It isenough. --Again privileged to hear the Rev. Robert Newton. I sat inmy Father's banqueting-house with delight, and His banner over me waslove. --Fifty-four years this day, I have proved the sustaining powerof God; and forty-two or nearly so, have enjoyed His redeeming love. Owhat a debter am I! Here will I give myself away--'tis all I can do. "

 This day of consecrated rest, Proclaim within my longing breast 'I am the Lord thy God;' Here dwell and reign without control, Sole monarch of my willing soul, According to Thy word. 

XVI. 

THE SACRIFICE. 

 "I HAVE LENT HIM TO THE LORD; AS LONG AS HE LIVETH, SHALL HE BE LENT UNTO THE LORD. "--1 Sam. I. 28. 

"Neither will I offer burnt-offerings to the Lord of that which costme nothing, " said David, when he purchased the threshing-floor, andthe oxen of Araunah the Jebusite, that he might rear and altar, andoffer sacrifices, and peace-offerings: and yet it was a nobler actof sacrifice, when he poured out before the Lord the crystal draughtwhich three of his mighty men had procured from the well that was bythe gate of Bethlehem, at the peril of their lives, and for which hehad so earnestly longed. In the one case he gave what he could wellafford; in the other, he consecrated what his soul desired. Thepreciousness of the gift is to be estimated, not by its intrinsicvalue, but by the amount of sacrifice which it requires; hence, somewho bring much, offer little, and some who give but little, offermuch. Genuine love to God brings of its choicest and dearest, and thesacrifice is accepted accordingly. To give money as far as she hadability, was to Mrs. Lyth no sacrifice. Through life she practiseda rigid economy, that she might have the more to employ for God; andduring the last few years, when she had an ample income at her owndisposal, after her few and extremely moderate wants were met, thewhole was sacredly consecrated to public and private charities. She saved nothing. Her estimate of the riches of this world may becollected from the following, communicated by a friend:--"She was muchsaved from the love of money. I called upon her one day for advice andsympathy, when I was in great trouble in consequence of a loss which Ihad sustained. She very affectionately encouraged me to bear up underthe trial, and said, the Lord had some better thing in store forme;--that I must set my affections on things above, and then, to showthat I was not alone, told me that a thousand pounds had been left toher mother by a deceased relative, which she had fully expected wouldrevert to her, as it was the intention of the testatrix; but it provedto be a lapsed legacy. She added, 'The Lord so graciously sustainedme, that the loss never deprived me of a single hour's sleep. He knowswhat is good for us, and If it had been His will, I should have hadit. ' Mr. Lyth, who was in company with us at the time, said, 'So yousee my wife turns all to gold, ' which it is well known she did. Oh! Iwish I was like her. " But if she estimated worldly wealth only so faras it afforded her the pure gratification of doing good, and it wastherefore no sacrifice to her to give of her earthly substance; shealso gave that which cost her something. Her eldest son, Richard, whom she prized above gold, and all the more, because of the tears andsolicitude which she had expended upon him as a sickly and delicateinfant, was at the Conference of 1836 appointed to a distant andperilous sphere of missionary labour. This was a demand upon herfeelings, which severely tested her love to Christ and His church; butthe spirit in which she made the sacrifice, is best displayed by herown private record. 

"1836. A letter from brother John Burdsall, who is at the Conference, informs me, that he had some conversation with Dr. Bunting respectingmy Richard and the Friendly Islands. I feel as a mother, yet assuredthat God is alike in every place, my prayer is for resignation. --Oh!the rapidity of time, conference has commenced and will, I suppose, appoint my Richard somewhere; only be it the place assigned byProvidence--my will submits, though nature would rebel. --My desirestend upward, but oh! my wayward heart still clings to the creature--mychildren lie near my heart. But, do I wish to withhold my son fromThee? no; my heart says no;--only let holiness be stamped uponhis heart and character: send him where holiness will be the mostearnestly sought, and will make the most powerful impression. My willdoes yield, but nature feels. The solicitude I feel for my childrendepresses my spirit: yet am comforted by the promises of God, andincreasingly resolved to roll my every care at the foot of the Cross;where, like pilgrim, I often find the strings of my burden unloosed, and by faith beholding my unfailing Friend, am encouraged to believethe God who cares for _me_, will care for _mine_. In the face ofmy fears, O Lord, I trust in Thee. My Richard is appointed to theFriendly Islands. --The cases of my three sons press upon my spirit;but Thy aid, O Lord, I seek and ask and _have_. --It is the Sabbathmorn. I am fully bent to give myself and my family to God. But nowit is come to the point, how weak I feel! Well, but I willresign--Richard is Thine; I will through grace, give him up to Thee. The time of his departure is at hand; tidings have reached us that heis expected to sail in the 'Royal George, ' on the first of October. O may He who sitteth above the water floods, and reigneth a King forever, take charge of him; and so succeed his errand, that thousandsmay add lustre to his crown!--At half-past six Miss B. And Mrs. A. Metme, and Hannah S. Who was seeking pardon. After we had pleaded fora time, the Lord came down in power, and she cried aloud, 'I canbelieve, I do believe. ' We all shared the baptism. My dear familyall took tea together, perhaps for the last time. Thank God, we area united family, though we may separate wide from each other in ourpilgrimage through the world. --While pouring out my soul for my dearRichard, I felt the hallowing power; I believe the Lord will be withhim and the people also. Things very painful to nature are now myfrequent lot; but through these, the Lord seeks to purge, and knit mecloser to himself. Lord give me grace to bear the sacrificing knife, and let 'Thy will be done, '--Had a few friends to breakfast to commendmy dear Richard to God: it was a profitable hour, but I should haveliked more prayer. --My soul was much refreshed, especially in class. What a fulness is treasured up in Jesus: and yet I only sip. Invisiting the sick, and seeking out the wanderers, feel I am right, butseem to have little time for this work. 

"Apperly Bridge. My Richard's wedding-day. While the bridal couplewent to church, I retired to plead a blessing on their union. On theirreturn, I met them with lines which were on my mind--

 'Blest in Christ your union be, Blest to all eternity. '

And so it will be, while they cleave to Jesus. After breakfast weproceeded to Leeds, where we dined, and took an affectionate leaveof each other. I then retired with the female part of the company tocommend them to God. " [Her parting counsels, which were inscribed in mybrother's album, were as follows:--]

"My dear son, --'Be strong through the grace, which is by Jesus Christ, and the things, which thou hast heard before many witnesses, committo faithful men, who will be able to teach others also. Endureaffliction as a good soldier of Jesus Christ, and the Lord give theeunderstanding in all things. God is my witness, how I long foryou, that your love may abound more and more, in all knowledgeand spiritual understanding; that you may try the things that areexcellent; that you may be sincere, and without offence, unto the dayof Christ, being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which arethrough Jesus Christ, to the praise and glory of God. And when theChief Shepherd shall appear, you shall receive the crown of glorywhich fadeth not away. ' This is the earnest prayer of your trulyaffectionate mother. "

"Mr. Burrows came, and talked sweetly to me of my privilege as achristian in giving all to God, and prayed with us; else, duringthis week sorrow and joy have mingled in my breast, but now I feel torise. --Mrs. R. Having agreed to meet with me to intercede for mydear Richard and Mary Ann, I went up accompanied by Mrs. W. --the Lordblessed us together. --I feel encouraged. --A very stormy morning. Thisled me to my knees, to pour out my soul for my son and daughter: Okeep them in the hollow of Thy hands! William has not yet returnedfrom seeing Richard off; I want to hear and know--yet am encouragedto hope all will be well. --Days of suspense--but the thought, 'all iswell, ' encouraged me; this was realised, when William returned in theafternoon. 'Bless the Lord, O my soul, ' and praise His adorablename. My dear Richard sent me a letter, written when sailing down theThames, in which he says, 'The Lord is with us, we will not fear. '

"Sinnington. After the morning prayer-meeting, I called upon severalof the villagers, who kindly welcomed our visit. Prayed with everyfamily but one, and in each case felt the softening power. Spokeplainly with Mr. B. Respecting the alienation existing between him and----. O that they would seriously resolve!--A very stormy day, butbraving the blast, I visited two or three friends, to have a lastinterview with them; in one case to invite a person to join the peopleof God; in another, to urge the necessity of family-prayer; a thirdwas a young person apparently in dying circumstances, and a fourthwas a quaker friend, whose disinterested friendship endears her tome. --Visited the Lady Mayoress at the Mansion House, and felt quiteat ease. Had an opportunity of dropping a word in her ear, which sheseemed to receive kindly. "

 The noontide hour is wont to be A blessed means of grace to me; When met, the hallowing power to share, In the sweet intercourse of prayer. 

"Was drawn out in prayer for myself and others until a late hour, andwas much blest. After I had retired and had been asleep, I awoke withthese lines:

 'Soft and easy is Thy pillow, Coarse and hard the Saviour lay; Since His birthplace was a stable, And His softest bed was hay. '

My pillow seemed softer than usual, and my soul was happy. --Verystormy. " [Such notes of the weather repeatedly occur at this period, but nothing more: her thoughts were after Richard, but her feelingswere too intense for expression. To a friend she remarked, thatfor six months after her son's departure, she dared not touch, thesubject. 'I cannot write upon it, ' she said, 'I am obliged to leaveit. ']

"1837. Took tea with Mrs. D. , with several christian friends; ourvisit was blessed, all shared in the heavenly influence: if allvisits were equally profitable, I should regret to refuse aninvitation. --Paid a visit not so beneficial, though many good peoplewere there, and honourable too. --Rose too early by mistake, butdetermined to profit by it, so I bowed myself at the feet of Him towhom I can most freely unbosom myself and told Him all my cares, whichseemed to multiply as I spread them out before Him; found a littleaccess, but want the mighty faith that 'can the mountain move. '--Wm. B. 's two daughters and daughter-in-law took tea with me, whichafforded me an opportunity of conversing with them on the necessityof salvation. Presented each of them with a pocket companion. Providentially Mrs. R. Stepped in, and prayed with us. In the eveningI met the dear people, deeply feeling my own unfitness, and greatlydiscouraged by their state. To increase my difficulty, a youngstranger came in to hear in silence; could get none to pray. Whatshall I do? Resolved as soon as alone to roll my burden upon the Lord, which I did, and felt encouraged. --Five months to-day since my lastletter from Richard. [Two days after she writes. ] The evening postbrought me a letter, and 'all is well. ' When we had read it, we bowedbefore the Lord to acknowledge our gratitude. My dear friends, B. AndA. , came to meet Mrs. B. To plead with the Lord on her behalf: sheobtained power to say, 'I love Him because He first loved me;' butdurst not affirm that her sins were forgiven. --Since the MissionaryMeeting, the recollection that I, with the rest of the assembly, lifted my hand and pledged myself to increased exertion, has pressedupon my mind. I am willing; Lord, direct my efforts! [This resolutionwas not ineffective, for shortly after, she initiated the York Ladies'Missionary Sewing Meeting, which for many years proved an importantsource of income, and still exists, under the name of the 'Ladies'Repository. ']

"Hull. Called upon Mrs. H. , and met there a lady, who acknowledges myfather as the instrument of her conversion. She was on one occasionintroduced into his class, and being a member of the EstablishedChurch, he asked her if, when repeating the Creed, she believed 'inthe communion of saints, and the forgiveness of sins. ' The arrow hitthe mark, and she never rested till she obtained the favour of God. Called also upon Mr. E. , whom we found indisposed, but awakened to asense of his lost condition. Was glad to hear him speak of his hard, unfeeling heart, as I felt convinced the Spirit of God was workingupon him, and was encouraged to pray with and for him. --After anagreeable journey, we returned to York--so swiftly time passes, how Ilong to improve it! In the cabin of the packet, I took up a book whichlay on the table--written by Baxter--on 'Living for Eternity, ' andwhile reading, deeply felt the necessity of so doing. Two younggentlemen sat at my left hand playing at a game of some sort, and Iwas prompted to speak to them upon the importance of improving theiryouthful opportunities. They received the admonition in a good spiritand said, they wished they oftener met with kind reproofs. --MissB. And I collected for the infant school: some of our visits wereprofitable--prayer sweetened our employment. "

"Sinnington. My dear uncle is evidently failing. He has suffered much, but the state of his mind is improving, and he is more accessible. He goes to bed very early, and every night I have sat and prayed withhim. My own mind is in a composed frame. All around me exhibits thefinger of God. The stillness of nature impresses me with His presence;I hear his voice, and all within me acknowledges Him Lord of all. Ihave visited several of the villagers; some wept, but to others I seemto tell an idle tale. --Four o'clock in the morning:--

 Midnight stillness! O! how solemn! Now surrounded by my God; How I long to breathe His fulness! How I long to walk with God!

 Thou whose eyes, unseen, behold me, -- Mark my inmost rising thought; In this musing moment prompt me, Let my works in Thee be wrought. 

 Aid, O aid my contemplation! To Thy cross my spirit lead; Humble, while I view Thy passion, _Me_, --that caused Thy heart to bleed. 

 Let it melt me, O my Saviour, Melt me into love again; By Thy death to life restore me, In my soul for ever reign. 

 Bring me into full salvation, Every secret thought control; Help my nature's imperfection, Sway Thy sceptre in my soul. 

 Let all nature point to Jesus, Every scene reveal Him there, Earthly good, through Him, be precious, Voices chaunt Him everywhere. 

 All I know, or taste, or handle, Be subservient to His will; Sun that shineth--stars that glitter-- Flash His glory round me still. 

"As I came out of the chapel, a person came to me with tears in hereyes and requested me to pray for her, that the Lord would cleanse herheart: I was humbled but encouraged. --My birthday: rose before five, and consecrated my body and soul to the Lord. At an early hour wassent for by the young person I saw a few days ago, who is still verymuch afflicted. Inquiring what I should pray for, she said, 'That Godmay pardon my sins. ' I thought this a good sign, as she was in muchpain; and left her, believing God would save her. This word has beenmy motto for some days, 'If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abidein my love;' and my heart is bent on it. --Awoke early; my meditationswere sweet. Visited S. P. , while praying with her she wept much. O maythese meltings of a broken heart end in conversion! In the eveningwent to J. B. 's to break the ice for them in commencing family-prayer, but he was out, so after some close conversation with his wife on thesubject, we prayed together. Lord, help her to take up her cross. On my return I went and prayed with uncle; I want to say to himeverything I ought--Lord help me. --I started early that I might invitesome of the villagers to the chapel: while thus engaged my heart waslifted up to God for a blessing on my endeavours. --Miss C. Came toinform me, that last evening after returning from chapel, feeling herneed of justifying grace, she retired to her closet--her sisters, and the young ladies having remained at the prayer-meeting. On theirreturn, several of them being deeply convinced of sin, united inprayer; and so powerfully did the Spirit work, that six were cryingfor mercy at once: thus they continued to pray and wrestle until twoin the morning, when five of them were made happy. On my way to Acomb, I called in to rejoice with them, and was introduced to a young ladywho has been for some time under religious impression; whilst Mrs. R. And I engaged in prayer, she found comfort; glory be to God. --A yearsince my dear Richard left the land of his birth, to preach the gospelin the islands of the seas. To commemorate the event, we had abouttwenty friends to tea; after which we had a prayer-meeting on behalfof my dear son, and the cause of missions. --The words of a Ministershould be as a stream from the living fountain, and themselves asconduits, through which the stream runs. How needful then, that weshould bear them up before the throne, that there may be written uponthem, 'Holiness unto the Lord. '--Have been to see some of my members. Two were out, one ill, a fourth indisposed, and a fifth in a veryunhappy frame of mind, whom I purposely left without prayer, notknowing how to pray for her--never left her before without bowing theknee. On arriving at home, I presented her case to God. --Have been putinto the office of Treasurer for the Clothing Society; Lord help mefaithfully to discharge this labour of love for the poor of Christ'sflock. --Saw J. P. On his dying bed. The enemy was making his lastassault upon him. I repeated several promises to which he listenedwith attention, and then prayed with him. In about half an hour theLord broke in upon his soul so gloriously, that he desired his wife tocome and tell me what the Lord had done for him. My soul rejoiced withhim. --This solemn moment I give myself to Thee. O let me henceforth beThy devoted servant, willing at all times to yield my will to Thine!Dost Thou say to me, 'I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee;yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness?' Thenit is enough. I am the Lord's, and He is mine. Blessed union! God islove; I feel it now. 

"1838. In converse with my friends, I have endeavoured to keep aconscience void of offence, and to walk in simplicity before the Lord;but Oh! when viewed in the glass of God's law, how deficient! Yet willI aim at the perfect model. --This morning, a young man named Calvert, who is going as a missionary to the South Seas, called upon us. Withhim I sent a letter to my Richard, having sat up the previous nightwriting, and little thinking I should have such an opportunity ofsending it. Old feelings revived in my breast; but after he was gone, while musing about my son and the perils of missionary life, thesewords were sweetly applied: 'It is not the will of your Father inheaven, that one of these little ones should perish. '--The box sent toRichard, which has been lost for three months, is just found in propertime to go with a missionary bound for the same islands. There isa providence unseen by us, whose watchful eye protects the minutestinterests of His own; 'Even the very hairs of your heads are allnumbered. '--Informed that poor Mrs. W. Was fast sinking, I hastenedto see her; she was struggling with her last enemy, but smiling in Hisgrasp. When told that she would soon join in singing 'Hallelujah, 'she smiled and said. 'Yes;' and shortly after exchanged mortality forlife. "

 MY FRIEND'S DEPARTURE. 

 How solemn was the room! How still that scene of death! My friend 'mid twilight gloom, Lay gasping hard for breath; The death dews on her temples stood; She smiled adieu, and crossed the flood. 

 Angels were hov'ring round, And breathing incense there; Almost I heard the sound Of wings upon the air; Light as the breeze, and clear as light, Her happy spirit took its flight. 

 Back on that solemn hour My thoughts are often cast; Be mine such faith and power To triumph at the last; With smiles to meet my latest foe, And die eternal life to know. 

I am like Noah's dove. The world is a dreary waste of waters withoutanything upon which I can set my foot. My friends are dying, anddisappointments common. --Wrote to Mr. B. On the importance ofpreparing to meet God; and enclosed three sermons on eternity. --Fourpersons, whom I have visited this week, have passed into eternity. These I have warned, urged, and pointed to Jesus. Of three of them Ientertain hope; but Oh! the danger of delay, and the responsibilityof visiting sick beds!--I have been much troubled with the inattentionand neglect of a servant. This is permitted for the trial of my faithand patience, and my earnest prayer is, that I may secure the goodintended. With respect to my inward experience, I have access to God, and can more implicitly pour my wants into the ears of Him, who waitsto answer. I now enjoy, through Christ, solid peace. Many preciousseasons for want of opportunity to record them pass unnoticed, andsome painful exercises, in which I have to sing my deliverer's praise. 

"Sinnington. I have enjoyed sweet communion with my best friend, andin pouring out my soul among my dear relations. Mr. B. Has read thelittle book I sent him, and carries it about with him in his pocket. With me he appears more social; but it is the work of God to changethe heart. Still, he is laid upon my mind to remember him beforethe Lord. My dear uncle, although in apparent health for hisyears (eighty-one), is increasingly deaf, and almost cut offfrom intercourse with society, so that he seeks to be alone. In aconversation I had with him, he told me how the Lord blessed him, andhow he meditated in the night season. In this place I am secluded frommy usual care. Lord help me to improve the opportunity. I can trulysay, I long to sink, to rise, and grow in all the image of God. --Ifelt much in parting with my friends, especially my dear uncle, whosaid he should perhaps see me no more. I reminded him of our meetingabove, and endeavoured to urge upon him a preparation for it. --Onreviewing the week, I have endeavoured to walk circumspectly, redeeming the time, and enjoyed union with God, both in private, andat the family altar; but yet I want more uniformity in my walk withGod. Mrs. H. Accompanied me to see two poor widows; and, inviting someof the neighbours in, we read and conversed, and prayed with them. Ifelt inclined to go again. --A good class-meeting--after which I wentto visit the widows; four more persons came in. My heart was enlargedwhile I endeavoured to exhort them to flee from the wrath to come, andprayed with them. --I have returned to spend the last hour of the yearat home. I feel a prayerful frame, and a determination to give myselfand all my powers to God. Though buffeted by the enemy, my heart isfully resolved. I will be Thine, --save me. 

 Oh! Thou, who dost in secret see My lifted heart, and bended knee; While now my soul pours out the prayer, O let it find acceptance there: Come now, and claim me for Thy own, And make my heart Thy glorious throne. 

Twelve o'clock. Another year is gone. "

XVII. 

THE MOTHER IN ISRAEL. 

 "THE HOARY HEAD IS A CROWN OF GLORY, IF IT BE FOUND IN THE WAY OF RIGHTEOUSNESS. "--Prov. Xvi. 31. 

There are some countenances which even in advanced life are singularlybeautiful; lit up with a heavenly lustre which rivals the freshnessand bloom of youth. Such was the countenance of my venerated mother, on the eve of threescore years. Her expressive features discoveredthe rich adornment of her soul. It was the outbeaming of hiddenglory within;--the reflection of beauty caught by constant and secretcommunion with God;--the bright halo of love, joy and peace inthe Holy Ghost. Though in the middle period of life the subject offrequent and severe attacks of pain in the head, which, for the time, greatly enfeebled her, she had, by the blessing of God upon the use ofsuitable means in connection with her abstemious habits, overcome theforce of disease, and recovered a degree of strength and vigour whichwas remarkable. Her step was light and active; her gait erect; and as, in consequence of the removal of her children into active life, shewas now, to a great extent, freed from domestic duties, she mightoften be seen in the streets of the city hasting upon her errands ofmercy. The care of three classes, two of which were large, togetherwith her numerous engagements in every department of usefulness, whichthe church opened out to her, furnished her with continual employment, and hence, at this period, her diary is a detail rather of Christianactivity than of inward experience. 

"1839. --The Covenant-service was a solemn season; yet I did not feelso much sensible comfort as firmness of purpose to consecratemyself to God; seeing how greatly it concerned my interest, and whatcondescension it implied, on the part of God, to accept of one sounworthy. --Entered upon subscriptions for the new chapel. --Poor FannyMcD. Has a second time been severely burnt. I saw her this morning;she was just able to say 'yes, ' when asked, if she was happy. Abouttwelve she expired. I am thankful I had the opportunity of commendingher soul to God. It was good to go to the house of mourning. For tenyears I have collected, or given her, the amount of her rent; and forone year provided a woman to wait upon her. --As I was going to Fanny'sfuneral, I was accosted by a young woman, who seemed to know me: butof whom I had no recollection, until she told me that she had formerlymet with me, but had wandered from God, and was now made willing toreturn. The next day being my class, I invited her to come. Shedid so; and said, that as she was going out the day before, she wasstrongly impressed to pray for a blessing, and thought within herself, 'Why should I? I am not going to chapel. ' She concluded that ourmeeting was providential. God grant she may again get into theright way. --A blessed Sabbath to me; it was good at the morningprayer-meeting;--good in the forenoon;--good to visit the house ofmourning;--and good to point to Jesus some old women who desired tobehold Him. --I have this day surrendered my Sabbath class into thehands of Mrs. H. , during her stay in York, having latterly had solittle time for reading, and she desires employment. --The perusal ofsome of my old MS. S. Has been the means of rousing my spirit. Save me, O God, from spiritual sloth; I see the danger; may I fear it morethan ever, never looking at others, but always looking unto Thee. --Themonth of my nativity. My obligations to God are twelve months deeper, and myself a bankrupt--dependant upon the bounty of providence, andabased under a sense of my ingratitude, nevertheless my purpose is tolive for God alone: my faith strengthens, and I have a little love--

 'Tis but a drop, O might it grow. And all my happy soul o'erflow!"

"I accompanied my husband to Harrogate, where I now write, havingsecured a quiet retired spot which just suits me. Help me, Lord, toimprove the opportunity which this quietude affords. I can trulysay my soul longs for God; yea, for the living God. --Much libertyin family prayer. I was drawn out on behalf of the visitors who wereabout to leave in the forenoon. The old gentleman seemed affected. Tears came into his eyes when I bade him farewell. He thanked us forall our favours, which could only refer to our presenting him atthe throne of grace--a duty we owe to all men. O Lord, help me morefaithfully to discharge it!--Went to Goldsbro'; and accompanied Mrs. D. To see a neighbour, who was deeply affected under the sermonthe previous Sabbath. Our visit was welcomed, and after a littleconversation we got upon our knees, when the Lord was very present. Mrs. W. , the person upon whom we called, pressed us much to go again, which we did after tea, before we left the place. She then expressedher confidence in God, and determined to cast in her lot among thepeople of God. 

"Sinnington. I was much pressed in spirit to visit a certain family inthe village, and got cousin P. To accompany me. My errand was to urgethe parents to seek the Lord. It was a softening time. The Lord openedmy mouth, and enlarged my heart. Both the master and mistress wept. Oh!that it may not be as the morning cloud and early dew. I feel hope. 

 The message of mercy came wrapp'd in disease, Destroying my comfort, and spoiling my ease; Enclosed in the foldings a jewel I found, And a circlet of diamonds encompass'd it round; I eagerly seiz'd it, and read on the seal A name newly graven, I cannot reveal; But, where it is present, no sorrow can dwell, Affliction is welcome, and all must be well. 

"Returning from chapel, I met with a person who was a stranger tosaving grace, and invited her into a house, where I was going to see asick person. There I prayed with them. The woman seemed much affected, and to me it was a season of refreshing. In the afternoon I sawseveral afflicted people, among whom I was encouraged and humbled, thankful, and almost overwhelmed with the troubles I was madeacquainted with. After the evening service, in company with Mrs. R. Ivisited another woman. There is no hope of her recovery. She is quiteignorant of salvation, but exceedingly desirous of instruction. Wehad much power in prayer, and reluctantly left her. I determined to goagain in the morning, but, before I set off, she sent for me, I foundher perfectly sensible, but the hand of death was upon, her. I pointedher to Christ, and, while engaged in prayer, the power of faith wassweetly given. When. Asked by her husband if she was happy, she saidwith emphasis, 'Yes'. --Another half hour, and the year 1839 is gonefor ever! How precious these moments seem! But to the last, myhand, moved by the feelings of my soul, shall write Thy preciousname--JESUS!--my Saviour! my God! my all! I now stand on the brink ofanother important division of time. What it will develope. Godonly knows; but my firm determination is to live for God. On myknees--surrounded by the unseen Deity--I give myself to Thee, --toreign in, and rule over me for ever. The moment is fled. "

"1840. Saw Mrs. H. , whom I found in dying circumstances. She wasat class on New Year's Eve, when I urged her to lay hold uponChrist, --cautioning her not to remain unsaved, and expressing my fearslest she should do so. She appeared much affected, and remained at thebottom of the stairs to kiss me, ere we parted. Little did I think itwould be the last time: but such is the frailty of our nature. --At therequest of a lady, whom Mrs. R. And I were providentially called tovisit, we went to form a class in her house. It was a blessed season, although we had only herself to begin with. [This lady she continuedto visit weekly for a considerable time, until death rendered hervisits unnecessary. ] It is long since I heard from Richard, but thepromise has been repeated: 'Though it tarry, wait for it, because itwill surely come, it will not tarry. ' So for some days I have beenhoping. [Two days after she writes. ] Just as we were about to commencefamily-worship, the postman brought two letters, --one from Richard, and one from Mary Ann. The tidings are affecting, and strongly exhibitthe guardian care of Providence. --Without a servant, but in no wisediscontent. --I visited Miss Rosetta W. , who is declining fast, and hasfor some time been under considerable depression. The Lord was pleasedto remove the cloud. The change was perceptible in her countenance. --Amemorable day in consequence of the fire at the west-end of theCathedral--occasioned, it is supposed, by the carelessness of aworkman, who was employed to repair the clock; at least, nothingfurther has been elicited. The spectacle was awfully grand, andsupplied me with an errand to the throne. The burning particles flewover several streets, and descended like flakes of snow. Surely theProvidence of God preserved us. Visited a lady, by her own request, who is desirous of salvation. She has attended Mrs. C. 's class sinceit has been committed to my care. --Called on Mr. W. , and looked uponthe remains of dear Rosetta, who left this suffering world in triumph, waving her hand, and endeavouring to shout victory, the morning afterI saw her last. --While meditating on the 15th chapter of John, theword was conveyed with power to my heart; but I want a constantspirit, never to be weary in the search, of truth. I was led to seehow the Saviour's words, 'Without me ye can do nothing, ' are oftenimproperly applied, and made an excuse for spiritual sloth; since itis our own fault, if we have not strength, because He has commanded usto abide in Him. --Mrs. C. 's class was met by Mr. E. From this timeI suppose I am to be recognized as the leader. In accepting thisadditional responsibility, I am affected by a sense of my ownunfitness for the work, and the honour which the Lord puts upon me;for I look not at second causes, in thus placing me to watch over Hispeople. It is, and may it ever be, a stimulus to seek a closer walkwith God, that I may know His will, and act in conformity with it. Walking down High Ousegate about half-past eight in the evening, incompany with my daughter, I had my pocket picked of a small silverbox, given me by a cousin. I can, and have prayed for the miscreantwho did it; but wish to have my box again: I fear this is wrong; itis not like Paul, who suffered the loss of all things withoutregret. --Several ladies commenced cutting out clothing for the poor. May we be clothed with humility. Our interview was pleasant. --Onreturning from my band, I found a note from our landlord, givingus notice to quit in six months, in consequence of some proposedbuildings in connexion with the railway station. For a moment I wasstartled, as we hoped our residence was fixed for the term of life;but my mind soon fell into a profitable train of reflection. Ithought, ere this term has expired, a higher mandate may be sent toquit my clay tenement, when I must give up my account. My heart feelsit is well, and will be well. --This morning I traversed the hauntsof the 'navvies' to give tracts to as many as I could. It has been mypurpose this day to surrender the powers of my body and soul to God;and I have steadily kept it in view. Still, I need the 'blood ofsprinkling' through which alone I can be accepted. --Finished mymonth's visitation to the school. I might have better improved theopportunity; but imperfection characterises all I do. --Had the honourof breakfasting with a few of the Lord's servants, and was muchgratified with the firmness of one, who stood almost alone in anopinion clearly right, respecting a book called _'The CentenaryTakings. '"_

"1841. --I had the junior members of my classes to tea, to sew forthe poor. Mrs. A. And Mrs. R. Came to assist in making our meetinga profitable one. --My mind has been deeply impressed with the solemnoccurrences of this day. For some time I have been wont to visit Mrs. B. Every Saturday, to converse and pray with her. I found her veryill; and after rubbing her back for some time, to relieve the painfrom which she was suffering, I knelt down and prayed with her, beingparticularly drawn out for a present blessing. When I rose, I pressedupon her the necessity of taking hold of Christ; she replied, 'I havenothing else. ' Thus I left her, little thinking that I should seeher no more; but so it is, for a short time after I had left, sheexpired. --My dear daughter Mary commenced a class with two members. Mrs. A. , Miss B. , Mrs. M. , and myself, assisted at the commencement. How simple are the unadulterated truths of the Gospel! 'He was made anoffering for sin' Amazing love! 'It pleased the Lord to bruise him. 'Bow down, my soul, in humble astonishment and adoration; and see inthe cross the malignity of sin, and the majesty of love, O blessed cross! that points us to the sky, Loosens from earth, that we may soar on high. Thus suffering is our pathway up to bliss, To dwell for ever where our Patron is. O blessed cross! where Jesus bowed His head, Baptized with precious blood, for sinners shed: Happy are they who keep the words he brought, And bear the cross by their great Pattern taught. "

"Went to Bishopthorpe and saw the Archbishop's Palace. The grounds arebeautiful; and nature, at this season of the year in its splendour, shewed them to advantage. But what a responsible office does he fill!How does his flock thrive? O that he may be able to render his accountwith joy!--Not without thought and prayer, I set off for Sinnington. All nature smiled around me, and Jesus whispered peace within. My dearuncle bows under the weight of years; cousin looks paler, and morefeeble; but I was welcomed as usual. "

 EASTER DAY. 

 The Sun of righteousness appears, To set in blood no more: Hail Him! who wipes away your tears, Your rising God adore!

 The saints, when He resigned His breath, Unclosed their sleeping eyes; Behold! he breaks the bands of death, And bids the dead arise. 

 Alone, the dreadful course He ran, Alone, the winepress trod; He died, and suffered as a man; He rises as a God!

 In vain the watch, the stone, the seal Forbid the Conqu'ror rise; Rising, He breaks the gates of hell, And opens paradise. 

"Mrs. R. , in band, faithfully told me of my faults, which, by God'shelp, I will try to amend. A meeting of Missionary Collectors was heldto distribute the books, and to constitute a Ladies' Association. I left to meet my class. Mrs. C. Was elected Treasurer, Mrs. R. W. Secretary, and myself, with all my unfitness, President. However, being on my knees before I went to the meeting, my covenantengagements were brought to my remembrance: 'Place me where Thou wilt;make me the hand or the foot; a hewer of wood, or a drawer of water. 'Therefore, by God's help, I am determined to do my best, admonishedby another sentiment of Holy writ, 'Let not him that putteth on theharness boast as he that putteth it off. '--Christmas morn. Rose aboutfour o'clock; a beautiful starlight morning. It seemed to me as if'the morning stars sang together for joy' at the Saviour's birth. Glory! Glory be to God!

"1842. --Nearly forty present at the sewing meeting. I endeavoured todraw out the sympathies of the ladies present in behalf of those whosewelfare we had met to promote. --Under the word the Lord made sucha discovery of myself to myself, as completely stripped me ofself-confidence, and all hope, --except in the Saviour's merits, uponwhich I had power to lay hold. Oh the mercy of God to me, a poorworthless worm! After the prayer-meeting, two of the friends begged mein future to engage occasionally in public prayer. I have not done solatterly, because it is a mighty effort to me. But God forbid thatmy silence should be a stumbling-block to any. At the morningprayer-meeting, unasked, but not unmoved, I feebly opened my mouth, believing it to be my duty; and was blest in so doing. --This morningI awoke with 'Give unto the Lord of Thy substance. ' Being about topurchase wearing apparel, I resolved to moderate my expenditure. Inthis, as in everything else, my heart's desire is to act in the sightof God. My son, far distant, is daily present with me. I rejoice thathe is gone on the Lord's errand to the dark places of the earth; andfind here an additional motive to bring him daily before the Lord, whose he is, and whom he serves. I have been much drawn out in prayerfor the Fijian chiefs. --Called upon Mrs. K. At her own request. Ihad previously met her at a friend's house; and, in course ofconversation, had inquired after her mother, whom I had frequentlyvisited, but of whose state of mind I entertained considerable doubt, believing that she was resting short of sound conversion; and whomindeed, at our last interview, I had warned not to deceive herself. These fears I expressed to Mrs. K. The same evening she saw hermother, and repeated what I had said, with some degree of concern. Thenext time she called, her mother said, 'Mary, you must get somebody topray with me, or I am lost for ever. ' However, being unwell, she wenthome to bed; but could not sleep, in consequence of what her motherhad said: so she rose at five the following morning, and went to seeher mother again. She found that she had been in such distress ofmind, that at midnight she had aroused a neighbour to pray with her, and not in vain; for the Lord graciously sent 'deliverance out ofZion, ' and spoke peace to her troubled spirit. She lived about threeweeks after my last visit, and died rejoicing in the Lord. Thesecircumstances have so deeply affected Mrs. K. As to lead her to seekthe Lord, and she is now pursuing her way to heaven. Glory be to Godon high!--In consequence of my uncle's declining health, I returnedagain to Sinnington; and am now sat by his side. He is restless, butsays nothing. It is the midnight hour; yet 'He that keepeth Israelneither slumbers nor sleeps. ' No sound salutes my ear but the pendulumof the clock, which, with every stroke, admonishes me that timeflies. --Alone with uncle. He sleeps. All is tranquillity and peace; mysoul is fixed on Christ, and enjoys undisturbed repose. Surrounded byHim, in whom I live, move, and have my being, all nature, --the balmyair, --the rich verdure, --the growing beauties of spring enlivened bythe great luminary of heaven, conspires to raise this often wanderingheart to Him, whom I desire above all things to love and obey. --Iasked uncle if his prospect was bright; he replied, 'Aye, I've nodoubt. '--I wonder at myself I make so little progress in knowledge, orincrease in holiness. I purpose, aim, attempt, yet daily have causeto mourn my unprofitableness; but with one whose memoir I have latelylooked into, 'I must come the short way to God, through the atoningblood of Jesus. ' His name is precious now. I feel its balmy power. Ofor ability to praise Him in language adequate to the glorioustask! God is love. Creation with its thousand tongues proclaims Him'Wonderful, Counsellor, the Mighty God;' and millions of intelligentcreatures extol Him, 'the Everlasting Father, and Prince of Peace'I have written a letter to be read in the Tuesday class. Visited Mr. M. --My soul goes out after God, and my faith claims Him mine. Owhat an exalting, and yet humbling thought! Faith unites but loveadores. --How quickly time wastes away! I have been here a monthto-day; not supposing uncle could live many days. Nothing solid haspassed his lips for more than that period; and yet, though certainlyweaker, his strength is wonderful. I begin to feel anxious about home, and the dear folks among whom I meet. May the Lord bless them. --Myuncle evidently changed for the worse, and so continued for two days, until--on the 21st of June, about five minutes past five, he expired. It is a week to-day since he spoke, and six since he took his bed. I have often been sweetly drawn out in prayer by his bedside, andenjoyed peculiar liberty the day he died. I went again to see Mrs. M. , who is also dying, her friends weeping around her. --Returned to York. The sewing meeting was but thinly attended;--chiefly young persons, to whom I felt prompted to speak on their souls' welfare. The result Ileave. "

 WHERE IS THE LORD GOD OF ELIJAH?

 In the storm, that sweeps along; Blazing fire, and earthquake strong; In the lightning's trackless flight; Gathering cloud, and curtain'd night! In the fragrant passing breeze; Thunders loud, or raging seas. Stormy worlds, or gentle flower, God proclaims His sovereign power. But the still small voice of love Softly breathing from above, Speaks in spirit tones within-- 'Jesus suffered for my sin;' Till my soul--His hallowed shrine-- Melts in melody divine. Let me hear its whisper still; Melt, and mould me to Thy will. 

"'I will greatly rejoice in the Lord' is my motto this day. I enjoysettled peace, and am striving after the fulness offered in the wordof God: 'Filled with God;' 'Sealed with the spirit of Promise;''Dead to sin. ;' 'Holy. '--Disturbed in the night by a person who hada quarrel with her other self. --My John occupied the pulpit. At theprayer-meeting after, a person cried aloud for mercy. The Lord spokepeace to her soul on her return home. She could not sleep duringthe night for praising God. She came to the Thursday class. We wererejoiced to hear her statement. "

XVIII. 

LIGHT IN DARKNESS. 

 "FOR WE WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT. "--2 Cor. V. 7. 

In the wisdom of God, and in harmony with the highest purposes ofgrace, life is so constructed, as to make man feel his own weakness, and his dependance upon Divine power. The recurrence of seasons oftrouble and sorrow, makes a perpetual demand upon our faith. Reason tries in vain to disentangle the intricate dispensations ofProvidence, and nature sinks under the force of innumerable trials, which, like successive waves beat incessantly upon it. The onlyresource is faith in God; and when once we grasp the sure promise, 'all things work together for good to them that love God;' lightsprings up in the darkness: and all that comfort, which might arisefrom a clear discovery of the processes of Providence, is realized inthe assurance that all shall be well, --an assurance given by Him whocannot lie, confirmed by an oath, sealed with the blood of Christ, andverified by the experience of God's people in all ages. It is thusthe christian's privilege to rejoice always, if not in His afflictionswhich are grievous, yet in the Lord, who ruleth all things well. Mrs. Lyth knew this to be possible, she aimed at it, and though not alwayswith equal success, she walked by 'faith and not by sight. '

"1843. --I have been privileged to attend the house of God, after anabsence of some weeks through affliction; but with grief I confess, that when I first got out to see my daughter, who has also been ill, I neglected the opportunity of social prayer and thanksgiving, thatwe were again permitted to see each other. My ingratitude stares me inthe face. Against Thee, O Lord, against Thee only, have I sinned. --MyJohn is preaching his trial sermon. My husband and servant are hearinghim; and I have been alone, praying for him, that he may neither gobefore, nor stay behind the call of God. I feel the Lord is present, and my heart goes out after Him. --I was called up a little after fiveto attend upon my daughter-in-law. A beautiful morning. I reproachedmyself for so often losing the sweet perfume of the morning air. WhenI arrived the babe was born. So another immortal spirit is added to myfamily. Praise God, the promise reaches to them all. --Collectingfor the missions in one of the poorest districts, we peeped into acomfortless spot, where lived a poor widow with five children. We didnot wish to ask for anything, but were obliged to give a reason forour stepping in. The woman said however, that it was a good cause, andshe would give us something. This was truly the widow's mite, and willnot pass unrewarded. --As soon as I rose from my bed, these lines wereupon my tongue before I was aware--

 'Mercy's full power, I then shall prove, Lov'd with an everlasting love. '

While repeating them it occurred, this is an answer to prayer lastnight. --I find it difficult to retain the truths I hear; but, havingthe law written in my heart, I desire in all things to obey. --Thecases of several members of my family press heavily upon my spirit. Eliza continues very weak, and John is in suspense; my only refuge isin taking them to the throne of grace: for it is written, 'Cast thyburden upon the Lord, and He will sustain thee. '--The cloud begins tobreak, and I feel abased before the Lord, that I should have hadso little confidence. My daughter is better, and John has receivedsatisfactory information; so I am confident, that in both casesthe Lord is mindful of us. Yesterday, while bowed by my daughter'sbedside, the light broke in upon my soul, and I believe upon her'stoo. I felt power to rest upon the Lord, and leave her in His hands:very different from what I have felt before, although I have manytimes approached the throne, and sometimes caught a glimpse of hope;but this was the broad light of faith. "

"Harrogate. What shall I render unto the Lord for all His merciestowards me? I am living in the enjoyment of peace of mind; desiringmore of God; distrustful of myself; grieved that I love God no more, and aiming to do better. O Lord, the power impart. --We returned homegreater debtors to the Lord than ever, for the mercies both of theupper and nether springs. My husband welcomed me with the class-bookin his hand, which at first, I felt reluctant to take, but found ablessing in taking up the Cross. --When I retired to rest, I thought, if the Lord will condescend to give me some passage from Himself, which is not familiar to me, it will strengthen my faith. My requestwas granted, and the words 'As one, whom his mother comforteth, 'occupied my thoughts much of the night, and were first upon my tonguein the morning. I saw my John off by train to Colchester. I feeldeeply concerned for his health, and for his spiritual welfare, andfor his prosperity in the work in which he is engaged: but if a mothermay be heard for her child, (and I believe it, ) my poor petitionsshall be continually urged at the throne of grace, that he may be allGod requires. --A week of toil is past. My husband is under medicaladvice. I am tried with my servant; my words and actions aremisconstrued, but I have been aiming to speak and act as in the sightof God, however imperfectly. --Alone. In two hours the year closes, --ayear of unnumbered mercies. "

 Backward I turn, and view the stream Of mercy rolling rich and free; Here, flashing with a silver gleam; There, tinged with hues of mystery. 

 Through health and sickness, hope and fear; In griefs imagined, never known, Its current flowed, my heart to cheer; And light upon my pathway shone, But ah! what poor returns are mine! How weak my faith! my love, how cold! Yet will I praise Thee, 'I am Thine, ' Thy faithful promise still I hold:

 Distrusting self, I come to Thee, My vileness in Thy wounds to hide; When foes assail, to Thee I flee, And in Thy changeless love confide. 

 Then speed, ye fleeting years, your flight; I will not mourn the period gone; But hasten to my home in light: Eventful, rapid years, roll on!

"Eleven o'clock. I desire most unreservedly to surrender myself to theLord; to be wholly His. Amen. "

"1844. In my walks through the city, I met with the Rev. ThomasRichardson, who, kindly accosting me, inquired after my husband'shealth and requested me to tell him, 'to be careful for nothing, butin everything by prayer, and supplication, with thanksgiving, to makeknown his wants and requests unto God. ' He added, 'I remember what youonce said to me, 'What thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might;but the children of this world are wiser than the children of light;and I fear this is sadly neglected;'--with additional kind advice. To my mind it was a word in season, and my heart warmed with the kindadmonition. --I went to see Mrs. L. , and was much surprised to findher daughter, who is in attendance upon her, lying ill on a bed by theside of her mother's. After a little conversation with her I prayed, and then turned and spoke a few words to the mother, and again weunited in prayer. I asked the young woman if she found it good, and, though scarcely able to speak, she clasped her hands and said, 'Very--very. ' A little after seven the same evening, she expired, in the bloom of youth. --The President, the Rev. John Scott, and Dr. Newton came to York to advocate the cause of education. A tea wasprovided. I was one of the Committee, and hoped to have had theopportunity of hearing those honoured servants of the Lord; but ah! weare dust. My dear husband, after rising from dinner, was preparing togo, when he was seized with an attack of paralysis. (This being thesecond). I immediately sent for medical aid, and the Lord graciouslyblessed the means, and now, I hope, the stroke is turned aside. Sothe purpose of meeting our friends was frustrated; but this is forour good. My mind was kept in peace. --Visited Mary R. , who is fastsinking, --she said with rapture, 'Jesus is here, Jesus is here. ' I amsince informed, that she has triumphed over her last enemy, waving herhand, and shouting, 'Glory!'--A very blustering night. Waking a littleafter three, I rose to pray, and found the watchful Keeper of Israelready to listen to my early cry. I begged Him, if it pleased Him, togive me sleep, and wake me at five. I laid down, slept, and when Iawoke, looked at my watch, which was just five minutes to five. Ifelt, and still feel my obligations to the Lord, and am resolved tocommit myself to His guidance. --My birthday. I awoke a little afterthree, and arose at half-past four, with these words upon my mind, 'Who will consecrate his services this day unto the Lord?' My heartresponds, 'I will. ' Yes, Lord, Thou, who seest the breathing desiresof my heart, and only knowest its wanderings, discover to me if thereis any secret iniquity lurking there. As far as I know, I am sincere, and would be wholly Thine. My soul is happy. I am Thine. Saw Mrs. N. Again. When I entered the room she seemed quite exhausted, butrecovering a little said, 'O, I have had such a deliverance sinceI saw you! After a severe struggle with the enemy, I could not helpsaying aloud, Bless the Lord, I can believe without a doubt or fear;I throw myself upon Christ. ' But you will think me better than I am. I have been a poor loiterer. I have not let my light shine as I ought. What did I say?' 'I repeated all I could recollect. ' 'Yes, ' shesaid, 'it is all true; give my love to my dear sisters (meaning herclassmates), and tell them to make much of their religion. I love themall. '--My mind is solemnly impressed. Death is taking away my friendson all hands. Well, a little while, and we shall see the end. May webe blessed as they are, and as free. Happy am I to learn that Mrs. N. , when conversing with her husband, an hour or two before her departure, said, 'I shall soon be with Christ; go to bed, and I will try to goto sleep. ' She did so, and woke no more, literally falling asleep inJesus. --I have this morning felt depressed with the thought of beingclosed up in the earth; surely this is from an enemy, for when deathhas done its work, what matters where the body is? There is nothingI desire so much as to live and die a Christian. I hold fast the hopethrough Christ; yet I cannot perceive improvement, although I have attimes been much led out in prayer. Last night, while meditating on mystate, with earnest prayer for the direct witness of the renewal of mynature, the assurance was given, 'I have graven thee on the palms ofmy hands. ' I want not to spend, but to _redeem_ the time with Mrs. D. Called to see Mrs. T. , who is very weak in body, but trusting in theLord. I knelt down to pray, and had not uttered many words before shebroke out in prayer and praise, expressive of her firm confidence inthe Lord Jesus. It was a melting season. It is encouraging to see thepower of grace thus manifested in the midst of pain and weakness, andbearing up the subjects of it. --We met to make fresh arrangementsfor the Clothing Society, when, much against my own will, I wasreappointed Treasurer: but, as it is a cross, I will try to take itup. --Took tea with my daughter. All the preachers and their wiveswere present. I was both pained and profited, --profited in singingand prayer, and pained whilst endeavouring to defend an absentbrother. --Resigned my office in connexion with the sewing-meeting withpeace of mind. Yet, on reviewing the three years during which I haveheld it, I can only say, unprofitable servant; for, although I haveendeavoured to please God in the faithful discharge of my duty, mydoings have been mixed with much imperfection. Called to see a youngwoman in the small-pox, who is crying for mercy. I have visited herseveral times. Her cry continues, mingled with the hope that God willsave her. I am sure gratitude ought continually to burn upon the altarof my heart. Even when passing through darkness, light has sprang upto illumine the path; but when I consider my returns, I am filled withhumiliation. What shall I do? I will try to do better; Lord, help me, I am Thine. "

 I am Thine by purchase great, Made, redeemed, sustained by Thee; By surrender, now I wait All Thy pleasure upon me. 

"1845. Took tea with Mrs. W. , and had the opportunity of urging herhusband to seek the salvation of his soul. --My dear Eliza was thismorning again made a mother. Another little boy to put in the covenantgrant. Just as I write the promise is given, 'Thy children shall beall taught of God, and great shall be the peace of thy children. ' Somay it be; I desire nothing more. This afternoon I have had afall, and was miraculously preserved from injury. I record it as anacknowledgment of the kind care which providence has exercised overme. What will be the end of these struggles respecting MaynoothCollege? Will Romanism or Protestantism prevail?--I saw Mrs. R. Threetimes today; the second she expressed hope in God; the third the powerof speech was gone. Awful crisis! Standing on the edge of two worlds!It was a solemn moment. While engaged in prayer I felt access. How needful to be ready!--Near midnight. I have this week beenendeavouring 'to reckon myself dead indeed unto sin, but alive untoGod. ' My faith is sometimes strong, at others feeble; but my purposeto hold fast the blessing was never more fixed. Thou, who at thismoment beholdest the inmost recesses of my heart, and who, by ThySpirit, givest me inward peace, keep me from this hour; and help meconfidently, through the merits of Christ, to confess with my mouthwhat my heart believes--that 'the blood of Jesus Christ Thy Soncleanseth me from all sin. '--Again visited Mrs. B. The last time Isaw her she wept, and appeared to feel much; but I was afraid shewas imagining she had attained what she had not, and resolved to callagain at the first opportunity. I found the Lord had been powerfullyworking on her mind. She felt it such a mercy that the Lord had notcut her off in her sins, that she had wrestled with the Lord until Heremoved her load of misery, and communicated peace: this is the Lord'sdoing. --All is still; only the moan of my afflicted cousin, in herslumbers, falls upon my ear. The clouds of evening are richly tintedas the shadows of night draw on. My soul enjoys sweet tranquillity. Jesus' merits being the only refuge of my soul. When I asked cousinthe state of her mind, she said, 'Sometimes I have no doubt, at othersI am perplexed;' and then added, with tears, 'Though He slay me, yetwill I trust in Him. '"

 Oh! what is life? a passing cloud, Tinged with a rainbow light; But let the sun his glory shroud, Where is the vision bright?

 'Tis past and gone, and in its place, Nought but the cloud appears: It is the Sun of righteousness Must gild this vale of tears. 

"Fulfilled some errands on the Lord's account. Passing a spot wherea person once a member resided, I called to see how her mind wasaffected now. She was much pleased, and said the Lord had sent me, asshe was wishing to see me, having had her desires after eternal liferevived. Some others, to whom I was directed, were equally disposedto unite themselves with the people of God. --Two days ago cousinevidently altered for the worse; she has spoken little, but beenremarkably patient, through her protracted affliction. This morningshe expressed her confidence in God; and a few minutes aftereleven her happy spirit returned to God. We sorrow, but not withouthope, --Her remains were conveyed to Sinnington for interment. Pastrecollections seemed to drink up my spirit; only one survivor--uponthe spot--of all those whom long association has endearedto me. We called upon Mr. B. ; but ah! how changed! completelyparalyzed, --apparently incapable of much impression, and yet, I fear, unsaved! I spoke to him, and also his son, on the necessity of makingtheir peace with God, and then prayed with them; but my mind wasafterward pained because I had done the work so inefficiently. --Thelast fortnight I have several times visited a little boy, sinkingin decline. When first I saw him, he appeared quite ignorant of hissinful condition; but divine light has gradually beamed upon his soul. The last time, he expressed a confidence I had not observed before. His mother tells me, she has often heard him engaged in earnestprayer; and once, perceiving him much worse, she said, 'Bill, thou'svery ill. ' 'Yes, ' he replied, 'but I shall soon be _better_. ' Whennear death, he asked, 'Do you see who's come for me?' she said, 'No, who is it?' He answered, 'Jesus;' and clasping his hands, saidrepeatedly, 'Lord, help me!' then placing them together, under hishead, gently passed away. --While endeavouring to do my Master's will, I carry my heaven about with me. My soul enjoys peace, with a deepsense of my own nothingness. 'Christ is all; other refuge have Inone. '"

 All praise to God, whose sleepless eye, Observed my tender years; And blessed me with parental love, Parental prayers and tears. 

 Through every lane of life I trace His providential care; In many a time of need, His grace And guardian hand were there. 

 His still small voice of love I heard, When in the blush of youth; I paused, and listened to the word Of everlasting truth. 

 Resolved I was, and re-resolved, But many a conflict knew; Till God, in Christ, my sins absolved, And unbelief o'erthrew. 

 What shall I render to the Lord? What can a sinner do? I'll rest upon His precious word, And take His grace anew. 

XIX. 

THE INWARD MONITOR. 

 "THE LORD SHALL GUIDE THEE CONTINUALLY. "--Isaiah lviii. 11. 

Who, that is conscious of the solemn responsibility of life, and ofthe perils by which it is beset, but feels the necessity of continualdirection? How many emergencies daily arise, in which there is need ofwisdom superior to our own? Oh for a Mentor, whose constant presenceand unerring counsels might always guide us aright! The aspirationis not in vain. God himself, offers to be the guide of His people. He will put His Spirit in them, who shall abide with them always, andguide them in the way of all truth. But how? Not by some irresistibleimpulse, which overpowers the action of human will, or by some newrevelation, which would render unnecessary the ordinary means ofreligious instruction; but by the lessons of His holy word, which isbrought to the mind in the moment of requirement; for the Holy Spiritbrings to our _remembrance_ whatsoever is there revealed for ourcomfort and instruction. This shows the importance, not only of theconstant and diligent study of the Word of God, but of storing thememory, while it is yet fresh and vigorous, with Scripture truth: forit is obvious, _that_ cannot be brought to our remembrance, which wasnever known. Further, we must ask for direction, committing all ourways to Him; and when He graciously indicates the path of duty, atonce obey. He who acts upon these principles will never

 'Full direction need. Or miss his providential way. '

God will guide him continually, and often, in a manner most wonderful, supply light and counsel, in times of perplexity, or need. Mrs. Lythhad in early life committed to memory large portions of the Word ofGod; the Bible was the book of her choice--her daily study; and herlove for it became more impassioned as life rolled on to its close. Hence, as she was in the habit of prayerfully seeking direction inall her movements, its precious truths were constantly brought toremembrance. Indeed, in some parts of her diary, scarcely a day passeswithout the record of some scripture thus applied, most commonly asher first morning thought, which furnished profitable reflection forthe day. 

"1846. --Called to see one I saw on Saturday, but she is no more. Whither is she gone? Pursued my way to visit another sick friend. WhenI approached her bedside, she said she was very ill in body, andvery miserable in mind. After a few words we knelt down. The Lord wasgraciously pleased to give the spirit of prayer; and faith realizedthe blessing. She cried out, 'I am Thine, glory be to God!' Howgood it is when God comes down, and melts our frozen nature!--I havecommenced reading Matthew Henry's Commentary; how far I shall live toread, I know not; but I have commenced it with prayer, and by God'shelp intend so to continue. --Invited the Clothing Committee to tea. For some days before, I prayed that we might be directed into the loveof God. Being, as I believe, the oldest, I ventured to take the lead, and we had a little band-meeting. All spoke and prayed. Afterward Iwas painfully exercised; but I cast myself, with all my imperfections, upon God. --In visiting the School I felt prompted to speak a few wordsto the children, and made the attempt. The words impressed upon mymind were 'Even a child is known by his doings. '--Sought out Mrs. ----, to whom I spoke plainly; also called upon another christianfriend, one, who is placed in slippery places in public life;--prayedwith them: and now my work is before Thee, wilt Thou be pleased toacknowledge my feeble endeavours to help Thy people on?--I have todaybeen engaged in obtaining Ladies' signatures to memorialize theQueen for the suppression of houses of ill fame. --A pleasant drive toHarrogate. Came, resolved to give myself to prayer, and have feltit good to draw nigh to God. --While sitting at my work about threeo'clock, the thought occurred, 'Look into the little book lying on thetable. ' I did so, and on opening it, read, 'Rise and pray. ' I wasthus reminded of my engagement with a friend, and was thankful for theadmonition. --I felt reproved for uttering a matter which, though true, would have been better unsaid. When will my tongue be brought into duesubjection?

"Cleethorpes. Much of the day passed upon the terrace. Had aconversation with a Church lady, to whom the Lord enabled me to speakof the things of God; and have since been praying that conviction mayfasten upon her conscience. --Was sent for to visit a lady upon a sickbed, with whom I had a free conversation. I have now seen her three orfour times, and she seems really in earnest to save her soul. She hasknown something of the truth for fifteen years; but is much depressedby a nervous affection. I have been led to admire the harmonies andadaptations of nature. Can it be that God should thus provide for manin his fallen condition, and will He forget to provide for His own?Never! Infinite Power, is infinite love. --Called to see a person whois sick, but was disappointed. However, I conversed and prayed withher mother, and afterward went to read to a poor blind woman who is inthe way to heaven. --Called to see a person with whom I conversed a fewdays ago;--heard her groaning in great pain, but did not see her. Thedaughter, who is also ill and much harassed with attending upon hermother, said, they had now no time for religion, as afflictionput every thing else out of their thoughts; yet she admitted itsimportance. I gave her a few words of counsel, and when I left, toldher I should pray for them. She looked at me with surprise, and weparted, probably to meet no more till we meet at the bar of God. Both of them knew something of religion years ago. Lord, save me fromtrifling. --Left Cleethorpes at six. The Grimsby packet was crowded, and there were many wicked people on board. I was glad when we reachedHull. --Two of my members lie at the point of death; one, above eighty, is perhaps already gone. She has not been able to attend her classfor some years, but I have regularly visited her; and often beenencouraged while praying with her. A wicked son has been a greattrouble to her, and, I am informed, often used her ill. To the lastshe expressed confidence in God. I have seen her several times sincethe commencement of this last affliction, which has only been of aweek's duration. Last night she was just entering the valley, and thepower of recollection was nearly gone. The other, whom I also saw lastnight, is aged, and with a happy expression of countenance declaredher trust in God, and hope of heaven. Two others that I saw, bothabove eighty, were joyfully waiting their release. "

 Exiled from my Father's home, A pilgrim here below; Looking, --longing, lo! I come More of Thy love to know. Let me here, like Mary, sit; Claim Thee every moment mine; Willing always to submit, And lose my will in Thine. 

"I retain the earnest desire after full dedication to God, Spared tosee the last moments of another year; I am resolved that God shallhave my heart. Worthless enough! But the atonement! Here is my hopeand consolation. Yes, my all centres here. "

"1847. --A friend came to request me to write to a sister, who is introuble through bereavement. Never did I so clearly apprehendthe responsibility of acting for the Lord. May the attempt beblessed. --Visited the School, and was glad to find that some of thechildren remembered what I said to them a year ago. This showsthe importance of storing the youthful mind with what is worthremembering. I requested them to commit to memory the 23rd Psalm. Sixor eight have done so, and repeated it correctly. Addressed and prayedwith them. This finishes my month of visitation. --I have to recordthe merciful interposition of Providence, beyond my expectation, in amatter which has occasioned me much pain. On this account I wish to bethankful. Surely the Lord has heard my prayer. Let this induce meto exercise a firmer reliance upon His promise, being 'carefulfor nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication withthanksgiving, making my requests known unto God. '--In visiting some ofthe Lord's people, I think I was directed aright. "

 I would, in every footstep, move To meet the Saviour whom I love. 

"Called upon Mrs. W. , in dying circumstances. I have seen hertwice, and feel encouraged. The world becomes more empty. Christ isall. --Believing it to be my duty, I visited the surviving sons ofMrs. W. , to urge them to follow their deceased parent. They seemed towelcome my visit, and invited me to call again. 

"Sinnington. --Visited several of the villagers, with an anxious desirethat I might be useful to them. Visited my departed friends in thechurchyard; I hope to join them soon. On one of the gravestones I read

 'The grave has eloquence, its lectures teach In language louder, than divines can preach. '"

"I was again solicited to take the presidency of the sewingmeeting;--a position, which to me appears increasingly important. Wantof punctuality, and other evils, are creeping in. Lord, I am Thine, I would do that which is right in Thy sight, teach me; and, by thecontrol of Thy providence, let this organization be placed on the bestfooting, that it may contribute to Thy glory. --Mrs. Wilson from Fiji, came to spend the day with us before she returned home. How sweet isthe cement of prayer! How it knits us to one another! My heart filledwhen I saw her. I could have wept. She brings pleasing tidings frommy son. --After much deliberation we determined to go to Harrogate. Ibelieve it is the right time. While on my knees before the Lord, itwas suggested, 'He shall bless thy going out and thy coming in fromthis time forth, and for evermore. ' I felt it was from the Lord, andbelieved it. We had an agreeable journey, and on our arrival a personaccosted us, and asked if we required lodgings. We went with her tolook at them, and found them congenial to our wishes. The partiesare members of our society: another proof of our heavenly Father'scare. --This evening I had the opportunity of speaking to one of thecavalry gentlemen. He thanked me, and said he would think about it. --Aday of severe exercise. I was constrained to go to the throneof grace, where I found help, and was enabled to rise above whatotherwise would have grieved me much. The grand secret, I believe, was the giving up my own will. May I ever have power to do it. --In mysleep, the words were continually running in my mind, 'Beloved, thinkit not strange concerning the fiery trial, which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you. ' Only enable me toendure; let Thy righteous will be done. "

 Glorious Lord, appear, appear To Thy feeble follower here; By Thy grace my heart prepare, All Thy righteous will to bear. 

"The words, 'I will be with him in trouble, ' have greatly comfortedme. Faith makes them mine; glory be to God!--At the sewing meetingI read the first section of Bramwell's Memoir. During tea I took theopportunity of speaking of the propriety of improving our time whiletogether, admonished as we were by the sudden removal of so manyaround us; also of the necessity of punctuality in our attendance, that we might not offer a blemished sacrifice. The sequel will showwith what effect. --As far as opportunity and strength permitted, Ihave occupied these two days in visiting my members, and my afflictedfriend, Miss Bentley. She knew me, and desired me to pray; but soonfell into a slumber. This was the last time she spoke to me. --Saw heragain; about half-past four she died--to live for ever. --It is nowthe last hour of 1847. I enjoy peace of mind and hunger afterrighteousness. I long to fill up my time according to the will of God, and if I live, to be more useful than I have ever been. "

 Oh! let Thy still small voice Say to my inmost soul, 'I am thy God; believe, rejoice, I make the contrite sinner whole. ' So be it. I am only Thine, And feel, through Christ, that Thou art mine. 

"1848. --A whole week I have been a prisoner, in consequence of aswollen foot; but I am sure it is permitted in love. I see it to be myprivilege patiently to submit, and think I feel willing to do so; butthere are many intricacies in the human heart, and I see no furtherthan divine light permits. "

 Advancing time is slow; But ah! how swiftly gone! To mark its flight, and show How 'vantage may be won, Is wisdom only few attain, But wisdom yielding greatest gain. 

"Called to see the Rev. Thomas Walker, and found it good while prayingwith him. He requested me, whenever I bowed the knee, to remember him. He is daily brought to my recollection. --Memorable day! My Richard'sbirthday. How little do we anticipate the events of life! now amongcannibals, preaching the everlasting Gospel. Glorious work! Thus highlyhonoured of the Lord, may he prove faithful. Than this, I can haveno greater joy. --Called a third time to see Miss W. , who seems to beseeking the Lord in real earnest. I found her reading the Bible, and weeping. Saw her again. She told me how happy she had been allThursday night; and said she felt as if I had cured both body andsoul. Since then she has been very ill, but is still following on toknow the Lord. Her Bible seems her greatest treasure. Afterward I hada happy interview with Mrs. Isaac;--declining in body but alive toGod. She prayed sweetly. --Helmsley Missionary Meeting. We were hurriedfrom the dinner table to the chapel, which precluded the preparation Ilike. Friends are so kind in making ample provision for the body, thatour souls are in danger of suffering loss in consequence. --Called tosee Miss W. Death was painted in her countenance; but she roused up, while I pointed her to the Saviour, and urged her to accept His mercy_now_. After prayer she said, with tears, 'I do believe in Jesus. 'I read a psalm, to which she listened with deep attention, and thenprayed again. When I rose to depart she said, 'You'll come again;'which I purposed to do, but she died the following morning. While atthe committee for the distribution of clothing, the Lord blessed mewith such a calm serenity of mind, that it was observed by one of myfriends. Was it in answer to prayer? It is true, before I left home, my prayer was for a meek and quiet spirit; also the preceding evening, my friend B. And I had unitedly agreed to pray that we mightmore evidently, in our different spheres, approve ourselves God'switnesses. Since then I have been endeavouring, but not always withequal success. --Still confined to the house. Rose between six andseven, and found the advantage of prayer. I feel my unprofitableness, but was never more resolved to cleave to my best Friend than now. During the week I have been much drawn out in prayer for the dearpeople committed to my care. But ah! I have not prayed half enough;for this I feel humbled. O Lord, impress their spiritual welfare moredeeply upon my heart. "

 "1849. --Here, I dedicate anew My ransom'd powers to Thee; A worthless offering, it is true; Yet deign to look on me. 

"The Rev. A. Bell called to say he wished Mrs. D. To take my Thursdayclass, as he wanted female leaders on that side the bridge. Is it myunfaithfulness that will cause these dear people to be taken fromme? My dear husband says it is providential, on account of my health. Well, I wait the issue. --Not long ago, a man, who was crushed on therailway, cried out, as his companions were carrying him away upon ahurdle, 'Stop!' when asked if they hurt him, he replied, 'No;' andpulling his hymn-book out of his bosom, added, 'I want to sing'--

 'Happy if with my latest breath, I may but gasp His name; Preach Him to all, and cry in death, Behold, behold the Lamb. '"

"He was conveyed to a neighbouring inn, and medical aid immediatelyobtained. The doctor felt his pulse, and shook his head, on which thesufferer inquired how long he should live. 'Perhaps till twelve, ' wasthe answer. He then repeated the verse commencing

 'No room for mirth or trifling here, ' &c. 

adding, 'I shall be in heaven before twelve. ' Near that time, helifted up his hands, and shouting victory, victory, expired. --Thepractice, which I have for some time adopted, of retiring immediatelyafter breakfast to pray for myself, and those who are associated withme in church fellowship, I find truly profitable. --We set off early inthe morning for Gloucester, to visit our son and daughter; and had apleasant and peaceful journey, far beyond my expectation. A lady, who sat beside me, gave me an account of her conversion to God. Theconversation was originated by some tracts, which she carried fordistribution. About seven we arrived, and found our children lookingout for us. Thus past the last day of my sixty-sixth year--an epitomeof my life--continual change. --Returned to York. Mrs. J. Accompaniedme in search of Rosamond J. We found her in very poor circumstances, with four children, and her husband gone off to seek work. Sheinstantly recognised me, and burst into tears. We prayed with her. After tea I met Mrs. J. 's class. The Lord was with us; several were intears, conscious of their distance from God. The Lord assisted mein speaking to them, and blessed my own soul. --Death is common. Thecholera prevails. May this awful visitation be sanctified to us! I wassent for to see Mrs. P. ; she expressed her confidence in God, andthis morning died of cholera. --I felt impressed to visit the adjoiningneighbours, and having bowed before the Lord, to ask his blessing andhelp, I went; and, as the Lord enabled me, conversed and prayed withtwo families. In one of them, the wife, who is much afflicted, pressed me to go again, and her husband seconded the request. --Severalcircumstances which have occurred in our Society, painful inthemselves, have turned out to my benefit, destroying my dependanceon man, and pointing me to the Rock which is higher than I. In anunexpected trial I was divinely supported. I went to see ----, andthere I met with his friend, to whom I spoke plainly; my heartwas pained. --Instead of going to the house of God, I was painfullyexercised at home. "

 Opprest, I lift my heart to Thee, Thou soother of my care; Oh! let Thy ear attentive be, To this my heartfelt prayer. 

 Thou seest my heart's desire, to live Obedient to Thy will; Help me, to Thee, my all to give, With love my bosom fill. 

 "Whate'er in me is wrong remove, Whate'er is dark illume; Search, try, and purge me, but in love, Lest Thou Thy dust consume. 

 To Thee is all my sorrow known, No secret would I hide; The enemy his tares hath sown, Oh! let him not divide. 

 Thou only canst my burden move, The woful breach repair; Oh! send us succour from above, And hear my instant prayer. 

"I am resolved, through grace, to seek a closer walk with God, andsweeter communion by the Holy Ghost. I want constancy, and more faith. I am convinced of my cowardice in not confessing the sanctifying graceof God which I enjoy; and thus insensibly lose sight of it. I desirecontinually to be led by the Spirit. I went to converse with aneighbour about having family-prayer. The mother is an oldMethodist. Saw another person, who is a widow, and in trouble; bothheart-touching visits. --In visiting, I met with the son of one of mymembers, whom I requested to read six verses of scripture everyday; got the whole family together, and prayed with them. There wasconsiderable feeling among them. --I am now entered upon the last hourof this eventful year, in which thousands have been swept away bycholera, and many by sudden death; but it has not come nigh me. Ibegan it with the fixed purpose of living to God; but Thou, Lord, knowest how often and wherein I have failed. I feel I can pleadnothing but the blood of atonement, to which I come; I want strongerfaith, and more love. The unhappy divisions in our Connexion haverather done me good; for I feel a hungering after Bible Christianity, and more of that love which 'never faileth, ' and which 'thinketh noevil. '"

XX. 

THE STORM. 

 "THE LORD HATH HIS WAY IN THE WHIRLWIND AND THE STORM, AND THE CLOUDS ARE THE DUST OF HIS FEET. " Nahum i. 3. 

The storm, that spreads ruin and devastation in its path, is no lessa proof of a wise and overruling Providence than the gentler phenomenaof nature, which, with such constant and unvarying regularity, refreshand bless the earth. It cleanses the atmosphere, and sweeps away thepoisonous miasmata, which have been engendered during a period ofquiescence, and which must, if not removed, prove prejudicial to humanlife. A similar effect is exerted by those painful dissensions whichtoo often arise in religious communities. God permits them for thepurification of His church. What is useless or injurious is sweptaway; what is good is confirmed; and if unhappily many, that are weak, are injured, it is because they do not seek shelter in Him, who is ahiding-place from the wind, and a covert from the tempest. Duringthe fierce agitation, which swept as a whirlwind over the Methodistsocieties in 1849 and 1850, Mrs. Lyth never lost sight of the greatpurpose of life. She stood faithful and unmoved at her post; andmeddled no further with matters of strife than positive duty required. The questions which many loved to discuss, and thought themselvesquite competent to settle, were never willingly the topic of herconversation. They were the subjects of her prayers. She retired toher closet; she wept in secret over the breaches of Zion; she soughther refuge from the surrounding excitement in the secret place of theMost High, and hence that, which in itself was a serious evil, becameto her a source of personal benefit. Happy would it have been formany, who needlessly exposed themselves to the fury of the storm, ifthey had been like minded. 

"1850. --Several perplexing circumstances have conspired to disturb thequiet of my mind, however, they could only ruffle the surface. ThroughChrist, I enjoy settled peace. --In the course of discussion in theLeaders' Meeting I was given to see the amiableness of the meekness ofwisdom, which was exhibited by one of our leaders. I came home prayingfor more of it, feeling greater love for the Lord's people, andthankful that I am united with them. O what a privilege!--Twenty-sevenyears since my dear father entered into rest; and I am yet alive, tosee and hear of more discord among the professed followers of Jesusthan ever I saw. Nevertheless, the 'Word of God is sure, the Lordknoweth them that are His. ' I praise God my heart is fixed, let othersdo as they may; yet it is painful to me to see them leaving the peopleof God. 'I know in whom I have believed, ' and in Jesus I have peace. 

"Copy of a letter written to a member, late of my class:--

"MY DEAR MRS. ----, My heart yearns over you; and, having been yourLeader, I feel a responsibility resting upon me, of which I cannotacquit myself, without warning you of the danger, to which you areexposing your own soul, by giving place to a spirit not of love. 

"You have been offended; go to the offender, that the breach may behealed; do not make the rent wider. Read carefully and with prayer, our Saviour's directions in Matt. 18th; and submit yourself at thefeet of Jesus, who has said, 'Learn of me, for I am meek and lowly inheart. '

 "O my dear friend, an enemy has gained an advantage over you; and on cool reflection you will have cause to mourn. Suffer not this evil to rankle in your breast; but go directly to Jesus for power to forgive, that you may be forgiven. 

 "My love for your eternal welfare, prompts me thus to write to you, and I remain, "Your sincere friend, &c. "

"My husband is gone to New Street Chapel, the Trustees having beensummoned on the 'Delegate' affair. The Lord reigneth. --The past hasbeen a week of painful disunion and insubordination in oar Society. Alas! Yet, through mercy, my peace of mind continues. My resolve tolive for Him, who gave himself for me, is more firmly fixed than ever. While sitting under the word, my mind was impressed to go and speakwith M. R. ; I scarcely indulged the thought, but when I returned home, it still pursued me. I took it to the Lord, and asked for wisdom, courage, and a plain path; and then set forth. My path was made plain, courage was given, and the spirit of meekness and love rested uponme. The word of admonition was kindly received; may it be as a nailfastened by the Master of assemblies. --The adjourned MissionaryMeeting was held in the Centenary Chapel, and concluded the annualservices. The collection was nearly £10 in excess of last year. Messrs. E. And G. Were present. Three cheers, accompanied by thewaving of hats, &c. , were given by certain persons for the 'expelled. 'The like I never saw before, nor ever wish to see again. --My sonpreached in New Street. In his first prayer he was much drawn out. Thedivine power reached my heart. I felt it truly precious, glory be toGod, who in mercy has called my children to spread the savour of hisgrace. O that the prayer I have often presented for this son, may beanswered, that he may be blessed to thousands who may sit under hisministry. --Collected for the Missions. Several refused to give; but awidow increased her subscription from two to ten shillings. 

"Harrogate. --A pleasant walk alone; my meditations were sweet. Endeavoured to induce a few to go to the Prayer-meeting, but onlyprevailed upon four. Called on Mrs. B. Our conversation turned uponthe present unhappy divisions. How much are we in danger of gettingwrong! O Lord, let me be guided by Thy Spirit, and if I err putme right. In family prayer I was drawn out for each by name. Afterretiring to rest my little grandson David got up, and came to mybedside to ask me to pray for him. May the Lord make him a man afterhis own heart; and, if he live, a preacher of righteousness. I dreamtI was taking a long journey, and felt the rolling of rough watersunder me, but was fearless. When I awoke, this stanza was on my lips, 'Where all is assurance and peace, And sorrow and sin are no more. '"

"My soul is happy. --On leaving for home, I was inwardly moved topray with the family with which we had lodged. The Spirit of the Lordassisted me. --During the week I have been led out in prayer for my sonJohn, and for the Conference. If the enemy rages, the men of God haveaccess by faith to omnipotent Power, and unerring Wisdom. May each beclothed with humility, and claim the grace they need, that they may bewisely directed. 

"Sinnington. When we reached Pickering, we had a very awful storm, accompanied with thunder and lightning. My soul was kept in peace. Some women, who were detained as well as ourselves, seemed muchafraid. I was prompted to speak to them on the necessity of preparingto meet God. --Cousin Samuel took me to Whitby. We climbed one hundredand ninety steps to the church, and found many gravestones of littlenote; but one attracted my attention, as it bore my own and myhusband's names. How soon it will be said over us, 'Dust to dust, ' Iknow not; may we be found ready. --Called upon a sick neighbour, but asit was not convenient to see her, I retired into the drawing-room witha friend who was present, to pour out our souls on her behalf. --Ihave got a new servant, who makes no profession of religion, and feeldesirous for her salvation. Yesterday morning on awaking, the wordswere impressed upon my mind, 'Let him know, that he which convertetha sinner from the error of his ways, shall save a soul from death, andhide a multitude of sins. ' From this I derive encouragement. --Amidthe conflicting elements afloat, our business is to make Christ ourpattern and our guide. I am trying to take up my daily cross, andto watch the motions of my mind; but ah! how fitful. I amnothing;--helpless and undone without Christ, my only hope is in hisatonement. Precious refuge! Come Lord, come now; I thirst, I long forThy coming. Now baptize, and overpower me with Thy love. If there islurking in my soul, any secret and undiscovered evil, tear it away. 'Show me Thy glory!'"

"185l. --My soul is drawn heavenward. The sewing meeting is much laidupon my mind, that it may improve in spirituality, and that I may fillthe post assigned me according to the will of God. I long to spreadthe savour of Christ among the dear people, and make religion appearmore lovely. --Finished my visitation at the 'School of Industry;' thechildren repeated the 104th and 119th Psalms, also the 12th of Romans, and the 22nd of Revelation. I spoke a few words, and prayed with them;giving them a few small books, and one for the library. --A friendbrought me her album, requesting me to write in it. I thoughtprayerfully on the subject, and begged direction of the Lord, notknowing who might look upon it. During my sleeping hours and thefollowing morning, the subject of the last Sabbath's Sermon (Psalm 1. )was impressed upon my mind with such force and sweetness, and I feltit to be so suitable to my friend, that I determined to insert it. Myheart's desire is, that it may be blessed to all who read it. --As Ipassed the Centenary Chapel this evening, a gentleman thus accostedme: 'You don't know me. ' I answered, 'No sir. ' He rejoined, 'I sat inyour pew about nine years ago. Mr. Curnock preached about Noah's Ark;and a word you spoke to me afterward, forcibly impressed my mind. Yousaid, 'Get into the Ark, ' and now I have got into the Ark. ' I had noremembrance of the circumstance, but am thankful he has got in. ToGod be all the glory!--Sitting by the fire this evening, I fainted. Sograciously does my heavenly Father deal with me, that he blesses andchastens me in _love_; for this, my heart's desire is to praise Him: Ithirst for a deeper baptism, and more intimate communion with Him. "

 MY SIXTY-NINTH BIRTHDAY. 

 Now the evening shadows lengthen, Nature's feebleness appears; Every grace within me strengthen, To sustain increasing years. 

 Perfect in me all Thy pleasure, While I sojourn here below; Every fruit, in richer measure, Through my dying Lord bestow. 

"By the evening train a family party, consisting of thirteen of us, safely arrived in Searbro'. Five went to the band-meeting, which wasvery thinly attended. One of the five spoke, having been upwards offifty years a member. I went to Mr. F. 's class, and though I couldnot hear what the members said, I heard the leader, who made some veryappropriate remarks. When addressing me, he related an anecdote ofRowland Hill, who, going to preach at a village, was requested tovisit a good, but poor half-witted man. He went accordingly, andaccosted poor Richard with the question, 'Do you intend to go toheaven?' 'Yes, ' he replied, 'don't you?' 'But heaven is a long wayoff, ' said Mr. Hill. 'I don't think so, ' was the reply. 'Then what doyou think?' 'I think, ' said the man, 'it is only three steps. ' 'Well, Richard, what are they?' 'The first step is out of self; the secondinto Christ; and the third into Glory. ' So Mr. Hill went back, andtold his friends that he had been to preach to Richard, but Richardhad preached to him. --I ventured to speak to a friend, who sat besideme in the Chapel, about coming to class. To my surprise, she said shehad for some time thought of speaking to me on the subject. Surelythis was the suggestion of the Spirit. The Crystal Palace has greatattractions just now! I hope to see the palace of angels and ofGod. --Quarterly fast. It was good to be at the prayer-meeting in themorning; better at noon; best of all at night. --After a very restlessnight, my husband rose very poorly and feeble. I prayed with himbefore he got up, and now I feel it good to pray _for_ him. About noonhe had another attack of paralysis, which lasted about two hours, and at tea time he was seized again. Through mercy, he is better. Bylooking to the Rock that is higher than I, my mind has been sustained. While kneeling by the bedside of my afflicted husband, I have beenblessed, and found that as my day so has been my strength. --Myhusband and daughter are both better; thanks be to God! I cannot butacknowledge that He afflicts in love. --'Because I live ye shall livealso, ' was a portion in one of my dreams this week. I think of itwith pleasure, and believe it will be so; my heart aspires after thisinheritance, but not with so much fervour as it ought. --I purpose, Godwilling, to commence another afternoon class next Tuesday, at threeo'clock, for the benefit of some who may find it more convenient: Itrust it is with the approval of God, whose blessing I implore. --Thedying year has been marked by many blessings to me and mine;--muchnearness to my heavenly Father; but it has also seen many wanderings. I have just now been endeavouring to surrender myself freely and fullyunto the Lord, whose I am, and whom I desire faithfully to serve. Iseem surrounded by His presence. It is now eleven o'clock; but howmany will depart before twelve! Happy event to those who are prepared, having built upon Christ! Here rests my hope: 'Other refuge have Inone. ' Glory be to God on high!"

"1852. --Although I have been suffering from cold, the Lord deals verygently with me. Others of my dear family are now under the rod. Thesethings are painful; but looking at them in the light of eternity, Ifind love is mingled with them all. Oh! that from these dispensationswe may derive all the good our heavenly Father designs. We cannotbelieve He willingly afflicts the children of men, especially His ownchildren, but for our own profit, that we may be made 'partakers ofHis holiness. ' I am reading 'Angel James on Christian Charity. ' withprofit. --I am again disappointed of meeting the Lord's people. ThoughI am better than I have been, it is not deemed prudent for me to goout. This is taking up my cross, but whether in the right way, Thouknowest. I want in every thing to do right. --When I rose I found itwas only five o'clock, but resolved to give myself to prayer. Afterbreakfast I went to see my daughter Mary, whose husband is veryill. My soul was blessed in prayer with him. He requested me to prayearnestly. Lord, help me to pray in faith. While endeavouring to doso I am blest in my own soul. --This is a day of trouble and rebuke. My daughter Eliza is very ill; Mr. Jackson is also worse;--the medicalman giving little or no hope respecting him. In such cases, how vainis the help of man! The feelings of my mind are indescribable. O Lord, undertake Thou for us. I feel Thee near to me, be near to my dearfamily; and, while thus Thou art chastening us, O sanctify therod. --Mr. Jackson has had a very restless night, and is much weaker, but quite recollected. While I prayed, he responded. I left him alittle after eleven; and after calling upon Eliza, went to the Schoolof Industry. Between one and two a messenger came for me to go to Mr. Jackson's immediately; but before I could arrive, the lamp of lifewas extinguished. He had 'found the rest we toil to find. '--A week ofpainful exercise is past away; but I see not the end. Through mercy Ican look to God, and find refuge there. Yesterday when I awoke, it wassweetly suggested, 'Because I live ye shall live also. ' This raisedmy drooping spirit; and now I take my pen to acknowledge theloving-kindness of God, manifested to us as a family; even under themost painful events, mercy is mixed in the cup. --The last week--beforeI reach my seventieth year. Life has passed away as a dream! Thepleasing and the painful are both gone! But from the earliest dawn ofrecollection, the Spirit of God has moved upon my mind. Much love, andmuch patience, have been shown to me by my heavenly Father; and now, while the sun shines without, I feel the cheering beams of the Sun ofrighteousness upon my soul. "

 Time hastens me on; It soon will be gone, And the term of my stay Grows shorter and shorter, as life wears away. 

 One thing I desire, To this I aspire, To live in His will, Whose mercy has spared me, and blesses me still. 

 No merit I boast; In Him is my trust. Who gives me a place, And a lot, with His own, through His infinite grace. 

"To-day I attained the term of life allotted to man. Rose a littlebefore six, and resolved to dedicate myself afresh to God. Wrote a fewlines, read a little, and performed my customary duties. Worked tilldinner, after which I visited three poor widows, --relieved, and prayedwith them; then collected subscriptions to assist G. B. Called on Mrs. W. , who kindly welcomed me; also Mrs. Isaac, with whom I found it goodto engage in prayer. Went to the prayer-meeting, where I endeavouredto give myself unreservedly to God. Remained to the band-meeting, inwhich the power of God was manifestly revealed. Throughout the dayI have enjoyed a calm repose, and a fixed resolve to consecrate myservices, so long as I am spared, to the Lord. 

"Harrogate. --Returning from Chapel, I observed a number of gentlemensitting under a tree reading newspapers. On the spur of the moment, Istepped up to them, and said, 'Gentlemen, perhaps you had better layaside the papers, and read your bibles to-day. ' One answered veryroughly, 'You go home and say your prayers. ' I turned away, and hecontinued talking as long as I was within hearing. When I got homemy soul was drawn out in prayer that God would have mercy uponthem. --Through a continued rain I went to meet the Lord's people; butsingular to relate, though I waited ten minutes, no one came. Just asI was about to return, a stranger came in--desirous of fleeing fromthe wrath to come. We spent the hour in prayer. My friend foundencouragement, but not the power of faith. It was a time to beremembered. My heart yearned over her while, in a low tone--mingledwith tears--she poured out her soul before the Lord. "

 OLD AGE. 

 Does no bright star arise to cheer The Pilgrim's downward way? When age and feebleness appear, And wrapt in cloud, the night draws near, Can nought enfeebled nature cheer, And save it from dismay?

 Jesus, Thy promis'd aid is sure To all who trust in Thee; Thy strength in weakness shall assure Frail trembling nature, and secure The grace in patience to endure, Till death shall set me free. 

"During the last fortnight, two persons--whom I have often visitedin former afflictions--have passed away. Now--their knowledge farsurpasses mine. I am not at the Lord's house, as my husband desiredme to remain at home with him. Yet 'I have loved the habitation of Thyhouse. ' Age brings infirmity; but I see a danger of yielding too muchto increasing weakness. Lord, save me from spiritual sloth. While Iwrite, let inward religion be communicated. "

XXI. 

THE WIDOW. 

 "SHE THAT IS A WIDOW INDEED TRUSTETH IN GOD; AND CONTINUETH IN SUPPLICATIONS, AND PRAYERS, NIGHT AND DAY. "--1 Tim. V. 5. 

How often does it happen, that when death first enters a familycircle, and creates a breach; it is the signal of its speedydissolution! one falls, then another, and another, until the centralpoint of attraction is removed; and the individuals who are left, areby the force of circumstances, each made to feel themselves the centreof a new circle of interests, which in time will melt away asformer ones have done. The occurrence of such an event is to thoseimmediately concerned a season of solemn admonition. The questioninstinctively arises, who next will fall? and each may put it to hisown heart, "Lord, is it I?" The death of Mr. Jackson was the firstbreach in a family, which by God's blessing had for many years enjoyeda happy, and undisturbed unity. Twelve months had just elapsed, when Mrs. Lyth was called to mourn the loss of a husband; and _we_a _father_, whose retiring and unostentatious worth, was best knownwithin the sacred precincts of home. Their union, at first enteredinto in the fear of God, had been maintained through the chequeredscenes of life in uninterrupted peace; years had only more stronglycemented the bonds, by which they were united, and for nearly half acentury the vow, "Until death us do part" had been annually renewed. A year or two before death dissolved the contract, it was foundnecessary to purchase a new wedding ring; and the aged couple, with anaffecting simplicity, solemnly repeated the marriage ceremony intoken of their unchanged, and unabated attachment: but the hour ofseparation was at hand. 

"1853. --During the last six weeks, many circumstances have occurredfor the trial of our faith and patience; which, through grace, Irecognize as the appointments of mercy for my benefit. They have ledme to rest more simply on Christ by faith, which 'is the evidence ofthings not seen, and the substance of things hoped for. ' My soul pantsafter God. He is my centre, my joy, my crown. Nevertheless, my ownunprofitableness would discourage me; therefore, stripped of all, Ihang upon Jesus, my Saviour and my all. --Our highly esteemed friendMr. Whitehead has passed from earth to heaven. Twelve days ago hecalled upon us, and conversed and prayed sweetly with my husband. Little did I think it would be his farewell visit. --My husband andmyself are both invalids. He has had several attacks upon hischest, and much difficulty of breathing. At these times however, hisexpressions of confidence in God are unwavering. For myself, I wantno other refuge, I only want more faith. I would be all the Gospelrequires;--willing to live, ready to die, but oh! I see muchimperfection. --These words are often running in my mind, --

 'Until he doth the cloud remove He only chastens whom he loves. '"

"My dear husband is increasingly ill. He told the Rev. Gervase Smith, who called in to see him, that fifty years ago, these words wereblessed to him, 'By grace are ye saved through faith; and that notof yourselves, it is the gift of God. ' Mr. Bourne visited us in ouraffliction. My soul truly rejoiced in the Lord, while His servantspake of the things of God, and prayed with us. I am much comforted bymy husband's state of mind. Although this is a painful ordeal, throughwhich I am passing, God is with me, and His grace supports me. --Myhusband is no better. When Mr. Eastwood inquired the state of hismind, he answered, 'For ever here my rest shall be. Close to Thy bleeding side; This all my hope, and all my plea, For me the Saviour died. '"

"He cast upon me an expressive look--I thought he wanted something, and inquired. He replied, 'Bless you, bless you. '--Suffered much fromoppression on the chest. His medical adviser promised to send himsomething, which would give him relief. He seemed very desirous ofits arrival. In the meantime, we bowed our knees to present our casebefore God, and to ask His blessing upon the expected remedy; when ina few minutes the oppression, in a great measure, ceased. This was theLord's doing, and to Him we heartily ascribe the praise. --The medicinecontinued the relief. --The Lord wonderfully supports my feeble frame, and I have increasing power to claim the promises made to His people, and by faith discover in them a greater fulness than ever. My friendR. Informs me she has seen J. H. , who had sent to request me to visither. She wished to tell me the Lord had blessed her soul. May she bemade fully meet for glory. --My husband still continues very ill. Had adistressing night. The enemy assaulted him. My faith seems to haveno wings. --Enabled to rise. --I asked him if Christ was precious? Hereplied, 'Yes. ' He is apparently near death. Hitherto my mind has beengraciously supported though sometimes painfully exercised. He ralliedagain, and slept calmly for awhile. After tea, the difficulty ofbreathing returned. The Rev. David Hay came in, and prayed with him;also Mr. Thompson, a little after. It was evident the hand of deathwas upon him. He could scarcely bear us to speak. Once he said'Mary'--perfectly recollected. Mr. Hill asked him, 'Is Christprecious?' to which he replied in the affirmative, and shortly afterinquired, 'What o'clock is it?' The answer was given 'About ten;'and at eleven the 'weary wheels of life stood still, ' and my belovedhusband left me to mourn his absence. I sorrow, but not without hope;and hear a whisper in my heart, 'Thy Maker is thy husband, the Lordof Hosts is His name. ' My mind is comforted; my resolutions arequickened; but my sense of abasement is great, at the littleimprovement I have made of such lengthened privileges. 'Enter not intojudgment with Thy servant, O Lord. '"

[Her feelings under this painful bereavement were deep, --too deep forexpression; but she maintained under it a calm spirit of resignation, which some might have mistaken for indifference. The writer sees heryet, as she stood for some minutes, pale and motionless, leaning onthe side of the coffin, just before it was closed; and gazing in theface of the dead. There was no tear; she did not even imprint a kisson the inanimate clay, for it was but the image of him whom she hadloved. Her thoughts were in heaven. At length stroking the face, nowinsensible to her touch, she said, "Poor John, I shall soon meet youagain. "]

"My dear John was consigned to his bed of dust, to wait until theresurrection morn. Mr. Bourne came home with us. His conversationhelped to cheer the gloom of parting for a little season. My mind wasconsoled with the joyful hope of being guided through the wildernessby Him, who so condescends to a worm of earth as to say, 'Thy Maker isthy Husband. ' Amazing love! I was again permitted to tread the courtsof the Lord's house. Visited J. H. In the afternoon, and spoke plainlyto her husband. --Met the dear people, but was far from being satisfiedwith myself. I want a stronger faith, and more ardent love to thesouls of those who are committed to my care. My precious husband hasnow been fourteen days in the eternal world. "

 And can I wish him back, Again to suffer here? No! following on the track, I haste to meet him there. 

"My soul goes out after Thee, O God. Thou art my treasure in this valeof tears--my friend, my husband, my God, and my all. --Able to meetboth my classes, and felt energy of spirit while urging on the membersthe necessity of keeping up communion with God; I requested them togive a quarter of an hour every day, to pray for the prosperity oftheir class, and of their own souls. "

 In the midnight of my grief, Up to Thee, I lift my eye; Grant, O grant me sweet relief, Let me feel Thy presence nigh; Nothing else can succour bring, Here alone I rest my hope; To Thy bleeding cross I cling, Lift the drooping sinner up. 

"I changed my residence for one in St. Saviourgate, near the house ofGod; for this I desire to be thankful, and to dedicate myself tothe Lord; having sincerely sought His counsel and direction, I feelsatisfied. 

"Easingwold. We were much led out in prayer, that the Lord would thisday bring some one to seek Him. In the evening three persons came in, one evidently desirous of salvation; may this encourage the efforts ofthy handmaid to seek the benefit of the people in this place. --I feelmuch the absence of my dear departed husband. His memory is dear. OLord, help me to quicken my steps to meet him in heaven. My body istrembling and feeble; but my soul is vigorous. I have to-day resignedmy office of Treasurer to the Clothing Society, which I have heldnearly sixteen years. --Six months since my husband entered into rest. He is daily in my thoughts; but I see him not. I do not wish him backagain; a little time will bring me to him, and I shall be as _learned_as he. Time hastens on!--At ten o'clock Mr. C. Changed worlds. Solemnhour! All the morning, I know not why, he was strongly impressed uponmy mind. --I am alone, all is still, my soul feels after God. Thisday feed me with the riches of Thy grace, that I may abide in Thee, breathe Thy Spirit, live in Thy smile, and, like Apollos, be 'approvedin Christ. '

"1854. --I would here gratefully record the mercy of God to me. Ihave been brought low--very low, but the Lord helped me. I felt nocondemnation, yet but little sensible comfort. Many promises wereconstantly passing through my mind. Thus the Lord has been leading meby a path I had not known. --I have not been to the Sanctuary yet, norwould I rest in the means; but I want a clearer manifestation. I seethe scriptures hold forth more than I possess; I want to be closerknit to Jesus, that I may bring forth fruit. Have declined thepresidency of the sewing meeting. "

[On this resignation a letter, numerously signed by the ladiescomposing the meeting, was sent to her, acknowledging her services, and regretting that increasing age and infirmities had rendered itnecessary. This document is not forthcoming, but the following is herown reply. ]

 "MY DEAR MRS. HOLGATE, --I sit down to acknowledge with gratitude the kind note you presented me with, signed by so many kind friends, in acknowledgment of my poor services in a cause which lies near my heart. Thankful I am, that from a small beginning in our parlour, about seventeen years ago, this effort for the glorious cause of missions has flourished to this day; and that now so many hearts and hands are engaged in its operations and success. I still feel interested in its prosperity, and if I have one desire above the rest, it is that every one who assists in this good work may not only have her hands employed in it, but her heart enriched by the blessed gospel she wishes to send to heathen lands, and that every effort may have God's approving smile. I am, &c. "

"I think I never felt more free to leave the world than now; and yetquite willing to wait the Lord's time, that I may be fully prepared. 

"Acomb. Mrs. R. Took me to see some sick persons, also some waysidehearers; 'but who is sufficient for these things?' Speak Lord, andlet them hear Thy voice!--At the prayer-meeting after the service, abackslider was restored to the favour of God; I was knelt by her side, and a holy calm pervaded my heart, when suddenly my soul, as by anelectric shock, was filled with confidence in the willingness andpower of God to save. --Went to see some of my absent members; andpassing by Mrs. O. 's, whose husband died about a fortnight since, Icalled to inquire after her, and to my surprise and grief, found herin dying circumstances. She died the same evening. I fear for her; yetshe used to weep, and for a time seemed in earnest. Have visited hermany times in her afflictions. --Calling in at a neighbour's shop for atrifling article, I learned that the daughter was depressed in mind;I felt a desire to see her, and asked permission, which was granted. After saying what was given me, I prayed with her, feeling sweetlyassisted: when we arose from our knees she unburthened her mind, and told me she had 'grieved the Spirit' and now, not feeling Hisstrivings, she had ceased to pray, and had given, up all. O that theLord may bring her out of this snare of the devil!"

 Hark, how they strike their harps of gold In yonder world above! I wonder what its scenes unfold, -- For not a thousandth part is told, Of those bright lands of love, Not long-ere wonder shall expire, In sweet fruition lost; My spirit, borne on wings of fire, Shall mount, and revel, and admire, With all the heavenly host. 

"1855. --A letter reached us from my beloved Richard, bringing tidingsof health, both of body and soul, and of his intended removal toAuckland; but holding out little prospect of his return to England, by the words _'if ever. '_ Thus is long cherished hope cut off, when Ithought it about to be realized. "

[About the beginning of this year she had a severe attack ofbronchitis, and all hope of her recovery seemed cut off. Although ableto say little, she maintained a calm and settled confidence in God, and was evidently longing after home. The morning after the crisis waspast, the doctor said to her, 'Well, Mrs. Lyth, I have some hope ofyou. ' She replied, 'So have I, but it is the other way. ']

"After a sudden and severe attack of affliction, I would mostgratefully acknowledge the merciful care of my heavenly Father, whohas not left me, but comforted me by His word and Spirit. My friendsalso have not forgotten me; I have every comfort during this inclementseason. The earth is covered with snow, the cold piercing, and the daygloomy; but mercy folds me in on every side, and my spirit rests onJesus, my atoning Saviour. While I write, my heart warms and kindlesat His love. --I am left alone this eighteenth of February, which, forty-five years ago, was so important. Well, it is written, 'ThyMaker is thy husband, the Lord of hosts is His name. ' and to Him willI plight my vows. Alone, on my knees, I again surrender to Thee mypoor heart, and again take the pledge of Thy love. From this timeforth may I swerve from Thee no more, but walk my few remaining dayswith Thee; having the testimony that Enoch had, that I please God. Andnow I am Thine by solemn ties, in the solemn silence of Thy presence, all praise be unto Thee, who dost thus condescend to Thy dust. --Havejust returned from a drive. The air is very sweet, and nature putsforth her loveliness. My soul was led out to Him who has preparedgreater things than these for those that love Him. My spirit isrevived. 'Bless the Lord, O my soul. '--Riding out yesterday, I calledto see my dear friend Isaac, who, like myself, is waiting until herchange come;--a touching little interview. She told me while she waspraying for me in my affliction, it was impressed upon her mind, 'Mypower is unlimited. ' O may it be exerted in my full preparation foreternal glory, to meet my dear friend there. I sometimes get transientglimpses of it. I feel myself a helpless worm, but the name of Jesusis sweet. There is none I desire in comparison of Him. Though Icannot get out I am able to read, and the word of truth is my constantcompanion. --A beautiful day: the sun shines in splendour, but sinspoils all the beauty. While my eyes are cheered with what I see, myheart is saddened with what I hear. One has fallen into sin, --oneI have highly esteemed in time past. What need to put on 'the wholearmour of God, ' and watch!--I felt more vigorous in my classes to-day, and spoke very plainly, for I feel a great love for these souls. 

 "Thou art, O God, the life and light Of all this wondrous world we see; Its glow by day, its smile by night, Are but reflections caught from Thee; Where'er we turn Thy glories shine, And all things fair and bright are Thine. "

"I feel decaying nature; but my soul does not lose its appetite fordivine things. In the midst of forgetfulness, and other infirmities, my only centre is in Christ. --As the day was fine, I walked to Heworthin search of an absent member, and after many inquiries, found out herabode; but she was not at home. I got some important information abouther. My walk was a most impressive one, --on a lovely road, on eitherside overhung with foliage--but, being autumn, the way was strewedwith withered leaves, while every breeze, though soft, wafted othersto the ground in showers;--fit emblem of my own decay! I wasmuch wearied. --The Rev. Robert Young, who has recently been on adeputation to the South Sea Missions, selected Fiji as the topic ofhis speech at the Missionary Meeting, and gave a very cheering accountof my Richard, in the midst of cannibalism. I went into the vestry tospeak with him; but was overwhelmed with my feelings. Have been laidaside by affliction; but the Lord has been intimately near. My faithhas been strengthened, and I cling more closely to my best Friend. Many blessed promises have been brought to remembrance, which havecheered me, and created sweet peace. --My faith wants to borrow thepinions of the eagle. Lord help me, I am Thine; I dare trust in Thee;unprofitable as I am, Thou art my God. --My thought before I rose thismorning was:--

 Down life's declivity, Borne by the surge, On to eternity, Swiftly I urge; Not without cheering hope, When I am gone, Jesus will bear me up, Straight to His throne. "

1856. --[A few lines written at the commencement of this year, containthe following reference to a circumstance, which, trivial as it was initself, had nearly occasioned the loss of her sight. ]

 Time rushes on! Another scene appears! In springtide thought, I stood upon the hearth; "When in a moment, from the crackling flame A piece of burning ore flew in my eye, And suddenly eclipsed the light of day. But He who opened blind men's eyes of old, Restored my sight. * * * *

"I am sensible of the want of gratitude for the sight I have; thoughit is but imperfect, I can, by close attention, read my Bible, whichat first was all I desired. --Visited two of my members, each of whomhas had a fit, one being deprived of the left hand, and the other ofthe right;--humbling cause of gratitude that I can use mine. 

 Youth with all its hopes is past, And middle life-with care; Now, in feeble age, I cast My all on God by prayer. Exiled yet a little while, But guided by His eye; Happy I live beneath His smile, And happier still--shall die. "

"My meditations this morning have been sweet, on the words, 'Thoushalt also be a crown of glory in the hand of the Lord, and a royaldiadem in the hand of thy God. ' I cannot increase God's glory; butI--a worm--in the hand of my God, become crowned with glory. --My nieceCaroline has departed this life. In a lucid moment, one asked, ifChrist was precious; she answered, 'Yes' It was added, 'Just such aSaviour as you need?' 'Exactly, ' was the reply. --I have given up myown house, and removed to my daughter Eliza's hoping the blessing ofthe Lord will attend the change. My mind has, beyond my expectation, been preserved in peace. --Came with my daughter to Haxby, for thebenefit of a change. O that Thou wouldst bless my coming to _one_soul!--Called upon Mrs. S. , and was glad to find her desirous ofknowing the truth, as also her daughter. I feel peculiarly drawn outin prayer, on behalf of the inhabitants of this village. Oh! that aglorious revival may break out here. --The means of grace are notso plentiful in Haxby as in the city; but here I enjoy the quiet ofretirement, and breathe a purer atmosphere. Often the Spirit wafts meon to the better land, and I contemplate with pleasure my everlastinghome. "

[Who can tell what shall be on the morrow? But a few weeks elapsedafter this visit to Haxby, when her daughter Eliza, whose loving andgentle spirit endeared her to all who knew her, was taken away ata stroke. On the day on which the following entry is dated, she hadexhibited an unusual degree of vivacity; and with great confidenceborne testimony in the class to the power of the grace of God. ]

"A goodly number at the class. In the evening Eliza read to Mrs. C. And myself the interesting adieu of the French Protestant Minister, Adolphe Monod, introduced into the November number of the MethodistMagazine for 1856. We sat down to supper, and mournful to relate! shewas seized with a fit of apoplexy, which lasted until nearly three inthe morning, when her spirit calmly took its flight. How needful tobe ready!--My dear daughter was carried to the cemetery, there torest until the resurrection morn. While passing through this painfuldispensation, I have enjoyed the sweet consolations of the Spirit ofGod, and been able to recognize mercy mingled with judgment. The sameevening my Eliza passed into the skies, my son William was appointedto meet a few of the Lord's people. --The year heaves its last sigh, as I review the way in which God has led me. Very painful events haveoccurred. Scenes pleasant, and sad, have passed before me; but around, and over all, mercy has spread a cloud of light; and here will I raisemy heart, and say, 'Hitherto the Lord hath helped me. '"

XXII. 

THE LIGHTS AND SHADOWS OF EVENING. 

 "THE DAY GOETH AWAY, FOR THE SHADOWS OF EVENING ARE STRETCHED FORTH. "--Jer. Vi. 4. 

Have you ever observed the effect produced upon the eye by the rapiddecrease of light, which takes place as night draws on, during thatseason of the year in which the twilight is shortest? For some minutesthere appears a rapid succession of light and shade, each succeedingshadow deepening in gloom, until the night sets in. This phenomenonarises from the necessity which the pupil of the eye finds of adaptingitself to the diminution of light; and it has hardly done so, beforethe increasing darkness requires a still further expansion of thevisual aperture. Just so in human life, when its brightness hasdeparted, and the night is at hand; there is often a rapid successionof painful occurrences, which fall like shadows upon the soul, and ithas continually to adapt itself to its altered circumstances. The eyeof faith can scarce keep pace with the demands made upon it, and theeffect is a sense of occasional depression, which even the Christiancannot altogether resist. In the last two or three years of her life, Mrs. Lyth experienced what it was to be "in heaviness through manifoldtemptations;" and although she wore the same happy smile, exhibitedthe same unwavering, and even triumphant confidence in God, and toall around her, it was evident she was fast ripening for her gloriousreward; her diary shows that she was, in some of her solitary hours, subject to momentary depression; which, as she made no allowance foraltered circumstances, and increasing infirmities, she was in dangerof attributing to a wrong cause. It was not until after the death ofher husband that there was any perceptible decline of her physicalenergies; the "snow of age" fell lightly, so that she still continuedfor some time to discharge her accustomed duties in the church, untilincreasing weakness compelled her to relinquish, one by one, hervisiting district for the Benevolent Society; her collecting books forvarious Institutions; the Visitation of the school; the Treasurershipof the Poor Clothing Society; the Presidency of the Sewing meeting;and last, and to her the most painful of all--her Class; for like herLord, having loved her own, which were in the world, she loved them tothe end. This unavoidable cessation from her "more abundant" labours, and the life of passive suffering she was now called to endure, perhaps more than anything else, was sometimes a source of painfulreflection, and became an occasion of powerful temptation. She couldnot, however, be inactive; much of her time passed in reading andprayer. Her pen and her knitting-needle were in constant requisition, and a fine day, or a little renewal of strength, often induced her, atthe peril of her own health, to visit an unconverted neighbour, or anafflicted friend. The sudden removal of her daughter was acutely felt, and elicited several efforts of her muse, two of which are here given. 

 "1857. --Gone! gone! gone! The empty chair I see, But ah! no smile, as once, alights on me. In what bright region doth thy spirit rest? Since all are living, thou art surely blest. I ask no more, the veil will soon remove, And I shall come to dwell with thee above. 

"Just before I awoke, I dreamed I was reading; and it was written, 'Hewill receive thee to Himself, and give unto thee a kingdom. ' It wasrepeated thrice. "

 LONE MUSING. 

 Doth her spirit hover near! Doth she ever watch o'er me? Am I still to her as dear As when in flesh she cared for me? If she now, with wistful eyes, Strives, unseen, to draw me higher; Let me wisdom doubly prize, More and more to heaven aspire. Lo! the Spirit and the Bride Lovingly invite me on, -- Seek my wandering heart to guide To the Father, through the Son. I will answer to the call; Thou my portion, I Thy child; Here in self-abasement fall, Trusting in Thy mercy mild. 

"I am glad to hear that in Haxby the Lord has been giving 'showers ofblessing. ' Mr. McOwan has given twenty-nine notes on trial. I am theLord's prisoner; looking up, yet I feel my lonely position. --It wassuggested, 'I am thy salvation. ' I paused and asked, from what? Fromthe world, sin, self, and thy deadly foes. 'I am thy salvation, ' fromall thy inward evils; pride, unbelief, love of the creature, fromevery thing contrary to love. This salvation is all mine, throughChrist, by faith. --Rose a little after six; very feeble; nearly readthrough the book of Ezra, and saw how God helps the good in times ofdifficulty. I feel depressed: Lord, help me!--I rode to the Cemeteryto see the spot where my Eliza lies. Well, a little while, and I hopeto join her among the spirits of the just made perfect. I proceededfrom thence to my brother's in Dove Street. --Have been a week in DoveStreet. Through mercy I have been able to rise every morning at six;and while reading Dr. Clarke's Theology, my spiritual strength hasbeen, renewed. I have enjoyed many blessings from the Lord, and mytime has passed pleasantly, but my poor brother is very, veryinfirm. I have called on several friends in the street, and had theopportunity of praying in two families. --Latterly, during the nightseason, the enemy has afflicted my mind with painful temptations; butI am not left to myself, the Lord is my helper. --To-day I was muchdrawn out in prayer for one of my grandsons. Surely the Spirit movedme. After tea, four of my grandsons, and my daughter, bowed with mebefore the Lord. It was a time to be remembered. The Lord drew near, and I was melted down before Him. --Weak yet pursuing. My daughter Maryunexpectedly read to me the words, 'Lo! I am with you alway even tothe end of the world. ' The truth thrilled through my heart, as a flashof lightning. --Sweet peace. This evening a stranger, brought by E. F. , came to converse on spiritual subjects. We prayed together, and theLord drew near. --Alone; but graciously moved by my heavenly Father topour out my soul in prayer; I enjoyed sweet access by the Holy Spirit, on behalf of many dear ones. Glory be to God, that to a worm Hemanifests His presence, and reveals His love. Mary had a note fromRichard, informing us of a change of purpose respecting his return toEngland. Well; if they commit their way unto the Lord, they willnot err far. This shall be my prayer for them, while strength iscontinued. --Awoke by a fit of coughing, I heard as if a voice spoketo me, 'Union with Jesus gives the power of patience. ' I feel it. --Metthe Lord's people in great weakness, but with great longing for theirspiritual health. Miss R. Read me a letter from Miss K. , informingher of the happy change, which had taken place in her mind. My soulrejoiced to hear the news, particularly as she had been for some timelaid upon my mind whenever I approached the throne of grace. "

"1858. --My John spent a few days with us. I have enjoyed his companymore than ever before; perhaps I prayed more, that it might be so. Ithink I feel more deeply the hallowing influence of prayer. My soulfeeds on Jesus. Glory be to God for a Saviour. "

 While midnight shadows blended, And nature seem'd to sleep, Me, angel watchers tended, Who always vigil keep; I felt them hov'ring o'er me, Though hidden from my view; A veil was spread before me, But is the thought less true? Watch'd by these heavenly strangers, 'Who all my paths attend, ' And oft from foes and dangers, My progress would defend; O give me circumspection To guard against the foe, Then, sure of their protection, I on to conquest go. 

"Only nine present at the class. I spoke to them, but felt the effectupon my feeble body for two days afterward; yet it was good to talk tothem of the love of Jesus. --I have been exercised by the common foe;depressed in feeling, but never left without the power to draw nearto God in prayer. Thank God, for some days past my spirit has beenrevived; and this morning my heart is trusting in the Lord, Gloriousnews from America! The Lord is saving by thousands. O that the breathof heaven may reach our own shores!"

 O time how precious I what a load misused! To catch its flight is wise; to waste or loiter, folly. Reader, and writer, mark! Thy time escapes: To give it now a name is golden, gain. Oh! with true wisdom print thy passing hours, So shall eternity proclaim thy fame. 

"My two sons, William and John, set forth to welcome their brotherRichard, just returned by the ship 'Duncan Dunbar'--after an absenceof more than twenty-one years--with a family of six children--agracious providence having watched over him; and now the happybrotherhood will, I trust, be perpetuated, until consummated inheaven. --My son Richard, with his lovely wife and family, havearrived. --I am now seventy-six years old. How much cause ofhumiliation! How much cause of gratitude! Here upon my knees I givemyself to Thee; I am Thine. Let Thy presence be communicated withfresh power to my soul. I do thank Thee for peace, and a full bentto please Thee. --My son Richard conducted me to my new residence onHeworth Road. Often have I changed my abode, supposing each would bethe last remove: yet I tarry. All I want is to move under the smile ofmy heavenly Father, and to feel myself under his guiding eye. --Poorly. Inward conflicts. Went to see a person, who was once a member of myclass; she is still in the way to heaven. We prayed together. Here, atthe throne of grace, I find myself at home. I was at my class, perhapsfor the last time. God bless the dear members. "

 Graven on the hand divine, Bid me on Thy strength lay hold, Look, believe, for Thou art mine; Jesus makes me humbly bold. Though Thy courts I may not tread, Thou art in my mouth, and heart; In Thy holy book I read, God in every place Thou art. With more love inflame my soul, With more fervent zeal inspire;-- Faith, that can all power control, Fill the grasp of my desire. Let Thy word of mercy spread Freely, all the village round: Speak to-day, and wake the dead, Let the lost in Thee be found. 

"My friends are gone to the Sanctuary. Looking at myself in the lightof the divine presence, I see imperfection stamped upon all my doings;and yet, through mercy, I have an interest in the precious blood ofatonement, and long that all around me may enjoy the same salvation. While now my pen moves upon the paper, move Thou upon the hearts ofthe people, who have long been favoured with hearing the voice of Thyministers. Arouse the careless; stir up Thy people; and this day pourout Thy Spirit upon us all; and now, while alone; help my infirmities;visit me, and give me increase of faith. --Inward conflicts andwandering of mind have brought me to my knees. "

 To God I tell my utmost care, And find my place of refuge there. 

"By the help of the servant's arm I got to Heworth Chapel, and hearda little, but imperfectly. My son Richard came, and conducted mehome. Very faint and sick after I returned; but I know not that I everenjoyed a more refreshing sense of God's presence. Glory be tothe Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost. --Cloudsdark--rainy--trees fading--leaves falling--all things changing here;but, 'Thou art the same, and Thy years shall not fail. ' O, while Ihold my pen in my hand, let me feel Thy presence in my heart! I havein Thee a changeless friend. Glory be to Thy name, Thou ever-blessedGod! Give me more love, and knit me more closely to Thyself. --Theday fine. I got to Chapel, and through mercy was no worse. A strangerkindly accompanied me home, who seems to be an inquirer after truth. My soul yearned over her, while I spoke a few words to her. O may theysink deep! In the course of reading, the words, 'Let the peace ofGod _rule_ in your hearts' especially struck me. To rule impliesgovernment; I may dwell where I have no power to rule; and the peaceof God must not only be felt, but bring into subjection everything inmy heart, that would oppose itself to the will of God. Praise God, myspirit longs for this complete subjection. "

 A star in its splendour attracted my eye, As softly from slumber I woke; I thought--as I saw the bright spot in the sky-- 'Twas an angel of mercy which spoke-- Of the hope, that brings peace to the labouring breast, And raises the sorrowful mind. The sweet'ner of life, and the solace of rest, In Jesus, the Saviour, we find. When troubles oppress us, and nature decays, His light in the darkness is given: Bright star of the morning, O lend me thy rays! And guide me safe homeward to heaven!

 SITTING BY MYSELF, AND THOUGHTFUL. 

 Alone? no never! that broad eye, Which fills all space, is here; My secret thoughts and actions he, Reveal'd as daylight clear. I would not from Thy presence fly, Thee only, would I love; With greater circumspection try In Thy commands to move. If in my heart I aught disguise, The lurking evil slay; If aught than Thee more highly prize, O take it, Lord, away!

"1859. --I concluded the year by reading the Epistle to thePhilippians, and prayer. My soul longs for a richer baptism of love, I am as well as usual, and my soul pants after God. I feel the wordprecious while I read, and thirst for a fuller manifestation of God. While thus employed, I enjoy sweet peace through Jesus. Here hangs myhope of heaven; and though I have many a conflict with unbelief, myheart is fixed. "

 THOUGHTS ON EZEKIEL'S VISION, CHAPTERS 43 AND 48. EZEKIEL XLVIII. 35. 

 'The Lord is there!' O happy place! Where God in Christ unveils His face; The city and the people bear His glorious name--'The Lord is there. '

 The house all symmetry within, The worshippers all white and clean; How lustrous is the scene, and rare! It must be so--'The Lord is there. '

 There, from beneath the threshold, teems The tide of truth in living streams; And those who drink the waters, share Eternal life--'The Lord is there. '

 The crystal waves spread deep and wide; Salvation rolls upon the tide; So copious is the flood, we dare No longer doubt--'The Lord is there. '

 The healing virtue never fails; For all 'who will, ' it still avails; Within the city brought, they wear A kingly crown--'The Lord is there. '

 The glory of the Lord is seen, His voice is heard by all within; The tribes of Israel are _His_ care, Who reigns, the Lord for ever there. 

"While reading and meditating on Ezekiel's vision, my spirit wasrefreshed; and in the evening, while praying with my servant, my soulrejoiced in God my Saviour. Tears of joy ran down my eyes, and my souloverflowed. --Six years my dear John has been in paradise, and I amstill endeavouring to urge on my way; feeble, yet pursuing. Praise Godfor the encouragement I feel. Jesus is all the world to me; there isnothing in my estimation equal to Him;--nothing I desire in comparisonof Him. --In the world there appears to be a glorious movement towardsGod. The latter-day glory hastens on. India is quiet, and China opensher arms to the truth. In America, Scotland, and Wales, the Spirit isdescending plenteously. O praise the Lord, for He shall reign; 'thegovernment shall be upon His shoulder. '--Walked as far as HeworthChapel, and called upon Miss C. ; she asked me to pray with her, beingherself an invalid. Cause of gratitude, being my longest walk thisyear. The present circumstances of my children call for earnestpersevering prayer. Let Thy Spirit help me. --The beauties of inanimatenature have this week exhibited the finger of God in the rising bud, and opening flower. May I, to whom is given, an intelligent mind, while beholding these works of Thine, be drawn into closer union withThyself. Yea, while my hand directs the pen, let my soul assimilate toThy likeness: make me one with Thee. Glory be to God, I feel thereis union, for God is love: but enlarge and fill my soul with all Thyfulness. --This afternoon the young clergyman visited me, and madeinquiries after my spiritual welfare. My heart clave unto him; andafter he had prayed, I heartily wished him success in his ministry. Tidings have reached me, that my son John is going as a Missionary toGermany: may it be of the Lord. My soul is exceedingly drawn out inprayer that it may be so; and that it may be a blessing both tohim and the people among whom he is about to labour. --I am this dayseventy-seven years old. How quickly time departs! I lack words toexpress the manifold mercies of my heavenly Father during the pastyear. One above all, is the return of my Missionary son, aftertwenty-one years' absence; and his, and his family's kindness. Blessthe Lord, O my soul. --Felt impressed to go and visit Mrs. M--, whom Ivisited once last year; went, and had a happy interview. 

 Hallow'd is the hour of prayer, When the Spirit helps me there; When the soul is drawn above, Borne on wings of faith and love; Then, released from earth, I rise Far beyond the starry skies; See, in Christ's atonement free, Life for all mankind, and me. 

"Mrs. C. Called, and kindly took me to Class. I gave out the hymn myEliza sang the day before she died, and prayed with them. --I have beenled by the Spirit of God to my knees, and find it no vain thing towait upon the Lord. I am urged to look after my petitions, and feel itgood to be thus reminded. --Mrs. Hartley called to bid me good-bye. Ifelt it very good while we prayed together. On her return to the cityshe was taken very ill, and sent a request by my daughter, that Iwould pray for her. I will. Felt blest in doing so. --My two sons aregoing to widely distant localities, but in their Master's field. Oh!how my heart longs that they may be richly endued with power from onhigh, and made abundantly useful among those with whom they mingle, and that many may be the saved of the Lord. John Arthur and David arealso, this day, going on the Lord's errand. O bless the lads!Make them wise to win souls to Jesus. My soul longs for theirprosperity. --Nine of my dear grandchildren took tea with us. For theseand all the rest my soul earnestly longs, that we may be an undividedfamily above. I was blest while praying with them. --My dear son Johnand his wife, with five children, left us on their way to Germany, hoping to reach London this evening. O Lord, prosper Thou his journeyto yonder land! I feel deeply for him. O bless him, Lord!"

 Oh! what a world of care, Anxiety and grief! How multiplied our sorrows are! Where shall we find relief?

 Our lov'd ones come, and glad we are To see their smiling face; But brief these transient visits are, And _then_, the last embrace. 

"Mrs. Nightingale came to meet two women in distress for their souls. They wept sore, and found encouragement. I felt it good to mingle mypetitions with their's. [This was the commencement of a class at herown residence, conducted by Mrs. N. , and formed especially for mymother's accommodation. Up to this time she was nominally a leader, but since her removal to Heworth, she had but very occasionally beenable to ride down to the city, and mingle in the communion of saints, a privilege, the loss of which she had deeply felt. The provision thusmade was therefore a source of unspeakable comfort. Mrs. Nightingalesays, "We found her at the appointed time, but oftener before, sittingin prayerful silence, waiting upon God. At such times her countenancewas most heavenly; lit up with a light and glory, which bespokeher relation to, and hidden life with, her divine Lord. It was ourprivilege, when she was able, to listen to the words of wisdom andinstruction which fell from her lips. Her deep acquaintance with theword of God, and the holy unction with which she spoke, caused thosepresent to say, 'This is none other but the house of God, and this isthe gate of heaven. ' Love to God and the souls of men burned brightlyon the altar of her heart. This was seen in the deep interest shetook in each member of the class, and in her prayerful concern forthe members of her own family. 'God is giving me answers to my prayersboth on behalf of my children and grandchildren, ' she would say. Butthere were aspirations of soul after higher forms of spiritual life, which could only be realized in the fruition of the divine presence. For increase of years she made but little allowance, so that, whilsther love to God and heavenly meekness became increasingly apparent toothers, her diminished energy was sometimes to herself the occasionof painful conflict and introspection. "] Before I awoke I thought aletter was put into my hands, the contents of which were 'Through muchtribulation ye shall enter the kingdom. " The Lord giving me power, Iwill fight my passage through. --Through the intensity of the weather, and my own increasing indisposition, I have been compelled to keep mybed; but prayer has been the life of my soul;--the only sure refuge introuble. Much drawn out for my dear John, who, we expect, is thisday holding an important meeting. --The year is quickly passing intoeternity. It tarries not, nor waiteth the hurried one to free. Defernot, for the moment will soon pass away. Now touch the golden sceptrewhile it is called to-day. Believe, believe in Jesus, who gave Hislife for _you_. Accept the rich gratuity, for He hath purchased you. "

"1860. --Although not able to sit up to welcome the new year, it brokeupon me with these words--

 Jesus shall all my powers possess, My hopes, my fears, my joys:

and thus my heart resolves. Yes, Lord, the dying embers of my life areThine. I thank Thee, Thou dost not cast me off in my old age. 'My soulshall magnify the Lord, and my spirit rejoice in God my Saviour. '--Afew days ago, my mind was filled with uncertainty respecting twomembers of my family; however, I laid the case before the Lord, and, to my surprise and grateful acknowledgment, in a day or two therewas an opening in each case. Reader or writer, think not highly ofthyself, others were praying as well as thee. --My first thought thismorning, 'I have loved thee with an everlasting love, therefore with"loving kindness have I drawn thee. ' A very cheering letter from myson Richard. Praise the Lord for such information, both fromheaven and earth. --A beautiful sunny morning. Grant that the Sun ofrighteousness may rise upon me with healing in His wings. Let Himheal, and form my soul anew. This is my chief desire. I do thank Theefor peace, but O enlarge my heart, and fully fit me to behold Thyglory!--A quiet Sabbath morning. I am sitting alone. The sun shinesbrightly upon me, and all nature seems to join in hallowed harmony. May my soul, capable of far greater powers, be expanded to receive farricher influences from the great source of my being--the inexhaustiblefountain of all blessedness. My soul drinks of the living stream. Praise God for these small draughts. Enlarge and fill, and enlarge forever!"

 MAN'S FRAILTY. 

 See a flower of lovely hue, Dipp'd in beauty bright, at Spring, Blasted by a wind that blew, Ere it passed its blossoming. 

 Such is man, in best estate; Like a flower he buddeth forth, Till some unexpected fate Brings him to his mother earth, Such a shadow of a shade, Human life, a moment, is: Now we live, but soon conveyed Past all life's uncertainties. 

 Blooming youth and wither'd age, Infant charms and ripened years, Death assaults with equal rage, Unappeas'd by prayers or tears:

 Then, the closely wedded pair, Soul and body sadly part; Yet to meet again--but _where? Seek the answer in thy heart_. 

"'Looking unto Jesus!' This is the posture of my soul. Yea, I longafter God. I have been peculiarly drawn out In prayer for severalmembers of my family, with great sweetness In my own soul. Glory be toGod!"

XXIII. 

SLEEP IN JESUS. 

 "WEEP NOT; SHE IS NOT DEAD BUT SLEEPETH. "--Luke viii. 62. 

When the shadows of evening begin to fall, it is not difficult toprognosticate that the night is at hand; and, admonished by theincreasing gloom, man, wearied by the tolls of the day, gladly looksforward to the hour of repose. Universal nature shares in the feelingof presentiment. The cattle seek the shed; the birds fly back to theirnests; and the gentle flower folds its delicate petals, as if forsleep. Is It wonderful that as life closes in, especially whenprotracted to a good old age, the human spirit should feel aninstinctive consciousness of approaching dissolution? or that the agedChristian, after long and patient endurance in his Master's service, should joyfully anticipate the hour of _rest?_ Yes, REST, not death;"For whosoever liveth, and believeth in me, " saith the Saviour, "shallnever die. " Christ has tasted death for him, and the bitterness, whichis the reality of death, is passed away. His stedfast faith preventsthe dawn of a brighter day, and what matters it, whether his sleepcontinue but a few hours, or be protracted through a period ofcenturies? The body can be sensible of no difference, and the spirit, transported far beyond the regions of dream-land, enjoys a happy andconscious existence in the presence of Him, who died, "That whether wewake or _sleep_, we might live together with Him. " Mrs. Lyth looked, nay longed for the time of her departure; and as the hour drew on, seems to have had some pleasant premonitions of its approach. About amonth before it occurred, she writes, "My first thought this morningwas, 'We soon shall be landed, for death is in view, Almighty protection shall comfort us through; Released from our prisons, to heaven we fly, Exchanging all sorrows for mansions on high. '"

"A few days of beautiful spring weather permitted her to enjoy anoccasional walk, which was generally made subservient to some higherpurpose than that of mere refreshment. Thrice her steps were directedto the Sanctuary, opportunities which she richly enjoyed. Of one ofthese she says, "I enjoyed the privilege of meeting my friends at thelovefeast, and hearing them speak of the power of grace to save; butmy poor body is very feeble. "

This short respite, however, excited in her mind no fallaciousexpectation of a much longer reprieve; and more than once sheexpressed her conviction, that, as the summer advanced she would be nobetter. The weather suddenly changed; and the prevalence of north andeasterly winds, accompanied with rain, confined her to the house. Touse her own expressive language, "June enters weeping, and yet (10th)remains in tears. " This circumstance elicited almost the last effortof her poetic pen. 

 "Fairest month of summer's Trine, Why dost thou remain in tears? Ask not. 'Tis the will divine; This shall dissipate my fears. He, who ruleth in the sky, Knoweth what His creatures need; He can every want supply, Trust Him, and His promise plead. Clouds may wear a frowning brow, Blasting winds may sweep around, He, who reigns above, knows how Best to make his love abound. Then, I'll cast my every care On my promise-keeping God; Honour Him by faith and prayer; Rest upon His faithful word. Should the cloud continue still, Thou for ever art the same, All the workings of Thy will But proclaim Thy glorious name. "

The last entries of her diary, which with a solemn significance justfill up the volume, we give in full. 

"June 11th. --I expected to have received my ticket, but no one came, Iclearly see no dependance can be placed upon the creature. On Thee, O Lord, let all my confidence rest! Glory be to God, though I am anisolated one, I am not left alone. I do feel drawn, after God, I havegiven myself to Him, and He is chief in my affection. 

19th. --My seventy-eighth birth-day. I had intended writing, but theLord saw otherwise. I was in bed three parts, of the day, and on the20th very ill, having taken cold. 

21st. --Thursday the longest day. I am very feeble, but have taken mypen to acknowledge the goodness of God to me for so long a period. Atnoon we had an awful thunderstorm, during which my soul was calm andpeaceful. This is the Lord's doing. I felt sweet trust and confidencein my Almighty Saviour. Afterwards I received my ticket at the handsof the Rev. Thos. Nightingale. On the ticket there is written, 'Ihave loved thee with an everlasting love, therefore with everlastingkindness have I drawn thee. '"

24th. THE SABBATH. 

 Peaceful is the Sabbath morn, Glad I welcome its return; Now Thy presence I implore, Come, and never leave me more. 

It was hoped by her friends that, with the return of milder weather, her strength would rally; but from this time it gradually declined. Her occupations were pursued as usual, but her weakness became dailymore apparent; and, every now and then, intimations fell from herlips, that her "time was short, " and her "work nearly done. " To thosearound her it was evident that she was standing ready, and waitingfor the coming of her Lord. This was particularly observable in thepromptitude and fidelity with which she addressed all who came to thehouse, in terms of exhortation or warning, as if she was afraid oflosing a single opportunity of speaking for her Master. Earth with itscomparative trifles was fast receding from her view, and her spiritualvision occupied with the solemn and momentous scenes into whichshe was so soon to enter. Her daughter, who, for the purpose ofministering to her requirements, occupied the same bed-room, was oftenawoke, in the stillness of night, by the voice of thanksgiving andprayer; for, not content with making melody to the Lord in her heart, she gave vent to her overflowing feelings in singing and praise. 

On Thursday, the 28th, the decrease of her strength was such that, although no danger was apprehended, it was deemed advisable to callin medical aid, which afforded her a momentary relief. But disease wasinsidiously working to an unfavourable issue, and that day she pliedher needle for the last time. On Saturday the doctor instituted aminute examination of her lungs, and pronounced the case one of theworst forms of bronchitis; yet still held out the hope of recovery, --ahope in which she evinced no sympathy, for, though from the nature ofthe complaint able to talk but little, she spoke of her affliction, not only without apprehension, but with joyful anticipation. Tothe doctor, when he informed her of her danger, she expressed herconfidence that "to die would be gain, " and urged upon him theimportance of living always in a state of preparation for death. Hehad no sooner left the room than, turning to her daughter, with a lookof ecstacy, she said, "I am going home, Mary. " In consequence of herextreme debility, the difficulty of her breathing and expectorationoccasioned her much suffering, which she bore with exemplary patience;and when it was referred to, replied, "It is all right. " At anothertime when an allusion was made to her sufferings, her reply was, "Patient the appointed race to run. " Her daughter read to her thebeautiful hymn, commencing, "The God of Abraham praise, " to which shelistened with great attention, and on coming to the lines, "He calls a worm His friend, He calls Himself my God, And He shall save me to the end, Through Jesus' blood;"

she exclaimed, with her eyes raised to heaven, and her hands uplifted, "Glory! glory!"

During the night her daughter, who watched by her side, overheard hersay, "My heart and my flesh faileth, but God is the strength of myheart, and _my portion for ever_, " emphasizing the last words. It waswhispered--

 "And above the rest this note shall swell, "

when she instantly took up the words, and with a heavenly smilecompleted the stanza, "My Jesus hath done all things well. "

The same tender solicitude for others, especially those of her ownfamily, which had ever characterized her, was still manifest in herutmost weakness. "Twice, " says her daughter, "during those few anxiousdays, while I was standing by her bed-side, she looked at me tenderly, and said, 'The Lord bless thee, and keep thee; the Lord make His faceto shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee; the Lord lift up Hiscountenance upon thee, and give thee peace. ' On telling her I wasgoing to write to my brother John, she replied, 'Give my kindest loveto him and Susie, and tell them to keep the _one point_ in view. Toone who was ministering to her wants she said, with great earnestness, 'Oh! when one comes to the verge of another world, of what avail areall things else, if we are not on the sure foundation? My whole careis to be ready--quite ready. '"

The rapid decay of her strength seemed to produce no correspondingimpression upon her mind, which, up to within a few hours of herdeparture, retained its wonted vigour and clearness of perception. Herutterances were carefully weighed, and she grasped the full force ofthe words which were spoken to her; hence, when her daughter asked ifshe could say

 "Not a cloud doth arise To darken the skies, And hide for _one moment_ the Lord from my eyes;"

she replied, "I can't say _that_. " "But, " mother, "you can trust Himin the dark?" Her ready answer was, "I _can_ do that. "

On Tuesday morning, July 3rd, the day preceding her removal, for somehours she appeared rather better, and on being lifted up in bed, sheasked for her spectacles, the Bible, and also the hymn-book, fromwhich she read the hymn beginning

 "How do Thy mercies close me round, "

which was one of her favourites. As the day advanced her diseasegained ground, but, beyond the difficulty she experienced inbreathing, there was no evidence of suffering. She expressed a fearshe was impatient, but it was far otherwise. Not a murmur, nora breath of complaint passed her lips; she possessed her soul inpatience, and her language was praise and prayer. Once, while gaspingfor breath, she repeated at intervals, the verse

 "O may I thus be found, Obedient to His word; Attentive to the trumpet's sound, And looking for my Lord. "

In the afternoon her son Richard arrived from Torquay, providentiallyin time to witness the last solemn and mournful scene, and toadminister words of comfort and encouragement. The valley was fall oflight, and a momentary cloud which skirted the horizon, occasioned bythe deep sense she felt of her own unprofitableness, melted away atthe presence of Him whom, having not seen, she loved, and whose namewas last upon her lips. My brother says, "I found her very ill, butmost delighted and thankful for my arrival. 'Praise the Lord, I amglad to see you, ' was her characteristic salutation. "Well, Mother, Ifind you resting on Jesus?" "Yes, " was the reply, "but I have been sounfaithful. " "You have nothing to do with that now; you must look onlyto Jesus. You believe His atonement is sufficient to cover all yourunfaithfulness?" "Oh! yes, I do. " "You know that Paul, and Mr. Wesleyhad nothing else to plead but this, --

 'I the chief of sinners am, But Jesus died for me. '"

From that moment, looking off from herself, she trusted in Christalone, and was fully saved and sustained by divine grace. Leaningon her Beloved, she was now ready to pass over Jordan;--not its"swellings, " the stream was narrow, and neither deep nor troubled. Alittle time and she was on the opposite plains; but before she landed, she uttered words of triumph, the sounds of which fell faintly on ourears. 

In the devotions of the evening, which we conducted in her room, sheparticipated with holy delight, and listened to the former part of the14th chapter of St. John's Gospel, with an evident appreciation ofits overflowing fulness of consolation. In Jesus she contemplatedthe revealed glory of the Father, and her believing "Amen" made theblessedness of the revelation all her own. After giving me somefinal directions, especially with respect to her manuscripts andletters;--directions which were short and clear; and given with herwonted happy expression of countenance, and cheerfulness of manner;she gradually yielded to the force of disease. For three hours and ahalf she lay quiet, occasionally slumbering, but breathing heavily. It was thus I found her in the morning at half-past two. She was quiteconscious and recollected, and gave pleasing signs of recognition, butthe power of speech was almost gone. She had reached the middle of thestream, but her head was lifted up above the flowing waters, for herfeet were upon the Rock. Mary quoted "The Lord is good; a strongholdin the day of trouble; and He knoweth them that trust in Him, " andshortly after, "Bright angels are from glory come, They're round my bed, and in my room, They come to waft my spirit home: All is well. "

She caught the idea; whispered "Bright Angels, " and tried to say more. I added the precious words, "Having loved His own, He loved them tothe end, " also the lines of our own sweet singer;--

 "And God Himself our Father is, And Jesus is our Friend. "

Another effort was made to speak, and at intervals we caught thewords, "Praise, " "Glory, " "My Father, " "My Redeemer. " These were thelast sounds we could hear; the full expression of triumph was lost inthe gentle murmurs of the river. There was yet another signal of happyand exulting confidence. For sometime, she gazed intently upward, andthen around, with a look of delighted surprise; as if she "sawscenes we could not see, or heard sounds we could not hear;" andthen gradually sunk into a state of unconsciousness. A few more hoursterminated her _mortal_ panting after immortality; and at twentyminutes past eight, just as we commended her to God, without an effortor a struggle, she breathed her ransomed spirit into the bosom of herLord. What was mortal remained with the mourners, --the spirit was withGod. 

Thus, on the 4th of July, 1860, after the toils and struggles of life, protracted to a period of seventy-eight years, and a few weeks; mybeloved, and venerated mother "fell asleep. " She rests in the cemeteryabout a mile from the city, by the side of her loved Eliza. Richand poor united to pay the last tribute of affection and esteem; andmingled their tears at the place of her repose. A few weeks later, on a Monday evening, in the New-Street Chapel, the Rev. ThomasNightingale, to a crowded audience, improved the event, not of herdeath, but of her entrance into heaven, from the words, "And itcame to pass, as they still went on, and talked, that, behold, thereappeared a chariot of fire, and horses of fire, and parted them bothasunder; and Elijah went up by a whirlwind into heaven. "

 "HER CHILDREN ARISE UP AND CALL HER BLESSED. "--Prov. Xxxi. 28. 

 Shall we weep or repine at the thought she is gone? Shall we mourn for the spirit at rest? No! her children, though many, united as one Now arise to acknowledge her blest. 

 Not the tongue of the world, or the praises that dwelt On the lips of report are the test; In the home, where the warmth of her presence was felt, Must you ask if a mother was blest. 

 We arise! we arise in the name of the Lord, Who gave us the good we possess'd; With one heart, and one voice, we unite to record Our thanks for the mother He bless'd. 

 Not a joy but was sweeter when she was in sight, Not a grief but we hid in her breast; And she seemed unto us as an Angel of Light: So happy the circle she blest. 

 We remember her counsels, oft mingled with tears; The truths by example express'd; An inheritance rich, is the wealth of her prayers: Is the child or the mother more blest?

 By the light in her eye, and the smile on her face; By her "song in the night, " when opprest! By a thousand impressions we love to retrace: We know that our mother was blest. 

 But the soul of her joy, and its fulness she drew From the source of all others the best; For she trusted in Him, who is faithful and true, She delighted in God, and was blest. 

 Then, why should we weep at the thought she is gone, Since we know she hath enter'd her rest? No! her children will follow, united as one, In her steps to the home of the blest, J. L. 

XXIV. 

PLEASANT MEMORIES. 

 "THE MEMORY OF THE JUST IS BLESSED, " Prov. X. 7. 

Although the preceding pages will enable the reader to form a generalestimate of Mrs. Lyth's religious character, the writer deems itnecessary to add a concluding sketch, partly for the purpose ofrecording some particulars which could not so well be introducedelsewhere, and partly to supplement his own remarks, which mightotherwise be liable to the charge of partiality, with a selection fromthe numerous testimonies with which he has been favoured by Ministersand other friends. 

In person Mrs. Lyth was of middle stature, slender, and, beforeyears had subdued her physical strength, straight as an arrow. Hercomplexion was fair, and her features, rather pointed than full, wereregular and well formed. The eyes, of light blue, generally wore acalm and gentle expression, but kindled with an unearthly light whenconversing on divine subjects. Then her whole soul flashed in hercountenance, and her features, lit as with sunshine, indicated howdeeply her spirit had drank of that "stream which maketh glad the cityof God. " Her hair, which in youth was of a rich auburn, turned grey atthe early age of thirty, and at length its silvery hue was supersededby a snowy white, which gave additional impressiveness to acountenance upon which happiness, purity and peace sat continuallyenthroned. Her dress, the perfection of neatness, was modelledafter the most approved style of the Society of Friends, not as now, modified and robbed of its interest by all-powerful fashion, but as itexisted in its original simplicity fifty years ago. Though not giftedwith any remarkable powers of mind, she possessed a sound and vigorousunderstanding, which however, was rather quick than penetrating. Thisshe improved by a considerable amount of good reading. Her choiceof books was in harmony with the set purpose of her life, and seldomsurpassed the bounds of religious literature: for while she had nosympathy with those little minds that, on the pretence of greaterreligiousness despise human knowledge, she steadily kept in view therule she adopted in early life, "never to trifle with any book withwhich she had no immediate concern, " and consequently preferred thosewhich, while they informed the judgment, were also calculated toimpress the heart. Within this limit her reading was widely varied. Tothe better class of biography, she added poetry, history, philosophy, and divinity. Her favourite poet was Young, from whom she often quotedat length; her favourite divine, Wesley; and her favourite book theBible. This last she not uncommonly read upon her knees, seeking theassistance and blessing of the Holy Spirit, who is the best expositorof His own word. Her knowledge of scripture was remarkable, and herapprehension of its great doctrines distinct and clear as noonday. "With increasing ardour she continued to dig in this inexhaustiblemine of truth, until the close of life, and within the last three orfour years waded through the greater part of Henry's Commentary. Her study of divine truth was mainly prosecuted with a view to itsexperience and practice; and hence her piety assumed that rare andexalted character which develops itself evenly in all the variousrelations of life. In her, the image of Christ was not, as in toomany instances, caricatured; but presented in its just and fairproportions; and, as a necessary consequence, Impressed all who camein contact with her with the certain conviction of its genuineness. Zealous in the church, she was equally active and faithful at home. _Little_ duties were not neglected on the pretext of performing othersof a higher character. By a strict economy of time, which she prizedmore than, gold; by early rising, method and punctuality, she foundtime for everything; so that her house was a pattern of neatness andorder, and her family was as well provided for as though she had nopublic duties to perform. "She looked well to her own household, andate not the bread of idleness. " Naturally of an active temper of mind, she was always employed; and, from an habitual consciousness of herresponsibility, well employed. Her hand was ready at every turn, and knew nothing of that silly squeamishness which leads a woman tosuppose that she demeans herself by meddling with household affairs. Fond of singing, and possessed of a good voice, she lightened herdaily toil with the voice of song, and discharged the humblest dutiesas a sacrifice well-pleasing to God. Her conscientiousness in littlethings was remarkable. She was a determined enemy of all trifling andtittle-tattle, as not only unbecoming the Christian character, butdestructive of religious feeling; and the consciousness of havinguttered a useless word, or engaged in unprofitable conversation, always occasioned her pain. Among other peculiarities she displayeda singular aversion to debt, and if by any means such an obligation, however small, was incurred, she never rested until it was discharged. The writer remembers on one occasion walking a couple of miles to paythe trifling sum of sixpence to a party, who was at the time indebtedto his father as many pounds. Notwithstanding the severity withwhich she judged her own actions, her piety was entirely free fromasceticism;--it was always cheerful, recollected, and heroic; andin her intercourse with others, characterised by great humility andchristian courtesy. In prayer she was simple and earnest, zealouswithout passion, and often particularized in the devotions of thefamily the special cases of its individual members. Her's was the cryof a child to its father, the appeal for help, that felt confident ofsuccess. Her prayers, which were offered continually, day and night, might truly be said to be mighty; and her children, even when distantfrom her, have often felt conscious that her intercessions were goingup on their behalf. But they were urged for many, --for all; and inparticular for the prosperity of Zion, and the ministers of divinetruth. The Rev. John Hartley writes, "I feel that in your mother'sremoval I suffer loss. I have seldom been more affected than when shetold me, on the last occasion of my seeing her, that not a day passedwithout her pleading with God for me. Who am I, I thought, that thissaint of God should thus remember me in her prayers?" Her zeal inthe cause of God was constant, patient and persevering; not as wesometimes see, now bursting into a furious blaze, and then dying away;it burnt with a bright and steady flame, --being fed by the secretsupplies she obtained through constant communion with God. Althoughready for every good work, and glad to take her share in the meremachinery of the Christian church, her chief aim was the salvation ofsouls. This she never lost sight of, and generally, when collectingfor Missions or other benevolent objects, availed herself of theopportunity of warning, exhortation, or prayer. One who frequentlyaccompanied her on such excursions says, "We called at every house inthe district. Some of the people were exceedingly poor. At one doorI said, 'Mrs. Lyth, you will not beg here. ' Her reply was, 'It is myduty to ask them, if they give us but a penny, it will not lose itsreward. ' In another case the people were Roman Catholics; she at onceexhorted them to come direct to Christ, and not allow the priest tocome betwixt them and the Savior. In a third, where a member of thefamily was sick, we went in, and Mrs. Lyth prayed. " Another writes, "Ifirst became acquainted with her about 1823, and have always found herthe same consistent character. She assisted me in the formation of myclass in Acomb. Her visits to us were always welcome and profitable. Her eye was single. She had light in her own soul, and it shone inevery society in which she was cast. Many a round we have had togetheramong the villagers, to beseech them to be reconciled to God. In thiswork she went, perhaps, even beyond her strength, that sinnersmight be brought into the fold of Christ. She rejoiced to lend ahelping-hand to the seeking soul; warning the unruly, comforting thefeeble-minded, and encouraging believers to seek after a full devotionof heart and life to the service of Christ. Her faithfulness in theadministration of reproof was exemplary; and though naturally of aretiring disposition, in the defence of truth and the cause of herMaster she became bold and fearless. " Her ready pen, for to thelast she wrote a clear and steady hand, was often in requisition toadminister counsel, encouragement, or consolation. Whatever might besaid of her "bodily presence, " her "letters were powerful, " and, asthey were accompanied with believing effectual prayer, seldom failedto produce a happy effect. The writer much regrets that the prescribedlimits of this volume precludes the introduction of extracts from thevoluminous correspondence placed in his hands. It is sufficient to sayhere that her letters strikingly exhibit her oneness of purpose. In all without exception, the one thing is prominent, and althoughordinary topics are not overlooked, they are invariably turned to goodaccount, and made the basis of apposite and profitable reflection. Oneof her correspondents observes: "Her letters were always refreshing tome, and brought my mind in immediate contact with one who lived in thespirit of prayer and general devotedness. I never knew one, so far asmy observation went, who more constantly exhibited a oneness of aimto glorify God, and promote the welfare of those with whom she camein contact. Some might object, some might smile, but there was a holyforce of spiritual life in her, which could not be concealed, andwhich made itself felt everywhere My dear friend was as attentive tofamily duties as though the church had no claim upon her; and I haveoften dwelt upon her character when far, far away. I have heard herregret that she did not more fully manifest tender affection, whenher heart was fall of love. I need not say how rousing I found herremarks, uttered in an humble gentle tone and manner; and how oftenI have been taken into her closet to pray for many, particularly herdistant son. " Another says: "I have been perusing some of her letters, which I value above gold. Through them all, breathes the same spiritof ardent love to Jesus, with a deep sense of her own helplessness. Her character was that of an humble soul constantly living tinderthe rays of the Sun of righteousness. I have often heard her expressfears concerning herself, but never doubting the faithfulness ofJesus, in whom she trusted. Since I had the happiness of knowingher--which is more than thirty years--I have seen nothing but what Icould love and admire. I have often been thankful that my lot was castso near her in years gone by. Some of my most hallowed momentshave been when bowed with her at the throne of grace. Under allcircumstances she proved herself my friend; by her strong faith in Godshe encouraged me to trust, where I could not trace, the dispensationsof Providence; often comforted my mind by an appropriate passage ofGod's word, and by her simple and earnest pleadings at the throne ofgrace, led me nearer to the mercy-seat. I owe much to the memory of myprecious friend; and her example has often stimulated me to increaseddiligence. How forcibly did she remind others of the treasures ofreligion! Plain in reproof, she was yet so transparent, that nonecould be offended with her faithful dealings. "

The department of usefulness in which she chiefly delighted, andfor which she was pre-eminently qualified, was, perhaps, theclass-meeting; upon this service she entered at first withconsiderable hesitation, but eventually conducted three large classes, besides forming several others. 

"During my somewhat lengthened ministerial life, " says the Rev. JohnRattenbury, "I have met with no female class-leader, that surpassed, and with but few that equalled, your sainted mother. Her religiouscharacter was beautifully moulded by the Divine Spirit. Tranquil, fervent, spiritual, devoted; she was a pattern to her people: she wassuccessful in attracting people to the Society, and what is ofmore importance, and perhaps more difficult, she was successful inretaining them. Her classes, though large, were well preserved, andseldom did the column for backsliders gain addition from them. Shewas of the earlier school of Methodists, and combined the simplicity, plainness, and fervour of the past age, with the generous and moreaggressive spirit of the present. " One of her members says: "It was myprivilege to be a member of her class about eight years. She was bothdeep and clear in her own experience, and never failed to impress uponher members the necessity of daily growth in grace; and was especiallyfaithful, in warning them against worldliness and trifling. In herwe had a pattern worthy of imitation. " As respects the improvement oftime and talent, she was always well employed, and ever had for herobject, the good of others. Another writes: "As a class-leader, Mrs. Lyth appeared to stand almost alone--talented, punctual, humble, and faithful. Once she reproved a young person in my presence forfrequently neglecting the class. When she had finished speaking andthe party was gone, she turned to me and said, 'I think I was faithfulwith Elizabeth, ' 'Yes, 'I replied, 'and rather sharp;' she answered, 'I don't want to have the blood of any of you on my skirt, '"

As to her general Christian character and usefulness, the followingtestimonies by the pens of well-known and esteemed Ministers, will beread with interest. The first is from the venerable Wm. Naylor, andrefers to a period of more than forty years ago. "Though many yearshave passed over since I was stationed in York, the remembrance ofyour esteemed mother is very refreshing to my mind. I place her amongthe most excellent of the pious females of our Society, that it hasbeen my privilege and happiness to number amongst my intimate friends. Her piety was genuine, and her experience rich in the enjoymentof close and constant communion with God. I admired her oneness ofcharacter and disposition--ever the same; in sickness and trial, calmand submissive, confiding in the love of the Saviour; and in health, delighting to do good to the needy and sick; her religion was not theexcitement of momentary feeling, it was the habitual principle andpower of grace. In disposition she was kind and cheerful; but itnever degenerated into levity, and few have more fully exemplified theChristian rule of rejoicing with those that do rejoice, and weepingwith those that weep. "

The Rev. Luke Wiseman writes: "My acquaintance with your mother wasduring the last three years of her life. On arriving in the YorkCircuit, she was among the first who were mentioned to me as pillarsin the Church, and 'Mothers in Israel. ' I heard her name mentionedwith respect by many, who are themselves entitled to the highestregard, sad was thus prepared, before being introduced to her, to meetwith a venerable, and lively disciple of our common Lord. Nor was Idisappointed. What she was in her years of maturity others canrelate. In her days of bodily decline, and feebleness, I saw in her abeautiful specimen of a child of grace nearing the heavenly home. Herappearance, worn, and somewhat shrivelled, yet retained marked tracesof uncommon energy. Her features sharpened by age, equally indicatedpenetration, and benevolence. Her voice was still good, her utteranceremarkably distinct, and when she spoke of the things of Christ, itwas with no subdued or half-abashed tone, but with the same full, clear, cheerful voice. It was impossible to doubt that her heart wasfull of heavenly treasure from her very manner of speaking of divinethings, --easy, energetic, unforced, graceful. I am afraid, that beingso far below her in divine knowledge, my visits may have been of butlittle benefit to her: but however this may be, they were of greatbenefit to myself. She shewed an ardent love for the cause of Christ, for His ministers, and for all His people. She appeared to feel beinglaid aside from active work, and amongst her many inquiries about theSociety, she would now and then utter an expression of regret, thatshe was now no more amongst them as formerly. She had a very clearconception of christian doctrine, and I believe an equally clear, andsatisfying joy and peace through being consciously accepted in Christ. I never passed by her house, so far as I can recollect, without somesuch thought as this while going by, 'Within these doors dwells onewhom Jesus loves. '"

For the following we are indebted to the courtesy of the Rev. P. McOwan. 

"Mrs. Lyth was in the decline of life before it was my happinessto form her acquaintance; and consequently I am but ill able to dojustice to her christian character, or to point out the various modesof faithful pitying love, by which she endeavoured in her years ofprime to glorify God, and serve her generation. It was impossible, however, to visit her, even in her invalid state, without beingimpressed with her mental power, eminent piety, and scripturalintelligence; without discerning that she was a 'mother in Israel. 'In my own case, these impressions were so deep, that, though in myintercourse with her I had to sustain the Pastor's part, I often, from choice, occupied the seat of the learner. Her favourite themes ofdiscourse, were the love of God in Christ Jesus, the grace and wisdomof Divine Providence, the great and precious promises, christianexperience, missions to the heathen, and the revival and extensionof the work of God in the earth. I frequently proposed questions toelicit her views on these and kindred topics; and when, drawn out inconversation, she often gave utterance to weighty and discriminatingthoughts, judicious counsels, animating recollections of the past, andbright anticipations of the future. Intercourse with her was trulya means of grace; and I generally left her glorifying God on heraccount, and longing for a double portion of her spirit. 

"Mrs. Lyth, like all who excel in piety, was a diligent and devoutstudent of the book of God. She not only read the scriptures, but shesearched them; she pondered their import, and meditated in them dayand night. The result was, the word of God dwelt in her richly, inall wisdom, so that she was able to teach and admonish others withsingular propriety and power. Her accurate and extensive acquaintancewith the scriptures gave a richness and impressiveness to herconversation, which awed the trifler, edified the thoughtful, and shedlight and comfort upon the minds of anxious inquirers. Many of her ownsex resorted to her for counsel as to an oracle; and as she generallyjoined in prayer with her inquiring friends, her advices and cautionsbecame in numerous instances, as a "nail fastened in a sure place. "Her love for the Sanctuary amounted almost to a passion. In herinner life it stood identified with vivid views of saving truth;rich manifestations of Divine love, and transforming effusions ofsanctifying grace. When in health, neither weather, nor company, norany surmountable obstacle, could keep her at home, when it was openfor worship; and when enfeebled by age, she sought to improve eachgleam of sunshine, and each interval of returning strength, by payinganother visit to the sacred shrine, as if she thought each one mightbe the last. 

"Having yielded up her son at the call of the Church to the perils ofa Missionary life, in a land of cannibals, she never revoked thegift, neither grudged the sacrifice. Her maternal yearnings were oftenexcited by the narration of his sufferings and privations; but theywere never suffered to rise in mutinous rebellion against the Divinewill. For nearly twenty-two years she not only submitted to hisabsence with uncomplaining meekness, but she abounded in thanksgivingson his account, and gloried in the sacrificial services he was enabledto render to the cause of the Redeemer, in the high places of thefield. 

"Mrs. Lyth's religion made her habitually happy. Fully assured ofher acceptance in the Beloved, walking daily in the liberty of thechildren of God, and exercising herself to have always a consciencevoid of offence, the smile of contentment rested on her countenance;benignity beamed in her eye; the law of love regulated her speech, while kindness, courtesy, and a cheerful urbanity, marked the whole ofher deportment. In her dress she was simple, neat and economical. In her habits, she was a pattern of order, early rising, diligence, promptitude, and punctuality. Possessing inward peace, she was calm, self-possessed, firm, and full of trust in the providence of God. Doing one thing at a time, and always intent upon doing that thingwell, she accomplished a great amount of holy service; was seldom ina hurry, and always in time at the Sanctuary and Class-meeting. Withsuch traits of character, and modes of action, it will not excitesurprise that she became a centre of religions influence in thecommunity to which she belonged. The sick sought her prayers, personsin spiritual distress, and temporal perplexity, applied to her foradvice; the poor appealed to her for relief, the young listened to hercounsels, and those who were intent upon obtaining a full salvation, coveted her friendship, strove to imbibe her spirit, and to imitateher example. 

"In age and feebleness extreme, she was divinely supported byher Saviour's might; and was cheered by His love, and the hope ofbeholding His glory. No murmuring word escaped her lips, no sign ofimpatience was visible in her appearance and manner; but expressionsof gratitude, praise, and thanksgiving, flowed from her tongue, andindicated the peacefulness and purity of her mind. On her death-bedI found her calmly resting on the merits of her Redeemer. Hercountenance was full of interest, a placid smile rested upon it, andbut for her laborious breathing, and interrupted utterances, hopesmight have been entertained that she would yet be spared, she washerself hopefully waiting the hour of her dismissal; yet there wasone earthly wish, which she breathed out in meek submission to herheavenly Father, not yet gratified; that was, that she might once moresee her Missionary son, before she quitted the clay tabernacle. Prayerwas offered, and among other petitions it was urged, that her maternaldesire might be granted. She lingered on the border land, till hearrived, and soon after having kissed _him_, and blessed all present, she fell asleep in Jesus; the last accents of her lips being those ofpraise, adoration, and filial confidence. "

We conclude these notices by the following kind words of condolencefrom the Rev. M. C. Taylor. 

"I cannot resist saying how much I was affected by the tidings of thepassing away of your sainted mother; not that I could mourn for_her_, but I felt deprived and bereaved of one of the most lovely andtouching pictures of grace I have ever seen; and I mourned for myself. Her name and memory are an inheritance indeed. To have known her willbe an honour and joy for ever, --to have belonged to her is more thangreat riches. Hundreds are this week glorifying God in her. "

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